Mango

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  • Birthday 10/26/1991

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  1. How can I use my faminine energy to discover my passion or find my life purpose.?
  2. Too deep stuff... I cannot even understand what it is ... I am trying to read it twice and thrice but then i realize that it's not about reading it right but about the meaning of it. But this way won't I go mad?? I feel it is madness. All of it. It scares me. But ur videos are really inspiring too and makes me want to give my 100% towards this journey.
  3. I generally think all the videos and talks of Leo are very inspiring and meaningful. I follow him for past three years and they helped me through some very dark times. Right now I see this forum especially the relationships one... Makes me feel scared somehow. Like are people on this platform too deep into self-actualization?? Some discussions sound very alien to me.. like there was someone writing they had sex with God? Like wtf is that?? If I go too deep into the practices, this is how it is going to be?? I am not judging any on it but would like to know what is it all about. Really curious!!
  4. Exactly what was on my mind!! Some times you need to hear it from a third person to realize it. I do sometimes feel that I am trying to find a settlement and stability in life, and I also know that only I can give all that to myself rather than others. I know it firmly that I was in a place to give in my first love. I still feel that way even after the relationship has ended. Thanks!!
  5. What is true love? How do i know if someone loves me truly and how to I know if I love someone truly?? Is it an intense feel that you know or is it a mild soothing feeling that you have with parents? How can I grow love and commitment towards a man if I know that he truly loves me? Does it even exist?? I have been in a serious relationship before but it didn't workout. Now I am dating a guy who is a very decent guy and who seems to be emotionally attached to me and proposed me for a marriage. I certainly have feelings for him and see a future with him but I do not know if I love him because it is not that intense and charismatic as my first love rather a soothing and comfortable feeling that I have. Is it love ??
  6. I know I love him very dearly because I have never ever felt this way for any other man and I feel that I can do anything for him. I also feel that I can't have this innocent feeling for any other person. With any other person it would be a logical decision which I will be taking.he is my first love and I never thought before I decided to be with him. I am unable to let go of this innocence. I feel like this should be it. I never ever lied to him and was very honest with him for four year then this happened. I am still unable to figure out why this happened and correct myself. Where did we go wrong in a relationship. I am OK with leting him go as far as we both evolve from it and be happy. I feel like when u love someone they become a part of you whether or not they are with you.
  7. How can I make a journal. What all can I enter it in daily, monthly and yearly basis for maximum productivity in aspects of career relationships and spiritual journey? Thank you :-)
  8. Hello I am 24 F from India .. I seeing all the videos really instilled a lot of positive changes in me and one of the profound changes I made is to realize my passion in life. I am an engineer by profession but that never really interested me. I put a lot of thought into finding my passion and discovered that my love for music is very deep and that I want to take up music as my profession. But then it will take me minimum of 4 years to reach a platform where i can compete and make good music. I started learning few months back and my teacher says that I have good talent and that I need to put in extra effort and I would definitely have chance of succeeding. On the other hand I want to do an MBA which can give me a good financial security. Now I am at a point where I can choose passion that I discovered very late and which may or may not have a fair chance of success or I can keep my passion as a thing that I want to master in life like a hobby and make arrangements for permanent financial security by doing an MBA. Which will give me happiness in long term?
  9. I am a 24year old female from India. I was in a serious relationship with him for the past 4 years. After my bachelors in degree we decided that I go to the US and pursue masters while he prepared for the public service commission in India. We decided that we would settle in life and then get married. I thought we were invincible. I love him very dearly. I was emotionally attached to him. But then when I went to US I met this guy who was totally into me and he literally forced me to date him inspite of me continuously turning him away saying that I was committed. But then he started showering love on me which I wasn't able to push him away anymore. I didn't plan on this but I ended up having an affair with him though I never had feelings for him. Then I realized how horrible it was to cheat on a man who was thinking of me.. I confessed it to my boyfriend and asked him to forgive me. I was terribly sorry for my actions. He was totally broken and shattered. He started packing my Watsapp and gmail and wanted to learn what happened. My mom knew something was not correct and so called him up to find out. He ended up telling everything to her. Coming from a very conservative society it was a huge sin. They were very upset for my actions. He called me one day and cried to me. I decided to go back to India and make things right. I discontinued my masters and returned back home. But things are still the same. I was feeling very bad about myself and that's when I came across actualized.org. thanks to Leo i could get to the depth of how things could go wrong all of a sudden. I was not able to believe that I could have done something so bad to the loving relationship. I couldn't accept that I had a bad character. That's when I started to analyze the relationship right from the beginning.. I realized that I had given my boyfriend my strings and he was the one pulling things in the relationship. He was not financially stable because his parents would not give him enough pocket money so I was the one paying for every date or every vacation we took together. Even when I was in US I was helping him study by giving him money every month. I was the one who was supporting him financially. He started to behave as if I owed him that. He was least bit greatful for the pain I took to help him out. I was working on many part timesand curing down on myself to make it happen. This was a shock to me when I realized it. I never even thought that it bothered me when he wouldn't appreciate anything I tried to do. I know seeking for validation is very wrong. But is it really wrong for me to seek love? What do you guys think about what has happened? I want to know properly about why and how and when things started to go wrong. I feel like I still love him. He does not respect me anymore and I know we can never again have the relationship of equals. Even now he thinks i am solely responsible for everything that went wrong in the relationship. Now we decided to part ways for few years and then see what happens.I am meeting him in two days. Please help me know about the flaws of me and him so that I make him also realize this and we could become better people. I want to help him also realize that and help him become a better person. I dont want this beautiful relationship which we shared to be a scar in his heart forever and make him never trust anyone. Am I really at wrong? Can I forgive myself and move on? Can I boldly tell this to the next man I am going to have in my life that I cheated on a man who loved me for four years? Please help guys. Leo I could atleast think this because of you. Orelse I would be a depressed soul who can never forgive herself. What are my charecter flaws? So please help me what I should be doing at this point. Thank you!