Aaron p

5meo breakthrough. I'm not gonna lie, I've been super scared to really take 5meo seriously, I've had a lot of shadow work to go through. Nearing the "start" of my psychonaught journey, I did DMT with a lot of shadow work and it's been haunting me ever since...until now. I've plugged 5meo before a few times, both to no avail. I've used this as a massive procrastination. However I've also secretly known that, by waiting, I will have sufficiently purified myself to withstand the full blow of a 5meo breakthrough. And I did haha. No vomiting. I have to say, this was quite beautiful...and I only now realise that this is infact the real start of my psychonaught journey. As soon as I smoked all of my anxiety left and a year and half an of kryia yoga, self enquiry mixed with a decade of deep metaphysical contemplation, acted footing on which I could stand as I leapt into the wordless realization that EVERYTHING is much different than what I thought. I instantly recognised that this was holy ground. I became INSTANTLY sensitive to everything in my direct experience so much and my body began vibrating and shaking like mad, but it was so good...it actually felt like, sexual. It felt amazing. I was shaking soooooooo much. Listening to this song at I took off... Now I know that 5meo is my new best friend lol. I have never been happier, not because of the trip...but because of something else I realized within the trip, this isint even the full "real" start. I instantly sensed that there were far deeper levels like leo says. I could feel it. It's like there was an ocean beneath me, and I was only starting to learn how to hold my breath lol. There was definitely a bit of nausea. Man, I feel like someone has just scooped me out and made me hollow. I must say, this was fucking incredible. Can't wait to increase dosage

Just had my first full blown 20mg 5meo smoked breakthrough lol. Everything feels pretty funky lol

Be careful, the ego is the one who believes that there is no ego haha. When asking the question, "who is getting scared" instead of answering this question with "spiritual" answers, realise that you are the one who sees all answers in your actual direct experience...then see everything, and realise that none of it is you. Do not believe this, look for yourself and see. Intuition, intuition, intuition ♥️

@Tistepiste im not saying all guys who turn gay do so out of some kind of ailment but it is absolutely true that a lot of guys do. It is definitely an observation I have made. For whatever reason, guys who are extremely unattractive or bad at game tend to lean towards homosexuality. This has nothing to do with any kind of beliefs I have, and I don't mean to offend anyone but it's simply my observation. I'm not saying this is a bad or good thing, it's just a phenomenon that I see, and is not true for every person. Literally just a small observation of mine

my daily practise is now kryia yoga followed by self enquiry following by the "look at your hand" technique which usually runs for an hour and a half. The hand technique is by far my favourite, its extremely powerful at the end of a meditation sesh. One thing i would say is this, i personally dont think self enquiry is taught very well here, mixed messages, unclear methodology. For the first year of my self enquiry i was analysing thoughts and thinking constantly. This is more contemplation than self enquiry. This website expresses the methodology behind self enquiry excellently in my opinion (https://www.yogajournal.com/meditation/the-shining)@Heaven "...introduce the question "Who am I?" The point of this question is not to engage the mind, because the mind inevitably gnaws on questions endlessly like a dog on a bone, with little nutritional benefit. Instead, drop the question into the stillness of your being like a pebble into a still forest pool. Let it send ripples through your meditation, but don't attempt to figure it out! When the pond is tranquil again, drop in another pebble and see what happens. Set aside any conceptual answers, such as "I am a child of God" or "I am consciousness" or "I am a spiritual being of light," and come back to the question. Though true at a certain level, these answers will not satisfy your hunger for spiritual sustenance." Asking the question, "what is aware of this thought" and instead of grasping onto "things" and "ideas" simply see that the perception of the thought is effortless. Following the intuition is absolutely key. Trust your intuitive unction over leo, over me, over everything. Let it morph and change your practise

"If you do psychedelics properly you are not going to be looking forward to the next time your planning on taking a psychedelic, you do not do it for fun." - Leo In my own personal opinion LSD is a terrible drug in a few ways. i like a trip to be hard and fast. For me its like getting an injection, if the doctor administering the injection slowly edged the needle into my arm and dragged it out i would punch him in the face. I never like a trip to be too long without the help of MDMA, i need to know that if my trip heads in a bad direction, that im not gona be stuck in a twisting whirlpool of my own imagined hell for 12 hours. Also research "trip killers". With an mind that is relatively inexperienced with psychoactive compounds, i always recommend the good old candy flip (which, if im not mistaken, is mixing an appropriate amount of LSD with an appropriate amount of MDMA). This is a must have for me, LSD freaks me the fuck out. MDMA and LSD compliment and intensify eachother and trust me, intensification of MDMA is...orgasmic. Completely makes the trip much easier to handle and points it effortlessly in a positive direction throughout. My personal favourite compound is DMT, i havent mixed mdma and DMT in a while but when i did last time...aw man, it was brill. DMT is extremely intense and extremely fast...only lasts around 10 minutes for me but its powerful. MDMA and mushrooms has also been reported to be a good combo (watch out for nausea), and magic mushrooms last 6 hours (half the time of LSD). If i were you id do mushrooms (use MD if i need to) then try DMT then after a good few trips on that plug some 5meo or DPT. I have a gram of DPT ordered soon. My 5meo isint working rectally so im going to smoke 5mg and see what happens lol

So without your own consciousness right now, you wouldn't even be able to say that consciousness is not primary

I don't know what yoga is, I just do the practices

When I eat something my mouth doesent say to my hand "thank you"... because they are both me. So importance is something that is projected from the idea that your one person. Things cease to be important when you awaken, promises etc. It's like your in a kings big palace thats all golden and royal and stuff. You see the king and bow for fear of execution doing with everyone else. Everyone is careful not to act inappropriately in any way in the king's presence. Imagine that you are following along scared as fuck. You don't even look any of the king's guards in the eye and you keep your head down. Then all of a sudden you remember and realize, "oh shit, yo...I forgot the king is my dad haha." Then you just stand up and command the guard to go get you a drink. And all of a sudden you don't have to carefully revear the statues and laws within the kingdom. You are part of the family who creates the laws! Similarly, realizing who you are frees you from the seriousness of big, scary concepts about things like "god" that you create in your head. Another analogy could be: you sending the king a letter, then worrying and panicking all night about what you said in the letter, hoping everything you wrote was ok...only to receive the letter back the following day, at which point you remember, "oh yeah...im the king!" Lol you can't take it seriously. Its like a dog chasing it's tail, don't take everything too seriously. Psychedelics are powerful, use them!

Forget so much that you forget how to forget

If you want to have a nice distracting path with plenty of obstacles...feel free to read book after book is what I say. Although, it would probably be better to literally forget absolutely everything about everything and tell me what you are

@Girzo (didn't mean the tag<-) @Javfly33 when i do the practice where you imagine the breath going up the spine, through the head and into the white star at the point between the eyes, the first inhalation is always powerful as fuck i...slumped off to one side and nearly passed out one time because of how powerful it was lol

I don't think god can die, "humans" can die and when they do god appears

In Northern Ireland there are no good teachers, but then again...lol...i do set my standard pretty fucking high after leo. I duno if its just me but i really dont give much attention to things that arent real and powerful. Like, i went to this Buddhist temple in Belfast and when i asked the main monk if they'd ever had any kind of awakening experience she laughed at me and said "us lay people dont get to experience that". Im just like...mate, why the fuck would you be sitting meditating, with weak ass techniques, for YEARS...knowing that you probably wont get anywhere anyway (ahahha) and not hit it harder. i just think *real* spirituality and power is more rare that what people realize...i consider myself lucky that i came across leo and his material. very fucking lucky

ive noticed that people who are very aware embrace parts of themselves that more resemble features that would typically be associated with the opposite gender. For example, men who become much much more passionate and sensitive. I have definitely noticed this with myself. Ive become very, very emotionally sensitive. Ive also become more comfortable with the thought of my heterosexuality not being as solid as i might have originally imagined. There are also different reasons that people (males in particular) become bisexual or gay as well. This is simply from my own raw observation...males in particular seem to lean towards homosexuality when they cannot "get" females which is commonly caused by some kind of problem or weakness (may that be physical or mental). But then again, weakness in the kingdom of men is strength in the kingdom of God. But this is defo an observation of mine.

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@Swagala may you cease to exist

i have a gram of DPT on the way hopefully it'll do better than what my 5meo did for me. Might have been a bit out of date. i just love the idea of cleansing my mind so much that i dont experience any kind of fear whatsoever during my DMT trips...i have glimpses of memories about it and holy fuck...its like i enter a different dimension of reality. I cant believe it every time its amazing <3

Because I have a naturally psychotic mind I already am extremely sensitive and aware...so I didn't need hard practises to experience this. I contemplated hardcore long before I knew about leo and this place. I'm noticing some pretty nifty results now, some of which include; - incredible clarity and intelligence - massive degrees of self control - more in touch with social environments (I've become the "cool guy" in my class lol ?) - visualization, drawing, creativity abilities amplified. And each of these points have other sub points that manifest as a result. With clarity and intelligence I find myself solving difficult problems with ease in short spaces of time, my education is now effortless haha. I can see things like nobody else can. I get put on one shift with a new chinese colleague and I've learned how to speak 4 phrases in chinses perfectly, I can play classical and jazz piano, I can now draw very well. self control I've stuck to a diet and I'm in the best shape of my life, im wearing nicer clothes, talking to nicer people. Im more attractive. More in touch with social environments means that I can now relate to people better, I see now that friendship and relationships are about love. I'm connecting with girls better. This is without the use of the most powerful psychedelics, I've really been lagging with my psychedelics and kryia yoga. I won't tolerate any more of my laziness after the end of this month. I've ordered a gram of dpt, so I'll be using that to boost myself to

@Dulinho Brilliant trip report, and your beautiful af girl, are you a singer? (Your pp)

Beware the anti-psychedelic dogma

So you have a a concept about another concept and one of these you would like to stop knowing? Bro. Just watch your hand for 2 hours. You are not the one who removes, you are the one who is removed. Do not try to remove

Clump your practises together, more power. Oh, and...forget everything

My extremely powerful technique. I call it "in one ear, out the other" no joke. I make it my business to forget everything I am taught. There are some gentle guidances that are helpful like beacons that guide a plane when it's landing...for example, the knowledge that enlightenment is meant to feel like your losing your mind is extremely helpful... otherwise, when it starts to feel like your losing your mind you'll stop. But yes I agree with this post a lot. In one ear out the other

Yo, I can't help but agree with this to a degree. An easy way to avoid any delusion is simply not believing you are God. It's not.avout beliefs after all. It will be realized deeply when the time comes. Believe nothing about spirituality