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Just think of this.. Do you feel like the friendships you have, do any good to you as a person? How do these friends make you feel? How much thought goes to them? How much suffering/worrying is due to them? A simple rule I live by, if people, even best friends, start to become toxic to you and start to hold you back or make you depressed, then cut it off. It might seem like a selfish decision but it's not at all. Knowing what's best for you isn't selfish. If anything, it's selfless, because you'll most likely grow much more and become a better version of your self thanks to cutting them off, doing the world a favor. If you feel like what I'm saying could apply to your situation, what do is talk to them and explain your feelings. You could tell them you need to work on yourself and that it would only be possible if you didn't communicate with them for a while. If they're good people, they'd give you the space you need.

Yes, it's tinnitus. I don't have it, but you have to watch out for loud noises. It is indeed incurable as far as I know..

@How to be wise Wise words. Sad, in a sense. But the truth.

@Bluebird Thanks <3

<3 lovely. Awesome to see you progressing on the path. Lots of love and strength to you, dear fellow

While being a monk sounds really nice. There's something in me that really feels like it wants to impact the world and have a real influence in this lifetime. Becoming a monk basically means you leave society and just work on yourself. In my eyes it seems so egocentric, I don't know. I am probably wrong about this.

I've been struggling with this quite a bit. Taking peace with "not knowing" The "what if" situations. We never know for sure. About anything. So how to make decisions? How to choose something and "lose" the other thing? What if you don't want to lose the other thing but you already have? How can you be at peace with everything and accept it as it is, even though everything makes you feel like this uneasy feeling of regret or discontentment, because you might've chosen wrongly? I know it's kind of vague. And that you should accept the present moment fully. But how do you guys do this? Accepting? I don't know how to accept sometimes'. I can say to myself "it is what it is, and it is ok like that" but that's just words. How do you really FEEL that this is just good as it is?

@Joseph Maynor do you ever still look back / worry?

Do you consider this a bad or a good thing? The inability to think? It's kind of important for day to day life / work isn't it

@28 cm unbuffed Hm.. Mine also thinks everything she did was right and for the better while some things were just not. I can't really speak though because I have gotten a lot of love from my parents during my childhood and growing up. Very caring (probably a bit too caring). So I can't imagine what it's like growing up with a mother like that. But it seems like you're going on the right track so I salute you for that. Can't imagine the consequences it must've had on your development.

Did she acknowledge anything you said or did she just take it and didn't go into it?

@Highest Not your mistake! Much love. Wise father you have! Although sometimes that's easier said than done!

@Highest "harsh judgement" is just a label you give to it. As you know now it wasn't directed to you, but I would like to elaborate on that. Saying someone might have some repressed emotions isn't harsh judgement, it's a invitation for the person to look deeper into what's causing this instead of just labelling it as "side effects of the spiritual path". Everything has its root. You just have to find the root and pull it out. But if you don't even realize there's a root at all, the branches will just keep on growing.

@Shadowraix Thank you for this reply. Maybe it's a natural defense mechanism kicking in. I loved the openness and honesty of your initial reply though. I am also still struggling with repressed emotions. I try to confront them fully when in meditation. The way I know that they are repressed is that they are still creeping up once in a while and I try to flee from them. It's easier to flee than to face it most of the time, but it's not sustainable and not healthy in the long run. They will catch up with you eventually. Sooner or later. Better be done with them when you can

@Highest I wasn't talking about you Why do you think I was referring to you? I have nothing against you and I love your input on this forum

Seems to me that you're still very confused and have a lot of repressed emotions you think you've handled

You didn't deliver OP Waited a while for you, was staring in the mirror for like 10 mins

@Sven It all makes sense though! Thanks a lot <3

@Sven Please don't excuse yourself! I am humbled that you took the time to write a reply to me. Thanks a lot for your time and effort! Would you say your internal internal state is different from your internal state prior to enlightenment? I would think becoming conscious would eliminate the effect of subconscious thoughts and eliminate anxiety, depression, etc

@Sven Interesting. Just clarifying,. I have no problem with emotions in particular, right now. Was just interested in what it feels like, experiencing Being. Is it a constant feeling of love that you feel? Or the your state didn't really change other than the realization?

@Serotoninluv I love your posts!! Especially this one. I've been admiring your input, a lot! Big love and hugs from me

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Watch out with psychedelics I would say. You will almost literally meet your trauma in person again and have no choice but to face it. The trip in itself can bring back and magnify the trauma. If you don't really know how to deal with that properly, I'd advice you to take caution

What is your direct experience with enlightenment? How is your internal state of being? The emotions that come up.

Went to my grandparents today. It has been a while since I had seen them. I was there for my grandmother's 99th birthday. She is the sweetest woman ever. Her and my grandfather both. I never heard them complain once or talk about other people even once. They are the realest and most honest people I know. That said, I haven't seen them in a while since they live far and I don't really have the time to visit them. Bad excuse though. It was stressful today, though. Not the best day my grandparents went through. Made me realize a few things. - Unconditional love is rare - Bond between a respectful family is almost unbreakable - Words are not always needed when it comes to understanding - Spreading warmth unconsciously is more powerful than you realize - Realization is the first step to acceptance