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Thank you for your reply. Shall I just let it be and let it accummulate, or do you have anything I can look for? <3

Thank you both! I love both answers! I also agree that this to be attained need a deep and tranquil state of mind, feeling like someone laid a warm wet cloth over "the brain". Feeling of compressed material pushing your brain into a more denser form as it "sinks". What I`ve obviously done wrong, which is funny, is that I`ve stared that "physical" candle down like hell, shifting all my attention to it. Not blinking, not closing my eyes, even if water came running. What I`m skilled at is creating an afterimage, again and again for a long time after I stopped looking at the flame, or my window during the day. It appears spontaniously if I close my eyes right away. Also with lamps, I`ve noticed the afterimage become so clear that it looks real and it changes form. If f.ex it is from a lamp, the image is bright white and murky, then it turns to colours in different internal shapes and becoming very clear, then the outer boarder starts to change forms. This feels like the shape is being shaped after my mind, trying to look for "a shape" that can be identified with something I know. When I close my eyes to sleep and look into "the space" back there, shapes occur too. Like white silk. Poeple walking, images being alive, I also see alot of "monters" appearing, with huge sharp teeth. The last one is very often. So basicly, I stare down the candle for a time, close my eyes and focus on the mental image? Bring it up, hold it and observe the change? I would like to get the first few stages of samatha jhana down, so it can assist me in the vipassana jhana, insight practices I`m doing, by noting undfolding sensations.

I have a question about access concentration, if I may. I am using a candle light, at an arms lenght. This is due to my huge facination of fire in general, and its seducing me naturally. I am using a lot of focused energy to keep all attention on it, and tossing myself back when thoughts arise or my awareness lingers. My questions are; Is it better to use a fixed point in your breath, as this is more "portable"? Or will the flame work just fine in lenght? And is 1 hour of practice enough each day? I can get "pumping sensations" around and in my skull after 1 hour of hard focus. Thanks! :-)

Nice, thanks! I do have a "knot" that always appears right under the shoulder blades on the right of the spine. If I follow it, it leads to a pressure point on the right side of my lungs (makes me aware that I can`t proper take in full air as I breathe), then it goes up to my right shoulder, up the right side of the neck, and then it goes in a fine line around my skull down to my jaws on the left side. This sensation can really take me out of the noting.

Hi, everyone! And thanks for reading the post. I have been going through the first chapter of this book three times now. This book is profound, and I will greatly reccomend it to those who is after the Core of Enlightenment, no bullshit. You`ll also be happy to see that it requires fundemental pillars from different aspects of your effort to support the above ones. After reading the first part, I experienced frustration during the practices, but also it illuminated how insanely sharp and precice your meditations have to be. Like a cross-fire machine gun sharp. Yet there are some questions I can`t find answer to, which is making my meditation confusing. I hope you can answer these :-) In the insight practice "noting", where you "note" all physical sensations and also the thoughts as the sixth, this is not specified to note it with you "inner dialogue" or as in "experience it" and get conscious of it. You have to note f.ex. Pain, sound, and warmth. So one individual experience I could have is, I feel a physical sensation (note as feel), it`s warm (note as warm), then back to my breath (note rising) and then we are to note every sensation of rising we experience, which is a damn lot. Drrrrrrrrrrrr, haha. So, hopefully my problem is clear here. I`ve started with the dialogue but I can`t even speak that fast up there, which tossed me out of focus. And made me trying to focus for the sensations instead of letting them arise naturally. Also, when doing concentration exercices, do I use the "Three Characteristics" when stearing down the object like a rabid dog? Thank you all for reading my post, and have a great day :-)

Getting more conscious also brings responsibility, and humility.

Hello, fellow practitioners. I would like to start this topic about meditation tradition vs meditation on the current felt-aspect rising "now". It seems we have the ones who have One practice. Let`s say you meditate with a tradition, using the same technique every day, no matter what is boiling up in your current emotions. Examples can be; On the same question (who am I?), it can be just sitting down and letting your awareness notice all sensations on a pure physical aspect, it can be to observe your thoughts, and so on. Point is, this is done every day, no matter what your current emotions are. Then we have the "now" meditators, who meditate differently every day. Let`s say you use 3-5 mins sitting down and figuring out what is the obstacle in your current situation. Are you insanely frustrated, then you focus on these emotions. Same with sadness. It can be physical pain that you are experiencing, it can be that your mind is utterly spinning. Point is, you change your meditation every day to your current "probem", or that which is seducing your awareness the most. I have found that doing traditional and repetitive meditation can go unfocused, due to emotions. But also, enhance the goal of f.ex observing the rising of thoughts. I have found that flexible meditation can irritate and make me kinda feel going off track, as data is collected through different aspects every day. I hope there are more in my boat. Do we set sail and follow one specific direction, or lose the sail and let the boat wander to whatever destination? Thanks for joining in! :-)

Hi! I would advice to use this felt-perception, sit down and integrate the emotions that are arising unconditionally. It all leads to the fundament of frustration, a frustration that leads to anger, which comes from loss of control, which again leads to fear. When this emotion arises, it comes with content. Leave the content and go down to the very primitive sensations that rises. And feel your way through. The stories are to seductive, and takes your attention. Maybe it`ll help you with another perspective :-)

Thank you for your time and advice, and have a nice day :-) Also, for future readers of this post; please share your experience, thoughts and insights during your practices. I got this book from Ebay, after seeing it on Leo`s booklist. Which I advice you to get, cause you need knowledge. It gives glasses with various lenses.

Thank you for your replies! I thought it was Kundalini, which was the only phenomena I could find with electricity-like lightening bolts. Last time this happened I flew in my brain channels after a talking monitor (just like the one in the game Halo 1), saw an angel and got told that the hosts inside me could no longer use my body and it will self destruct in 140 minutes. Yup.. Whats so strange is that it seems to move through my meridians, and deeply it does feel like a cleanse. I have to tell you that this is not a low buzz and low jolts. It`s HIGHLY electric and painful. Like I stated; being wired to a Power Grid. So I will read quick about AP, and see if this tells me more. Thanks again :-)

Hi, Everyone! I`m new here to this forum, though have been following Leo`s youtube channel about Enlightenment for a year now. So straight to it. I have experienced 4 times now that in my transition to sleep, or coming out of sleep, I`ve been having this low buzzing through my whole body. Then the instant I get conscious of this, it SHOOTS through in intensity, feeling like I am wired to a power grid and being electrecuted by white light of electricity. It is so intense that I can "scream" in my mental dialogue as it moves through different parts of my body, from my head, to my left arm, my legs, then my neck, and so on. One time I was afraid that my brain would explode. I`ve experienced I am getting "lucid content" as this is happening, but it can get so intense that I have to stop it, and then I wake up sitting there with a complete tingling body and pretty big eyes. Anyone who can illuminate me here? Thank you :-)

Thank you so much for taking your curiosity over here, guys. I really love how you explain me this exercise Leo, which motivates. Thank you. In the book, he say that noting 1-5 times pr second is a start, and that is not actually fast! I like your approach better for obvious reasons. I thought I had not built up enough concentration yet, and that`s why i failed. Though we all could need more. He explains that the noting should be on cutting edge, constantly pushing it faster and more precise. He continues to emphasize that to "see" reality you have to be able to ping-pong this insanely fast, like a rainshower. Cause the true Truth flickers, in and out of existence, from sensation, consciousness, noting, mental image. And this happens at a machinegun`s speed, and this is what we are training our minds to acually percieve. Can you please give me some thoughts on this? And the three "notes" you use? I know the way to awakening is through ridiculous many ways, and we`ve have to master patience to find practices that`s fitting for you. I find asking "Who am I?" very powerful through contemplation, since the ego here is so visibe through many many years of pain and downwards self talk, so clearly I can sense it`s not truly me. This book is saturated, for those who would like to "get it" through a western mind.