Iiris

Yoga ✅ 25min Meditation ✅ 25min in a bus Sleep ✅ 8.5h, went to bed at midnight I've underestimated how important breathing is in meditation and everything else. I'm hoding myself back, nothing else is. I can't let go of things

Yoga ❌ Meditation ✅ like 1h in the bus Sleep ❌ 5h, went to bed at 2:30 I was so stressed in that bus the only thing I could do was meditate The friend is also my cousin, it was nice seeing her. We planned to go hiking somewhere

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ❌ Sleep ❌ 5.5h, went to bed at 2 I’m going to visit a friend who lives far and I’m stressed once again I’ll see if I have time for yoga and meditation today Need to be gentle with myself I still want to go to an isolated cabin

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 10min Sleep ❌ 9h, went to bed at 00:30 So I wrote myself this to-do list for the day and put it on my table so I can see it, I don't know if it will help I've found a study technique for remembering everything well. But it doesn't really help with understanding anything. I can only understand things deeply if I'm genuinely interested in them, I feel I should probably make some kind of a schedule for studying. But then I'd have to wake up at some speficic time. I like waking up whenever I want

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 10min Sleep ❌ 7h, went to bed at 1:30 That came out at a low moment, they are Went to get highlights to my hair yesterday but they are barely visible I'm stressed because I'm going to have a gig again. I kind of want to do them but also really don't. I just feel like I'm not a skilled enough guitarist. And because of that I feel like I'm going there just trying to survive. But then again, I am skilled enough. It's not like people are paying to see me. I play a few notes here and there and it's great.

@Marc Schinkel Thanks

Yoga ✅ 40min Meditation ✅ 50min guided Sleep ✅ 9h, went to bed at midnight Yess I won't make a psychology study journal here. I almost made but it was too chaotic. Better do this myself

Yoga ✅ 10min Meditation ✅ 15min Sleep ❌ 7.5h, went to bed at 1:30 Everything was pretty half-assed again This morning I actually did yoga properly and not just stretching around by myself Sometimes it's nice to just write whatever I feel like in a journal before going to sleep. Often ends up in tears which is good Guitar lessons start today and I kind of wouldn't want to. Haven't learned anything all summer except strumming folk song chords. And even that I do sloppily. Teacher gave me like 5 music books to read, I've read about 5% of one of them, learned intervals which I knew already. I probably should've changed to acoustic guitar lessons but I forgot. Electric guitars not really my thing anymore. It was a passing teen angst thing. I used to be such a weirdo. Even more so than now. I'll just keep this journal with healthy habits with which I'm failing miserably with by the way. Change the name this journal to Failing Miserably. But it's so easy to be negative. I've just been having some resistance. I feel better now. I just need to breathe once again But anyway if I keep this journal with this I'll probably make a psychology study journal soon. Psychology final exam is 29.9. I still don't know if it's called final exam but I'm going to call it that. I think it's actually called marticulation examination. I need to squeeze out some motivation somewhere.

Yoga ✅ 10min Meditation ✅ 10min Sleep ❌ 9.5h, went to bed at 1:30, took a nap Finally rested

Yoga ✅ 5min a bit of a joke Meditation ✅ 5min half-assed Sleep ❌ 6h, went to sleep at 2:30, maybe took a nap I don't wanna lie I probably didn't go to sleep at 4 the last time, probably more close to 5. I've also been half-assing many of my meditation lately so yeah I'm definitely proud of myself. And I'm too tired to feel like i can do anything about this right now, I could probably sleep but it's like 8pm so it's not a really good time to go to sleep and I kinda don't want to either. Sentence completions nope, UUUHH, yeah goal setting alone definitely doesn't work. Still too much crap to do, that's another problem. I wanna cry I could change this now if I wanted to. I probably just need to breathe Don't even know what to think about this stuff but I've been binge-watching astrology videos anyway

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 10min Sleep ❌ 4.5h, went to sleep at 4, took a nap yeah Tomorrow is my last day at work. Then starts the studying

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 15min guided Sleep ❌ 6.5h, went to bed at 00:30, took a nap Still not early. But I would read anyway after going to bed so it's not so important because the reading takes whatever time it takes Been noticing again how insensitive I can be The boundary between something and nothing is nothing. That was a bit of a mindfuck

Yoga ✅ 25min Meditation ✅ 15min Sleep ❌ 7h, went to bed at midnight I keep going to bed a bit late. But well it's not a horrible sin. I'll try to get there early today. Still tired as heck.

Yoga ✅ 25min Meditation ✅ 15min Sleep ❌ 7h, went to bed at 00:30, took a nap Ended up watching quality content

Yoga ✅ 25min Meditation ✅ 10min Sleep ❌ 2.5h, went to bed at 00:30 Fell asleep at about 1:30. Woke up at 4 because ALLERGIES I forgot to take the antihistamine. Couldn't sleep after that. Watched Youtube videos until noon.

Yoga ✅ 35min Meditation ✅ 15min guided Sleep ❌ 7h went to bed at midnight, took a nap

Yoga ✅ 5min Meditation ✅ 10min Sleep ❌ 7h I'm afraid of not progressing and just staying the same. Let go of that fear and I will progress

Yoga ✅ 25min Meditation ✅ 5min Sleep ❌ 5h and took a nap Lies Things took longer than I planned and I kind of gave up once again. I'm feeling apathetic. It's definitely not pleasant. I feel like my mind is filled with crap and I can't think proprely. I feel disconnected. I'd like to just retreat from everything and get some clarity. But I have lots of excuses not to do so I think I've overestimated my ability to handle sleep paralysis. And I think I'm dreaming them. Because yesterday when I was taking a nap I was having the paralysis in the room next to the room I was sleeping in. And I was rapidly moving during it. I was afraid of evil, and suddenly evil all around me. Then I moved having the dream sleep paralysis in the room I was sleeping in. Otherwise I had some very abstract dreams again. I don't know what the heck was happening. But it felt important