Angelite

Couldn't find it... @Conrad What did God see through ur eyes? Now...

@Truth Addict I'm a muslim. But it works. How would I know why~ Prayer: when you speak to God in your heart..

I wonder what state everyone is in right now. So when you talk about the Absolute ,you're actually in the relative. Relative when in relative. But the relative shouldn't be contradictory to the Absolute. The relative is a reflection of the Absolute. Whatever that comes out from you in the relative, is a reflections of ur Absolute. Or is it just my lens?

When they love God, they surrender to God, surrendering as in follows what God had revealed to us.(depends on what you've known) It's like, how do you know you have known the highest truth? The 'God'. What would be ur bar? Because i've noticed there's many delusions(not you, I didn't know u but others). But it wouldn't count if the person did not realize it haha

@cetus56 no. But yours is different. Than what i've known.

True. Actually my life experiences is what makes me believe. I had known it on my own through everything else. & now to know deeper^^

❤ Yea. But the thoughts that comes to my mind is, how do those who don't practice any religion create their own law? What is their base? I'm talking about those who once awaken, throw away the 'ways' or rules of the eastern religion or the abrahamic religion. ^this is continuation of the talbees-e-Iblees in Sufism. There is a term called Jahil Sufis~ which means ignorant mystics. I don't know. Just randomly browse through my books?

So now that you have become one with God, are you going to follow God's Law or your law? How can you be sure that you won't fall into delusions if you decided to follow your own law? Or you don't care? @cetus56 @Leo Gura @Conrad Just asking, cuz i've read a lot of nondual books, and I realized that it is different. When you guys speak of nonduality. And when the sufis speak of nonduality. Even when Jesus speak of nonduality. It's not the same. Depends on what God is to you. The Point will be similar, but actually different. I'd say the opposite. What u make out of it. Careful not to fall into these; I am saying this to those that have read sufis works. Surah Al-Anbiya' (The Prophets) 21:106 Verily in this(Qur'an) is a Message for people who would (truly) worship Allah. 21:107 We sent you(Muhammad) not, but as a Mercy for all creatures. 21:108 Say: "What has come to me by inspiration is that your God is One God: will you therefore bow to His Will (in Islam)?" 21:109 But if they turn back, say: "I have proclaimed the Message to you all alike and in truth; but I know not whether that which you are promised is near or far. 21:110 "It is He Who knows what is open in speech and what you hide (in your hearts). 21:111 "I know not but that it may be a trial for you, and a grant of (worldly) livelihood (to you) for a time." 21:112 Say: "O my Lord! Judge You in truth!" "Our Lord Most Gracious is the One Whose assistance should be sought against the blasphemies you utter!"

Yes. But then what? And why? What are you going to do?

But there is a wisdom in every forms created It's there for a reason.

This is what happened when you try to separate spirituality from it's roots...

That's why purification of the heart. Follow your heart. As it would be different for everyone. But equally just. Follow your heart, but, only when you have purified your heart from the lower self, then you'll be able to make correct judgement and see reality as what is. Or else you're partial~ Partially enlightened~ Haha #Reminder-to-self.

Yes, but according to God's will. Not ours. ^This is a paradox if you understand what I mean^

In other words, it is purification of the heart And clearing your psyche from limiting belief. Eg,it's only possible for certain people/genes. Needless of anything except God. Being crazily open minded.

Leo, are you psychic?... ^Whatever that comes to mind upon seeing these four words, is a clear reflection of your inner self, and have nothing to do with my reality, except, for those who are fully enlightened. Hence wash yourself of yourself. ^These too, will have infinite interpretations. ^This too.

Congratulations all. I am in a mode of wordlessness. The more I understand, the more that i've become silence. It is kinda overwhelming. Thanks all, each & everyone who have been the catalyst to my thinking process. I've been trying to put it into words but is kinda impossible.... If I were to explain one thing, then I will have to explain all, if not then it will only results in more confusions..... I've tried but it's too interconnected with everything else.... Once you've explain one facet, then there's no turning back haha...you have to explain all or else the meaning won't be transmitted. I respect all gurus who can speak in a language that everyone would understand. To find that perfect balance is hard. To get it's real meanings across to every minds. I think the best gurus are those who can effortlessly gets it's message across despite the huge audience/minds. Leo, only if I could tell you how much your new insights (be it written or in the video) , interconnected with everything that i've known for the past weeks &months&prior.....haha you may not realized it because I don't post here that often, but it feels like were on the same wavelength. You have the experience, but I know it by knowledge & perceptions. Of course experience is expensive(harder to achieve), but knowledge is broader I would say. A bigger perspective. For me, it is the matter of experiencing what i've already known by knowledge. When it is not contradictory to someone else's experiences, I know I am on the right Path. That's how I view everything. But I also see where things got confused. Joseph, don't tell me to transcend my mind yet. I love my mind, it's crazy & is interconnected with everything else in my perceptions haha(even someone else's!) . I had fun making sense of things~ For me, it's like this : From Knowledge to Wisdom.? Though for the past weeks it has become a bit overwhelming. Not in a bad way. Just a bit too much clarity tht i've become like this : . . . . . . . . . Following my Curiosity, Stumbled upon Knowing, Impossible to Share. I literally stop taking in more infos for the past week & try to extract what ive known....but it's kinda not possible. I can't find the middle path yet. As in, not short and not all. #shoutouttoallgurus!

Oh yeahh it’s been a long time~Last week I went back to my hometown to visit my family for the new year holiday. And now I've been busy with other programme this few days. I wanna share the latest insights with the latest guru that I've met. Who give me like a closure to my searching phase, aka convince me to start on practicing. Haha. I've written some in my journal but couldn't write properly because I've been busy. The main point that I've learned from him is to be really down to earth...He reminds us to be good to our parents, our friends and everyone else...To treat everyone with love and mercy. Who are we to be proud anyway? We're only Creations. 10/1/2019 Okay. I wanna tell a story that kinda complete my first post/searching/learning phase before I am convinced to take action(finally haha). Yesterday, I’ve met with another guru. I don’t know if he is a sage or a mystic or an auliya, but talking to him was really fun. It’s such a pity that we had to go back when we’re so into it as he excitedly shares more wisdom. He gave satisfying answers, in fact I know so much from him, he really do have a lot of fun wisdom to tell. And I’ve found the answer to my first question about the soul oh yeah!^^ . I went with my younger bro~ He even gifted us with his book on how to get closer to God. *btw I wrote this when the experience is still fresh & I'm kinda excited, but that's all I'm writing. Been busy. Now it got slightly different feel as more insights started to make sense.. 13/1/2019 These are some of the things we talk about. I asked him a lot haha. Looking at everything around us, should remind us of God. Everything is a reflection of Truth.Everything is for us to see the wisdom behind it. To understand the wisdom behind everything around us... For example, The animals…are a reflections of human behavior/characteristic. (to be precise, the characteristic of our soul/spirit) For example: A snake is a reflection of a characteristic of a human who is sly. A scorpion is a reflection of deception. It can attack you anytime from behind. When you least expected it. Then he told us of the origin of monkey…it is…actually a human. But was cursed and it turns into a monkey. (snake too is a by product of a curse). I don’t know if it’s only one species or all coming from the same roots(all apes family or just one species). But again, here there is a translation that I am confused about. Idk. But it’s true. Because an auliyaa will never lie. Never… And as we talk about all these, I kinda wondered what am I then?(my reflection in the animal kingdom~). And this thought popped out~ I am a horse. The soul of a horse~ hahahhaha. But it’s true. That’s why whenever I saw an open field/horizon, I always feel like I wanna run. That urge to run freely....it is irresistable~ can’t help it either~ The same feeling that I got while skating downhill. Or running downstairs. Or even figure skating. That passion, that feeling of complete freedom^^. Just looking at horses made me feel free..... I miss my childhood, where horses are everywhere haha. But now it’s a bit limited… I think my spirit is those of a horse….haha ok I’ll stop now. Next, he told me of how a human being should never be proud and arrogant. We all should live together and love one another as we’re all are actually dependent on one another. From the beginning to the end**…Meeting with an auliyaa really teach me a lot. I’m sorry everyone if I’ve ever be arrogant knowingly or unknowingly. I genuinely apologize if I’ve ever made anyone feel bad about themselves or if I’ve hurt anyone’s feelings knowingly or unknowingly. And I wanna thank everyone who had answered my questions and everyone who had made me think. I really have grown so much since my first post. And learn a lot. May God bless all of you and give His Guidance and Mercy to all sincere seeking soul. Talking to a guru face to face really leave a long lasting effect. It really humbled you down a lot. And without getting into actualized.org , I’d still wouldn’t care about Truth. Thanks Leo. And everyone who made me think. I hope for all to find TRUTH. Sincerely, Angelite 13/1/19 **He explain the origin of human being,There are two aspect, the physical and the non-physical(soul). Physically we are from Adam, but our soul is a different thing. It’s non physical. And about why human being shouldn’t be arrogant. Because who are we without others? What is others and everything without God? The Creator of all Creations, who created everything from nothing. The God who is incomparable to it’s Creations. He talks about how we are made from the lowest of all low, the sperm…which is of no value without love. Hence we shouldn’t be proud. Our life(physically) is only made possible by everything that is around us(the people). That’s for the physical body. But for the soul, the source of all souls is….Noor Muhammad. Which means, the light of Muhammad. It is the first Creation. God Created it from nothing. Before any other creations. Way before the physical body of the prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) was created... “A Light has come to you from Allah as a Clear Book.” (al-Maidah 5:15) http://www.islamandquran.org/fatwas/is-prophet-muhammad-a-noor-or-a-human-being.html But again, this need to be explained by those who knows better. Do not misinterpret it. Do not interpret it as something new. So, about our physical body, we shouldn’t be proud because humans are originally weak and poor. Helpless. That’s our origin. Our physical body, only came into existence with the love of a man and a woman. With the love of a mother who keeps nurturing her pregnancy and the father who works hard to support both. We are born weak. And helpless, not knowing anything , shit and all(but well, I’m a baby back then so it’s cute~) ok just kidding don’t be mad~~runnn! , and then they further fund all of our needs and educations. The point is, we as human being really have nothing to be proud of. To be arrogant with. For we all depends on one another. Actually it is everyone that we’ve ever come in contact with. Every single human being, is what make us who we are today. So don’t be arrogant. Without others you won’t be who you are today. without the prophet, I wouldn't know how to pray, without the gurus, we wouldn't know what's true and what's not, without all those authors and books that we've read, we wouldn't know nothing. Without actualized.org, I wouldn't have all these questions, which opens up more ways for me to get closer to Truth, which encourage me to meet up with gurus and find truth which I never really care to do before. And I've found high quality books like those of Imam al-Ghazali. We all depends on God. Without God we wouldn't be able to make any movement possible, as everything is in the control of God...But we are given choices.... It’s like a mind game. Everything is interconnected. If you go deep enough, you’ll find truth. It all will only lead you to one truth. Be sincere and God will guide you. Another important thing that he talks about is, this world is like an entrance. It’s only an entrance to a huge mansion. Or like a bathroom. Without the bathroom, a house will be full of shit. It is necessary, but not to be proud of. There is no place for arrogance so we should be humble if we wanna get closer to God. So this world(everything that we see: the earth and the entire universe) is only a preparation for the afterlife. The seven layers of the earth together with the seven layers of the universe(including all of the different dimensions), is like a ring in a desert~ compared to the afterlife. The real deal started after we died. Real death. Not the nondual death btw. If using the term "to die before you die" , I am talking about the latter, not the prior. That’s what I mean by Real death. A lot of what he says kinda reminds me of hellspeed. He did talk about not having to read all the books. But he gifted me with his book, it's not really much about knowledge but like a practice to purify ourselves. Physically and internally for the soul. To get closer to Allah*. Again, I wanna thanks everyone who sincerely answered all of my questions patiently. Sorry if I've ever be annoying or something.. Okay I hope everyone will find real Truth. Sincerely I wish the best for everyone... I had found the answer to my first question. What does the soul made up from... It is from Noor Muhammad. The Light of the Prophet Muhammad(May Allah be pleased with him)^^. To actually start practicing with a peaceful mind, heart and soul. I hope everyone do(find their answers). I think what matters is the intention. As long as you're sincere, you'll be fine. God will guide you *btw,be careful. My definition of Allah might be different than what you think of as I mentioned it~ It will be too long for me to explain so I wouldn't even start~

@Fairy Stop playing with magic. It can do no harm to anyone neither can it gives you any benefits without God's permission. Sorry I might seems like an extremist, but I'm not yet a pro in other scriptures. So I can only speak confidently from one perspective(when it comes to solution to magic). I think everything is clear now. Between Truth and Falsity. Duality? Haha

But the thing is, there is fake death and there is real death. Make sure that you know the difference. Don't be deceived. Change is good. But make sure that you change for the all worth it. and not the opposite of it. Make sure that you're experiencing real non duality. And not the fake non duality. It might seems similar. But actually the opposite. Thinking that you've found the real Light, when in fact you're in the deepest Darkness. Duality? haha.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wt_Usd_2F9Y Magic is nothing but a test to human being. It can do no harm to anyone without God's will. Indeed, it is only to test you really~ Don't fall for it. For it has no benefits or whatever(though it might appear so to you,don't be deceived). Neither can it harm you unless God allows it. "And they followed [instead] what the devils had recited during the reign of Solomon. It was not Solomon who disbelieved, but the devils disbelieved, teaching people magic and that which was revealed to the two angels at Babylon, Harut and Marut. But the two angels do not teach anyone unless they say, "We are a trial, so do not disbelieve [by practicing magic]." And [yet] they learn from them that by which they cause separation between a man and his wife. But they do not harm anyone through it except by permission of Allah . And the people learn what harms them and does not benefit them. But the Children of Israel certainly knew that whoever purchased the magic would not have in the Hereafter any share. And wretched is that for which they sold themselves, if they only knew". Quran 1:102 *Btw, This is only for those who didn't know what they are into. Not for those who know exactly what they are into and still choose to~

Why? Because this world is just temporary?.... Oh yeah! So I won't be a grandma forever~~

Create wonders while you're still young. Live life! Run! Skate & explore! Live the adventure while you're still able! Learn as much as possible while you're still young. (Because as you get older, your memory wouldn't be as good as when you're younger, it's harder to learn something new,comparatively) Appreciate those around you, especially when there are still many who are older than you. Because as you get older, the number of people whom you can look up to will be decreasing. And you will slowly.....become the elderly instead. Many of your loved ones will die and new generation will look up to you instead. Until finally...it will be only you who are the oldest. Now that I think about it, they must feel a bit lonely(the elderly). I might be wrong though.. But this is not valid though, it is still from the perspective of the 22y.o me~ It can still be limiting~ *my grandma always told me to do things that older people are not able to do physically...just sayin~ I will soon be in their shoes so I will appreciate those advice~ Lastly, always be grateful for the now❤ Be mindful of your responsibility in the now. Whatever stage you are in life.....

First, you need to have good judgement. It is not about sympathizing or judging the guy. But, when it comes to safety and defense, you do have the rights to defend yourself. And to protect those around you. It's self defense. Had nothing to do with judging/being a bad person for beating someone to defend yourself. If someone inflicted physical danger you, you do have to defend yourself. That's just about the right thing to do. Especially when it comes to your mother & younger sibling. And of course yourself. This only applies when you are in that situation. And no one to defend you. You don't have to hate him. But do beat him up if you get into that situation again. But be in moderation though.. I thought you have an older brother. But it's a younger brother~ So you're the older one. More reasons for you to take care of your mother and your younger bro. If anything, your younger brother suffers the most... "I can't do anything" That's your limiting belief. Really it's all up to you to be a good older brother. He couldn't even trust his older brother~ what have you done?.... The least you could do is to be a good example. It's time now. Show him that you are responsible. And that he can trust you. But you need to get yourself together. Stop with all those limiting beliefs, it wasn't your fault btw(your father had done that to you) but you gotta overcome those limiting beliefs. Only then you can be a responsible older brother&son. Who else can they look up to if not you?.... I think it's hard for each to change. But you be the change then. Be good to your mother and your brother. And to yourself first. Don't add up to what's already broken. Make this a turning point for your family. This is your chance to be a responsible son/brother. Show by example. You don't have to talk to him. Maybe later...with your mother too... You're acting cold btw, of course that's how he gonna perceive you?. Show him some love! I know you are matured enough by now to be responsible & you have a good vision. The only thing that's holding you back now is your limiting belief/self judgement. Only you can work on that & no one can convince you otherwise. I think you know your potentials better. Be good to your brother & your mom.....show them that they can trust you.... Maybe by getting yourself together. Wake up call for your father. And you too. Make it worth it. *sorry if you can't relate & if I got it wrong. It must be hard to see em injured...

Btw, my father is the spiritual one in the fam, so I have no problem respecting him. *in case if anyone misunderstood*

Actually I was moved when you said your relationship with your mother is better now. And that you paid attention to her more. Because in my religion, a son will be blessed if he take care of his mother till forever. His life will be made easy by God. A son's responsibility is to the mother(and to take care of his female family members). While a daughter's responsibility is to respect the father. Then when she's married, it will be the husband over the father. But still both, only slightly more. Anyway, I said this because I see this with my brother...His life was made easy when he's taking care of our mom(In terms of fortune& his works). And btw, why are you still in that house if your father is only belittling you? Leave the house for something(could be learning/work etc) and he will miss you haha. (Not running away haha but find something new that is away from home) I thought your mother was at home that's why I wouldn't recommend you to stay away from home even if it's toxic to you. I've noticed that you are afraid to step out of your father's limiting belief about you. Trust me that's your only obstacle for now. Try to see past through all those limitations/harsh words your father had been feeding you. Only then you'll be fine. Really. But still, be good to him. Just don't let him limit you haha. Never! Ok Goodluck~