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Yoga ✅ 1h Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7h and took a nap yesterday Allergies are bugging me. I didn't have any when I as younger, now they're started to occur My sister was vacuuming her room and had left her rolled mat in front of my door. I tripped on the mat and then I stepped on the edge of a record player that was laying on the floor, almost fell down the stairs after that. Now I have a bruise in the sole of my foot I can't step with it properly. The reason I tripped on the mat was because I was lost in my egoistical thoughts. Karma

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7h and took a nap yesterday I heard a mosquito when I was meditating and I had to open my eyes and try to find it. But I didn't. I found it later and smashed it dead with a stuffed animal from my bed. Adriene has these yoga playlists for every month. Going through this June playlist right now. I'm a bit late, only halfway through I don't have attitude but I have arms, and some abs gladly

No problem I don’t talk about it much to them. They both know I meditate and do stuff like that, but I don’t think they know how deep I’m into this stuff. Never mentioned Leo, my mom would think he’s a crazy cult leader My mother is a materialist. My father is probably not. He’s a very philosophical and esoteric guy. I used to talk about God and reality and enlightenment with him even before I found Leo’s content. Though he doesn’t understand the emotional and love part of this at all. It’s fun to philosophize with him sometimes. I rarely do it nowadays though Also my father’s mother was deeply into New Age kinda stuff. When I was alone with her she randomly started talking about chakras and angels and humanity’s rise into the 4th dimension and stuff like that

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7h I was just thinking what kind of an absolute lunatic Leo would sound like to people in the materialist paradigm. Ranting for hours that you are love and god I'm not sure what kind of meditation I'm doing when I'm meditating alone. I'm just sitting there and trying to be aware. I think it's like a do nothing -meditation. I don't really go to any states when I meditate nowadays. When I was more serious about meditation I got into a hyperaware state a few times. But now it's just like, I'm aware, and then I'm not aware and start intense thinking, and then I become aware of my thinking for a short time, and then I start thinking without awareness again. If I did it a longer time I would probably go beyond that. I'm trying to meditate at least 15min everyday now. I'm not going above that yet because I don't want to get a huge backlash

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 20min alone Sleep ❌ 7.5h Went to bed before midnight Wasn't very aware throughout the meditation, felt bad about it I've been feeling kind of lazy Don't hate them either

Yoga ✅ 25min + 40min Meditation ✅ 55min guided Sleep ✅ 8h I've been planning to go on a meditation retreat. I asked one place by email if I can get my money back if they have to cancel the retreat because of the virus again. Or if I'd have to go to some online retreat instead. Which I won't do The weather is a bit cooler now and it's raining, I feel like I can finally breathe, and I actually have energy to do stuff. Felt better at work too. The headache the day before yesterday was mostly because I had to do physical work for a long time in heat, I felt like jelly the whole day This meditation gave me a new perspective I think I understood on a deeper level, I'm creating my own suffering, by resisting things. Happiness = lack of resistance = acceptance = love. Or something like that. Nothing is actually bad

@Wisebaxter But it's game ish? You have a character there and everything and when you complete your habits it gets more health or something. Habitica - Gamify Your Life, comes up when I google it, it's the one I had once. I don't have android but I can get that one to ios Yoga ✅ 30min Meditation ✅ 20min guided Sleep ✅ 7.5 hours The sleep thing includes the no electronics and bedtime now. Took a nap yesterday I had a zombie apocalypse nightmare. Playing TWD has traumatized me apparently. I had another apocalypse nightmare a few weeks ago but it wasn't a zombie one. Also about half a year ago I had a dream where I was in a zombie apocalypse with Sadhguru. Pretty absurd Don't care about videogames that much but sometimes I enjoy roleplay games. Especially very emotionally engaging ones. And I like openworld games sometimes. I played this game named Okami at one point, it's lovely, it has beautiful graphics. It also has a spiritual tone to it. Though I don't really enjoy the fighting parts I had a headache yesterday, probably from dehydration, and lack of sleep. I had to take a painkiller so that I could fall asleep

@Wisebaxter That app that is kind of like a game? I had it once actually but I deleted it But thanks for the tip anyway, I think I could try it again! Yoga ✅ 1h Meditation ✅ 50min guided Sleep No electronics ✅ Bedtime ✅ Slept 8 hours It's easy to get lost in my neverending thought patterns at work because I don't really have anything to do with my mind there. Another possibility is I could meditate while I'm working, I was doing it today. And asking the questions about my thoughts. I feel kind of bad because I'm too tired to hold a proper conversation with the woman and her husband. When I meditate and get to the point where I don't have that many thoughts, I just end up staring at this empty white screen with my mind's eye. And I get stuck in this empty white screen I can't get anywhere from it. I think that's because I lack awareness of my body.

Yup it feels very effective! I read that 20 seconds of it is equivalent to 20 minutes of massage, or something Sunlight makes me depressed sometimes. But sometimes it makes me happy. I think it depresses me only when I'm indoors Cool, I think I get it, to some degree! I've definitely noticed that if I handle suffering consciously, something better comes after Hopefully mine is raising That yawning emoji made me yawn

Yoga ✅ 15min + 45min Meditation ✅ 40min guided Sleep No electronics ✅ Bedtime ✅ I've been feeling pretty good lately. Which makes me worried becuse I'm probably going to fall again soon. But I'll be prepared Every thought that is persistent enough to bug me, I noticed is useless. Is this thought useful and how does it behave? Kept asking myself that yesterday, it seems to help. I took a nap yesterday and slept 6.5 hours at night. This sunlight just makes me wake up too early. I feel it in the sides of my body when I hang from that pull up bar. Makes sense because I've always felt like the sides of my body are damn stuck. The hanging helps I've felt more open lately. I have to keep my feet on the floor because otherwise the stretch is too much. And also, I don't count seconds, it's way better to count breaths. Six deep breaths is pretty good. I can feel the stretch strongly when I breathe out.

I can relate to some of that, though I feel a bit like leo descriptions don't really fit me. Thanks anyway Cool that you're learning astrology A friend of a relative once asked me if I'm a scorpio, I said I'm a leo and she just laughed I can see that Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep No electronics ❌ Bedtime ❌ I didn't flop bad. Went to bed before midnight. Fell asleep probably at 1. Woke up at 7 and couldn't fall asleep again. I wasn't very aware through the meditation and it made me feel bad about myself It's hot as hell outside. The old woman I work for and her husband, they have no air conditioning in their apartment, I don't know how they survive there. I'll have to suggest to them to buy a fan This song makes me laugh, I can't help it

I know something but yeah I would like to hear! As a self-centered leo

I watched it, seems great, I'll start asking the questions! Thanks I enjoyed thoroughly! I'll probably have to do that again. It's a magnificent album Cool! : P I'm glad to hear my posts are of some use

Yoga ✅ 30min + 20min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep No electronics ✅ Bedtime ✅ Difficult to let go of my thinking addiction. Some thought patterns especially are very sticky. Too much emptiness if I leave them I'm not afraid of people, I'm afraid of being alone! Which makes me afraid of people's rejection which makes me afraid of people. Things are twisted! SO darn twisted The world sucks at least partly because people aren't aware of how twisted things are, I think. You think you are going somewhere but you end up the opposite Slept almost 7.5 hours I'm going to go lay in the sun now and listen to this album

Yoga ✅ 35min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep No electronics ❌ opened my phone for 20 seconds Bedtime ✅ I'm trying to hold on to some kind of image that I'm creating here and I'm trying to get some kind of reaction out of people. The egoism that makes me want to create that image is the thing that destroys the image I'm trying to create. And now I'm just watching the image collapse. I can't identify with it because otherwise I'm the one who is collapsing. Less painful to let go of the image than to identify with it at this point. Took a nap yesterday and slept 8 hours at night I think I've healed my tooth with a magic toothpaste

Yoga ✅ 30min Meditation ✅ 45min guided Sleep No electronics ✅ Bedtime ✅ I felt like meditating again. Had a hard time letting go of the body again. But found the same place of vulnerability again. Lots of thoughts but I wasn't too attached to them Slept about 7.5 hours. I stole this video from the 5meo dmt megathread but I have to put it here because it's hilarious, and inspiring

Yoga ✅ 30min Meditation ❌ Sleep No electronics ❌ Bedtime ❌ I flopped again. I made a post in my life purpose journal and it took longer than I expected, also the post was pretty catastrophic. Then I felt quilty and dissappointed in myself because I spent over an hour writing an absolute disaster and missed my bedtime because of that. I felt so bad I skipped meditation and everything else and binge watched Youtube again until 5am. JEEZ. Sentence completions were skipped again. I still feel bad about it, and and now I'm tired on top of that Can I forgive myself. I'm trying my best. I'm actually trying too much. I care too much. Can I really blame myself for that.

I think this video fits here too