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Ok, a retreat is meant to be solid, back to back, no breaks, meditation. That's what gives it it's power. Also, I've found it's not as easy as leo makes it look. Meditating for 5 hours alone proves to be quite a challenge for me. I would personally start with an aim of 3 hours then 5/6 hours, then 8 hours etc. Don't run before you can walk. On top of that you need to work in some zazen (walking meditation) otherwise your *ass* will cease to exist before *you* cease to exist...trust me. Check out zazen. You also need to make sure your practices are on point. I only found out recently that I wasn't doing self enquiry 100% correctly. The most important part is sinking down deep into the meditation and losing yourself in it, it would appear. I know leo would also say "take psychedelics at the end of the retreat not at the start". Psychedelics usually throw me off my pattern, hence why I use them at the end. With regards to the techniques and alternating them...keep this in the back of your head: the longer you do *one practise* the more powerful that one practise will be. I feel as though it would be more powerful to do vepaasana for 4 hours, then self enquiry for 4 hours and keep switching them ever 4 hours....rather than doing 1 hour of each and switching ever hour. You want to build momentum. Also prepare some food, you don't want to be doing hardcore meditation while driving McDonald's and ordering a big Mac ✌?

Go for the big cheese lol

Don't get too caught up in the detail. Remember, the only reason the Bible exists is because it is a story about you, and your death and ressurection in the end times. When God will roll up the universe like a cloth and destroy it, then bring a new heaven and Earth into existence...heaven *on* earth forever

The only people I have seen who really take this shit seriously are those who have suffered incredible pain. I myself have suffered immensely and deeply, I remember one day I was in a doctor's room so confused and bewildered...trying to quantify and put into words the amount of suffering I was experiencing. Really, I am the lucky one...I find it easy to be motivated towards spirituality, it heals me more and more. When I stop I suffer. Brilliant, brilliant fuel for spirituality. Really makes you take it seriously. I feel for those who turn to religion, those who aren't wise enough to perceive what religion points to. I would say it would be very hard for a "happy" person to discover God. Of course nobody is really happy without God...not permanently. If you have someone who thinks they're happy, and who isint wise or conscious...chances are, that person will only become God at their physical death bed. And that's shite, I wana be God in the flesh! I want to see infinite beauty while I occupy this body. God mode lol. Suffering is gooooooooood for spiritual shit.

@Jesus Daniel interesting, i havent done much research into what happens in that case. it could be completely unrelated. Well anyway, have a word with a doctor just get checked...and then if you're sweet go ahead with the weighed and tested 5-MeO-DMT

@AlwaysBeNice leo is by far the best teacher. He is extremely powerful in his teaching methods and extremely dynamic. very wise

@Jesus Daniel hi Jesus, nice to meet you. The side your probably talking about "dimming" is your left brain which controls logic, reasoning, math, language etc. The right brain is responsible for creativity, imagination, awareness etc. There is actually quite a bit of significance to this. There have been repeated cases where individuals have had some sort of damage take place in the left hemisphere of their brain, and as a result they have a spiritual experience of sorts. Below is a test talk with a woman who literally had a stroke because of something in her left brain, and as a result she felt expansive and one with everything. She's also a brain surgeon I think or something. Not only this, but *I myself* have had a direct experience of this. I have what is called a "low grade glioma" in my "left temporal lobe"...or in layman's terms, I've got a benign brain tumor in the left side of my head. Luckily, it only caused me a few seizures before I grew older and bigger and my skull had more room to allow it's presence safely. Now it does nothing. But after I had a second seizure...it felt like everything was brand new. My consciousness had been boosted dramatically and unintentionally. And within 4 years I discovered the path. The first piece of advice I'd give to you is this, if you are in any way worried at all about your health (especially regarding your fuckin brain) go get yourself checked. You don't need to tell them about the drugs. It's important. While your in this form, play by the rules of this form. Get yourself checked out. ****Now, this is probably another very very important point. *WEED IS WORSE THAN PEOPLE THINK*. It makes you feel incredibly anxious (of course it's an invisible anxiety), it *IS* cognitively addictive...very much so. And also, it makes you feel overall worse and worse and worse. It's the same with any other regular addictive substance/experience that releases dopamine into your brain. Gambling, sex, smoking etc. Not only that, but researchers have said that there is 4 times the amount of tar in a weed smokers lungs compared to that of a ciggy smoker. And that tar causes lung cancer. Weed is not ok to smoke every day, at all. This was also my experience with marijuana. I smoked every day for a few years. My diet was all fucked up to. And by the way mate, youve gotta be honest with yourself. When. I started using psychedelics, I just used actualized.org and Leo's teachings as an excuse to get fucked up. I perverted Leo's pointings. Just be sure your taking the likes of DMT, with the sole purpose of finding truth. If drugs are a problem for you, then just stop it mate. Seriously, you can get fucked up. Just stop. I remember I couldn't get out of bed at one point because of drugs. I was a shivering wreck. Just watch and see how hard it is to stop smoking grass...that'll show you that it's more than just something you have, it starts to have *you*. I've stopped everything except DMT. And that's only to discover god. One positive point, obviously the DMT has helped you realise that you don't need other drugs. Very good

@EvilAngel make sure that your actually doing the practises and doing them correctly. Using powerful techniques like neti neti and vepaasana along with retreats and phycedelics. The moment you get enlightened you will laugh at the idea that it might not have been worth it. However, also look at Leo's video "the dangers" that video. It's actually quite dodgy in a way. For example, if you go at this work "half-heartedly" there's a chance you might practise and practise and practise using slightly incorrect techniques and waste 5 or 10 years of your life. God revealed to me that, with this work, it's either all in, or not in at all.

When I merge with reality it feels SO fucking weird. To literally not be a human. The confusion was what worried me at the start, always trying to make sense of things, work it out, understand it. I'm only now starting to see with authentic seeing, that I am what witnesses confusion and clarity. I am that which witnesses the mind and thoughts. It's such a bizarre sensation, it feels like I get pulled out of my body and warped into what I'm looking at. I become Everything. For the first time ever today I felt my suffering release for about an hour and I entered into bliss it was after I heard a girl singing beautifully. Then i felt like all floaty and stuff and heard the word "awaken" in my mind. So coooooooooollllll haha

@The Don aye similar thing happened with me. Except I wasn't depressed I was just psychotic. It's an incredibly strong motivator to continue the path for me. If I stop, I suffer

I don't have a personal experiential realisation of any of this yet but I have a feeling everything happens for a reason. During peek awareness, everything is perfect I find. So I think everything happens for a reason. Duno tho

@zeroISinfinity defo

I'm speaking a lot less, thinking a lot less. It feels as though there is nothing to say, only that there is my self to realise. I've been so quiet on the form here I didn't even realise I hadn't posted in 3 or 4 months. Every now and again my consciousness shifts and I feel everything in my perception bow down to me. In these moments all I can describe it is like a "deepening". Starting DMT retreats soon (Sunday). I'm also noticing all of my evil side. It isint the nicest thing to have to see but I feel as though it's necessary. One other report; I'm becoming very knowledgeable and far wiser than I was before. It feels like I have childlike wisdom growing inside me. And my presence is becoming..."heavier". For some reason I seem to dominate social groups without even saying much. It's like when I walk in, something about my presence makes other people want to impress me for some reason hahaha. I'm a little bit scared of not being a person for much longer. The longer I practise, the more I want to practise. **I have a question as well... (Context; I was a completely psychotic person and still notice my tendencies to become psychotic and flip out at people. Over very little. Attention seeking, inappropriate, crazy head kinda guy.) My question is this, if I go to the doctors to get antipsychotic medication, will this in any way affect my path? Thanks guys, love you all

For me, the best way to do it is start by using shrooms. Increase the dose gradually then hit the DMT. (Darknet is the safest way to get pure DMT. I'm pretty sure my stuff is like 95% pure at least. It's a £100 a gram though. Worth it. DMT is my favorite because it's not too strong for anyone to not be able to handle it. It's fast, extremely powerful and smells like metaphysics lol. It's nickname is the spirit molecule

Hey, good to meet you I'm aaron. I've been on the path for about a year now. Self enquiry, kryia yoga, psychedelic retreats etc. One thing I'd say to you straight away is this, the very fact that you've found your way to this website shows that you're path has started. Those experiences are very good your having. You'll learn to hear the voice of the creator more and more. Try not to focus on intellectual question and answer based thinking. Try to sort of feel what it feels like...this "thing" that you felt. It's kinda like falling in love, the more you think about it the more you interrupt it. Your thinking mind will not be able to progress in this work very far at all. You have to go with the feeling. But it's strange, counterintuitively...when you surrender the thinking mind, the thinking mind becomes more powerful! And dynamic. Yeah my recommendation is to listen to the voice and start your hardcore practice today. I'd start by establishing a concrete conceptual understanding of what self enquiry is meant to look like. Look at Leo's videos on self enquiry. Self enquiry and "neti neti" are the same thing. Different names. I recommend getting the kryia yoga book (private message me for info on how to get it). Then just do like 5-10 mins self enquiry, sat on a chair with your back straight and not leaning against the back of the chair. Followed by some kryia yoga. The yoga can be hard to make sure your doing it right. Just give it a shot and let it fall into place. My personal report on the path so far; My favorite part of the change so far is, I am far less psychotic, I am more intelligent, wiser, more powerful, more fulfilled. And at times during peak consciousness I feel what your describing. For me it's just a sense of everything bows to me it's quite interesting. The most important thing is finding out what you are. I recommend safe and moderate use of psychedelics for a starter. It'll peak your interest, and you'll probably have a fun time on the way. Your eventually to a have to completely surrender logic and just *fall*, in *love*. There is nothing logical about love. It just Is. So....fall

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@Bittu mate that's mad. It's such a torture isint it. I've definitely noticed a considerable change in my mind. I knew that if I didn't take up the path I would literally end up some kind of twisted guy. Like, legit twisted...things that I'd rather not say here. Being psychotic is literally shit in and of itself...but I wouldn't have found the path if I wasnt so I duno, I defo wouldn't change how I've lived up until now. 2 things I've realised are; 1 - Psychotic people are absolutely fucked without spirituality...very very little can help. Trying to stop thinking, by thinking...never works. 2 - Only those who suffer more than anyone else, are attracted to the most powerful healing teachers. Leo is the most powerful teacher in my opinion, my low latent inhibitive opinion. These two truths I had to face. I find bring my awareness to the palms of my hands helps when I feel my mind becoming psychotic. It's scary to think that this is literally related to being psycho...literally. I'm just fucken glad I found leos teachings for God sake. Fucking close one

@phllip103 yo, I'm really sorry bro but I didn't understand a single fucken thing you just said hahah?

Also I think there's a chance its fatal to smoke 5meoDMT if you take antidepressant medication. Or maybe that's Ayahuasca (DMT). Do your research

I'm starting with DMT first. For me, it took me a while before I stopped just getting so confused while on psychedelics. I was like "what am I actually trying to find here?" 5meo will tare through your reality like a hot knife through butter. I've been too scared to try the stuff. But by all means, take a tiny dose and work up. Be careful, you'll probably be sick. Don't eat before you take it lol. I always say, sometimes the best way to learn to swim is by jumping in lol

@Ingit @Ingit if you exist, what are you? Don't leave your direct experience, if you exist then you exist in your direct experience right now. Are you the skull? Are you the heart? Are you the thoughts? Or are all of these replaceable? And what is not being replaced? Are you a collection of bones? Or are these bones also surgically replaceable? And what is not replaced? If you say "I am the brain", what would happen if a doctor successfully transplanted one half of your brain into one person, and the other half into someone elses brain. Which one would be you?

Try to allow the mind to slow down when enquiring into what you are. Is it not only reasonable that I ask what you mean when you say the word "me"? If I was telling you a story about a "holopromo" and how a holopromo is the best thing ever and how it's amazing. You would need to slow me down and ask me "wait wait wait Aaron, what is a holopromo?" Before we move on to talking *about* it. You need to know what something is before you can talk about it. If you are confused about what you are, then do not talk about it. Find out what you are.

When you say "ingit" what are you pointing to? Because I'm assuming you don't mean that you are literally the word "ingit". What makes up ingit? Notice, you will probably say "thoughts" "body" "brain". And yet is there multiple "you's"? If there is one thing that exists, that is ingit...tell me what that one thing is @Ingit

All of those bullet points are ramifications of awakening. When you awaken, everything becomes perfect. But you don't have to fully awaken to improve those points. I've definitely heard that psycs can be extremely cathartic and advantageous if one is seeking to develop himself and his self image. Psychedelics do something very interesting to consciousness and it definitely makes you stronger...but know this, psycs aren't like drugs like mdma, or coke, or ket. It's not guaranteed that will have a *good* time. But it is guaranteed that you will witness what your mind is capable of . The thing about truth is, if you truly seek it...then you should be able to not turn your head away from anything. See everything that is possible, with no bias. If something is happening, watch it. It is truth. Also, just be mindful that LSD lasts up to 12 hours. Also be mindful of your current state of mind, and how much LSD your actually taken. It is measures in "ug". I would always recommend mushrooms for a first serious trip, only lasts up to 6 hours and shrooms also has the tendency to make you laugh etc. But, do not be scared. And don't overthink. Overthinking is what will cause a bad trip, just keep reassuring yourself, try to be childlike and just enjoy it