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I haven’t been on this forum for about 6 months or so. But I always feel like a lot of people here are going the same journey together. So when I have a problem, this is the first place I thought about sharing on internet hoping some encouragement and teachings. It’s not a big problem but another emotional stepping stone. However, I still have small anger and disappointment in the back of my mind. What I want to share here is I was FIRED from my job. I was accused of stealing and two of my coworkers told the manager about me as I am someone who’s not trustworthy and that they don’t like working with me. But I did not steal anything. Funny part is I had a dream about drowning in water before I started working and dreamed about a snake bit on my ankle two days before I was going to get fired. I’m not too sad. Just disappointed and a little angry at my coworkers for why they told the manager like that. We never fight before and in fact we were laughing and talking all the time. I thought of them as my seniors at the job. But it was a good thing I’d say. It wasn’t meant for me.

@How to be wise Samadhi experience is easy and hard. Easy because you will only be doing one thing and hard because doing only one thing or concentrating on one thing is hard. Most people today are very distracted by so many stuff so focusing on one thing is harder and harder. I love doing breathing meditation for Samadhi.

What is evil? It's your egoistic mind.

Pleasing people is not a bad thing. Bad thing is expectation. Please people without expectations.

@Sukhpaal loneliness is from selfishness.

@Barna Well! I will research more in this case then. I just need to be sure of everything I'm doing and following.

@Martin123 Of course not... I don't stuck with any teacher because I take actions to have my own experiences. I actively search for the Truth. Info without experience will just hang in my brain and won't be decided right or wrong, this or that. I do listen to many many many teachers and gurus and everything they said will just hang in as information. With Leo, most of the things he says just click me. Some of the things he said, I just put it aside because if I don't know, I better not judge. It's just depend on our nature. "It would be quite strange if you stuck to one teacher your whole path given the variety availible..." (I love this part tho)

@Martin123 Were you asking me about selfishness? Well! This is what I feel personally though. In one video I watched, he said that being greedy is good. That is just one part I didn't like and I found (personally again) some of the things he said was straying away from a true Yogi and the real peace. To be very honest, I'm too stubborn to believe or not believe easily. ( But that's just me. Who care, right?) I just want to say he is a good guy. But ..... I just feel I walk different path than him.

@Barna I personally don't like that group or the teacher. Some of his teachings are leading to selfishness, to boost the ego. I like Leo better. He likes to speak the truth or at least whatever he thinks is true. I feel like he's sharing his true self and knowledge instead of making others feel better. That's a true teacher for me.

"Real strength is when you know how to be kind and gentle"

@Baz You "FREEZE" because you think about losing before even trying.

Me... too... !! Well, I knew and know what I want in my life but..... Ahhh! My parents are the problem (I still love them). They want me to become something like .... whatever. But me, I just want to go somewhere in the wood and meditate. Be alone. So now I'm doing something but then I'm not really into it. But recently I decided to work hard since I can't be a yogi yet. I decided that I'll give my all to accomplish whatever I need to accomplish as quickly as possible and do whatever I want. But then, it's really hard because I'm a little young. My biggest obstacle right now is RELATIONSHIP. I tried and am trying to stay away from being attached to someone. My advice is if you can't put your dreams away now then accomplish it. Then, start enlightenment path. But of course, practice meditation everyday tho. Because that's your next coming up dream.

@Marks199 Hey... What you've done was done, gone. My advice is ... well, this is how I face my problems. You know people can't dis someone forever. When they get over it, they'll stop. It's like when you pick up a dry leaf and put it on fire. It will burn and out quickly. Just focus on your future and your dreams. If someone points a figure at you... look at their face with "So what?" attitude. LOL... That's me tho. I am not a perfect so are you, right? You took off the shirt, so what? Even if you were walking around naked, you did what you wanted to do, so what? Now, you are thinking it was wrong which means you want to become better and better. That's all you need for your present and for your future. I'm 22 by the way.

@Alphard Sorry if I miss understood what you said. I'll read it again.

@Alphard Buddha had said "Etta or the ego or No You" man many times and his teaching was all about that.

@Marina One time I was meditating and started thinking about myself like what the hell am I. And the monk said there's no self so I started to wonder. I imagined myself eating an apple. Ok, so I wasn't apple but when I ate that apple, it became part of me... and so on.. and I realized how everything is connected to each other. One time I was killing flies, then I suddenly thought about myself, what if I get killed. Do I want to die? No! So why am I killing others? From that on I stopped killing. Metta is seeing surroundings as yourself and wanting everyone and everything to be happy as the way you want to be. Because you and your surroundings are one, your love become unconditioned and selfless.

@dice You only hear voice as voice when you are in present moment. That's very good. But if you want to memorize, pay attention to the whole word and then don't think back. Move on as professor speaking. From my experience as a server, I sometimes took orders from multiple tables without book. I realized sometimes what we do is trying to remember (Think again and again) what we heard in our head so we missed the present moment or can't pay 100% attention. So the info didn't enter into our consciousness completely. That's why when try to focus on something, pay 100% attention and don't think back. Move on with present moment. Try to experience everything strong and clear so when think back, everything will be vivid.

Won't feel loneliness, no enemies, everything is connected to you and you are one with universe, no anxiety, no shyness, make friends easily, feels like everything and everyone loves you, Selflessness, can focus easily, always consious of everything around you.... etc...

I have 0% interest for him. Because.... in my opinion, he sometimes stray away from true enlightenment. Ok, he's good for people who are seeking success in there lives. He can be a good motivator for those people like businessman but, not for a true enlightenment and true consciousness. He can only teach the most basic conscious work. This is just my view. I still watch his videos tho I don't care.

Yeah.. I'd been in very similar situation. It was my first year of college and my grandfather passed away too. So I felt like doing nothing so I started playing video games. I was a video gamer before too. And so the same thing happened as you. My parents told me to get out of their house. They said I was useless, I was lazy, and other hurtful things. So I stopped going to school for six months and started working 60-70 hours a week. Then I gave 80% of what I made to my parents. Problem was solved and realized I can't expect others to understand me but just gotta find my way out. I could get out of the house then but I don't want bad reputation tho. So that is my story.

Find similarities in other people or things and start practicing from that. Find the connections between others and yourself. For example we are all made of Four Elements. Everything and everyone is functioning only according to their nature just like you are. When "LOVE" becomes stronger, instead of fixing, you will only want to accept as the way they are and you have no problem being around anyone. Because you are the way you are and they are just the way they are. You don't need to push them away or pull them toward you.

After practicing Metta (love) for long time, you'll see how powerful it is. You will never feel lonely, nothing can disappoint you, everything looks beautiful, you'll feel like you are loved by everything. Most importantly, nothing can distract you in your life anymore.

@InsidesOut I'm really glad you found this out.

Beautiful. ... beautiful. ... beautiful. ...

The very simple way to shred this ego would be FIRST, meditate so that you have very focus mind. When you have focus and clear mind, notice every thing. Doesn't have to be super detail. Notice when it happens and when it passes away.