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I...kind of agree with Jed Vassallo a bit, you cant really "gently approach" the mind with the idea of getting a little healed and give up after the first try. Well, you can haha...but you won't get healed doing it that way. The mind is like a vast shape-shifting...thing.....and it's amazing. But it's complex, nuanced, self seeing, very tricky indeed. Nearly SO complex that it's actually simple. Have you ever heard of puzzle boxes? You need to open them. However their simplistic form can sometimes be paradoxically difficult to work with. I think the mind is like this. You have to have strategy and technique. Paradoxically simple AND complex You must adopt a tactical approach when dealing with the "mind". And psychedelics are the most important tool we have. You won't get deep healing giving up so easily like that. Find a new strategy with psychedelics, there are hundreds of combinations and "ways" to approach this field before giving up. There has to be some combinations that will work for your mind. Remember, this is *the most important tool you have*. Which means, if you can't find a combination, you've lost your greatest strength. And don't be scared of a little mind trouble. It'll last for a day or a week. People have risked much more for their own healing. You won't die. So I guess you can either step up to the plate, or you can keep the majority of your shadow work for the rest of your life and enjoy the suffering it brings

@Chris365 Amazon works my guy ??? (see Image). I have 2 theories about my ROA's for 5meo...both are positive. I think the amount of liquid used for nasal injection has to be PERFECT because, if you have too much liquid (vinegar/Coco milk) i think it'll burn more (especially vinegar) and it'll take much longer for the substance to be absorbed completely. But having too LITTLE liquid for nasal injection (I think) can cause the liquid mix to not run up your nose fully (while your heads upside down). So I'm going to retry nasal injection at some point in the future and keep my head upside down for a good 10 minutes (with less vinegar, there'll be less burning and it'll be easier to hold it there for 10 mins) I had a lot of burning before I also have a lot of strange experiences smoking it. Smoked 20mg one time and just, literally nothing happened. My theory here is that I am not heating the pipe for long enough. This is scary because if it's true, that means there's about at least 50-80 mg of hardened, concentrated 5meo on the bottom of my pipe hahahaha. In favor of this theory, I took my 5meo pipe, and just started smoking it with no substance added to it. And sure enough I had a really powerful experience. I'm gonna try get a massive experience or two on a 5 day 5meo retreat sometime over summer...maybe within the next 2 weeks

Psycs are so important for me at least. Soooo powerful. It's be worth finding a way to take them or try get off your meds. Healing via spirituality is worth it for me ?

@Leo Gura oh no, I'm fully aware that I'm not ready for to attempt that haha. But it would be awesome to have it as a big goal. I'm gonna stick with my 5-7 day retreats. Something tells me 2 week retreat would even be hard.

Smoke dmt

I think I'm ready for my 5 day 5meo retreat boi's. Sometime soon. Really gonna try get a few big big breakthroughs. @Leo Gura have you been plugging much more 5meo since your last 30 day retreat? (I can't wait to try my own 30 day 5meo retreat sometime)

@OBEler my heart beat goes absolutely insane when I smoke DMT and 5meo to man. Just make sure that you dont have any heart conditions man thats the only thing. If you have heart condition be careful. But nah, fast heartbeat is normal man. Just know yourself and do what you know is best for yourself. But be sure to distinguish the difference between wisdom and fear. Being wise with your trips is fine, but being fearful is something to overcome. Do you have any heart conditions? Or any other physical conditions?

@OBEler don't expect insanity. You can prepare for the worst outcome so much that you actually cause the negative to happen. Expect yourself to realise the nature of reality. It is not your enemy. Expect yourself to move throw the motions of awakening. You have to remember mate, most people will never be advanced as you are right now, and even for those who are wise enough to even realise that this stuff exists, most of them will never have access to 5 methoxy dimethyltryptamine. Do not underestimate yourself. 99% of other people, if they were to smoke 10mg of 5meo, they'd absolutely freak out and probably run into a wall and knock themselves out. We, here at actualized.org, are an exceptionally rare species. Very very very very rare. Nowhere else has what we have. The power, the knowledge, the METHODS! Remind yourself of the power that you are playing with and do a 15mg trip. Be strong. Be so strong that the trip is scared of you! You are facing power that would make a grown man shit himself. Stop pretending that you are not a boss. I can already tell from talking to you that you are made of excellence and wisdom. What's your name man?

@Guru Fat Bastard ♥️ (Nice name btw )

Stand strong soldier, face your fears. When a dog runs at you, you don't run away you run towards it. When I feel like I'm literally about to go legit insane I grit my teeth and ask for MORE ?????? (do remember tho, my doses will be bigger than yours because my tolerance is more)

Don't jump from 10-20, go 10>15>20 @OBEler I'm still discovering 5meo like. But what @Serotoninluv said is true, nothing to fear. It makes you so strong. I have literally felt my mind get soooooooo much stronger from only a handful of uses. DMT usually scares the b'jesus out of me, but I gave been extra fearless ever since I did my 5meo trips. I honestly still haven't got a full blown breakthrough yet as my tolerance is quite great but I think I'll be having a 5 day 5meo retreat sometime within the next month or so...get a few breakthroughs

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@OBEler I am being led to smoke 5meo now when the spirit tells me to. I smoked DMT and 5meo today, very very powerful experience. My sister walked in (she knew I done it lol) and I was just looking at her with my jaw hanging in awe at what I was seeing. The sensitivity was IMMENSE It felt amazing. I can really feel it starting to kick it hard overall. Ive contacted Martin ball about possible coaching and help with integration (depending on the price) I might do it! I smoked 25 mg today (my tolerance is pretty high) it felt amazing. Leo says that bigger doses are sometimes less scary because on lower doses the ego is still holding on for dear life haha. Bigger doses help to just overwhelm the ego completely. Don't be afraid man. Obviously know your limits, but don't underestimate yourself! I was just walking about in my room smoking my 5meo today, super casual ??? I'll be doing a 5 day 5meo retreat sometime soon. Aiming for 15 day retreat later in the year maybe even 20 day 5meo retreat depending. I also need to increase my visualization lucidity within kriya yoga, increase my number of pranayama's and start doing other parts like breath of fire and other auxiliary practices within kriya yoga. My self enquiry is pretty good ATM. Concentration will be something I'll be focusing on more as well. I'm up to an hour and a half of daily practise now. If I can do more journal contemplation and "do nothing", with regular 5meo retreats and maintain that for 5 years I reckon I'll have made some progress♥️

Firstly...I love this comment^ "assuming enlightenment is real" ????? Perfect. Authenticity!! But yes, does anyone have any good sources of videos of online material with information on how Martin uses his 5meo? Or any of his teachings or strategies on how to use it in particular. ??

...I just can't choose between which benefit is my favorite, I'd have to say the perpetual bliss! NO! Being literally immortal! NO!! Id have to go with... understanding everything in existence. Those are my fave maybe hehe. I like the "being literally immortal" one... wouldn't you say @LfcCharlie4 ?

Just force yourself to mate. Work with your mind and body. You can be flexible with your rigidness. For example you may be rigid enough to say "I'm going to practice for an hour and a half today, but it has to be at 10am." But then when you procrastinate and miss the 10am start time, you should be flexible enough to say "oh it's ok, we'll not, not practice let's just move it to 11am" or even "well as long as I start before 5pm, when I start to get tired." Use your mind and body's momentum against them. There's different strategies you can use

You automatically bypass all fear and become a ruthless motherfucker by focusing on awakening haha

V cool, I've been getting insane dreams lately

I have a feeling nothingness creating distinctions is like this :

I'm pretty sure Jesus and Mohammed are different reflections of yourself. Jesus the man who came to earth, fully man, fully God, got killed (enlightened) then rose again (life post awakening) then ascended to the father and ruled with him from heaven. I don't know much about Islam but god told me that they are all different sides of the same dice, like the different colours and shades that refract out of white light when traveling through glass...the colours, though different are all like different facets of the plainwhite light.

On the topic of retreats and meditating for multiple hours at a time, it beckons one to become creative with prolonging their ability to literally sit and not move for as long as possible. If you've ever tried this it'll immediately become clear to you that the legs start to become extremely painful in this feat. I'm now beginning to explore the area of walking meditation and splitting up my "long-sits" with 15 mins walking meditation every 45 mins. This has been the only thing so far to enable me to continue without severe pain. I'm looking to find any suggestions about how to avoid/slow down/remove this phenomena. Perhaps any technical tips regarding posture, sitting style, pillow type etc. ? Since this could be the difference between being able to do SDS's that last 2 hours and SDS's that last 7 hours...I see it as a valuable resource. How long have your longest SDS's been? Do you use intervalad walking meditation (zazen) during retreats? How long can you yourself endure the pain?

@Leo Gura do you use kundalini exercises?

@Javfly33 @John Doe thank you

@Javfly33 @John Doe thank you

Is Kundalini yoga really good? What practices in particular are the most powerful?@Javfly33