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@Leo Gura ok thanks for the reply.

Any success stories on good friends to lovers here?

Ocd has already ruined my relationship and now it’s ruining my life and tbh it always has been ruining my life but now I’m aware of it and it’s getting worse n worse..feels like I’m descending to hell. can anyone give me some real advice?

I have such bad trauma from gay shit in the past that i dont know if im gay or not. I've fucked like 24 girls but i still feel insecure about how i've had a gay experience. It makes me feel like i'm insane HOCD type of feeling and it's super distracting. Been trying to meditate more. Can anyone else relate?

People who are ethical hackers right now, what would you have done differently when you started learning about programming? Right now my plan is to just learn all of the languages which will take years so in the meantime get a job at Best Buy or something and just start from the bottom and surround myself with other people interested in tech and go from there. Gonna sign up for a computer science class at my local community college and start reading some books on C programming. Anything else? What am I missing?

@Leo Guraits interesting coz I came back to coding in high school I learned HTML for a couple days I remember u saying something like recurring interest in your life purpose course @dimitriwell good for you, to hat advice would u give me for landing a job like u?

@Leo Gura ahahaha fuck. You so right. Thankyou @EnlightenmentBlog @dimitri HOW DID U FIND A JOB IN PROGRAMMING AAFTER ONLY STUDYING IT FOR HALF A YEAR FROM A FRIEND??! WTF

@jimwell hmm okay it’s a long post I don’t have problems with forgiveness. I forgive the people I love easily and in fact I forgive too easily probably and need to set more boundaries for myself

@Preety_India yes I take medication and talk to a therapist weekly and in situations where I feel like I have to clarify something to someone like for ex I’ll be thinking about some random situation with a girl that happened in the past and I’ll remember I said x y z and I’ll freak out coz I think that she interpreted it the wrong way so I feel like I have to randomly confess/clarify it to her @Keyhole yeah I do all that @Zec I’m aware of the concept. Gremlin, shadow, ego, etc @Pilgrimage of Self sorry to hear that you went thru that shit bro but it’s what makes us stronger..I meditated last night and it DID help so I will try to do some meditation before bed tonight

crazy identity, loser identity, cool austin identity, witty good at talking with women Austin, lonely austin, active physical exercise Austin and they are all trying to prove something so I have ocds about sending a text that confesses an aspect of my past to them that validates that reality and it keeps rotating so even if I do the ocd it will come back do I just accept that this is life? Agony? I mean the only other option is to discipline it out but it’s hard to have motivation cause it seems infinite

@Javfly33 what’s that? Do you take it?

@electroBeam thing is I have no idea how to hack. I have zero knowledge on it or anything so I’m starting by learning programming so I can understand the language but hacking into smart appliances and websites is a good idea once I learn some more about it thanks @Leo Gura Thankyou for your response yes I have already started doing online tutorials learning C programming atm. When you say learn one thing and master it, so basically tunnel in one thing and become really good at that? Like just one language? Then move on to the next right but hopefully it’s not too late of an age by then coz a lot of programmers seem to start young since there’s so much to learn @dimitri yes ty, it’s all about having fun right now I’m 23 so by the time I’m in 30s ill know enough to get paid for it but hopefully it’s not too late of an age by then coz alot of programmers seem to start young when did u start? @Joyboy ty I’ll check it out @Rinne yo whatsup dude I’ll check it out@Frosty97 ty

@jimwell why did u tag me? I don’t remember posting in this thread nor do I see my post

I tried becoming a dating coach and I also tried becoming a detective. I worked as a security officer for a couple months and I did game heavily and learned a lot from both of these two endeavors but now I’m left completely de-motivated and hopeless for future endeavors. I am now currently studying and training to be an EMT but I am beginning to doubt this one too. Is it really something I can do for the next 40 years? I don’t know. The thing is I don’t feel like I’m doing anything out of inspiration anymore it’s more like “eh this sounds kinda cool maybe I’d like this” in 23 now and I feel like I’m wasting my life because I have no idea what the fuck to do and I’ve tried so many different jobs like 12 different ones and they all feel meaningless and I have no motivation to push through long enough to know because a few months in I lose interest completely and decide it’s not for me

@Average Investor what I want the most in life and what fuels me the most..this is the millionaire dollar question, also this changes so much for each chapter in my life that it’s hard to commit to anything

@h inandout so basically just relax and be more compassionate with myself?

@kag101 I enjoy gaming I don’t think that’s necessarily meaningless because the game I play is very social and we have to talk on voice coms. I don’t really have much friends in real life to hangout with because I don’t get along with any of them anymore. Smoke cigs again because of a girl, also cause it helps with ocd , I workout daily, go on walks and think about life. That’s pretty much my life rn.

@universe well I have decided I don’t really want to be an EMT ?after learning more about it

@flowboyyes I did the life purpose course. Life purpose: I combine ideas together, making people happier by solving puzzles. that is my life purpose put into one sentence e ^@Girzo @Roy thankyou

@Keyhole yeah that’s me. After she left the first time I stoped doing all that anyways yeah ur definitely right I’ve done a lot of manipulation in my past.

if She introduced me to her mom n cousins And sister n stuff and watch movies together kiss n etc and get a gym membership with me would that qualify me as not just being a rebound? she is an emotional wreck and a player type of girl so now after she left for other guys for the second time I’m doubting my own time with her and if it was ever even real or was I just the rebound guy

@liamnewsom202 Get ready for hindsight bias, regret, grief, anger, shame, all of the emotions basically. It fucking blows. Just take each day bit by bit and try to stay sober and keep working on yourself. Eventually, time will re-contextualize everything and you will be grateful for having her in your life as an experience. Also who knows maybe you guys will reconnect at a more appropriate time again, but that's up to "God." Good luck brother.

@Elton we each are born with our own strengths, own it son. Nothing else you can do. Mine is courageousness, so i can use that for action-taking in other avenues of my life. So for you it's honesty..try being a salesman. Honest salesmen tend to do very well in the field because most salespeople come off like they are trying to make money off of them, but if your'e honest then they will sense you are a genuine salesmen trying to help the both of you. Honesty takes you very far. Honesty is also a form of Integrity so that scales as well.

@universe dont wanna go into the deets. was just wondering

is it normal for polarities to switch from more submissive energies to dominance energies in relationships/sex (or vice versa) or does the man usually stay in his dominance energy all of the time?