TiaKrystine

I want to share my experience to know if anyone else has felt the same. A few weeks ago I sat down to have a meditation session. This time I went with an intention to fully surrender. But i could only last a few minutes. The pain from the front of my head felt like a thin needle was placed in the middle of my forehead and a sledgehammer was tapping this needle deeper and deeper. I try to withstand this pain for just a little longer. I felt the pain slowly spread to the top of my head as heat began to beamed from my scalp. I freaked out. I remember stumbling to find my bed to lay down because I was so dizzy. When I laid down I was so fearful to close my eye and even go to sleep because I've never had a headache like this before. I couldn't even compare this feeling to a headache. I felt so confused how i was brought to this. I swore off meditation since then (yes I know this is my ego). But honestly it was very scary for me and I'm not sure how to handle this if it were to happen again. Then a few days ago I can't really recall what my mind was pondering on. But I had a very needed change of perspective and a "aha" moment. As I began to dig deeper into this new perspective I felt the needle being placed and a stinging controlled pressure. But once I started noticing I was getting this pressure. My moment felt kinda interrupted. The pain didn't spread like it did before and I felt like I missed something. The pain from my first experience lasted a few days I felt so overwhelmed I believed I even cried. But after this pain wore off I felt airless and so peaceful. It was wonderful. But after the second experience I felt like I am still questioning and now it's annoying that I can't remember the insight I felt like I was coming across. The heat from the first time felt like my brain was demolished ME. Where as I feel the second experience where the heat was absent I felt stuck. I just want to know if anyone else have felt physical reactions while doing self inquiry work??????

I had the same feeling

@Argue @Henri You both recommend for me to improve my breathing. I realized when I sit and meditate. My breathes are the same as how I would normally go about my day. Which is inhaling and exhaling through my nose. Maybe this could have been the cause for me overheating and feeling dizzy. Hmmm .. Thank you for the tips!!

@abrakamowse what kind of changes did you notice after? I noticed during the week I was much more energetic, focused and lusty than usual. Haha I wish i can trigger these feelings more often without the pain.

@A way to Actualize how long did you feel pain was it hours or was it days? I don't remember my pain easing up until the night after. It was torture lol

@Catanio "process of purification" thank you for putting it that way it makes me look at my experience differently.

I've decided to use Leo's open journal opportunity to display a few of my mindful insights. I will share my perspectives on various personal development topics of my interest and I want to have debates with viewers (if you dare). Wishfully, I'm hoping to gain deeper understandings and consider different perspectives from people around the world (if possible). I want to share my thoughts that are not "black and white" thinking and that are completely different from society's average understandings. Hence the name of the title. I love uncovering deeper truths also I enjoy having my thoughts provoked. I hope to offend all and to receive actual creative opinions to ponder on. -Enjoy

Lol .... Hmmm I wouldn't say think about nothing @DizIzMikey. Because that is almost impossible. But you should try to start becoming mindful of the connections that all of your actions have on your life. No matter how big or small they are. When you start becoming aware and content with reality, that's when your highest self becomes reachable. Everyone is free to debate

I fell for wanting to be successful. But I was using societies values to guide me instead of finding my own. I left home right after high school at the age of 17 because I held a belief that teens should leave the home at the age of 18 or they won't ever be able to gain their independace. Which I later realized it was my ego talking me into this. Because I was unhappy with my living situation at the time. I left. I went out of state. Far enough to make sure no one would want to get on a plane any time soon to see me. And when I landed I immediately felt like I had everything to prove. I got my own apartment and I held decent jobs, enough to pay my bills. And I felt so proud. I even thought "how are adults in their 20's and 30's even 40's fucking up so much in life and I got all of my shit together and I can't even buy a drink? It's because they are all lazy hahaha". Of course you know life quickly slapped me in the face after that. But I learned investing your energy into values that are not yours will only lead you over a cliff

Insight: In order to generate endless success, you must first master your emotions. Thoughts: