Aaron p

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  1. This is a very...interesting, thread
  2. @Patrick Lynam only trust the voice on the inside. Be indifferent to all teachings until the guru confirms it in your heart. If you close your eyes and open your heart...become sensitive to the unction of the spirit and make this your sole compass...you will succeed. It is in this simplicity that God is found. It's like how a child makes decisions, they don't sit and analyse...they go with the feeling. Females tend to be good at this more than men I've noticed, however men can do it to. These are high truths bro
  3. Yeah I perceive that enlightenment is like a build up of pressure like water building and building until one day BOOM your ass blows out and you cease to exist as an ego. It's pure emptiness I see in an enlightened being. Very powerful
  4. @TDW1995 Yeah I find it hard to talk about anything else other than god, enlightenment or philosophy. Especially because of the nature of how my brain works I think. Obsessive kinda. But I really don't mind that. I can't take drugs or go partying without having fucking visions of the lord haha it's cool tho
  5. @Patrick Lynam sounds like some bullshit to me homes. I recommend, meditating your ass off
  6. Ok when I first watched Leo's video "how to do self enquiry" to me it was very simple...leo said that you have to "look for yourself". "Am I the face, am I the heart, am I the images in the imagination." "Where am i?" These are the kinds of questions included in Leo's practical guide to enlightenment. He said that self enquiry is not like a meditation. I did this for around a year. Sat down, tried to locate myself. I would imagine my leg and ask "is this me" and then imagine it being removed and say "no this cannot be me". And this is how I did self enquiry. Very rigid, very active. But then someone told me I've been doing it wrong this whole time. One of the moderators on the site here told me "it's not about asking yourself what you are over and over again...it's about being quiet and when a thought arises, only then ask who is perceiving it. Someone else told me that I "shouldnt ask the question 'what am I'." Then, someone showed me a video with a guided meditation where she keeps saying "identify a characteristic of your observer...now, who is the one who observes this? Focus on this new observer. Then who is observing this? Focus on this second new observer." But to me it just feels like it's just me there, one observer, staring into darkness trying to see these other observers? Really confused. Don't understand all the mixed messages, should I sit in silence and wait for a thought? Should I actively seek out what I am with thoughts? Should I focus on these "observers" (that I'm pretty sure I'm just imagining anyway)? At one point someone actually told me that I shouldn't even be looking for myself in self enquiry at all. So....I really need some clarity up in this hoe Someone tell me what I'm supposed to do. After the moderator told me not to repeat the question "who/what/where am I" I resonated with this advice. But this contradicts Leo's video where he tells me to try really hard to locate myself. ??????
  7. Mate I'm tired of being in the "spiritual seeking intensifies" shit. I Wana have the shock of ego. I'm gonna have to get my ass in gear and start taking this seriously
  8. @FuriousGeorge i usually just blab it out whenever I want to. If someone has a problem that I know a spiritual truth that can help...I'll just tell them straight up. Of course, depending on each person and truth you have to be very clear with how you present it to them. Funny, my father (a strong Baptist/Pentecostal mix christian) is always hearing mad shit come out of my mouth and just recently he's started perking his ears up Everytime I go "philosophical mode." Haha. Today I was sitting in class, getting a beating from the ego....worry, anxiety, pain. And it was making me think about how I'm a human. Anyway I just turned round to my mate and said "so mate, what do you think about all this business?" He said "what business, our (college) course (he's my college buddy)?" And I said "nah, I mean all this human malarkey...being a human and all.....do you like it?! I dunno." ? And he just didn't know what to say back. But I think, when your open and forward about the things you contemplate...it opens others minds to new flexibilities and consciousness. #FreePhilosophy
  9. Yes this is good advice. Remember that it's about letting go. I myself was more focused on doing the techniques correctly that I was on letting go. I was robotic and linear with my practices. I would say something I've realised is, the most important thing is remembering to forget (letting go). It should feel like your a sand castle on the beach, and the tide is slowly coming in. It should start to wash you away. Try lots of techniques. Try talking to the Great Spirit. See if it talks back. If you want to know what your doing wrong, go buy some nice, clean DMT, test/weigh it, smoke it and ask the Spirit for yourself. Remember, the techniques are only templates...once you realise what this spirit is, the practices become more fluid and nonlinear...like a dance. Nearly, improvised intuitively.
  10. Ok, a retreat is meant to be solid, back to back, no breaks, meditation. That's what gives it it's power. Also, I've found it's not as easy as leo makes it look. Meditating for 5 hours alone proves to be quite a challenge for me. I would personally start with an aim of 3 hours then 5/6 hours, then 8 hours etc. Don't run before you can walk. On top of that you need to work in some zazen (walking meditation) otherwise your *ass* will cease to exist before *you* cease to exist...trust me. Check out zazen. You also need to make sure your practices are on point. I only found out recently that I wasn't doing self enquiry 100% correctly. The most important part is sinking down deep into the meditation and losing yourself in it, it would appear. I know leo would also say "take psychedelics at the end of the retreat not at the start". Psychedelics usually throw me off my pattern, hence why I use them at the end. With regards to the techniques and alternating them...keep this in the back of your head: the longer you do *one practise* the more powerful that one practise will be. I feel as though it would be more powerful to do vepaasana for 4 hours, then self enquiry for 4 hours and keep switching them ever 4 hours....rather than doing 1 hour of each and switching ever hour. You want to build momentum. Also prepare some food, you don't want to be doing hardcore meditation while driving McDonald's and ordering a big Mac ✌?
  11. Don't get too caught up in the detail. Remember, the only reason the Bible exists is because it is a story about you, and your death and ressurection in the end times. When God will roll up the universe like a cloth and destroy it, then bring a new heaven and Earth into existence...heaven *on* earth forever
  12. The only people I have seen who really take this shit seriously are those who have suffered incredible pain. I myself have suffered immensely and deeply, I remember one day I was in a doctor's room so confused and bewildered...trying to quantify and put into words the amount of suffering I was experiencing. Really, I am the lucky one...I find it easy to be motivated towards spirituality, it heals me more and more. When I stop I suffer. Brilliant, brilliant fuel for spirituality. Really makes you take it seriously. I feel for those who turn to religion, those who aren't wise enough to perceive what religion points to. I would say it would be very hard for a "happy" person to discover God. Of course nobody is really happy without God...not permanently. If you have someone who thinks they're happy, and who isint wise or conscious...chances are, that person will only become God at their physical death bed. And that's shite, I wana be God in the flesh! I want to see infinite beauty while I occupy this body. God mode lol. Suffering is gooooooooood for spiritual shit.
  13. @Jesus Daniel interesting, i havent done much research into what happens in that case. it could be completely unrelated. Well anyway, have a word with a doctor just get checked...and then if you're sweet go ahead with the weighed and tested 5-MeO-DMT
  14. @AlwaysBeNice leo is by far the best teacher. He is extremely powerful in his teaching methods and extremely dynamic. very wise