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@martins name the word "god" is useful for a variety of things. For example, letting go. It's hard to give away your control when you don't know what it is your trying to give your control away to. I think the concept it ok when it's understood.

The IRA, Republican paramilitaries of northern ireland. Around my part we have the likes of the UDA, UVF, UFF, which are all protestant. I kind of like the idea of having power like those organisations do, something within me that really likes a bit of evil for some reason. But the top dogs of these gangs are rolling in tonnes of laundered drug cash. Wee northern Ireland gets most of her drug trade from imports and home grows via paramilitary organisations. But the fighting has eased quite a bit at the minute

@Wisebaxter I'm pretty sure everything is cause and effect. Would I be typing these words right now if you hadn't have replied?

It's your spiritual powers bro

Yeah yeah, both

No matter what decision you make, no matter how complex the systems that lead you to make the final decision, no matter how random you make your selection...it was always going to be like that and not any other way. From what I have seen. It is not my choice to be writing this right now. And if I decided to not write this, that's what has been predestined to. Also, I don't think you can "choose" to awaken...I think it's that you become aware that you are no the one who chooses

In my opinion, nobody has, is or will ever be "ready" for enlightenment. I think there needs to be a certain level of intelligence...or perhaps a certain "kind" of Intelligence. This is my observation also. It is also my motivation for it. But because of the nature of enlightenment, it doesn't matter how you get there...all that matters is, you get there.

I hope I get a really long long life so that when I've been meditating hard with 3 sits a day and phychdelic retreats and constant mindfulness practise for 50 years I'll be one heavily enlightened boi #Letstrythe5meo

@The Don big time...the more I delve into consciousness the more I realise how time is an illusion. Definitely grasping the magic of the "now" is important... especially with regards with building motivation for things like meditation and regular self enquiry. The more I understand reality experientially, the more I see how incredible my existence right NOW is. It's something like. I've never liked writing notes on things...my philosophy [with writing things down] is, if it's important enough I'll remember it. I trust my subconscious and conscious mind, they are very very powerful and I think academia definitely has it's limitations. Creativity and the ability to use your own intellect are, in my opinion, far superior methods of education than the likes of memorisation etc. However, I don't see anything wrong with writing it down. Leo says it helps you focus. Well...yeah I'd say that's accurate like I definitely have a form of neurosis...tendencies that flow similar to hypochondria. Minor mental illness. However, it seems as though this kind of "illness" is closely linked to a high level of natural, intellectual, intelligence that has not been learned in a classroom. Look at the great minds the past...a lot of them were a bit.....mentally strange. I do want to say one thing though, from what I have seen in my own experience you cannot cure this kind of thing. I find that because neurosis *IS* the mind...trying to use the mind to stop it would be like trying to stop a car by pushing the accelerator harder. I have tried many many ways to stop it, and i can't. The best thing you can do is learn how to really let go at a very deep level. Neurosis is the controlling of a situation... overthinking, control control control. Letting go of control is the only way trust me. Self enquiry is more powerful than meditation. Make sure you do it

Last night I took a large dose of ketamine (leo doesent recommend ketamine because it's addictive, but a vendor accidentally shipped me it so I thought I might aswell use it). Not gonna buy any more after anyway. The first time I used it I was just about to meditate when I took a line of it, and it felt sooooo connecting and deep. By the end of the meditation sit i had gone into a slight trance and my eyes were filled up with tears ? it was lovely like. But...*yesterday* I took a large portion of it and i actually remember somehow knowing that if I took one more line I was not gonna be the same person afterwards. I took the extra line and EVERYTHING started speaking to me. The whole of my surroundings was speaking directly to *me* at one point it *literally* spoke the words "enlighten me" twice. It's hard to describe how it felt. It felt like it was all there just for me lol ?? I have never had such a confirmation like that before. I had to just sit and stare at it. There was an incredible feeling of connectedness between me and everything else. At this point in my journey I'm experiencing some doubts and questions but it become sooooo transparent that this was because I was slowly getting ENLIGHTENED! It felt amazing. I got a huge insight. The insight that I need to LET GO. My whole life I'd been trying to control my spirituality, trying to closely monitor my emotions and everything...I realised that any mental illness or anything I had in the past was there because I still hadn't let go! During last night's experience I also had sensations of deep understanding, incredible clarity and major major simplicity. My surroundings also spoke to me "I just woke up and I'm here and that's all I know" haha it was AMAZING. Unfortunately it was also clear, near the end of it, that it wasnt enlightenment. But sure, it'll come eventually. This is DEFINITELY setting me up to take 5-MeO-DMT and stuff. I realise that letting go is a big big factor...I guess I didn't even know how to let go before this experience. It was like there was no space between me and what I was watching. In my opinion the most important thing I got from these experiences was the clarity to see that I am DEFINITELY on the right path. The path to end all paths. There was also a heavy sense of childishness to my experiences, it felt like all of the deep philosophical teachings of leo and mooji and all the enlightened boys were just so easy to see and so simple. I feel ready for 5meo now ? this was a lovely experience. I know that my confusion and disorientation will only grow now though...so there's that to look forward to ?

be sure your focusing on the sensation of the air passing through the nostrils and be careful that your not focusing on an image in your mind, of the air passing through the nostrils

its hard...cuz everything is an illusion somehow......im not gona pretend like i have this revelation in the bag (not yet) but i understand that you guys are all not real and that your all me lol. and that everything your saying is me

christianity is by far my favourite religion. I was raised christian and i had to break free from the ideology of it all...but now that i understand what it means, im going back to church and everything haha. Its strange how people can be 100% correct and accurate with truth, and yet be 100% wrong at the same time. jehova's witnesses are also a good one, i was taught that they were heretics haha. they believe "as god is, man can become and as man is God once was" which is of course completely correct. Then you have Mormons, those guys like fluffy undergarments

@Wisebaxter i, to, have a very very overactive mind...i get very irritated when something isint 100% PERFECT* and even though ive been meditating for 5 and a half months now, i still get very angry and stuff sometimes. Like you, also, i play the piano and thought it was pretty cool that you do to. You know i thought DMT was gona be all calming and relaxing when i went to smoke it but it was just very very very strong...i did ketamine while meditating yesterday and i just broke down into tears half way through my sit it was truly amazing. Im interested in learning about modafinil definitely gona check it out....i like drugs that calm you down and just make everything wavy, ket does this big time...but its also addictive and onlylasts an hour.

man there's nothing wrong with a little accuracy. Nothing at all...this has sped up my enlightenment process...quick time

@Peo "This is a question i have wondered for quite a time now. Some people spend 50 years chasing enlightenment and they dont achive it. While some people acchive enlightenment not knowing anything about it, just one day it just hit them out of nowhere. For example Eckhart tolle attain one of the deepest enlightenment. It just happend to him one night. He had no idea what happend to him before he looked it up. He went from stage 1 in the oxherding pictures to picture 5 or 6. Do anyone have a answer to why some people attain enlightenment faster then other people?" - (didn't let me quote you for some reason) ...dawg I think it's a pity I'm not automatically enlightened ffs, tell me about it. But I can tell you more me thing, you need to be adaptive and fucking *intelligent and very clever and flexible when your dealing with your mind......constantly adjusting your techniques listening to the voice of God for guidance. It's like regular workouts, you could achieve more doing 10 reps once with correct form than you would if you did 40 reps with incorrect form. Form is just as important in spirituality and just like in body workouts, the form relaxes, becomes lazy. Someone who will get enlightened is someone who can be creative as fuck na' mean. You've got to think outside the box...and then you've got to fucking transcend the box and realise that the box is your fabrication. I don't wantknow what the word for this would be... cunning? Intuitive? Sorry for the spelling mistakes fs

@clouffy the way I see it...you can go to school, work your ass off and even get a good job to sit for 20-40 years at the end of your life enjoying ice cream and grandchildren and then die and cease to exist for all of eternity and NEVER...........E.V.E.R come back. Ever. And that's it. Or you can spend this ONE, SINGLE chance to pursue transcension of all of these things. Becoming the knower of all truth, becoming one with the universe, becoming COMPLETELY aware of life's purpose and experiencing a life, fully enlightened...literally, as God himself. People throw their life away...the very fact we are even aware of this stuff is INCREDIBLY lucky. Definitely suffer from what you would call mental illness. I think it is what drives is partly...or what drives me at least. But I like it, I'd rather have it if it means becoming enlightened. I know I more than likely wouldn't be as devoted if it wernt for it. Plus I'm finding that the mechanics of how my mental illness functions are starting to decrease in strength. Great strength usually births from great pain. But yo mate...you really have to say fuck you to all the rules and be super creative with your practises and stuff. In my opinion, anyone who doesn't say "fuck the world and all of its rules" at some point in their life...isint the smartest. I feel like the one and only way to truly enjoy life to the fullest, is to FULLY accept Jesus and realise that EVEN IF YOU DONT GET ENLIGHTENED, doing the spiritual practises will have a profoundly positive impact on your human life. In my opinion, this is the only logical path. Infact, I think it's the only path...death comes to us all. That is what this is, the path of death. Rember! You need to say "fuck everything" including all the advice you get from this community of seekers. To experience fast and authentic growth you need to become independent, don't believe me or anyone else. For God's sake, take life by the balls...mental illness and all and don't stop squeezing until your sorted out.

Jesus ising that true. I was quite unaware of how silly education is and how it's based upon memorisation not creativity...like, at all. @Leo Gura

I have some very feminine characteristics. Much more sensitive than male qualities

Be sure to follow the spiritual rules. Include phrases like "you shouldn't assume anything I'm saying is true, infact this would hinder your growth." Make sure to talk very materialistically...I agree with cetus, using words like "spirituality" or "god" would definitely cause the listeners to assume all kinds of wrong ideas and concepts about what your talking about. Honestly, these words only make sense from looking back, whilst in a hightened state of awareness and even then it's very confusing. Use words like "you can try it yourself" and "you are encouraged to do the practises to see if I am lying." Paradoxically, the more you try to disarm your presentation, the stronger it becomes. Use analogies and keep it simple. My favorite analogy (because of its simplicity) is the analogy of words. Before words are interpreted by the human mind all there are, are random black markings and yet the reader does not see it as "hard", the reader doesn't even consider it "easy" it's automatic. So the reader does not see random black markings (what is truly there) they see the illusion of words. Point out how automatic this is and how your mind wraps concepts around reality in real time, all the time. And so when the observer looks at reality they do not see reality, but their meet interpretation. Drive home the sense of "literalness." Differentiate thoughts and the actual object the thought it of...for example, if I look at your face then close my eyes (whilst still looking at the memory of your face) when I'm looking at this memory, even though it looks like your face it is absolutely not...it's a thought. Reality is not what you think it is, because what you think it is, is a thought. The question will then rise "well ok, but why the hell should anyone care...language and concepts are very useful." You need to answer the "why." At this point you will have proven that there is actually something to this. Then you can [gently] introduce examples of enlightened people. I *do not* recommend using the word "enlightened" for me, the term enlightened is known as a stupid thing. Like fairy dust. You know I'm not enlightened yet, I only have limited knowledge of this. Talk about self enquiry. The analogy of the cake. If you really want to bring the message to them, you can buy a cake and bring it in (then give it out after). But use it for an example of how concepts wrap around reality in real time. Step one: present cake Step two: confirm that there is a *singular* "cake" that exists in *one location*. (This will probably be accepted, but the wording is important here). Step three: remove slice 1 (out of view) and ask bluntly "is the cake still here, on this table?" Recap on how the "cake" is supposedly *one* object in one location...so it either here or not here. (They will probably think the cake is still there, since only one slice has been removed) Step four: explain that, logically, "slice one" and the "cake" can co-exist separate from eachother and that therefore the "cake" is not slice one. Step five repeat this until all slices have been confirmed to not be the "cake" individually. Then explain that the "cake" is a concept that exists, only in your imagination and the *actual* thing (the thing that matches your concept of "cake") is something entirely different to the concept. (Since you only have 20 minutes you might not have time.) Really press in on the "why" the results are tremendous. This is...a hard task. I would use purely testimonies. You can I troduce words like "spirituality" or "meditation" near the end. Describe self enquiry, and how the same principals apply to *you*. Says "somehow the results of daily spiritual practises, are staggering. Stepping beyond the limitations of the human. The entire human is being observed, no? By whom is the human being observed? Weights cannot weigh themselves, fire cannot burn itself, light cannot shine on itself. The unique attribute of pure "being" or "observing" is that the observer, logically cannot be observed...which means you have never once observed yourself. Pick and choose from these points, try to predict how your audience will react and don't just state random facts and points...take them on a journey, a 25 minute journey. What it is, why is it important, how to do I get there. Be clever

I've been feeling to contemplate a hell of a lot more. So I am. And "nothing existing" is a hell of a thing to think about. How does this cheeseburger in my hand not exist? How is it spirit? *Update* Perhaps...is it that I am misinformed as to what it is that it is my hand. The thing I perceive as "cheeseburger." Or even that it is in my "hand" since this is my understanding also... I remember an analogy about a cake; the first slice was discarded and thr question was asked "has the cake been discarded?" To which the answer is [subjectively] "no, only once slice." So the cake remains even though the slice is removed. Therefore the first "slice" is separate to the "cake" and they can exist apart from eachother...meaning, slice one is not the cake. Slice one is then replaced and the same proceedure happens to slice two. It's found that slice two isint the "cake" either. This continues until all of the individual slices have been confirmed that they are not required to exist, for the "cake" to exist. The only logical question then is, "well where the fuck is the cake?" ...I think I get it. Does anyone have any wise teachings or philosophy within this area? It seems like it's harder to identify conceptualizations when it's wrapping around reality in real time. I would think the statement "nothing exists" is a bit of an extreme saying. "My" "hand" is "on" "my" "table". Even though these are all concepts, what I am experiencing is real.

@ahmet sukru I'm honestly a little scared to use them because I have a past of mental illness. But I'm also a major survivor, part of the way I am I feel like I can adapt to things much better. I trust what leo says about psychedelics though. There's no way he could be right about so much and be wrong about this one thing. I have a good feeling about them. Conceptually, I know that psyc's disrupt the input-output signals of perception and exposes the screen in which we live (for a while). You distort the picture, you see the actual screen.

I think for me, always assuming I'm wrong until I experience undeniable spiritual truth does the trick

As usual please make your answer understandable...and pleeease no BS thanks. Is it true that ANY knowledge is bullshit? I.e. anything that is not experienced directly by me? I'm asking this...rather hopefully. It feels so..strange doing these practices while having no concern for knowledge whatsoever (obviously other than helpful technical advise concerning spiritual practices) is this correct? Is it true that *literally* the only thing that matters, in this work, are the practises (with correct method)? Please be specific with your answers and clear

It is a psychedelic...but I'm suspicious as to why I haven't heard much about it