Iiris

Insane

I'm darn late but goood

Yoga ✅ 30min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 8h and took a nap Had such a bad day at work today it was almost comedic. But I feel better than I felt yesderday and the day before. Arh I definitely see narcissistic traits in myself. But who doesn't have those. Especially if you're young. And I think it's just a thing that comes with low self esteem. I shall be forgiven

Yoga ✅ 25min Meditation ❌ Sleep ❌ 2.5h Uh... Went to sleep at 6:30am. I forgot to put my alarm on too but I gladly woke up early enough to get to work. Wandered around the internet the whole night. I just felt shitty and shitty about myself. And now I'm trying to hide that feeling behind a sense of regained control.

Yoga ✅ 50min Meditation ✅ 15min guided Sleep ✅ 8h The intention helps with meditation, but not immensely. It's good because it's something I can come back to ground myself in I'm a bit stressed because I have so many things to focus on. This, life purpose, work, music, final exams.. They're all important. But my attention is divided too much. The final exams thing frustrates me especially. Had I handled my shit properly earlier, I wouldn't have to focus on those anymore. And I'm not very motivated to study just to nail some exam. I want to study what I want, for the sake of studying. And why am I wasting my time studying just for some exam? To go to a university where I can waste my time studying just for some exam! To ensure employment. I don't even know why I'm doing this.

According to the comments it's about a dog

Yoga ✅ 55min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ❌ 7.5h Got home so late I didn't have time to go to bed at 23:30. Got to bed at midnight I can take my whole ego as a child. I find that a good approach Also, I've been feeling pretty good again. Though last night I started worrying about final exams. If I make a good plan I don't have to worry.

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 5min guided Sleep ❌ 6.5h Connecting to my inner child has been extremely helpful. The part of me that wants other's approval is like a child. I treat it like a child. With compassion but not take it too seriosuly. Was traveling so that's why I didn't do much. Went to bed at about 1 Went to watch Parasite, got traumatized once again. That movie was like, I'm laughing and one second later I'm terrified. And sometimes I don't know if I should laugh or be terrified. Well it's a "black comedy thriller". Makes sense

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 5min guided + 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7.5h I’ve been quite sure one person thinks I’m an idiot but today she sent me a friendly message and asked me how I’m doing. I need to stop overthinking Intention/motivation sentence helps before meditation! I was more aware than in a long time

yeah virgo is the only shy one from those three signs I think. Can relate to that

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 5min guided + 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7h and took a nap Been having an extremely average day I'm a bit tired still Seems like I'm doing well with these habits. Though meditation sessions turn into daydreaming sessions sometimes. Last time I think I was properly aware like 20% of the time. I should add more intention to my meditations. Say to myself something like. Now I'm going to meditate and be aware because I want to have piece of mind so that I can experience life fully. Something like that

Yoga ✅ 30min Meditation ✅ 5min guided + 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7.5h I managed to calm down during the 15min meditation Only watched a few but I like this guy's videos. He seems to know his stuff and seems to understand people

Nope! I lose sleep over everything else though not sure,,,,but i know of one with a journal @Iiris your presence is welcome! though I'm not very leo-like, more like a mouse I've actually studied just a little bit of astrology at one point. Virgo moon and sag rising

Yoga ✅ 45min Meditation ✅ 5min guided + 15min alone Sleep ✅ Not sure how much, possibly 6-7h Having a little backlash, stress and neurotic mind are coming back. Was looking for a relatable picture from the internet and found one:

Yoga ✅ 30min Meditation ✅ 5min guided + 15min alone Sleep ✅ 6.5h Went to bed at 00 but was fantasizing until 3am. Escaping the sadness! Now I have a headache from the lack of sleep. I feel quilty. But I forgive myself. That's what I wrote in the sentence completions too. A big part of them are in the form of "If I added 5% more self-compassion into my day I would forgive myself for this and that" Most of them aren't really about any conrete doing. Yeah I'm just going to keep forgiving myself

Yoga ✅ 20min + 25min Meditation ✅ 5min guided + 15min alone Sleep ✅ almost 8h Bumped into another meditation challenge on youtube. It's for beginners but I like doing beginners stuff sometimes, since I tend to forget the basics My neck and shoulders have been stuck. I have to work at pretty shitty positions sometimes. Social anxiety has been surprisingly absent. I don't feel out of control. I feel present and in control. Walked through some beautiful scenery yesterday. Water lilies were sparkling in the sun. Also, I'm feeling sort of sad right now

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7h and took a nap yesterday I felt better again yesterday. Probably because I took a 2h nap. I felt so relaxed and open after it. I don't know if it's wrong to take such long naps. For me they feel good. I can't sleep enough during the night so I sleep during the day. Just closing the curtains and going to my bed and curling up into a ball I'm pretty tired at going to work at this point. And it's only 5h a day 5 days a week. Still feeling like I can't handle it. My lazy ass. Well it's okay if I feel that way. I'm pretty much using all my weaknesses there. I have to be social and practical. I'm not very good at either. I can pretend to be social but it's quite exhausting in the long run. This is deep

Yoga ✅ 20min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7.5h Apparently my guitar amp is falling apart too. It's almost 30 years old so it's understandable. And I didn't like it that much anyway. I'm just going to steal the one we have in our basement to my room. I don't like playing in the basement for some reason. The one in the basement has a way better sound. Though you have to play loud as heck with it and I'm not good enough to play loud as heck What else? Felt a bit low yesterday. Just a total lack on inspiration for anything. I was a bit pissed off too. I use the fact that I'm in a hurry as an excuse for being pissed off. And I'm somehow always in a hurry. It's an incredible talent. Even if I first have plenty of time I manage to magically get into a hurry. I don't remember the last time I was early for school or work. I'm always just on time or a bit late. And I think I'm somehow the victim of being in a hurry. Like it's not my own god damn fault every time. Reminds me of my father way too much. ugh

Yoga ✅ 25min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7h and took a nap Got home from work today and spent a lot of time watching dumb youtube videos. I'm going to get my shit together now. I did the payment thing right with the meditation retreat. It's super cheap because the teachers don't get paid they are there voluntarily. It's in december. I need new shoes but I've been too lazy to look for them. I also need a new bicycle and I need a new zipper to my backpack. All of those are on the verge of totally falling apart. They've already fallen apart a bit.

Yeah I guess it has helped me to see the both sides better, though materialists definitely frustrate me sometimes. My dad mostly just hides his weird metaphysical ideas from people, he doesn't have the best communication going on with my mom. He just bursts out some weird shit now and then and makes my mom confused Yoga ✅ 20min Mediation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7h I was pretty close to not doing yoga and meditation yesterday, but managed Been feeling more connected to everything today, especially to myself and nature. It's lovely.

Yoga ✅ 30min + 20min Meditation ✅ 15min alone Sleep ✅ 7.5h and took a nap yesterday Naps have become my thang apparently Too much attachment to these journals. I occasionally have a spike of shame over the littlest things I write. Then when I correct them later I have a spike of shame over correcting them. It's painful. It's just that I care too much. And try too much sometimes. And now I'm slightly ashamed by how much I care and am ashamed Why try to create an image of yourself. Helping others is more important. Wayy more important. But sometimes I just feel like a love vampire. Most of the time I signed up for the meditation retreat. I sign up for a music camp they ask me what's my favourite genre of music, I sign up for a meditation retreat they ask me if I've ever considered suicide. Jeez. Though that's understandable. I'm kind of worried if I did the payment thing right. I'll probably have to send them another email and ask.