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@SgtPepper i dont think youre getting what im saying, im pretty sure a psychedelic is the worst thing possible for me right now. im not on a psychedelic but reality feels like that right now already. im not conceptualizing anything. im telling you reality is crumbling literally right in front of my face, its like a science fiction movie or a tripand its difficult to handle. i think ill be fine though i just have to get used to it.

@SgtPepper yes i am literally trying to regain a solid ego haha, that is what this post was partially about, maybe some hypnosis techniques or something. its literally difficult to develop a consistent ego under these conditions, other than one that is extremely freaked out and can't understand what is happening because i dont have ground to stand on mentally ive gone to far. i am worried that reality will completely turnn into this giant field if i dont stop being present and i will either like explode or can't perceive it enough to survive.

again, this isn't conceptual using logic or whatever. i am literally perceiving this field more than i am perceiving the objects its is taking on

@SgtPepper what is elevating your consciousness, i dont understand what that means especially in this state now, there aren't really even people here its just this fucking field i can never unsee this

maybe i can get used to it and the fear will go away, but like i said, it is jarring after you perceived to live a life as a person for so long

@SgtPepper "i" am definitely not enlightened from my experience now, reality has become as i said a vibrating filed of which "i" am that i perceive no end to, when i look at the ceiling its like i am being sucked to it, im connected to "it" by this field" but its not really there as i see it obviously just this field is really there, this shit looks way more like science fiction than whatever peace and love stuff im hearing about, id say enlightenment is reality, "i" am just a thought an idea, but clearly not actually something of substance there just is this isness that is taking on the appearancee of forms. actually if i just meditate i guess peacefu or scary depending on how the body reacts, but living life is fucking spooky when theres just this field going on

@dorg lol yes i think in the long run i will be fine, just after so long of reality seeming one way it is jarring to really perceive this hahah

@Artaemis same, i'd be too scared meaning i still do have an ego, so there is still hope for me lmao. i am now kind of seeing this whole situation as simultaneously terrifying and funny funny which is good! I did choose to go down the rabbit hole as they say lol.

also there is a difference between knowing that its an illusion and literally experiencing this field every single second where reality starts to disintegrate to your actual first hand perspective lol, im gonna focus more on the objects

but again, be very careful to everyone, please know what you're really getting into here. its not as airy fairy as you have been lead to believe by many on youtube

@Brittany you are right, this is terrifying for certain if a person can consistently emerge again i will never ever be more thankful to be one lol

Actually, I probably register as Purple now. I literally perceive reality as this auric field of oscillation and I make decisions based on beliefs like true self resonance and experience energies frequencies etc. and at least believe and experience I can intuitively revicieve some form of communication from parts of unique self that exist in other dimensions, and I pretty much go for mystical experience at every moment, that sounds more Purple than anything.

@Leo-Tzu im going back to living resonantly which would probably register as orange - green and some yellow, I was developing for life conditions didn;t have and I was not feeling good, I dropped it and now just live freely

@Troyc to clarify by judging the ego so harshly you are ironically being super egotistical, "ego can be seen"

@Troyc yes I fell into that trap, youre being super egotistical by doing that, your jest judging yourself. At a certain point ego becomes a non factor and its contemplation does way more harm than good you can just go about your business freely as you see fit without. I particularly like to form different egos and interact with the world like that because it is fun for me.

@Recursoinominado reframe the work, focus on the imagination of what it is leading to all the amazing fun stuff you could do with the funds or if its art or something channel the image of what you're making. be in the imagination of the outcome and you will be magnetically pulled to do the work, trust me.

@waking_dreams YES! Identity shifting is so fun! you can't cling to an identity if you're always changing it and you're aware that ultimately you couldn't ultimately be that identity. Actually start acting like a cat right now, I wasn't kidding when I said that, you will become extremely happy. the "egoless (often spiritual) ego" trap is huge and probably the worst one to be in because its the most deceptive, when ultimately you're judging yourself and everyone harder than ever before

also no offense but there is a lot of stuff that can hurt people going on on here, the poor guy just wanted to go to the gym and wouldn't have thought anything of it normally but now has to run it through all these filters and judgements causing increased suffering, that doesn't sound like enlightenment

@Moreira I think this chimpanzee ego qualifies as stage red...is that not good enough for your ego, should I create a green ego to live up to your ego's standards ;)?

im actually egoing as a chimpanzee right now in my living room!

in fact realization and ego are not even mutually exclusive. You can wear any ego at any time like jacket, its actually fun try it sometime. You can be a rockstar, or a homeless person, or even a cat, or, everything, or nothing.

@Moreira he could not have helped a single person without an ego, there is so much fucking irony surrounding the talk of an ego it is ridiculous. I'm done with it. ego exists in some capacity within infinity at least conceptually, get over it, only ego can judge ego or anything for that matter.

@Moreira your ego is literally what made that judgement...

@Troyc Ego only exists conceptually. There are many definitions on what it means, and in pretty much all of these literally only the ego can monitor ego. As soon as the idea of ego comes up generally ego is present. Anyone who says something about the ego is utilizing ego. Fuck all the ego bs. I fell into the trap of suppression, its not fun. do what makes you happy. If you are acknowledging you have an ego than your are acknowledging that it is not you anyway, but you CAN have "an ego" without identifying with it. In fact it is essentially impossible to engage with or create any change in the world without an ego by most definitions.

From M.A. Carrano, The discoverer of the Coral vMeme: "[All] of my research appears to indicate that Coral thinking emerges in Turquoise when it is forced to co-exist and compete in positions of power within 2nd Tier Yellow and Turquoise life conditions wherein Antisocial Personality Disorder is statistically over-represented amid said populations of 2nd Tier personalities. Healthy Coral, having already achieved fluency in 2nd Tier systems thinking at Yellow and having come to understand (albeit consciously or intuitively) the metaphysic, epistemology, and ontology of holism that defines Turquoise, begins to integrate the strategies and tactics of 2nd Tier Antisocial Personalities in order to compete with them in the treacherous and cut-throat life conditions that occupy the halls of power without itself succumbing to Antisocial Personality Disorder itself. I describe individuals capable of this modality of thinking and being as "quasipaths." These individuals aren't antisocials, but they have the potential for antisocial behavior - which they utilize in competition against other antisocials. Unhealthy Coral, conversely, becomes depersonalized to the collateral damage inveterate to Coral life conditions and metastasizes into 2nd Tier Systems/Cybernetics Wizards with environmentally conditioned Antisocial Personality Disorder. To make a healthy shift from Turquoise into Coral requires one first learn about systems-thinking to a point of fluency (Yellow), to then learn to conceive of one's self and one's world as a organically-integrated, cybernatically-interacting whole and to live in synchrony with the synchronicity of one's environments, and then to migrate into Coral Life Conditions, which are: positions of power and responsbility with individuals who exhibit psychopathy predelications. Once there, apply one's systems competencies to outfox, out manuever, and triumph over the power-struggles that inevitibly exist and assume a position of authority within the dominance hierarchy at the top of the Spiral. Insofar as I can tell, Coral is authoritarian, absolutely. However, it orchestrates systems which are constellated from a wide variety of organizing protocols. Fascism is not necessary. Coral can install a democracy, but will include a back door whereby it can easily seize control of the democratic processes through fear, intimidation, and coercian of a ruling class elected to represent the people without the people coming to awareness of Coral's shadow influence. Coral is less likely to install a fascism because fascism is too crude and obvious a tool for control. Instead, Coral prefers to set up systems which people will gladly accept: systems which appear outwardly benevolent and good, and therefore don't rouse the public's suspicions regarding those command and control said systems. In other words, it is far more likely to create systems which win wide-spread approval from the populations - such as Green egalitarian governments like Sweden and Denmark - while from behind the scenes it hacks, hijacks, and takes over the processes of government while misleading the populations that it's primary function is to operate to the interests of the people when, in fact, these functions are secondary to Coral's personal need to survive and remain in power, which it must do before it can even begin to help the public. But every measure I can think of, exit-level Turquoise/entry-level Coral thinkers include Vladimir Putin, Michael J. Morell, Henry Kissinger, and perhaps Elon Musk and John McAfee. CNN, MSNBC, ABC and Russia Today all indicate that, while appearing Green, are currently under Coral Control. Fox News appears, with its Blue/Orange span in the Spiral, similarly appears to be under Coral Control. I currently speculate that there are less than 1,000 exit-level Turquoise/entry-level Coral thinkers on earth, and less than 100 Peak Coral thinkers on earth. If you would like to see examples of Coral, please visit the following links. 1. Michael J. Morell: 5. Elon Musk: