Aaron p

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  1. @LfcCharlie4 the kind of karma I've been passed down isint very good, if thats how it works. My mind was riddled with immense dysfunction and insecurity. I'm having do to a lot of fixing, all my relatives from my mum's side are all psychotic and immature like children. And these are adults older than me. So basically I have a lot of hidden shit in my mind and it can easily warp me into a bad trip, I've found that just a little bit of MDMA can angle the trip in a new direction. My 50mgDMT/100mgMD trip was sensational
  2. @Reils it's a very camouflaged thing. Someone's mind creates the illusion of spiritual progress in the form of what I call " "anti-knowledge" knowledge." Creating images of enlightenment and thinking about meditating etc. Hard to know when your not tricking yourself
  3. @cl0udmaker i love feeling the cold tingling energy in my hands, back of my throat, bottom of my spine. It feels lush like someone's dropping little drops of liquid nitrogen on the back of my tongue. Although I can never get the energy to run smoothly up my spine via visualisation. Bit shite but sure, I'll get it someday
  4. @Ibn Sina fo bro don't care about your silly ass ?. What psychedelics have you done just out of interest?
  5. Everything can become addictive mentally. But chemically the ones you Wana be careful with are Mdma and ket. They aren't really psychedelics
  6. Be aware that antidepressants and antipsychotics are very dangerous to use while using dmt. I've heard it's very dangerous to use both at the same time. *** Also, be aware of what might be causing your anxiety and depression. Are you using any other drugs at all, like weed (makes you very anxious). Be aware that overactivity in the brain (caused by different things such as ADHD) can result in lower than average dopamine/seretonen production. Meaning that you have less naturally produced "feel good" chemicals in your brain than other people. Resulting in lower self esteem, lower confidence, feeling unhappy all the time. Be aware that you may (probably will) have to face scary aspects of yourself if you embark on this healing journey. Also be aware that this is the only way to heal. Also be aware that your mind will try to scare you by over-exaggerating *how* scary it will be and it will try to get you to not use psycs. Gd luck
  7. With my mental health issues I discovered that the problem was too much activity in the brain. Too many thoughts. You'd be surprised to realise how fake all of it is. Your mind is the lense through which you experience the world except you don't see it as subjective experience you just see it as the world...it feels real. If your mind is partially gone the only way to end your suffering is to make your mind go away completely...lose your mind altogether. And the only way to do this is enlightenment, and one of the fastest ways to enlightenment is psychedelics. (Dont conceptualise what "losing your mind" is like...you'll just freak yourself out fam) Dedicate yourself to the path and learn from your intuition let it be the only thing to guide you. Your intuition becomes more clear after a while of listening to it. @abundance you have to learn the language of silence. Silence isint your mind being empty, it's the removal of your mind altogether. You literally forget that you are a human who is meant to have a mind. Just trust me mate follow your intuition and your gut. Learn how to enter into nothing. Do kryia yoga and self enquiry. When it comes to psychedelics I would definitely encourage you to try them carefully. Don't go for psycs that will induce big long trips like LSD. Also research about "trip killers". My best advice to you (considering I've had a similar experience myself) would be to get powerful, short lasting psychedelics. Like DMT, 2-CB. In the psychedelic realm, it is actually the low doses that freak you out because you start thinking. You've still got relative control over your mind, and you've got a long time to think about the trip and freak yourself out. You want short and powerful. You have to completely surrender yourself to the trip in every way. Don't try to control it, make sense of it or make it do what you want. If you want out of this your gonna have to fight for it my friend. Peace will not come to you, you must fight for your own freedom. But psychedelics are highly recommended by me. It's either that or you stay the way you are forever, confused and fearful until you die. Take a deep breath and a brave step forward And you wana know a secret? You can fucking do it ? you can
  8. @Justine i personally found the exact same thing. LSD was one of the first psycs I did and I had the exact same experience. Bad trips, long...bad trips. I think LSD is a bad starter drug. Too long. Then a bad trip will last for ages. Although friend, I have a feeling that bad trips are what burns through negative stuff in your mind. All of that stuff is there anyway, it's just being revealed to your conscious mind by the drug. You have to learn, one way or another, to harmonize with the energy around you. To move with it and not try to control it. To not try to understand it. To simply "be" with it. When you try to control it it doesn't like it. Inquire into your own mind regarding any anxiety or depression you may have. Don't think about it just sit with it and desire for your understanding to go deeper, the desire alone will bring you deeper. The problem is, you experience what it's like to lose parts of your mind when you enter a psychedelic trip. Becoming comfortable with that kind of thing isint always easy. You have to give up control completely. Let it do what it wants to do. Also. Don't smoke weed daily that shit makes you anxious and paranoid af. If you can get yourself some clean mdma, take about 100-120 mg of it one hour before you consume your psychedelic compound and your trip will likely shoot in a much nicer direction. However if you've never did MD before try it out someday before hand to get a feeling for it. And watch your gums, you'll chew them. Get a lolli pop or some gum and keep it in your mouth or you'll end up with bloody chewed up gums and tongue. Lastly, I prefer the psychedelics that thrust you into the spirit realm at 500mph. No time for mind to fuck it up. No time to get anxious. No time at all! Dmt is brill. Try just not moving when you see a dark entity moving towards you. Don't fight it or invite it. Just don't move. Don't think don't do anything. And when it feels like it's killing you, still don't move. The monster under your bed is only scary as long as it stays under your bed where you can't see it. Most monsters only want to be loved, they just don't know how to. Tell it that you love it, and mean it. Go up to the monster and give it a hug. Ask yourself why am I scared of this thing? What is it that I am actually fearful of. It can't kill me, it itself is me. Make friends with the demons, that's what I did
  9. @zeroISinfinity reading this after my DMT trip is so funny. Nobody is enlightened because the only thing that people can do is disappear, it is God who is getting enlightened lol
  10. why you bashing psychedelics bro? I got more insight in 15 mins with a 0.05 gram dose of DMT than I got with nearly a year and a half of one hour a day, every day practise with extremely hardcore practises. @Ibn Sina (with reference to the quote^) be careful your not being guilty of what your telling other people... I got a fuck tonn of wisdom after I took my pill. Why does wisdom not come from taking a pill? What chemicals are in your brain that allow you to form wisdom in the first place? This personally just sounds like dogma to me. Why can't a pill grant incredible insight? Who says so? This sounds dogmatic to the point of irrationality ?
  11. @How to be wise and his articulation, application and communication skills are the best I've seen. It's really about how much insight someone has. Christian's call it the anointing of the holy ghost. It's not about how smart someone is. I can see it so clearly on leo, it's so obvious for me
  12. @Flix the most important part is staying empty and letting your intuition guide you and move you. There comes a point where you have to let go of finding it so that it can find you
  13. @Scholar firstly, there is nobody else I have ever seen who has such ability to synergize and compile the most powerful teachings and techniques. So fucken cool, with the wisdom and simplicity of a zen teacher and the power of modern technology and knowledge...Leo's techniques are fucking explosive. To say that they are explosive is an understatement. They are all encompassing. Books can never communicate any spiritual shit they only communicate theoretical concepts *about* spiritual shit. But you can point towards it with words if your clever. I wouldn't be fucken surprised if leo has legit reached unique levels of consciousness that have rarely been experienced by other humans. He is a powerhouse. It's his ability to take things apart and make them work together with other things in incredible ways. Wisdom. Such depth. It's just incredible. The word beautiful comes to mind. It is truly beautiful. Like a piece of art.
  14. How is this shit possible
  15. This is (rather accurate) teaching on how to find follow and full fill God's will for your life. It's all about getting good at hearing that vibration (voice) on the inside of you and moving in the direction that it leads. The voice told me to listen to leo. (Andrew is still a Christian with limited teachings but he is divinely inspired to a degree) this video series isint bad like.
  16. @Bennn "is there ultimately any reason for me to fear doing the "wrong" thing. Again, I grew up with strong morals - so I'm not about to start being evil, but there are a number of goals that I have which would be furthered through dishonesty and/or selfishness." I was raised christian as well (protestant). So I had to contemplate my ass out of religion one day at a time and it took quite a while. Your talking about morals. See the thing is, Christian's talk about becoming transformed, about dying and being born again into holiness and purity of heart. But there's one problem. There is no real transformation. Which is why christian teachers *have* to teach heavily about morality. If you were really transformed, you would produce holy works effortlessly. And if you ask many Christian's if their good works are effortless (if they're being honest) they will say "no, it's very difficult to keep doing good works and keep avoiding bad works." When there is a true transformation that happens deep down at the root of your being, that rips out your old sinful nature and replaces it with a holy nature, holy works follow effortlessly. Let me ask you this. If I had an apple tree planted in my garden, it will produce apple trees. If I then went to the Apple tree, tore it out of the ground from it's roots and replaced it with a pear tree...would it be extremely difficult for this pear tree to produce pears and not produce apples? Would it required constant effort to not produce apples? No, because a true transformation has taken place. Ephesians 2:9 "Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done..." Only by dying (and being born again) can our works change. Seek first the kingdom of God and *his* righteousness (not your own self righteousness) and all these things shall be added onto ye. Belief isint powerful enough to bring this radical transformation. Salvation is enlightenment and you are Jesus. Do not concern yourself with morality. Live in effortlessness and change will come *if* you "become transformed by the renewal of your mind." Roman's 12:2. Being good won't get you to God, it will distract you from God because of how focused you are on yourself. Get to god by dying (becoming enlightened) then (like Jesus) you will be born again, a second time and your works will be holier accidentally. Your good works are like filthy rags. This guy (Andrew wommack) is a Christian teacher but his teachings are mystical to a degree. He is the one god used to loosen my grip on religion (Andrew claims to hate religion). This is one of his videos about effortless change.
  17. @Jkhv1 Same. It's the old story of the man who went in search for truth to heal himself but discovered something greater than himself and becomes humbled by what he discovers. Dr Strange went to heal his hands, I went to heal my mind. And boom, we're both wizards now lol@actualizing25
  18. I was thinking, sadhguru looks like the Hindu santa kinda lol He knows if you've been naughty or nice haha Hope santa brings all of us a wee bag of 5-MeO ?