niko ev

What kind of breathing technique that you used? Chest? Is it change something in your life? Or is it already opened right now? I tried this but still,, maybe Im not too focused while doing this or just was too short. And the strings idea is interesting too! Will noted this... Thanks! Agreed with this quote, while in this destruction phase. I observed myself very well and face all of my false self concept and image that I made since I was a child, and requestion again about my beliefs. I have to have a schedule and do all of the stuff written, in order not to feel bad about myself, and added more powder to my depressed feeling xD.

I have tried doing a small exercise, but it just energized my body and feel good. But not relieve with my brain fog, sadly. Exact.y, After watching most of Leo's video, I think I have entered in a void state, and start question about my take it for granted beliefs, I born as Muslim, but nowadays I begun to question about my religion, and all of the stuffs that became some of my beliefs and identity, because mot of them are very destructive than constructive, I guess.. Lazy person and lazy body hahaha. I can say that Im confident and social, but sometime I need time to shut and be in the silent. But once Im in the mood to talk, then I go wherever I wanna go Since Im kind of a lazy person, maybe I dont really believe in my ability, especially to get things done, because I started to think how heavy or how hard it will be when I wanna get done something...

Its been 2 years I have been experiencing this. After meditated for 8 months, 30x2 minutes a day. And after that I experienced OBe, and energy spinning in my head, after that here is what happened these past two years. 1. I feel a pressure on the top of my head, forehead and temples. 2. Brain fog, hard to focus and to think. 3. Cant use my brain to think anymore 4. Having Dissociation, derealization, depersonalization with my body and enviroment. 5. Feeling haze, blurry, foggy, like im in the cloud. 6. Depression and anxiety sometimes I have Panic episodes. the positive is that I just became more conscious of my self. I already tried various kind of grounding which its worked great but never find one who can really bring up my mind from the foggy state. I really want to bring all of the energy on my head down.. If some of you experienced this, can you give me some techniques that you have used and worked great to remove the excessive energy in your head? Thanks!

heyyy, its nikooo for how long im not post on this site.. i just want to update my condition. i try various kind of method to cure all of the symptoms that listed aboved, and right now i use a grounding tree visualization also a technique called energy follows attention, i also try to relax the area of my head that feels numbs and tensions. i already tried during a heavy exercise, and the result is just makes me feeling throw up and vertigo.. its the first time i did exercise, but after i did it for a few times, i dont feel like that anymore, but exercise not my routines. since i know my body right now just need an efective technique to move the energy out of my body. okay, heres a result of some techniques that ive been used, and i noticed i slight relief from my body. 1. more connected 2. jumbled words, start to dissapear!!! i can speak and write freeeeelyyy, without feeling a blank space feeling, 3. feel more in my body, in the past i just felt i live in other dimension, even watch my body did their things and felt like im not inside. 4. still waiting for my analytical thinking to be back. 5. waiting for happiness states. 6. still unmotivated side effect of the energy follows attention, which also someones can says its similiar to microcosmic orbit meditation, this method believed to cure a kundalini physicosis aka kundalini syndroms. 1. bad diarrhea on the first day, you try the technique 2. bad hives, itch body for 1 day 3. yawning everyday, to get out the excessive energy fromt head. 4. burping everyday 5. farting a lot.

i want to update my condition since, a while a go ive been doing a chakra spinning, i just want to test it, and see if this can change my state of mind,body, feeling. so right now, this is what i feel after doing a chakra spin, for 5 minutes i guess?? i spin clockwise for every chakra, but i feel so uncomfortable to spin it clockwise, i like it when i spin it counterclockwise, but for this session i spin all my chakra clockwise. the change that i feel after doing this : - more confident with my self, i dont know why - feeling full of energy out of nowhere - headache scale 1 to 10, i guess this happen when i spin it clockwise it means that i want more energy for my chakra field, because there is just too many energy on my head, with this session i add more energy there, thats why i have a headache. ill do experiment with this chakra spinning next time, and try to research about chakra spinning.

So i think Leo's meditation that called do nothing technique that im doing is wrong, i did it about 8 months with closed eyes. and he told on the video to open our eyes. at first time im doing it, i dont mind it so much wether to close or to open. But now i know that im not fit with closed eye meditation, because it can gather so much energy on my forehead and it can unbalance my third eye. i know this after im experiencing this, so wether im doing meditation or visualizing i try it with open eyes. cause theres just so much energy on my head.

im now on my last semester in university, and all my friends which have the same age as me, already finished their years a month a go. they already did the research to finish their degree. and me cant finish it, due to this condition. a day a spend on campus is just like im on a cloud, depersonalized, brain function off, so much awareness but cant function my brain very well, thats way i was left behind. and im sad, depress, i dont want it to happen. i dont want they say im stupid,, i want to chase them, but its imposible. im not this such person before, i used to be an analytical thinker, and very creative person. but later i know about chakras,, the me be in the past is good but the root and heart chakra is blocked. its different with my condition right now, where i feel that my heart and root start to balance each other, but my mind (third eye) cant function like its normally does in the past. it just so hard. my family condition too, want to their child to became somebody, that have a proper job. i choose the univ department not because i want it, it because my family option. and i regret it now. but i guess im not too stress about it, cause i enjoy the course a bit. i guess its depression, theres a suicide thought recently. like i want to runaway from my problem and my family. i never think that i have so much inner problems on myself until i became this aware (before doing meditation). im afraid on continuing this journey because i dont have any gurus, and if bad things happen (like this time, i dont know it will turn out like this) i dont know where to speak and find any help, so i decide to find solution here , although my english is not very good.

what i feel now : - more connect to my brain, but still kinda lack to functioning my brain - not happy - stagnat, procrastination - indecisive a bit - doubt in my intuition - intuition off - feeling pressure and cloudy at my right temples and top of my head, sometime it at both temples, sometime its not. - changed mood everytime i wake up - change stage of mind when i wake up - blockage/poped ear - UNCREATIVE - SAD - feel life as a competition what i do : - stopping nithyananda technique, cause i think its to dangerous to open third eye, when my lower chakra unbalaced. even though im sure since im born in this world my third eye is balanced very well, well who knows its balanced when the unbalace happen? :'D - still do grounding tree visualization - trying to spin my third eye counterclockwise, and i dont think it would give a relied on my brain function!! , since its happen because i feel there is a spinning on my head, so i try to spin it at direction where i feel my vibration raising, and thats to spin counterclockwise, some article said that spin chakra counterclockwise can remove excess energy on third eye.. and wow, its good. and its dangerous too, because i dont know what will happen after i spin it, the unbalance maybe will happen when i spin it on the wrong direction or spin chakra which already balanced. spinning chakra can changes one mood, feeling, mental state, and our cognitive! i think this is the way i can cure the brain disfunction, and realy clear my head from too much energy. - stop balancing my lower chakra, since i don want to make more energy on my body. - clean my sinus and tube eustachie, because theres poped ear. i clean it using neti pod. neti pod believed to clear sinus, and make it easy for someone to open their third eye. i watch it on a video lol.

Yep. Some of them are working.

Its so rare to find a therapist or a pshyciatry on my area. So the only option i can do is to search a techniques thats make me relief on this symptoms.

what i feel today : - still i feel theres so much on my brain, like theres so much excessive energy on my head, the location are on my temples, top of my head, and inside my ear. - anxiety - procrastination, cause i cant think so i procrastinate on my tasks, when im doing my task and i know i cant function my brain properly i want to blame myself. so its kinda good to procrastinate, in otherside i blame myself for procrastinate T-T - losing motivate to do anything - dont have a direction in life - brain function mode OFF the technique that i used : same with yesterday. i want to buy a bracelet stones to balance my chakra but it really expensive, do you guys think its worth to use a stone or crystal to balance chakra?

it seem too much, but i just do every one of them for ten minutes a day. i do grounding just 10 minutes, root chakra 10 minutes, inner child 10 minutes, and +- 5 minutes simple yoga.

23 07 2018 what i feel today : Not connect with my mind, there is a big energy on my head, can see the big picture but still i feel too much on my head, feeling different, not happy, cant feel my feelings, just feel desperate, i dont know what to do. when i try to do the inner child work, i feel some shift happen on my reality, i feel the way i used to see the reality from the past is back, so ill try to do that tecnique. Although i just did that techniqie for once. Technique that i used : grounding tree meditation, root chakra meditation focusing red ball energy at the base of my spine, inner child work, yoga (just trying and really makes me exhauted, i cant continue the video until its done lol)

How do you integrate this thing? and how to keep your life going when your brain cant function like its normally do?? :''( im still very unclear here.. but i got a feeling that something big will happen on my brain i dont know what it is...