SageModeAustin

@Serotoninluv Yeah that's what I want to do in the future. I'm not at that point where i'm doing research yet as i'm just a student, but yeah eventually, maybe.

I used to go to the cemetery every single morning to remind myself that I’m gonna die one day. I did this for at least a month I think. I had days where I would cry, be nihilistic, and depressed. Life is tragic, but it’s also very beautiful. Good things in this life wouldn’t exist without death, like love. There’s something about knowing that you only have a limited time that makes things precious. If you lived forever you would take too many things for granted.

@Leo Gura nice

Nice!

So i'll be meditating and suddenly a trigger thought will occur. Or i want to itch a body part really badly, but i resist. Then i will feel this surge of 'energy' run through the tail bone up to my Occipital area. I feel this generally within that area. Leo called it, "like two plates colliding." I've been feeling this pretty much every single meditation session I've had so far (a bit over 2 months now). What is this?

@Hamonrye @Misagh So, they stopped happening recently. Did I awaken this Kundalini or Qi energy then?

@Thanatos13 False. It's just one facet of many realities.

@Thanatos13 well the problem is you believe nihilism to be the absolute truth, so now you justify every moment in your existence accordingly so to fit this belief. Why? Did something happen to make you believe all of life life is nihlistic?

@Winter there’s something wrong with your statement. That’s like saying as soon as I say what I want, I don’t want it anymore. That’s odd. Maybe there’s some self sabotage in there

Knowledge, (know as much as you can about panic attacks), practice the techniques for overcoming panic attacks, meditate daily. Finally, let the subconscious take over once these habits are implemented.

I know how this feels all too well. First question, do you meditate daily? If so how much and how long? Do you exercise? Do you have friends, what’s your daily schedule look like?

@Eo Ea Recently i've bumped it up to 50 minutes a day (25 minutes in the morning, 25 minutes at night)

@Thanatos13 You are clearly a full blown skeptic of everything. Also you are a nihilist to the 10th degree. Nothing i can really say to get through that ego shield of yours. Good luck. You've got so much shit wrong with what your saying. It's like you merged into non practicality as your new logic, the irrational-meaningless-realm.

@brugluiz Thanks man. The Mooji video really helped a lot and gave me some good insight about this whole situation.

This is quoted from the book Mastery by George Leonard. The #1 book on Leo's book list. "Drugs. Drugs can give you the illusion of getting the immediate success this culture is always promising you. Travelers on the fast track can use drugs to experience climactic upward surges without spending any time on the plateau. At first, it might seem to work, but regular use leads inevitably to disaster. If you're on drugs, you're not on the path." Okay, i can understand this being true if your taking intense drugs like ADHD medicine, antidepressants, etc. All these things i took in the past, but i dropped completely because it was complete bullshit. All pharmaceutical companies are bureaucratic. They are a self sabotaging cycle once you enter it's very hard to get out because you don't build any dependence on yourself. You just pop a pill, and your problems are 'gone.' BUT what about things like Nootropics & coffee? Or how about all the psychedelics on this forum that is used for the purpose of self-actualizing? Am i not on the path because i'm using something to help me even though i'm still putting in all the work like studying, meditating, working out, reading, etc? Like you could even say that eating healthy is a drug. Eating healthy, helps keep my mind sharper, my body lighter. It helps me. It's basically the same thing. What draws the line here?

@Etherial Cat I have a hard time not judging people, so this was really helpful actually.

This made me feel sad, happy, and disappointed at the same time. I think i experienced a little bit of your trip just reading that.

@Serotoninluv Agreed. Turns out she has a channel based on all this stuff, so it came to no surprise after reading her comments. By the way, what kind of professor are you? I want to become a psychology professor, so i think it's pretty interesting seeing a potential-future-version-of-me on here.

Be careful with statements like this. Remember you aren't anyone. You are nothing and everything at the same time. Take on a cosmic identity, because that's what you are. You are literally a sun baby. Star dust in the universe. The problem with statements like: who i am, i am not that type of guy, that's not me is that they are all logically false. How can you be something that doesn't exist? Lol. Who you think you are are actually just merely fleeting images in your head, a big storm of ideas, nothing grounded in reality. Other words, it's a big storm of bullshit. Paradoxically by accepting that there is no self, the stronger the self is, because you are able to adapt instead of maintaining, and since life is always changing every SECOND, being able to ADAPT is a much more “solid” version of self.

I too want to thank Leo. Thanks Leo, lol. You seriously have changed my life fundamentally/drastically for the better.

@Thanatos13 Dude what? You sound like you don't really know what your talking about.

okay let me restate it. Sure there is no 'wrong' inherently. I can agree with that. BUT there is a wrong inherently to me, how it can hold me back from expanding my self, etc. In this sense it is wrong. I mean, why wouldn't you want to self actualize yourself as much as possible?

This is a LOT easier said than done though..especially when everyone around you is playing the value game. It just feels bitter-sweet to me, but i do see your point. It's certainly better than how i was thinking.

@Thanatos13 False. There is definitely something wrong with demonizing people for being ugly. Like what leo said, "Also realize that when you call anything in reality "ugly" you are actually disowning that aspect of reality, of yourself. Because the truth is, that ugly thing you hate is actually, literally, metaphysically, your very self. So you are placing yourself in an adversarial relationship with reality, with yourself! Which is the very definition of neurosis."

@Emerald Just subbed to your channel btw