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I am in love, and love is in me

On my 350 ug LSD trip (which I don't usually use phycs yet, I wanted to build a natural foundation the first year), I waited until the peak and started telling all of the demons to come out and face me. It actually felt quite good to face them. Although, I felt shite the next day. Starting to feel like I can feel reality dying around me, like a muscle that is lacking in nutrition and blood/oxygen. Feels pretty shit tbh, but sure it'll be worth it in the end. Gonna start taking my 5meo. I actually was thinking about trip killers recently to, coincidence.

Belfast we are stage turquoise, infact, we're so evolved that we are above turquoise. Lol, or maybe I'm just being biased

You eventually are forced to realise that all humans only act the way they act because of chemicals in the brain. People do not choose to be selfish or greedy or evil, they are as much as victim as you are. This is why the concept of "devil" comes in, the idea of a separate being that manifests in you and creates havoc, and that this is the real target. However the only way to truly realise this is by discovering it about yourself. In short, the answer to your problem is self enquiry. But it'll take you a while to realise that this person your holding a grudge against is as much the victim as you here. You must reach through their evil to help the person themselves out of the evil that has ensnared them. (Then again, people don't really exist...but it's handy to imagine they exist in this case.) Now, you could just do it the old fashioned way and come up with a really good way to take revenge if that tickles your fancy more. I recommend a stealthy motherfucker approach, something that won't get you caught. If you really hate them you could just knife their tyres. What's wrong with a little revenge? Also, I actually promote revenge and destruction to the person in certain circumstances. For example, a corrupt police force would be suitable for destruction, otherwise they're going to cause even more destruction themselves. 2 wrongs do make a right sometimes. But remember the Golden rule of being a ruthless motherfucker, be smarter than everyone else.

Just today I took 350 ug of LSD and had a massive encounter with God. It felt like I was drowning in waves of pure consciousness. I burst into tears after finishing meditating for an extra hour. I'm petrified and deeply moved. And all I could do was smile and have a big fat cigar to celebrate haha. It feels like there's yet a lot to ponder though. ?????‍♂️

Leo, can you describe the kind of suffering that came about as a direct result of your spiritual growth? How it behaved? How did it feel to have then been relieved off the suffering? How can one discern, when suffering in general, whether the suffering is a good kind of suffering (one that is a sign of spiritual growth) or unrelated suffering? For me this is a very good topic, since if seekers do not know what kind of suffering to look for, they may think something is legitimately wrong with them. Also, if someone did have something legitimately wrong with them emotionally or psychologically they may interpret this as the suffering to be expected, and in turn not getting help for example, and then living in torment senselessly. We must know about the suffering if we are expected to became more conscious of it.

@Leo Gura have you ever told them about spirituality and enlightenment tho?

@ajasatya very much so

@Truth Addict "They all stem from the belief that no belief is true..." Interesting...thank you for your input, you've raised my consciousness slightly there. This is something that I have only now become conscious of.

I'm very much a lone wolf. It's nearly shocking how much of my life has stopped and the amount of people I speak to. I've noticed that I'm very very passive and really don't care about literally anything. Nearly like I'm there but I'm not there, like in a daydream (metaphorically). I became so passive that I lent my laptop to a girl and just forgot about it hahahaha. It seems like I've now got an incredible ability to save money as well. It seems like I spend wayyyyyyyyyy less money. I have an incredible, growing feeling of uncertainty in the future as well. I know what you mean when you say "existential meh". It sucks in my opinion.@Preetom

...well, just find the one who desires. Don't try to be holy, or live holy...only a distraction

I've noticed that my knee caps are starting to bend outward because of the classic meditation position. I've actually started to notice a little bit of pain in my right knee. Some professional thoughts?

Thank fuck for that bro

Thank fuck for that

I remember being so at peace while on mdma...truly beautiful. But be careful, your dopamine levels will regulate to the level the mdma gives you and you'll feel more and more shit with a lower (normal) level of dopamine. I remember while I was on it I realised that all of my suffering was an illusion, and that the mind was a complete illusion. I really want to start embracing phycedelics...I feel the spirit of God moving me to take my 5meoDMT. I know that he is real, everything points me to him...even my suffering. It is my only desire to vanish in his presence, I gladly sacrifice my life for God's sake. It is truly, the only thing worth my life.

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I've noticed that my knee caps are starting to bend outward because of the classic meditation position. I've actually started to notice a little bit of pain in my right knee. Some professional thoughts?

And the only way to realize, is through meditation, self enquiry, phycedelics, retreats, contemplation. Surrender your knowledge, and find the one who observes. If you try to achieve enlightenment via knowledge alone, you will be worse off than before.

@theking00 first of all, your currently dreaming that your in a dream. Your also dreaming that there is a way out of the dream that your imagining. But when you finally get to the point where you think "YESS I did it, I existed the dream." This is also dream. All that is possible is realization

Also, do not seek to exit the dream... impossible. Infact, you will be more harmonious and fitted into the dream after enlightenment. I'm going to make a video soon about this, just because it's very important to not retract away from the dream, or to try to escape it. Because what that actually does is just creates deeper layers of the dream and drives you further into deception. The ego will want to exit the dream, and will try lots of things....it will Imagine itself being separated from the dream, not realising that it has just creates a new layer of the dream and it thinks it's out of the dream.

Who is the one who wishes to destroy the "ego"?

@abrakamowse yeah man, and there are lots of great implications of this truth. To really understand that the real Jesus Christ is literally you. The Jesus that all Christians know and love, the ACTUAL son of the infinite Creator. All power in heaven and on Earth is given unto you. All religions, all philosophy, even the date 2019 AD (ANNO DOMINI/after death). It's all about you. As soon as someone stops imagining that this is true, and actually realizes....holy fuck, I think im.....literally the Son of an infinite God. Oh shit. That's when cool stuff starts happening. Most people will treat it like "ahh yes I know I'm Jesus, but the real Jesus of the Bible is what I like...I like the real Jesus." Wrong, the Jesus of the Bible is fake, he didn't exist. You are the real version, not the other way around. Its an absolutely brilliant truth to contemplate. 1 John 4:17 "...we are just like Jesus in this world." All powerful

@jim123 actually, for the most part Christ was extremely rebellious with regards to religion. He constantly attacked the religious people and their human religion. Religion is man's own effort to reach God by good works. However this is the heart of satanism, if you read why God cast Satan out of his presence, it was because Satan tried to be like God...just like the religious people. He went into the religious temple, whipped the religious people and flipped over tables to drive them out. He also declared that he would destroy their temple, which he did. Now, the only temple that exists...is your body. "Know ye not that your body the temple of the Holy Ghost?" The religious people are the ones who hated Jesus the most. They trust in their own works. And also, Jesus did say that you should believe in him...but once again, you literally are Jesus. Do not miss this. If you miss this, you miss the entire point

I've been holding back on the phycs up until now...my mind was a little bit too unstable for them until recently. Im gonna start doing LSD, shrooms, DMT, 5-meo-dmt, dpt ( if I can get it). I've got 25 tabs of 275ug LSD to be delivered to me soon so that'll be good.

@Cody_Atzori Switch legs or do zazen (walking meditation)