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@Leo Gura hey dude... There's a link between autoimmune disorder and psychosis... definitely something there, my intuition is telling me

@Member aw man, when I was on the grass...I had so much anxiety and I could barely trip. Wasn't good. Thankfully I'm off almost all drugs except psycs and cbd. Feeling way better

@Leo Gura yeah I dont know what the fuck it was...I'm gonna order a handful of different batches of regular freebase and hcl to see and I'll report lol. I felt so terrible that I was gonna be the only one that 5meo didn't work for haha. Thank fuck

@Leo Gura i got a batch of hcl 5meo and a different batch of crystal isolate (freebase i think) 5meo from a different vendor... The crystal isolate freebase was so weird and strange... definitely had psychedelic-like experience but very strange experiences indeed. Sometimes nothing happened. But this hcl version I got agessss ago, ive smoked it twice and both times I've noticed WAYYYYYYYY more power. I even theorise that plugging might work for me. I think The only reason plugging it didn't work for me before (the hcl that was powerful when smoked) was because of the resilient insolubility of the hcl 5meo I got (which was also another problem I seen others having). Another point to make...I notice that it's extremely common that (good) 5meo often makes the person have sensations of sickness and throwing up. With the second batch (crystal isolate) I had no sick feelings and had very little power in the trips...with the 10-15mg of the old hcl batch I had from before...it provided me with a significantly more powerful experience and feelings of sickness/wanting to throw up...which is good! My plan is to shop around online and get some small amounts of 5meo and test each...to get a reliable vendor. Or...who knows, that crystal isolate might have been fine...it could just be that hcl is more for me. I do not know. But I will know! I'm going to order multiple batches to gain a bearing on what I'm meant to be experiencing

@OBEler im gonna try plugging with some more hcl of a different batch. Gonna smoke some of the hcl first to make sure it's the same as the stuff I smoked today then plug it

When raising the eyes towards third eye I always have trouble but I just wear an eye mask to take care of eye twitching for example

Focus on crown chakra consistently or sensation of thumb and index finger touching

True bro^@Member But psycs do heal. Finding a way to use them is very powerful... probably *the* most powerful tool for healing we have. It's true that psycs can make you feel anxious and temporarily worsen your anxiety, but perhaps a low dose of shrooms (1 gram dried) or a low dose of lsd (look into trip killers also, they've been reportedly able to just stop trips in their tracks). Only thing is LSD lasts 12 fucken hours haha. At least with DMT if you have a bad trip you'll be back in 20 mins. Don't use DMT if your on anti-depressants...that's lethal I think lol. Don't you worry child, see heavens gotta plan for you??

@Dylan Page hey man, just know this...that existential pain (greatest suffering in the world when I had it) makes for INCREDIBLE fuel for awakening... You should do what I did, dedicate yourself to the discovery/path. Do it legit. Even on this website, actual awakening is very very rare. Become one of the few to actually become immortal God♥️ do not believe you are God. Do not disbelieve you are God either. Practices practices practices. Kriya yoga, self enquiry, concentration, contemplation, investigation. You've clearly got something up with your mind...you could be psychotic. Truth is, I don't know why you have existential anxiety. But one thing I know...healing is available if your willing to do the practices. Most people here don't focus on the practices and don't take it seriously... And the only thing I have to say is, if your condition is making your life Impossible to live happily, then the only logical choice is to dedicate yourself to the path of healing. The actual version. Sacrafice your entire life and you will save your life ??? Matthew 16:25 (NLT, Bible) "If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it." Nobody will understand when you try to explain this to them by the way. They wont. Get yourself some psychedelics my friend, and use them with care and power. They are the real workers of magic. ♥️ Anxiety was massive for me, I know very much what it's like. Also, doctors won't help you. Practices (and psycs) will help u. Test your psycs before consumption. You do not know what awaits you post awakening. I'm not awake yet, but I know what is awaiting my intuitively. I feel it's bliss stalking me. Heaven. Nirvana. BLISS ????? everlasting life. Unending love. Entering the divine dimensions

Be real, you don't have to pretend with this stuff... The power comes when you realise that this shit isint pretend. Focus on what is legit/real

I have great doubt that your aren't in control of these "episodes", have you been using powerful psychedelics?.. DMT...? If not then don't talk about your ego freaking out hhahaha

Fuck em mate, he wasnt ready

@Heart of Space interesting mate^ @Dylan Page I would add to this...beware of any kind of consistent drug use especially ESPECIALLY marijuana...do you smoke weed?

I've heard that the synchronizations exponentially accelerate until it literally produces miraculous outcomes

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...nobody acknowledging the fact that awakening makes you immortal?

Yo, if you have a big ass shadow it doesn't matter how nice you try to be...you'll manifest evil. You gotta do consciousness work. Meditation, contemplation, yoga, inquiry, psyc retreats

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I've noticed that I'm really starting to value people more ♥️♥️

Spiritual journey is the hardest journey in the world, until you realise what the real spiritual journey looks like, then it becomes the easiest journey in the world...and just gets easier and easier haha. Laughably easy, like cheating haha

@Ellenier @Ellenier the first positive thing is the fact that you aren't one of these people who are like "ahhh yes I have found the no-needle, I am emptiness and I have found the emptiness therefore let me not search anymore." It's important to note that when that *actually* happens you will become instantly immortal. The Lord has been speaking to me recently about allowing him to meditate *for* me. There are always two different kinds of spirituality, human spirituality, and REAL spirituality and lots of variety of degrees and levels and mixtures of authenticity in between both. You should know that the self enquiry that you started with SHOULD NOT be the self enquiry that you practise after 5 or 10 years. It changes and you should allow it to change. The most important part is your heart behind it, keep your motives authentic and never give up. Allow yourself to realise that self enquiry is actually bullshit until it is transformed into the REAL kind of spiritual self enquiry. This ONLY happens in direct experience. Comes to a point where you let go of your practice to delve into REAL practice which comes about intuitively. This kind is more powerful and less difficult in my opinion. Letting go. Notice, "letting go" is not something you can *do* its like having sex with a girl...you can set up the situation over and over again, but only when the magic (love) is *actually* there can you make love. And you just have to wait on it and pursue it

@Display_Name yeah man I'll try

@vikisss1 i was gonna object to your post title but I seen that you are also saying that it doesn't always lower awareness but actually might even increase awareness. I mean, complex and difficult video games are what pushed my mind to think independently and in extreme measures of creativity. I cant really talk though because I don't know what awareness is haha, no clue whatsoever. It'll take more DMT trips. I think video games boost overall mind power though. However they can be bad, releasing dopamine alllllll the time and 12 year olds spending 4 hours every single day on Minecraft, C.S go and fortnight. It releases the same chemical that gambling releases, making it addictive.

... fulfilment of all mankind, understand everything, become immortal, live in a nirvanic reality of divinity and perpetual bliss. You literally go to heaven

@WaveInTheOcean niceeeeeee I really liked that trip report. I wish I had some spiritual friends in rl who were legit and not fake spiritualists, some people I could smoke DMT in a loving setting with. I'll be mixing MDMA and DMT soon myself, I've got some MD ordered. Although mate, Molly lasts 3-6 hours, you should do like...4 or 5 breakthrough doses while your feeling the euphoria of md. That's what I'm gonna do, squeeze the juice out of it