Talinn

I bought testosterone at 17 or 18 to go through half of male puberty because of a genetic disorder . Three years later I largely threw it in the trash and fully medically transitioned to estrogen. I took it for 10 years since then. You'd have to take either hormone for a while for it to fully manifest, in which case the differences are astounding. By that point you start paying the price in terms of your family and society saying you're an idiot and all that . The beauty in estrogen is unmatched and you may be able to notice immediately. If not there are a million other considerations to make to improve your life. Gender transition is indeed very complex and entangled in trouble and good vibes. But on the other hand I think I am also trying to simply sound profound, taking testosterone vs. estrogen is similar in some ways. It can be more philosophically illuminating to try to focus on the similarities. Unity and all that.

Yeah I got unusually annoyed after the "trans in sports" thing when intersex people weren't mentioned. Useful to always do deep-reflection on yourself. Actually I thought you were kind of pretty positive! To be honest after reading your blog I have to admit that thinking of a can of beans and invoking beans randomly into conversations helped me not be so toxic, it's so benign and random! I still use it... I don't know what happened to "beans" i hope it's okay if I say that...

the expression "green with envy" Historically it was a superstition that if you were envious , your color would turn a sickly green.

Music is a centrifuge +thought accelerant. Accelerating bullshit to purify it. It blends intuited outcomes and truths - and pre-existing lower quality thoughts - throws them into a blender and discharges them in a colorful dance ring.

Something like 3,309 days ± 30-60 days, kinda forgot tbh

My issue with being compared to spiders as per the videos in this thread is that either we're categorized as one off two things. Either we're Jeff the Spider from Billy and Mandy, a silly distortion of truth that poses no real threat to people or we are Ungoliant sinking chelicerae into the roots of Telperion & Laurelin, draining the light of the world. When people say , " don't reduce us to genitals in relationships" , all this is an expression of gender dysphoria which can be expressed a thousand ways to Sunday. Either you're in your room being depressed it doing nothing about it; or you're fixing the problem yourself and not blaming others for it, or you do some hybrid of it where you both blame others and try to fix it yourself, which is what LGBT youtube activists do. Every one of these is expressed in the real world. Every one is a double-edged sword for various actors. No path is without some cost to some aspect of reality. If transgender people are supposed to express their genital dysphoria in only one way, I would like cisgender people to express their dysphoria for transgender in only way - how they honestly feel about the issue. Don't default to the lowest denominator in a conversation for easy points or think about the issue for only 30 seconds. I never lambast anyone for not wanting to date transgender people, I lambast them because they assume they know what I want. Sometimes, when a trans person says someone else is transphobic , they are trying to offload their significant transphobia from themselves and off to others. Which is selfish, but it's a way to shatter the mirror and recreate yourself from scratch with love and care. I will say I love spiders, though I don't think they capture the full reality of my existence.

I don't know, what I remember about my last major sports competition was getting my times in Cross Country beat by XX chromosome people since my testosterone levels were 3 ng/dl at age 17 / 17.5 . The only reason I found out I had Kallmann Syndrome was after passing out in a race, but maybe I should have tried harder instead of trying to cheat in the future.....

Yep, unlucky. I'm afraid intersex variations needs to be mentioned at least once for me to take that blog post seriously....

I like your journal Yimpa.

Make sure you clear out your browser history though, don't want any funny stuff in there..

All women are gay I see the truth...

Usually if I remember having a penis it's because I'm dehydrated, someone in this thread's gonna have to pay me 3 dollars for a gallon of water so I can forget about that rope-angle, please and thanks. (it's been 8+ months since i remembered holy fck).

Who do you know that actually uses a xenogender in real life. If you use xenogenders on a resume it won't help your job application. You see them online because gender is a complicated thing to navigate internally and being on the internet can make you do a little more weird stuff than offline since you're way more in your internal bubble.

I like chorizo burritos with egg and potatoes.

I'm just practicing not yelling at cisgenders to be honest