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@Nahm yes, I do feel much happiness at this point in time like. It's so good

Feels pretty good lol...I guess......oh shit, I just got it...ok, I got it. Hahahahahaha thank you ?

Lol, I mean that its nearly like I'm only now starting to experience what it's like to be human because of how lost I was in false concepts and ideas

@Paul92 what's happening Paul mate, I'm aaron from Northern Ireland. Right, so straight away I'm just gonna tell you that all of these thoughts and emotions are VERY very typical to be seen in someone who is just about to embark on their spiritual path. So don't be depressed, just allow yourself to BE and keep following your heart. Excellent excellent excellent. Do NOT change this. And definitely do NOT believe in nonduality or spirituality. Belief leads to false revelations, and insights of the imagination... Imitations of the truth, instead of the truth itself. Don't reject any conceptualisations of nonduality, just don't believe them...see that whatever you imagine about god, isint actually god...it's your imagination. You will see certain truths when *God* chooses for you to see them. And not before then. It's very important that you neither believe or disbelieve anything. In other words, don't take any step in any direction. The only thing that matters are the practices, get familiar with self enquiry, kryia yoga especially, be careful with phyc's as well...they are explosive. Ohhhhhhh brother, this is FERTILE ground! Deeply philosophical mind, logical, analytical. Beware though, when using the mind to do philosophy, deep inner dissatisfaction arises (at least I find). I have an extremely deep mind, and I know that using it only brings more pain. Instead of eating more from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, you should eat once from the tree of life and become alive. It's all about discovering who/what you are. When using consciousness to see the truth (which is itself, consciousness), God's love and joy and peace overflow out of your heart. You have to die like Jesus died though, the worst death. You must decend to the lowest parts of the earth, and die so that you can be born again of the great one...and become him. "When you close your eyes you see black, you are not the black, *you are the consciousness in which the black exists*." You truly mean this? You'd give anything to be able to live forever? then give your SELF, begin the process of learning what you are by learning what you are NOT. self enquire and search. What part of the body is "you" the left pinkie fingernail? Is that part considered "you"? If it we're removed, would you still be here? Yes? Then you can exist without your pinkie nail, which means the pinkie nail isint you. What about more foundational things like your face...if the skin around your face and mouth was removed and replaced with a new face, would you still be here experiencing life directly? Can "you" exist without your face? Is it "you." What, when removed, causes *you* to be removed. Emotional sensations? Memory? What determines what you are? Is it your taste in music? If that was gone would you still be here experiencing life directly? Find the self, and you will find the gift of God, eternal life. The truth is, you are already an eternal God, it's not your choice...you already are. (Don't believe this though remember! *FIND* the truth by asking and answering simple self enquiry questions) Ok, the concept of "chemistry" you have right now...is happening *within* your consciousness right nowwwww. The idea that it is not happening within your consciousness, is an idea that is also happening within your consciousness. You cannot escape this. The belief that consciousness does not exist, occurs within your consciousness. And the idea that other people have consciousness, is still just another idea... happening within *YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS*.

@Peo just know, you will have physical and mental ramifications if you do this. Your muscles will become extremely weak and stuff if your meditaing all the time...you can develop problems from the withdrawal from your human nature. It would be hard to come back, but I know that enlightenment is the only thing that matters, and if you feel good telling to do some mad 1 year retreat, then you would be an absolute fool not to do it.

@Annoynymous check out shadow work

Love you man

@Aeris I definitely definitely think the best thing to do is work on yourself. Change your vibration and she will like it naturally

@Mafortu 1 John 4:8 (The Bible) "God is love."

@stukem ok...you are not any expression or field or witness. This, and the idea that it's "your purpose to know" is ALLLLLL happening within YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS. Your consciousness is the thing within which these things are perceived. If you want some practical advise...do the practises and just make sure your doing them right constantly. Don't rely on knowledge at all, just let your humans knowledge float and rise with the water level of your *spiritual/experiential* revelations. Literally the only thing that matters are the practises, making sure your doing them right and stuff...using self enquiry, doing retreats, using phycs if you feel ok with it. ***Side note, within self enquiry, don't forget to ask "who is the one who observes" and with whatever answer you give, ask "was this answer observed also?" (Check direct experience) "hmmm yes" [you'll probably say], well who was the one who observes that answer?

@Aakash there really is nothing else that matters other than enlightenment. Everything else is just pretend like...

Well Fuck me sideways and call me Jerry, where the fuck do I sign up ??????????????????????? It's a yes from me. Mate FUCK YEAH, this is gonna be sooo class

@Aeris Have you ever watched Leo's vid on counterintuitive-ness? There's always a counterintuitive move that's the right move. I had a deep insight that was so gradual, I didn't even realise it was an insight one time. It is this; "I am the Lord thy god...Thou shalt have no other gods before me.Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth." Exodus 20:2-4 (the Bible) Leo isint god, he's just a guy who's found god and actually, counterintuitively ? , respecting anyone too much...so that you believe whatever they say, is idolising them. Which actually hinders your growth. The point of this insight is "hold no higher authority than God himself." The best thing you can do for yourself (and leo) is not believing leo. Infact, if you believe everything that comes out of Leo's mouth you'd be more fucked up that before you started listening to him. Only use your direct experience, get familiar with the concept of communicating directly with God and saying "fuck you" to everyone else. This is absolutely necessary for fast spiritual development

Leo's probably off to the Caribbean islands for a month hahahah just not telling us HAHA ?? jammy bastard lol

@Aquarius homosexuality is actually something that you will find of hidden with a lot of the peeps on here. However, the reason for this is a little bit weird... With the kind of stuff that this website focuses on (spirituality, and in particular, general self improvement) it tends to attract a very specific kind of person. I'm not saying this is good or bad I'm just saying it's my observation. A boating shop will naturally attract fishermen, a hospital will naturally attract sick people, a library will naturally attract readers. The typical John Doe that is attracted to self improvement/spirituallity/god is a weak person, likely someone who is at the bottom of the food chain in some way...and in some way, just the lowest of the low. Jesus said that, in his kingdom, the last shall be the first and the first shall be the last. The Bible says that God uses the weak things of the earth to bring to naught, things that are great. And it's also been shown that (especially in males from 17-24) who have some kind of deep inner lack or weakness, turn to homosexuality as a coping mechanism for a lack of self love and authenticity within themselves. I did it to. For me it was my mental illness that caused me to be weak, it's not gone yet like. But it's a hell of a lot better...people only find god when they REALLY search, and why would someone put loads of effort into finding god if they didn't need something desperately. I was indeed the lowest of the low as well. Raised christian, I was the fat annoying Christian 14 year old who always was just somehow annoying and always talked about how you were wrong and I was right. Jesus Christ like. But yeah, thats why you'll find that homosexuality is probably more active within the guys on this site. I realised I wasn't gay though, I mean...fuck, if you wana do that, go for it...this is just an observation of my own that I'm pointing out. One thing I will stress is to *remember* you should not be in denial of any part of yourself. The only way you can heal from something is by first accepting where you are at first. That isint my opinion, this is actually a deep insight I got recently. And it's very important. Accept any of these feelings you have and then look deeper and accept what is there to..

Lol

@Highest i became conscious that god is everything recently. Rather amazing actually

I've realised that the deepening of awareness doesn't *remove* reality, it only removes what is not reality...and that turns out to be more than you thought [ironically]

@Mezanti right so, basically I have seen in my own experience that it's better not to think about all this kinda shit. I have seen recently that all knowledge is bullshit and as it turns out...*Literally* the only thing that matters are the practises...hitting long ass sits, at least an hour and just basically making sure your technique doesn't become relaxed...I fall into a trap every other week but I'm effortlessly passing through each trap and overcoming them. So, for sure just don't worry about knowledge at all. It all turns out to be complete shite anyway...and useless. Using thoughts and symbolism *can* be useful in that they can help us submit more deeply sometimes by sympathising slightly with the ego nature that needs some *thing* to submit to. Then use that as a spring board into a healthy practise of nothing.

@Moment holy fuck

...cuz I just cant be arsed doing the preparatory ones, I just want to flick through the book and do the concentration practises. I'm I missing out on enlightenment if I don't do the specific breathing practises like pranayama and ujay pranayama (or however you spell it)...?

@PetarKa ok, yes...but your beliefs wrap around reality in real time. We fuse beliefs and experience together to make what I call "sensory concepts" or "picture concepts" or "location concepts." A mixture between actual reality, and a variety of senses to create a concept. For example, you believe you are reading enlish right now...you are not. Whole there ARE black markings on your screen right now(actual), "English" is a concept that we have both agreed upon...and so we mix half reality with half interpretation to create an augmented reality, and notice how hard it is to see that your not reading English right now.

??? "Who is delusional and ignorant?" - "I am" Hahaha, perfect

What singlar "point" in you that, when removed, would cause "you" to be removed? Your fingernail? Your face? If your face was replaced would you cease to exist? What part of your body? Your brain? What part of the brain? Your knowledge? If it were removed would you still be here, experiencing life directly? If you lost your memory would you cease to exist or would there still be a "you"? What personality attribute that, when removed, would cause *you* to be removed? What is the point that is "you" in your direct experience?

I will become conscious of God one day. Ffs ?