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Pretty broad. What are you doing everyday?

Because somebody can look at you and say you are lying to yourself and that gets to you. In a very deep fucking way that makes you can't stand yourself anymore. It makes you really desire determining the truth of that statement.

What techniques are there for relaxing the body and fixing posture at the same time? I heard that yogis have their body completely relax after attaining realization. Does that man that their posture gets instantly fixed? I am willing to step outside and try visualizations but I would rather stay with meditation. I feel like yoga is the best thing but I don't know. I want to release my blocked energy. I don't know if this is a mind problem even.

It doesn't matter. Some people find it easier to stay awake when eyes open. Some are same.

It is not that is seems objective. It is objective. It is not your true nature because you perceive it as objective. It is that you stop realizing that this thing, the feeling of you, is you and that it stops being perceived as you. You disidentify with you. That objective reality has absolutely no barring other than the knowing of it. The absolute certainty about it. Not a belief. You don't need to believe in it anymore than believing that there is a screen in front of you right now or that you have hands. What is claimed here is not a radical superpower it is something simple that you are assuming to be grand because it seems so uncommon. Just because it is uncommon it doesn't make it untrue. You are speculating here. This is good but only if you go all the way, which many people don't. Do spiritual autolysis diligently. Question the fuck out of the motherfucker. I said nothing here. Question your reality, question everything. Really really really really really really really really deeply. Like ask yourself over and over and over and over again that you get to a point where if a thousand person were to come up to you and tell you this is so you would still doubt it.

Jed Mckenna. All fiction

I found the comments of the typical masses: Check how much they're making fun and how much they're calling him insane and how it's pointless. Not even a single though has entered my mind about the strangeness of what he's doing. I guess that's a difference of consciousness.

Pretty interesting that I saw this post opened the video and closed it and then went to do other stuff while the thread is still opened. I am back here now and he's still in stillness. What was time for him? What is time for me? Just some questions I place here without seriously contemplating them and then hating myself for it.

I don't remember if I pushed "later today" I shouldn't lie like that. I used to not lie and I was more effective and my words really had a force to them. I am sorry I lied here.

I remember reading this a couple of years ago. I don't know what the hell I was doing with my breath being silly or trying stupid stuff and I googled it. I wondered what the hell was this reaction dizzy. Ever since knowing about losing consciousness I have been avoiding breathing rapidly like the plague. It is actually kinda hard to do this exercise because of that I think. I pushed 10 minutes yesterday instead of the 2 that I wasn't able to pass before yesterday. I am gonna try again and see what happens. I think I'm just being negative and overthinking this shit pretty fucking hard.

Try MindWorks. He has an audio program instead of the book if you're interested. I believe he has money back guarantee. I am not sure.

Leave. You're gonna fuck yourself over if you don't. If he doesn't apologize by himself or say that he went to degrees that he shouldn't have gone to and that he won't ever do that again you should leave. And it's going to be hard trusting him. Unless you really really like him/ like what he does, what life is gonna be like with him then it's not worth giving him a chance even.

I was reading this thread and assumed that you didn't have that hand. I was confused as fuck like why you were worried about a hand you don't have?

@cetus56 I mean I have always noticed the dizziness that comes after breathing rapidly and I think I read somewhere it can cause fainting so I have these beliefs around it. I mean it's situational fear, like something really really bad is going to happen to me. It's fear of death I think. I fear that I am gonna be gone I guess when I really think about it. It feels I am pushing through death when I'm really not? It almost felt weirdly like the urge to breath when I'm out of breath. It doesn't make it any better to use an analogy of another dimension of the same thing. I think this is all thought I will see what happens when I try again today.

I wasn't able to do 5 minutes. I have fear that something is going to happen to me. The first thing that happens is coldness behind my eyes it feels weird. Can someone link proof that this is safe for the average person that doesn't have problems? I will try to push it further later today but I want the assurance to be able to do it more. Sigh I have this attitude towards just breathing. What the hell would I do if it were psychedelics?

@Salvijus Really it can be used as a self-development tool? Do you know how?

No it doesn't help. Only an insight into the matter will.

I've always felt them as impurities

@Angelo John Gage How would you freelance? I have one semester of Computer Science degree pending. Can I do stuff? How?

Avoid him. He's appealing to the weak parts of you. He is weakening you in the process of getting him back. You have to stay strong.

@lmfao I've been holding off that personality test for so fucking long. I'm gonna do it tomorrow.

Where are you from? Where do you live? What is your religious background?

I could go into explanations. I have 8,000 USD saved. I want to get enlightened. I am willing to do anything. I only have one concern which is fixing my posture. I have no things I am not willing to give up. What are my options? I am right now in an office that I can't stand. I can't stand a minute that is passing by that is not committed to mindfulness or meditation. The only thing I can stand is thinking/planning for meditation and coming up with routines to fix posture. I meditate in my car, while trying to talk, doing other things now. I know how being here doing "worldly" things taking my focus away tugs at me towards unconscious and I can't stand it. I am not one for being strong while there are distractions. I am all for become strong then show your equanimity to all these distractions. I want to go. I want to find everything. I want the highest possible meditation time with a good amount of theory to pinpoint the practice and have laser precision. I want to do this to death. I have my senior project pending. I can't stand it. I can't stand an 8 hour job of unconscious.

This guy wrote something really nice. "The false concept of female devotion—the woman’s traditional role of catering to men—is addictive to man, just as the concept of male lust, which is stirred up by that role playing, is addictive to woman. When the female supports the male’s weakness in order to obligate him to serve her selfish ends, she eventually experiences the result of her love in terms of frustration and betrayal. Through her use of man’s weakness (his ego), she weakens him further. This leaves him susceptible to the same temptation she offers when it is presented from other sources, so that frustration and betrayal become the result of her supportive love (use). For women, gratification is more an ego-mental experience than a physical one, while for men it is mostly a physical event. Either way, selfishly cultivated gratification leads to guilt, frustration, and resentment, which amplify the need for frustrating “love.” It is a vicious cycle." You really want her in your life? That's needy too. You need to deal with her. Why are you concerned about changing her behavior? Don't concern yourself and talk to her whenever you want to. Show her how it's gonna be and if she don't like it you can show her the door. You literally need to disengage when she is sad or depressed about decisions you make. You sound like you're trying to please her when she's sad. Show indignation and anger when she is sad and tell her she's not being responsible and decrease contact. She will learn after a couple of repetitions. You have bad habits around her. She seems to have weakened you. You cannot fudge. She will test you but so long as you're being rational and fair you shouldn't care too much. She definitely is displaying super high interest. If you fuck up her you can lose her pretty hard. She will like the man whom she can't move more than you eventually. If you don't want to lose her it's precise reason to make sure that you game her properly and don't please her when she's bitchy. Be assertive and that's going to be perceived as assholery on her part. Give an explanation that the only thing she can do is accept.

@Serotoninluv Well, this talk isn't talk unless something is done. Serious attempt to make discovery was not made such that now I have to step back like you're proposing here. I need to push in a particular direction then I might do what you say here. Being here right now truth is not revealing itself. @cirkussmile I am not in the states. Where are you in India? Did you join a monastery? @i am I AM If anything I think it's self-disappointment that I do not know the truth. Is that wrong? To move into that direction from here? @Hsinav I have a need for truth I guess. I am not going to give that up. I have no need for any kind of place. The only need is meditation time and good amount of theory like I said to pinpoint the truth properly. That's kind of like saying give up your desire to meditate, which is precisely what I want in the above thread. I have no attachment whatsoever in how it's gonna go so long as it is effective. @Leo Gura I have read the book and I think his attempts were really spontaneous. I think he demonstrates that he knows about meditation theory in some parts of the book but he does't show to what extent. He didn't search at all for which place to go to. I think he should've been smart about it. @nightrider1435 Take responsibility? For what? I have to take responsibility for my own food/water or existence? Really? I "have to"? I want truth. What am I gaining? Some extra first or second country luxuries? Better car? Better capacity to indulge myself in tastier food? Chance to have kids? Girl? Chance to be fucked over by a wife because I didn't study women properly or have not been careful enough? The only thing I'm doing is worsening my chance of having deep insight. @Sirius I honestly think that having good posture is important but I don't know what hours of meditation every day is gonna do it. Yogis talk about the body relaxing completely like never before. Does that fix posture in itself? I don't know what to do here.