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@vanish Okay how hard was that? What got you fueled like that? I'm skeptical if this is a troll or not. @Monkey-man What there is a problem with this?

@Quanty Can you do that? I'll list you 20 books and we'll talk about them in 3 days.

@TheEnlightenedWon pretty much you can claim anything about anything right now and talk however you want.

@TheEnlightenedWon What do you mean by "Creating a habit of present moment awareness." Could you tune into more human tone please? No I am not asking you to respond wittily.

@Leo Gura I've seen the book there for a while. I owned your book list for a long time but never bothered. If I want to maximize what I'm getting and be efficient should I do it? I heard you say you like to take your time. Should I practice this skill? I don't know what the end result is.

Sorry. Okay I guess some people used this so I am not as apologetic.

@No-Thing Yep. I am engaged in a controlled folly.

Then I'll proceed to have direct consciousness of this matter.

I've stopped meditating for like 2 months. I was wondering almost every single day why I stopped. Why I don't feel inspired anymore. I still don't know if I'm going to be meditating. I've been meditating while laying on my back because of posture problem that I'm obsessed about. Thanks for the write up. I do obsess about it, I'm not sure if it's enough though. It's something I think about whenever I don't feel good.

Are you stupid? so easy right?

@Shin How? Where? My biggest priority is raising my consciousness. It is becoming clear to me that I can't do it by myself. I can't discipline myself.

@Nathan Why are you saying a bunch of stuff that people don't want to hear? Unless they make a point of you behaving in a particular way or demand something from you subtly, just don't bother. I guess it doesn't matter really, but people don't listen from that place. If they look at you weirdly for working more, tell them the thing they don't want to hear the most. I am working more just to piss you off. I think I don't really like you for mistreating others when they're trying to be useful. I am kind of having something similar to that. It's other people that are awkward instead of me awkward. It's people being angry at me unreasonably and me not responding to that. I wasn't even able to recognize that I'm being mistreated. Right now I am much stiller. I am kind of hostile to my family. And that's a euphemism for being 'honest' At the end of the day you can't really change everybody. If you want to see the truth and accept reality I recommend the work of Byron Katie. I think you're in a good place. You're having profound realizations. That's a very good thing my friend. You've learned from being confrontational. I don't know what normal is to you. Don't try to be inauthentic just don't ignore stuff that's gonna cause problems. I am a person that wouldn't mind you at all behaving the way you're doing. I believe many of us on this forum are like that. I might feel insecure but I'd tell you that's my feelings not your misdoing.

I have 755 entries in Evernote. Sigh. I probably need to look into how I'm organizing that shit.

This sounds like only going to yield fruit only if resistance is grasped fully? @Nahm how do you read on your treadmill? I use TV Smart Switch and which I've been wanting to get wireless headphones do you have regular AirPods?

Enlightenment Life Purpose Other things are a mean to these two. Personal development is for ultimately detaching yourself so that you could let go of yourself and build yourself up to do your Life Purpose. Then you are a warrior that is engaged in a 'controlled folly' you do your life purpose even though there is no reason at all.

Leo said in his life purpose something along these lines: One could say that finding one's purpose is really a journey of self-discovery you can do this VIA strength test which was made by Martin Seligman and his team and you can look at the book The Big Leap to discover your so called "Zone of Genius" I haven't read the book but I presume he gives themes on what you are like. You could do journaling about yourself as well. I think you should get the course. It's pretty worth it. It gives a much thorough process. If you don't leave with your life purpose you're leaving with immense knowledge about yourself and very good sense of what you could be potentially doing at the very least

Eventually there will be people that admire that loneliness of yours. I don't know if you know Peter Ralston, but he feels like the loneliest person in the planet. Here he talks about how much work it took him. Maybe you'll get a much more accurate sense of loneliness from him. It is always beautiful for a person to be walking that path. Dealing with the loneliness is part of the path. One thing about raising one's consciousness is that in a sense you could say you can't go back. It's a constant process of disillusioning. Just press on because it's absolutely worth it.

Yes. I am usually frustrated after watching his videos. I a couple months ago quit his videos for like 3 months. My excuse was that I didn't need somebody to tell me what to do I will find out what I want to do and do it deeply myself. I just didn't want to listen. I could've listened and ignored it. I didn't like how I knew I had to think about the stuff he's saying. I feel frustrated just thinking about how much I've missed from his videos. Like even though I've watched his videos. I'm fucking it up big time. It's about fucking it up less and less as you go along.

I mean you should be 'focusing' on things even when you're disregarding balance. It doesn't mean you need to be doing one thing and moving to another. It depends on how effective you can big/ how big what you're doing is. Some stuff lends themselves to different time scheduling and prioritization. I don't know if you wanna make a decision to live 'spontaneously'. That's probably not a good thing for a beginner, but I can see how you can work your way up there. Whatever it is you're gonna end up doing something in your day. How about making sure you're deliberate about it? Thinking deeply about your motivations/priorities/values. Knowing your life purpose helps with that. As far as Enlightenment goes, I see that you should pursue it in so far as you're not fucking yourself in life. You don't know why you're studying this major in university? Maybe it's not the time to meditate for 4 hours in the morning before school. (I'm doing 2 hours fak itxd)

What does it feel like reading this text?

sounds like an Athene follower he defines logic as the consistent patters of reality but really studying the logic you're talking about doesn't really translate to real life situation. Why would you study logic do you have a hard time understanding logic? You can't think illogically really

Okay you sound just like the type of person I want to fight

I have this belief that I've picked up a couple of years ago. I was first introduced to this 10,000 hours rules at a time where I wasn't exactly being intelligent. I then read some article that said 4 hours are the maximum amount of hours that you get benefit from. For some reasons I generalized from a single activity to many activity. It wasn't clear for me at the time that the concept of deliberate practice was talking about a specific domain. So, naively, this 4 hours was translated into 4 hours of possible concentration FOR ME and it's almost a fucking placebo thing right now. I just tell myself I can't concentrate after 4 hours. I do think that I'm supposed to work way more but I don't feel it in my gut that it's absolutely necessary. What biographies/resources do you recommend to unroot this belief or turn it completely around? I feel like this is really essential to getting to my absolute edge. Leo recommends Arnold Schwarzenegger but I my ego would dismiss the evidence as he's a body builder.

Fear. We're comfortable where we are. We don't know that what's in store for us. Usually a lot of emotional labor that we fear. We are afraid of what we will have to do with our new understanding. That is usually projected onto the person trying to communicate insight. He's hated because he's the one who showed them how in someway they're inadequate and they have to work on something. "We fear our highest possibilities. We are generally afraid to become that which we can glimpse in our most perfect moments, under conditions of great courage. We enjoy and even thrill to godlike possibilities we see in ourselves in such peak moments. And yet we simultaneously shiver with weakness, awe, and fear before these very same possibilities.” ― Abraham H. Maslow