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@Dutch guy interesting...I never thought about it that way before. My college work will hopefully be done soon so I'll be able to start doing consistent 5meo retreats and breakthrough in every one haha. @OBEler you should do whatever feels best for you. Just...don't limit yourself. Take a small bite at a time sure, but done be scared to become comfortable with taking slightly bigger bites of the cake ?? ? @Leo Gura always sorta says to Pace yourself and no need to rush.

@OBEler I wish I could get rectal admin. To work. Unfortunate but sure. I also have a gram of DPT on the way so I'll try rectal dosing with that. Quite annoying but I'll make it work. @Space I can't wait to do a breakthrough dose. Vaping is obviously a lot faster and hard hitting but I've found that if I remain centered/focused it nearly feels like I can slow it down a bit. I'll be giving a report after my first 3 day retreat

@OBEler your not pushing your problem onto my topic man haha ♥️ just like high school musical...We're All In This Together. For me, brother, smoking 5meo is still very comfortable around 10-15mg as long as i bring my mind to centeredness during the come-up. Now that I've kinda established that I [frustratingly] cannot plug or snort my 5meo I'm gonna do a 3 day retreat, do 15mg the first day, 20 the next then 25 the next. If I achieve a breakthrough on 25 I will do another 25mg trip straight after (as long as I'm comfortable). I will hopefully induce an enlightenment experience within the next fortnight ♥️ (I'm having lots of work to do with my college ATM though so I'm gonna have to focus on that to ? annoying. Everyone else is getting predicted grades instead of continuing their coursework cuz of virus...and we are the only ones who aren't. Not fair.) (Also I find the same with hcl. My 5meo hcl wasn't soluble at all...)

@Leo Gura 2 grams of shrooms (most I've done) very little visuals, mostly feelings. 200ug LSD barely any visuals at all...just feelings and thoughts. I've plugged ketamine before (noticably less intense). I've broke through on DMT a few times at around 50 but it's chaotic af. Don't like it. 5meo is absolutely perfect, other than the trip duration. I will experiment to see if I can simulate longer trips with equal, back to back trips. No more than 3 at a time. I shall see

I believe I will greatly increase my odds

I always think...if a person is in constant pain or torture...literally the *only* logical thing to do would be to stop the torture...by any means necessary. I had my own torture and it was getting to the point where I wasn't being able to get out of bed and I had to call my dad because I was trembling with anxiety and fear. I now do an hour and a half of self enquiry/kriya yoga every day and I'll be starting my 5meo retreats soon. I have never been happier...and the knowledge that my happiness will grow exponentially brings me even greater joy hehe. From deep torment to bliss ey. Can't wait to start playing with the big boys with 10 day kriya/SDS 5meo retreats hehe

Don't believe you don't exist this is a subtle trap lol. Don't believe or disbelieve that you are your body/mind. Just look and see. Kriya yoga is good for creating the silence in which you find yourself.

I think I just need a good old 5meo breakthrough experience or two hehe. Can you snort vinegar/5meo? Lol

Haha, I have no idea what reality is...or what non-duality *actually* is. I don't know what consciousness is I don't know what my mind is. I don't know what infinity is (other than concepts). I know nothing haha.

The nondual luck of the Irish ???

Ket is so good. It's delicious, my fave drug. However it's also extremely addictive and an antidepressant...which means if you take it lots it'll start to fuck you up.

Accepting evil parts of yourself doesn't mean you should act on them. Accepting those parts of yourself is the first step in process of healing.

When I get enlightened im go a go out clubbing, dance all night with pretty girls and take one home I literally CANT FUCKING WAIT. I've been so excited to get good at administering my 5meo. As soon as I do, I'm gonna do some lovely 5meo retreats ?♥️ I love the feeling of just being absolutely blown away hehe. It feels brill to have my ego weakened

5meo isint meant to have strong visuals dw. Something I realised is, 5meo will be nothing like you imagined it to be, it will be imagination itself. I got super confused with my recent 5meo trip. For me the evidence of progress on this work isint with the feeling of progress, it's measured with the feeling of emptiness and other subtleties like your behavior etc. Since the beginning of...my path...I've became aware of awesome subtle results. Ive been able to overcome my drug addiction and I am so much happier and lighter. Everything is a joke to me now hehe. Not in an ignorant way, in a love way. I love everyone around me more. I can dance with my family! And listen to music with them! I couldn't barely stand my family before. So just, know what to look for when you look for evidence. And sometimes...your natural intuitive drive can be evidence on its own. I have barely needed to put any effort towards my drive towards enlightenment. I want it intuitively...more than anything in the world. But yes I agree with @Dand test your substances. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

I have no fucking clue what enlightenment is hahahaha. But I can feel it creepin up on me hehe

@electroBeam oh I don't like having a high tolerance, it just means you need to spend more money on drugs and alcohol haha. Even though I don't really do that anymore now haha

@electroBeam i too have an extremely high tolerance for all substances. I smoked 15 mg of 5meo recently, sure I felt my reality morph and change a bit but not much. Even with alcohol and all, it takes so much

Existential confusion and periodic loss of touch with reality is symptomatic of some kind of shadow work in my opinion. Of course this is exactly what a mystic experiences, but he experiences it in a much more beautiful way. I have experienced both. I'm very existentially confused often but I can feel a deeper layer of knowing beneath that confusion. If your experiencing this kind of shit with no "deeper bliss" beneath it...then I'd focus on consciousness work instead of life purpose. Who wants to have a life filled with amazing things that you cannot enjoy because of your mental health? Absolutely pointless. I'd rather enter a state of perpetual bliss haha

I'll check it out. Really would like to find a way to snort freebase though.

I tried my first new batch of 5meo today. I did a 15 mg trip. My report it very simple. 2 main things. The first is, I have no idea what God is in the slightest. No clue whatsoever. It feels instead like everything is becoming everything and it would kinda be like what I'd imagine losing your mind would be like. So yeah. The come up felt very...empty And also, I experienced lots of euphoria in the trip from the last batch, no euphoria at all this time. And I did the old 5meo freebase mixed with vinegar and water and plugged...but this *did not work* for me once again! Very annoying. So I just smoked 15 mg instead. (Why might this not be working? Maybe just high "ass tolerance") (lol). *However*........I feel very very existentially...nice. I'm noticing that I enjoy silence much much more. Nearly like I can't stop being silent. Also, I can...feel...everything. it feels like I "know" my house and room. There's a connection there that wasn't there before. It's invisible but I know it's there. Definitely starting to feel the barrier between imagination and reality fade. ♥️ It kinda does feel more...royal and hightened

@Dand I'll report lol

Anyone know? Thanks guyZ (I'm thinking, if vinegar isint bad for your nose lol, maybe I could just use the tiniest amount of vinegar possible, pull it into a syringe, tilt my head back and let half drip into one nostril and half into the other?)

@Dand it's awkward because I would have to use as little liquid as humanly possible and I'd likely have to keep my head upside down much longer than usual to allow the liquid to be fully absorbed by the walls of my nasal cavity. But I think your right, putting steamy 5meo that is reacting to acid up my nose...sounds like it miiiiiiiight be a bad idea, but I've never been much of a person to be too careful. I'll research and experiment with the idea of 5meo+tiny amount of vinegar+tiny amount of light coconut milk into each nostril and tip upside down. And I'll let you guys know if it works haha

@Ry4n know a way to convert freebase to snortable hcl?

Yo, I've tried twice now plugging 5meo. First time I believed I had "hcl" form so I just put a little bit in water, tried to dissolve it (barely dissolved at all) and plugged it...felt nothing. Then yesterday I got a new batch of 5meo freebase, 15mg again, dissolved it fully into 2 or 3 drops of vinegar, added water and plugged...but still nothing. I'm gonna eat some laxatives a couple hours before I plug to clean me out incase that's why it's not working and I'm gonna try 30-35 mg. Would anyone have any idea as to why this might not be working? Thanks guysz