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@TheAvatarState Wow that's exciting. Nice to know I won't be the only one ascending to mystical realms (if they can possibly get more mystical than this one.) Now you mention it I've been seeing signs everywhere out in the world and I keep meeting people who are into spirituality. Let's strap ourselves in and get ready then. I'm trying desperately to get my girlfriend on the path as I don't want her to get left behind. I think she's slowly getting it...

@TheAvatarState You're not wrong there...it is rising isn't it? You feel it too... I'm going to let in build and build during my trip and who knows where it will lead

@TheAvatarState I can definately tell you've explored the recesses of your psyche and the cosmos. I'll be putting on my psychonaut helmet and joining you shortly. Reporting for duty sir! Yeah a Christmas trip seems perfect for me. Shall I go to midnight mass? Haha screw that. What better occasion is there to catch a glimpse of God though?

@TheAvatarState Ah you're the best dude. You and others on here will be the deciding element in the quality of my trip. What a great forum. I feel like I have a team of qualified trippers backing me

@TheAvatarState Great advice buddy. I've stopped doing all of my research now. Awesome to be aware that the come up is the most important stage. In terms of my intentions, should I just forget about these during the come up stage and meditate/relax like you say? I mean like, any questions I have etc.. @luckieluuke So it was kind of like you had a direct insight into the arbitrary nature of language and this triggered a mystical experience for you? Sweet. I'm so frigging excited right now. Christmas eve can't come fast enough. I'll be sure to not focus on expectations, thanks

@pluto Well there seems to be some division about these thought loops. Some say they aren't related to ego death, other suggest they are. Only one way to find out eh? I'll update you on Christmas Day as I'll be tripping on Christmas Eve @Bluebird Thanks my friend, for all the help. Can't wait to debrief you all

@Joseph Maynor Yeah this is what I was getting at - as great as personal development is there definitely seems to be a healthy balance of engaging in it and just living your life. I'm definitely too far over towards neglecting my life. The issue for me is, a bit like levelling up in a computer game you're always getting a sense of progression. Perhaps the problem is getting lost in too much theory like Leo often warns against. You collect theory and then you never test it out in the real world. This is a powerful piece of advice. I'm clinging at the moment, but at least I'm aware of it. I have a feeling I'll know when the time is right to move forward. One day I'll wake up and think, 'ok, I'm not watching one more goddamn Rupert Spira video and I'm taking a break from reading. It's time to make some moves. Right now I'm compelled to keep learning as certain aspects of my inner game are still truly terrible, namely making money and forming relationships

Has anyone else experienced this? There are so many practices, self enquiry, shadow work, life-purpose, contemplation, meditation, reading, do-nothing and about a hundred more. I just don't want to go to bed as I'm so juiced for this stuff and if gives me such a sense of progression. My whole life is now just a series of practices. I've seen the Ox's footprints and now I'm so keen to catch a glimpse that it's become an obsession. I never feel like I've got enough done during the day so I'm staying up until 3am and only going to sleep when I'm exhausted. I then wake up too early and want to jump straight on it again. It's not really that I can't sleep, it's that I don't want to sleep, not while that Ox is roaming around up in the mountains. I swear I can hear him snorting and the sound of his hooves on the rocks. Maybe this next Rupert Spira or Adyashanti video will be the one...or maybe I should meditate some more...argghh lol. It's not just about chasing enlightenment though, it's also about the thrill of expanding your intellect or raising your consciousness.

Hey guys, I have a date set for the trip and I've started a journal here:

Ok so my LSD arrived today and I'm planning to do it next month. I only took LSD once before, many years ago, in sugar cube form and then wandered around the countryside feeling blissed out and at one with everything, but it didn't feel overly strong, may have even been a placebo. I've only been meditating solidly for about 3 months and haven't done really any self enquiry. However I'm quite a well rounded individual and have been studying Buddhism for about 10 years and non-duality for about a year and a half. I have a solid grasp on my true nature as being awareness, although I haven't had any mystical experiences yet. I've watched all of Leo's videos, taken notes on all of them and do personal development throughout my day and nothing else. This is also includes shadow work. I also do a lot reading, have digested Ralston, Byron Katie, Tolle, some Om Swami. I understand 'being cognition,' the relative nature of reality and can reside in no-self when I wish by letting go of all concepts and ideologies, although not for long periods, One or two people on the forum have expressed concern for my welfare as it's my first time tripping and I haven't done much of the actual solid, spiritual practices, although I know all the theory (have theory coming out of my ears) and I feel I can do a good job of residing in being for the experience and getting some good insights. I've been advised to let go of all concepts, which I understand, but then again, if I want to ask questions, some concepts will be needed right? But the core of my question is, am I jumping in too deep here? The LSD is 150ug and 98% pure. The guy I bought it off recommended I take 115ug my first time but I'm inclined to go for the 150. It might also be worth mentioning that I'm a veteran weed smoker (although given up now) and I've had many intense experiences on that, which had started to induce panic attacks towards the end of my habit. Therefore I feel I can keep my head together during the trip. I've been told the trip will last 12 hours. I'll be renting out a hotel room to take it. The way I see it is...I'll be fine as long as I have 'mystical cat' to guide me

Hey guys, I have a date set for the trip and I've started a journal here:

Well I'm not working at present so I wouldn't have the money to pay for the damages. If only I could trip in a big room full of plastic brick structures, so if I become God the destroyer I can just smite everything and not worry. Lol sob in the corner, that's funny. I think I'll be ok dude. I am taking a valium with me. Don't have anyone to come and sit with me. I sacked all of my friends for various reasons. My girlfriend would also just freak out herself too much and make it worse I'm sure. It's ok, I'll solo this bitch.

@ZZZZ Weird I thought I had pm'd you. I'll try again

@ZZZZ Yeah he says they're 150ug per blotter. The ad says: "specialized in offering the best LSD in Europe. I produce and use the LSD myself. I have more than 8 years of experience with LSD and i always test the quality myself after producing a new batch. And as you can read in more than 6000 reviews with 5/5 Star ratings: Everyone loves the quality. A professional Lab Test has been done for the current batch. Result: LSD, Purity: 99.8 %" He seems pretty legit and from looking online it seems like 150ug blotters do exist. You saying they're pretty rare though? I guess I'll just have to take the plunge and see what happens. I bought 4 for £30, so quite a good deal I think.

Ok guys, next one up, music for self enquiry? Is this relevant? I'm pretty sure it's best to have silence for meditation, but what about self enquiry? Same deal?

Is it better to have silence? I just find that music really gets me into the zone and inspires me. I can't imagine Ralston contemplating 'Awareness' to the sounds of Carbon Based Lifeforms somehow, but what about us mortals? Does anyone use music for contemplation?

@Strikr That certainly is epic. Playlisted

@ZZZZ Ok, do not disturb sign and check volume - noted I did think I might visit the park opposite, but it will be cold and dark so maybe not. Ah screw it I'll just wait until next month and drop the 150ug, I won't mess with the 75. I'd rather my first experience is truly awesome and I confident enough after having so much great advice from yourself and others on here. Oh the guy I bought them off says they're 98.5% pure and last for 12hrs a pop. He makes them himself. So they should be nice You're planning a trip now? Sweet dude! How much will you take? Where will you do it, at home?

This is very interesting. That's a really counter intuitive way of looking at the trip. A lot of people would say the trip is creating illusions but actually you're saying that the normal dream state is the illusion. I love that. It will come in very handy during my trip I think In my everyday life I'm very chilled and can always view any negative emotions as fabrications of my mind, so I have a feeling I'm going to be able to accept everything that happens during the trip without fighting it. But yeah there is a little anxiety, like a big 'what-if' you know? What if my ego can't handle it? Because after all if I forget I'm tripping then I'm going to be confused and perhaps think something scary is actually happening. In my normal state I can rationalise things away but in an altered state I'll be in foreign territory. But hey enough over-thinking it right? I'm gonna visualise the perfect trip and that's what I'll get, even if it's a bit intense and scary. I did get a bit freaked out as I read another trip report from a guy who did 600ug, thought he was God and trashed his room. Was kind of worried I might trash the hotel room, but I doubt it on my dose right? Plus I've done a load of personal development, research on LSD, setting my intention etc. That's great man! Have at it all this talk is making want to trip even sooner. I'm considering dropping 75ug on Christmas Day as the house will be almost empty. Just as a 'tester' dose you know, to get a feel for it.

@Strikr Haha I LOVE that tune! The lyrics are so cool and the actual tune itself sounds amazing. That's going straight onto my tripping playlist

@Serotoninluv That's really helpful, thank you. I am actually gonna take some valium with me in case of emergencies. I'll use it as a last resort though and try dancing, singing or doing some artwork first though like you suggested. I loved that story about the retreat. I can just imagine that women and how you felt when you saw her. It was almost like the earth goddess herself arrive to comfort you awesome. I'm gonna picture her in my head during my trip if I have to.

@EternalForest Well I just had a quick listen and I think for me it might be a better album for something like visualisation as the tunes are very powerful and conjure up a lot of imagery for me. For contemplation it might distract me a little from my object of contemplation as it's less like 'background' music that just sets a tone. It would 'lead' my mind a bit too much if you get me. But it is a fantastic list of tunes and I will certainly add it to my playlist. This is all assumption of course as I haven't actually given it a shot for contemplation. I'll let you know if I wrong

@Bluebird Holy shit, that sounds insane. I'm a little worried about hiring out a hotel room now. Even on 150ug what if I decide I'm God and trash the place? Could this be possible on this amount? Part of me wants to just go out and take it in the countryside now. 600ug is a huge dose. Was it your first time doing that much? Damn if only I had a trip sitter.

Haha if only I could set up a live 'tripping cam' or something. In the future there might be some kind of technology which allows us to patch ourselves into someone else's relative experience. if we're all one consciousness then it could be possible. Especially If Leo's dream of school kids being made to snort 30mg of 5-MeO DMT before they leave school gets realised haha. Sure thing I'll get a journal started within the next few days. I have loads of notes to upload already Do you not take psychedelics anymore then yourself?

@ZZZZ Dude thank you so much for giving me all that advice. I'll add it all to my 'things to watch out for whilst tripping' list, which is nice and juicy now. Disassociation with my body. Holy crap really? I'm so excited. I hope I don't forget I'm tripping when that happens. Does it happen often that people forget they're tripping? Or Maybe that's a good thing so you don't always rationalise things away. As for subtle addictions, I really hope I make some progress here. I'm pissed off with my coffee consumption and my addiction to personal development theory as opposed to the actual practices, plus I stay up waaaay to late all the time as I always want to keep on going with it. An appreciation of the mundane...cool. That's something Tolle has helped me with as he talks about coming into your sense perceptions more, relishing the touch of things etc. I often feel a sense of awe at the mundane already so I'm hoping that just gets magnified. I also forget to feel it too so hopefully it will stay with me more. Ah yes, so easy to forget this isn't it? So glad you reminded me as I would definitely have done something like that. Even now I'm getting a sense that I understand the illusory nature of the ego but hey look, there's an 'I' that understands it? Sneeky ego right? We have to remove every single one of it's hiding places. Man I'm lucky to have found the forum. You guys are like a bunch of Don Juans guiding me with my psychedelic use.