To me the answer is very simple: start your own business and make it successful. By the time you finish that, which should take about 5 years, you should have a solid grasp of Orange.
Of course that is not the only way. But I think it's one of the most powerful and it worked very well for me.
Of course starting a successful business is very challenging. But that's what makes the growth so solid.
If you are not a business type person, you could also pour that same effort into a career of some kind.
Starting a business is one of the biggest growth opportunities in life.
Integrating Orange is about being very proactive about your success in life. Stop sitting around and taking it easy. Go hustle and work your ass off. Go take a Tony Robbins seminar.

There is really no damage to control. I just needed to make clear that what Connor is doing has little to do with my teachings.
The reason I reached out to him is: 1) Because I don't want him to hurt himself, and 2) Because I don't want him to give spirituality and psychedelics and Actualized.org a bad image. Yes, your video spurred me into taking these possibilities more seriously because in general I don't take people like Connor seriously unless I'm really forced to. I don't sit around watching people's spiritual videos. My attention is focused on my own work. When some posts a video mentioning me or criticizing me, I have zero interest in seeing it. My initial reaction is that it's a distraction. Any errors in my work will not be revealed to me by some YouTube reactionary, they will be found by myself. I don't need you to tell me where I'm deluded, I will find all those areas much deeper myself.
I still hold to my initial statements:
1) Connor is acting like an unhinged lunatic in the way he style his videos. Any casual observer with perceive him to be unhinged, regardless of whether this is true or not. I wanted to speak to Connor to find out if he's actually unhinged in person. My conversation with him was healthy and reasonable. I wish he came off that way in his videos so people don't get the wrong idea. But he told me he deliberately plays up the crazy for purpose of views and clicks. To me that's a waste of my time. This entire "controversy" is basically nothing but clickbait drama. Which is why I don't usually respond to such things. It's a distraction from serious spiritual work. I generally don't like it when people create controversy and drama just for attention because this seriously distracts my audience from the deep work they should be focused on doing. I am protective of my audience's attention. I don't want it directed towards dramatic stuff like Connor's Tantric sex. It's a waste of time.
2) I still hold that Connor is a Zen devil. I have an old video: Becoming A Zen Devil, where I explain many of the traps Connor is falling into.
My treatment of Connor was fine considering that I try to keep my focus on my own work and not the work of others. When a guy comes off as unhinged I don't give that person much of my attention. That's what happened. Then your video made me rethink the situation and get involved. I generally don't like getting involved in such things because it's usually not constructive or productive.
No, he is not saying the same things I am saying. Not at all. I have never engaged in clickbait with my channel. I do the opposite of clickbait and it costs me millions of views and $$$. So to compare my teachings with Connor is absurd.
Just because Connor says basic spiritual truths such as "I am God" or "Life is a dream" or "Do psychedelics" does not mean his teachings are the same as mine. Those a common spiritual truths which many spiritual teachers say. What matters is the other 95% of the teaching.
My leaving video was recorded after a massive breakthrough in consciousness facilitated by 5-MeO-DMT, which is why I left to do the 30 day retreat. I was also going through a very challenging health situation.
Firstly, there were no "antics". I just sat in a bath. That's it. That's what you call "antics".
Secondly, I thought you had an issue with my taking a bath on 5-MeO-DMT. I know some YouTube reactionary did, I guess that wasn't you but someone else. I confuse you with that someone else. My bad and my apologies.
Lol. I will watch porn whenever I damn please and I don't care about your judgments on the matter.
If you have a problem with me watching porn or jerking off, that's all you.
Addiction is your assumption. I never said anything about addiction. It was a spiritual experience, and an amazing one that you only wish you had. To become fully conscious of what sexual desire is, is a profound awakening. And to give yourself the sexual pleasure you desire is also a profoundly healing spiritual experience. Try it sometime instead of judging
Expression of sexual desire is not a pathology.
Calling Connor a Zen devil was a precise articulation of his problem. My comments were derogatory in the same way that anyone new watching some of Connor's unhinged videos would react. BTW, I withheld commenting or judging Connor for many months. People have been posting his videos here since last spring and I withheld judgment even though in the back of my mind I already saw that this guy was a troublemaker and a potential distraction. I only called him an unhinged lunatic after enough of his videos were posted here and your video linking him to me was the straw that broke the camel's back.
I toned down my language so that I could reach out to Connor and find some common ground to try to persuade him not to go down the road of Zen devilry. If he continues making unhinged clickbait videos, my initial opinions of him will stand. I want to give him some space to correct himself.
Such abilities are not delusional bullshit. But these abilities require serious spiritual practice to actualize. A psychedelic trip alone will not grant these abilities in the sober state. This is still something I'm researching and figuring out.
That particular statement was overstated, to be fair to you. And I can see why that would arouse skepticism in people like you.
Nevertheless, deep consciousness can indeed resolve and heal many problems in your life. It's not a magic cure for everything. Some problems need to be fixed at the material level. So I will concede that point to you. I exaggerated with that statement. I do have tendency to exaggerate and overstate things sometimes in order to communicate the depth and profundity of these remarkable states of super-human consciousness. Sober words don't really do these states justice.
The truth is that everything that I said about spirituality, consciousness, and psychedelics is a gross understatement. I have accessed states of consciousness which are absolutely beyond anything that could be explained or taught, or that has been accessed by traditional teachers. Doubt me if you like, but I don't care. In these states of consciousness literally every problem is resolved. The problem is how to sustain such consciousness. That's the only real problem.
I get very little out of engaging with you. It takes up time which I could invest in creating better videos.
I have a general policy not to engage with any reactionary material to my work. Now, of course, my critics will chalk that up to the fact that my positions are too weak to be defended in public debate. But the reality is that the things I teach cannot be debated at all. So I don't debate and I don't react. I don't really do interviews either. Because I want all my attention to be focused on constructive work.
My policy has always been not to engage reactionaries. I made a rare exception for your video because Connor has a large audience and I don't want them to get misled about this work, and also because I became somewhat concerned about Connor's psychological health. Your video did make me take this issue more seriously, as I initially dismissed the seriousness of the situation. Because my mind is not focused on anyone's work but my own. So some thanks to you for that. If a see some crazy YouTuber doing something, I generally have no interest in butting in. I got my own work to focus on.
This whole incident, thanks your video, has made me even more convinced that in the future I will not be responding to any reactionary YouTube content about me. And that is because nothing of value comes from it. I will not do debates and I will not defend any of my teachings. My teachings will stand completely on their own merits. My teachings are true only if you can validate them for yourself. Anything that comes out of my mouth which you cannot validate is not true. Which makes things very simple. My teachings are not an ideology of any kind and therefore they require no defending or debate. You cannot discover the truth of my teachings via a conversation, discussion, or debate. You cannot know whether miraculous healing is possible from super-human states of consciousness via discussion on YouTube. The only way to solve that is to actually do it.
I thank you for your willingness to engage in a public conversation, but I would rather focus my time and energy towards creating positive new content rather than distracting my audience with drama, gossip, and controversy.
It's not that I'm saying you're wrong, either. Even if you are right, I will let the audience make that determination for themselves while I move on with doing my constructive work. But I simply have no interest in publicly adjudicating rightness or wrongness. A much faster way to adjudicate that is through actual practice. Practice is what will cut out all the falsehood. If you are right and I am wrong, practice will show that. So I would rather just direct my audience to practice more.
I simply have zero interest in explaining myself to YouTube reactionaries. I would rather just focus on making videos that actually help people do spiritual work.
Okay, good for you. In general I have a very low opinion of YouTubers who make their careers as reactionaries. If that's not you, then great. I wish you a long and happy career as a constructive content creator rather than a troll.
Maybe at some point in the future we could have a public conservation, but right now my focus is on deepening my own practice. I'm not even much interested lately in being a YouTuber. Very soon most of my focus will be going into my own radical awakening and spiritual practice. When I do my deepest work you will not even know that I exist.

Personally I haven't gotten any self-esteem boost from mindfulness meditation. It's just not designed for that.
I think therapy can be positive if you have some childhood trauma which sources your low self-esteem.
I'd say the #1 solution to this problem is going out regularly, socializing regularly, and taking to attractive girls regularly so that you feel them getting attracted to you. As you attract more of them you will start to feel better about yourself and develop some confident and shatter some limit beliefs.
The #2 solution is psychedelics, which are far more powerful than any therapy at getting you to truly love yourself. Basically, psychedelics will do what therapy does but 100x deeper, faster, and cheaper. But they will be more emotionally taxing and challenging because you'll be accomplishing more work in less time.
You won't understand what true self-love or self-acceptance is until you do some psychedelics. No therapist can explain you this because they themselves don't have it or know it.

Hasan does a great job of exposing JP's bad political takes:
Many people who listen to JP's psychological lectures and talks never see the sum total of his regressive stage Blue political positions, and so they are slowly indoctrinated into it over time without even realizing it.
This is why JP fans often say, "What wrong with JP? He helped me!"
Yes, he helped you, but he also indoctrinated you with stage Blue ideology and demonized stage Green. And you don't even realize it because he sounds academic and intelligent.

He certainly worked his ass off. But if you think that Ralston is not in the top 0.0001% of spiritually gifted people on the planet, you are fooling yourself.
You ain't Ralston and you will never be.
Commitment is not enough. No matter how much a donkey tries, it will never become God-realized.
I know people who were born enlightened and who have spiritual powers that you will never have even after a lifetime of practice. When it comes to spirituality, genetics is far more important than practice. This is what gurus never tell you, because it isn't so nice to hear.

You will never discover Truth unless it's your top value.

Set fewer goals, but bigger, more juicier goals and then latch onto them like a pitbull and never let go until they are actualized.
Without that pitbull attitude, you won't get far. You must be unwilling to yield to failure. Simply refuse to let failure stop you. But for that to work you need a worthwhile goal.

You can't ever win that game because that kind of good vs bad is dualistic and relative. So no matter how much "good" you create and how much "bad" you avoid, you will always fail.
True Goodness is Absolute, which means it includes the "bad".
The ultimate solution to "bad" stuff is not to avoid it, but to stop seeing it as "bad".
"Bad" is a projection of the ego-mind thanks to its endless desire to survive. So this problem cannot be solved at the level of consciousness you're trying to solve it at.
Absolute Good does not mean that your ego will get everything it wants.

No. In practice it's very hard to eliminate such judgments and survival habits.
Survival is seriously stubborn.
No, I'm rarely in a blissful state.
Some days I feel shitty. It all depends.
There is the spiritual ideal, and then there is your actual life. And they are very different.
You have to be very careful with this goal of bliss and happiness. You're likely yo be disappointed on that front.

Because it isn't true.
So you are constantly fighting against Infinity.
It is as if you are trying to dig a hole in the middle of the Pacific ocean.

Because their perspective is biased by their survival agenda.
A woman does not understand what is required for a guy to attract a woman. Understanding this requires lots of experience attracting women. Which women do not have. It is also not in their self-interest to understand it.
It would be like a rabbit understanding how to hunt rabbits. This does not compute in the rabbit's mind. The rabbit cannot imagine the hunting of rabbits. The rabbit will just give you advice to preclude hunting altogether because the rabbit must be anti-hunting to survive. So there is an unconscious conflict of interest problem.
That is dating advice.
Women do not spend time analyzing guys who approach them.
Generally yes, but a woman is not the right person to ask about how not to be creepy. She hasn't spent much time thinking about this from the guy's POV.

Yea it's a huge problem. The women used to be forced to marry only for survival. Or as a holy grail. Men mostly had a choice in the women they wanted to marry but women generally didn't have a choice in deciding the groom. They had to marry the man who picked them. Most families would tell the girl that it's in her best interests to marry the man who has approached or be single for the rest of her life. Girls were usually coaxed and 
India has a strong history of evil against women. Too many social evils committed against women. But the generational curse is breaking. Women are moving towards empowerment which is real feminism. They don't want to be stuck in abusive marriages. They are making their own money and living their own life. 
This is one of the reasons why I didn't want to be a mother in my life and why I promised myself that I will never marry into an Indian family. Because then the cycle continues. I wanted to break that cycle. 
My dad was kinda ugly, he was a good guy but he didn't look attractive, he was attracted to my mom and she was very beautiful in her younger years and my dad approached her family for marriage and she wasn't willing to marry him. Yet her family forced her and gave her the option to either marry my dad or be single or suicide. My mother tried to attempt suicide and she was saved. But she wasn't given an option to get a job because nobody would help her get an education or any other assistance. She wanted to go to college and complete her education but her family didn't allow her and she reluctantly agreed to marry my dad. 
Also my mom was attracted to another man who was quite handsome and charming. But her family never allowed that guy to make any approaches. Her brother's wives were jealous that she would get a good groom so they hastily arranged her marriage to my father.. 
In India a girl child is considered a burden in the family.. The boy child is considered a prince or treasure. So if a boy is born, the whole family rejoices and if a girl is born, some fathers will mourn the birth of a daughter. 
So the solution to this problem in their minds was  to marry the daughter to some man and get rid of this burden. She would be mistreated by the husband and the husband's family and this was her life, living like a burden on society. There was an inherent misogyny in Indian society, an inherent hate towards women. Even the Hindu scriptures demonized women and looked at women as the source of all evil. Probably that's where the misogyny comes from. 
The situation was so bad that my mom used to tell me that in an average Indian family, the boy would be fed milk but not the girl, she would be fed very little and the entire focus of the family would be on the son and not the daughter. The son would get all the love and attention from parents. 
The situation was so severe for so many decades that there was female infanticide, basically killing the girl child when she was born or aborting a female foetus once the gender of the foetus was detected as female. 
It was so bad that the Indian government had to step in and stop the gender identification of foetuses.
This is where the generational trauma for women comes from. 
Then there was a problem of dowry. If a woman wanted to get married to feel less of a burden on her family, her family had to pay dowry to the husband in the marriage, before the wedding is fixed. Or sometimes after. The dowry was an insane amount of money the family had to pay. Sometimes the groom would demand a house or a car or very huge amount of cash as a dowry gift. Or else he would threaten to divorce their daughter. And a divorced woman would be considered like a curse or a taboo in our society, like she would need to hide herself and live in misery and anonymously. Then the husband would harass his wife and tell her to ask for more dowry from her parents. Girls were poorly educated and there was no concept as "women working" back in the 80s. So her only survival was her husband. She also had to live with the husband's family even if she didn't wish to live with them, and she was supposed to serve the husband, and his family and she was considered a good wife if she was a perfect slave to everyone. 
So you will see in old Indian movies, the woman is shown as touching the husband's feet and calling him a God and massaging the feet of her father in law and serving everyone and eating last. Her life was all about serving everyone's needs in the husband's family but her own. There was nothing like her dreams, her career, her life, she was just a possession of the husband. 
The dowry system was so bad that many women in the 70s, 80s and the 90s were literally set ablaze and burned alive by the families of the groom. This was done In order to let the guy remarry the woman of his choice in an effort to collect more dowry. 
My mom kept the old newspapers safe from the 90s decade and I used to read when I grew up and they will filled with news stories of horrible atrocities against wives /daughter in laws in the name of dowry. 
There was an ancient practice in India called Satee. Which meant that if a woman lost her husband to death, then during the funeral she had to jump into the funeral pyre of her husband and get herself killed as a sacrifice or tribute to her husband. She was then considered a good wife. This evil practice was then eradicated by the British. 
Indian men had the general belief that a woman should be a virgin or he will refuse to marry her or have a relationship with her. It was considered that a woman who was not a virgin was not pure and that she should be rejected. Even this day a lot of Indian men will directly ask the girl "are you a virgin?", but it doesn't matter if the guy is a virgin or not.
If a woman became a widow in our culture, then she was never allowed to remarry. These days they do, but it's rare. Back in those days, like 60 years ago,  if a woman was a widow, then she was forced to shave her head and wear white clothes so that she wouldn't attract any man 
My mom lost her husband(my dad) when  I was very young and she never remarried. If she ever wore makeup, people used to snare at her. She wouldn't get invited to parties. 
So you can see how Indian women suffered generational trauma under an evil patriarchal system where marriage was her saving grace from death or suicide but marriage was also her misery pit. 
Today, the situation is kinda better, not that much because we haven't completely yanked the patriarchy out. 
The government made laws against dowry and female infanticide and all other evil practices against women. But this does not mean that they don't happen. In some places they still do, and dowry still gets exchanged undercover. 
Indian women are deeply ingrained by their parents and general Indian culture that their survival is impossible without a man or husband. They are not taught freedom. They are taught their destiny is in the hands of a man. 
Compared to women, men have it much better here, they are given a lot of freedom and privilege. They are treated like kings in the family as well as society. 
But today the women in my country want to change this mentality. I don't want to marry an Indian man for survival. I am educated and I can survive on my own. 
So the women are fighting hard against patriarchal beliefs and rules and traditions. We are getting there, not just yet. 
Hinduism as a religion has all the good principles but the "treatment of women" part of Hinduism is deeply marinated in misogyny. All the female goddess stuff is bullshit. The goddesses only exist in the temple, in reality no woman is treated like a goddess. 
And don't let an indian man fool you by making you believe that Indian women have it good if a woman became a prime minister in the country in the old decades. First of all, the only woman who became a prime minister and on top of that, she was assassinated. It's like saying racism stopped in America because Obama became president. Such things are a ploy to distract from real evil. 
All in all, women in my country had to suffer a lot of evil and I feel bad for the women before me, especially my mom because she had to live her whole life with a man she didn't love, with a man she didn't wish to marry, he was a good husband, but she didn't want him, so it was a source of tremendous frustration for her and she never wanted the same fate for me so she raised me to choose the man I want to, she never forced me to marry or be with someone that I didn't want to be with. 
It's sad that women had to suffer so much in my country and yet get so much hate. India definitely has the blood of many innocent women on its hands. 
If you really want to witness what misogyny looks like in a real form, come to India.. 

Don't confuse your neediness and desperation for Love with a capital L.
In the domain of the relative (relationships), you must seek the right fit rather than justifying a wrong fit as Love. True Love here would be not wasting her time with the wrong fit.

There is nothing wrong with anything.
But your preferences are biases, limits, and attachments, which have corresponding consequences.
A devil can have biases, but God cannot.
If you select to have biases then you will suffer the inherent limitations of those biases. If you want to reduce your suffering and increase your love, then you must give up as many biases as possible until you ultimately give them all up. Which is impossible to do and stay alive.
So you are caught in an existential bind: if you want to stay alive you must have biases. But you will suffer for them. Or you can surrender all biases and end all suffering but you will no longer be alive.

We are all different and have different spiritual talents. Some people get enlightened in one weekend, others take 30 years, other never.
I have some special talents which many people don't have.
It's impossible to compare what he and I have integrated. I have no idea what he's integrated. Maybe he did more than me in those 20 years. Hard to say.
I don't recommend it either. He did very high doses which is dangerous. My approach is doing moderate sizes doses but doing them more often.
I wouldn't call it the same. There's no way to know or compare these things nor should you try.
I have been contemplating the metaphysics and epistemology of reality since I was 16 years old. So I had laid a deep theoretical foundation. And I'm also very good at contemplating metaphysical things.
Of course. Why not? Almost any psychedelic can be used to have serious spiritual insight and the insights will be similar.
You could do what he did using almost any psychedelic if you're committed enough. The magic is not in the psychedelic as much as in your intent to use it to understand reality.
What we're talking about is understanding.
His doses were way too high.
I recommend low to moderate doses which won't be so difficult to integrate.
I don't recommend you copy me in doing 30 days of 5-MeO-DMT. That's too much and it's not necessary. I did it because I wanted to push the edge and explore uncharted waters. I was only able to do it because I had a deep theoretical foundation and I had several years of prior experience working with psychedelics.
For a normal person such as yourself, you should be aiming for small doses done once or twice a month, with breaks in between.
A good starting dose is 1g-2g dried mushrooms or 125ug of LSD. Or the equivalent of that on any other psychedelic.
There are dozens of wonderful psychedelics or research chemicals you can use to achieve a similar result. Through experimentation you can find which molecule works best for you. Don't assume we are all the same. Your brain chemistry is unique.
In general I would say you're getting ahead of your skiis. Do a few small trips and just see how psychedelics make you feel. They may not be right for you, or you may find that they are perfect for you. It all depends. There are too many variables to know ahead of time. This is a domain which requires exploration and careful trial and error.

When stuck in a loop, the best thing to do is to force your body to move to override any thoughts and simply change the environment. Walk outside, or crawl to another room, or go to the bathroom, or run a bath, or turn on and dance to some happy music, etc. It tends to work really well. But you must DO IT, rather than think about doing it. Train yourself to use your body to override thought, rather than thinking about using your body.

It's not as toxic as Orange and Blue universities.
The toxicity of Green is much over-hyped by people with Orange and Blue agendas.
I think his work has been personally attacked a lot by Green and it was never really accepted within Green academia.
Wilber also clearly understands the limitations of Green.
But I think what Wilber misses is that even though university culture is Green, he does not appreciate that the rest of the country not even at Green yet. Wilber wants us to leap into Yellow without appreciating that first majority of the country has to solidly enter Green.
I think that given how smart and advanced Wilber is, he's over-estimating the rest of the populace who haven't even finish university and have no idea the lessons of post-modernism.
Wilber is criticizing Green from above, but he doesn't realize that 50% of the country is opposed to Green from below and that that 50% will have to be forced into Green before we start moving into Yellow.
What the last 4 years of Trumpism has shown us is that America is less developed than most of us thought, that a transition to solid Green is still decades away, and Yellow will not happen in our lifetimes.
The key takeaway is this: however bad Green universities are, the rest of the country is in far worse shape. We have a lot of work to do just to get the rest of the country to the same development level as liberal universities, and even once we accomplish that, we'll still have all of the Green problems to deal with.
We are not going to magically leap from Blue/Orange to Yellow.

I'm a community builder and somewhat successful entrepreneur (bootstrapped a co-living real estate startup to $4M revenues and profitability, 17 locations/communities, and 3,500+ tenants/members). 
In the past few years, I've gotten very into helping people (and also myself) raise their consciousness, and am especially interested in 5meo. I'm now working full-time on building a permanent physical (and 100% legal) site and community for this. I think a physical site/community for 5meo could be a game-changer for helping a lot of people awaken in a safe and legal way (and I'm also incorporating therapists, a strong community, and top-tier research into this site/endeavor).
Right now, I'm researching and testing out different models around buying real estate for opening a legal clinic and/or research group and/or retreat, focused on 5meo dmt. While this isn't legal in many countries, there ARE ways to do like this legally in countries like Canada (it is legal there for research purposes) and also Jamaica (drug laws are extremely lax there, and there are already fully operational and sanctioned psychedelic retreats in Jamaica, such as the Atman Retreat).
Since this forum is a hub for people who are interested in this sort of thing (special thanks to Leo for creating this forum), I've love to collaborate with anyone reading this who might be interested in this initiative - either as business partners, researchers, advisors, or community builders. With the pandemic/lockdown, real estate is getting super cheap, and now would be a great time to buy a permanent site for something like this (and I have the access to capital and know-how to get this done).
Would love to hear anyone's thoughts on this project. Feel free to reply / reach out to me if you might be interested, and/or if you have any questions!

There's no solution to this other than finding another girl.
Attraction is not a conscious choice. You do not choose what you get attracted to.
She herself cannot satisfy her own standards for you. She will certainly not be turned on by any random guy.
It's your responsibility as a man to screen girls hard right off the bat to meet your attractiveness standards. Stop settling for mediocre girls. By not screening harder you are doing a disservice to the girl, since you won't be passionate about her.

They literally only exist when you are aware of them. Like in a video game. There is no static video game world other than what is rendered on the screen. The screen is it.
Yes
Of course
There is no difference between a rock and your body.

Hi, this is my first trip report
This happened around June of 2017, and i had about 4 or 5 120μg experiences prior to that. I was 21 at that time.
The very first time i tried lsd about 30μg, and this was also my first psychedelic experience. (i was smoking weed pretty much daily at that point) I had very minor visuals, and i felt euphoric, like the best high ever. it basically was a 6 hour-long amazing conversation with one of my best friends (he took the same dose, it was his first time too). After that, i felt like i understood what this substance kinda is hinting towards, so i knew i was ready for more. I had a strong feeling of OH, I KNOW THIS! (I now know that i have this "talent" of remembering my trips quite well. Most of them, anyway.) So as i mentioned, the next 4-5 trips were all of around 100-120μg. They all had significant insights, but none of the magnitude of this 600 one.
(At this point, i was watching Leo's videos for about 2 years, i started meditating and lifting weights. I was very much SD stage Green, and i still was identifying myself as an atheist and an environmentalist and stuff like that.)
So listening to Terrence Mckenna and others, i knew that i wanted to do a higher dose, but in solitude - all my previous trips were done with a couple friends. So i got 4 bloaters of 150μg each, i told my mom that i would do a whole-day meditation and that i would close my phone (i was home for a few days), i woke up at about 7 or 8 A.M. i prepared the food for the day so that i wouldn't have to do anything while tripping.
 
-So, at about 8:55 i put the little papers under my tongue, sat in a meditation position and waited calmly. I had my journal next to me, i wanted to record everything. (I'm gonna combine storytelling with what i wrote because i couldn't write much, as you might imagine ).
-About 25 minutes later, i wasn't sure if placebo or not, but i started to feel the come up, and i had to shit twice! My body knew it had to be empty, or else
-The come up was much stronger and faster than my previous trips, so i started panicking a bit at the thought that i might not be able to handle it, but i knew that if i panicked, music would just melt that panic away. So i just laid back with my eyes closed and put on The Division Bell album from Pink Floyd... HOLY. MOTHERFUCKIN. SHIT! i don't listen to whole albums a lot in everyday life, but when tripping... i feel like albums were made specially to be listened to while tripping  so anyway:
-Very quickly i started visually percieving, seeing impossible stuff, like emotions and language, that were like different kinds of oils and liquids flowing next to each other, forming layers, that were forming reality. And as i was melting in between those liquidy layers i saw every single person i ever knew. They were there... HERE! With me, in me... they were me! It was the first time i actually saw and understood what previously was just hearsay - the fact that "i" am/is God/Godliness/Everythingness. It was quite a shock to the system back then, and the first reaction was frustration, because if i am God - Everything, then how can i NOT be bored?!? But as i was taking notes i kept realizing more and more that the kind of information i am accessing is useless to try to capture in words. I also saw much more clearly how "the one that is frustrated" of that is the ego, which is a thought identified with itself.
-"Beingess is useless to the ego". Oneness is useless, even counterproductive, to that which is designed to fragment. My mind was trying really hard to understand " OK... BUT WHAT DOES THIS MEAN TO ME, BOGDAN?" And it was disappointed that it only means that everything is One. No super-powers, this trip won't be a magic solution to anything.
-"Only the ego can be sufficiently satisfied with the sufficient amount of ego death. Only an ego wants a reality more like this, a calmness/trip/ego more like that...". I was being made aware of random things from my unconscious, including my wish for ego death. I started writing seriously, with all caps EGO DEATH in my journal, but just as soon as i wrote that, i saw that only the ego can WANT ego death  and that being just is. The ego was being shown it's obvious BS and it didn't like that. I saw clearly how childish my personality was.
-"Discipline is KEY!" I still struggled to comprehend oneness, and kept trying to understand what does this oneness mean when i'm not on acid. And the only answer that i could come up was that the "work" or Sadana is to grow my balls in order to cultivate more and more presence. I was afraid of the peaceful, transcendental power of discipline.
-"True balance is to be utterly, seriously disciplined, without being so serious". So basically being disciplined but relaxed. I saw how i needed to incorporate and integrate everything i knew.
 
So by this point i started peaking. More like i arrived to the base of the mountain and started going up. This is where the trip really begins.
 
-While with my eyes closed, i started going deeper and deeper, to the point where what i was experiencing was so radical and extraordinary, that when i tried to come back to write in my journal it was like being sucked through a straw. I had to completely let go of this reality to be shown what i needed to see. The last thing i was able to write was: "Oh, how i have to let go of this side to even...".
-Here, similarly to how people describe meeting entities/machine elves, i met these two beings. Except we were one. They were my masculine and feminine. But actually, they were THE Masculine and Feminine. I was experiencing myself as a sort of a child archetype - pure curiosity and innocence, She was represented as a woman, but made out of white light, pure beauty, wisdom and kindness, and He was just the most badass kinda fit, kinda old dude, that sort of looked like Peter Ralston  And he was like my fully mature, fully fledged potential, future self. Raw, infinite power. He also had this most amazing  tracksuit that was this kinda dark red, but not really, it was the most amazing color ever!
-So anyway, they congratulated me for being brave, for coming to them. She was proud of me, but He was sort of giving me a tough love kind of thing, but perfectly balanced, with infinite wisdom and love! Perfect parenting!
-Then she took me by the hand, and said "Let me show you something" (She wanted to teach me what suffering is) and  we flew through the Universe, and she took me to a weird place, where there was a kind of bookshelf - i was experiencing time as a physical dimension - and every single "book" in that library/bookshelf was one of my memories. All of my memories were laid before me, and she proceeded to show me every single "suffering" i ever had! From every awkward moment with a girl, every single time i got angry because i stubbed my toe,to things like the death of my father (i was 12). She would take each of these sufferings, like a string made out of Light and after She showed them to me, She would weave the strings together, making a rope. And basically She kept explaining and showing me that "because of this suffering you then did this, and you learned this, (and she would build up, and up, and up), and because of that you became the type of person that knows the types of things that made you take acid in this manner IN ORDER TO FEEL *THIS*" 
-And She pulled on the finished rope, squeezing pure emotion out of it, and i felt it all at once... i started crying like i never cried in my life. I never saw anything more beautiful, i didn't think that there could be anything THAT beautiful, it was completely overwhelming. There cannot be words deep enough to explain how beautiful what i just saw/experienced was. I don't know for how much i was crying. I described this very briefly, but this took hours in "real life". I basically watched all of my memories being played like on a dvd   i don't really recall how i experienced time there.
 
Now we're halfway towards the peak
 
-After all that happened, is was His turn to show me something.
-We "walked" through the Universe, and he explained and showed me in incredible detail what consciousness is and how awesome it is. He would literally take a piece of reality, of space, like you take frosting from cake, with your finger, and He showed me how it can turn into literally ANYTHING. He continued to show me uncountable unimaginable things that infinity does/is, while we would get bigger and bigger, zooming out of a Mandelbrot set type fractal, where i saw whole concepts like music, manifested in front of me. I literally saw music as a whole, like a fractal jewelry, and i remember looking at it and saying "oooh, and that's music". But it wasn't just a visual thing, it was like was seeing, feeling, hearing, composing, playing and being every possible infinite piece of music at the same time. Such it was for many other concepts, that i don't remember.
-At some point we transcended fractality, where i was shown The Present Moment, how i was it, and how it is infinite. Now, this all seems common knowledge for me, but then it was very significant shocking because it was the first time i actually understood that the Universe was infinite. I pretty much had a materialist paradigm until then, although i was quite open to spirituality even as a child.
-Time was dilating more and more and He proceeded to show me in increasingly ingenious and complex ways what Life is. I was being shown how the Universe is a Perpetuum Mobile, and at one point i recall becoming the seasons, cycling and cycling. Evey second became years and years, which escalated to experiencing lifetimes - birth/death/birth/death/birth/death over and over and over. It was interesting because i recall seeing this death/rebirth through the eyes of animals. I saw lifetimes of birds, specifically, and other animals that i can't remember as specifically.
-Remember i said how what She showed me was the most overwhelmingly, impossibly beautiful thing that i ever saw and that i cried like never before? Well... what He showed me was orders of magnitude more beautiful than that. My physical body was crying so freaking hard, but i wasn't paying attention to it, what He showed me was too overwhelming. I don't even remember what exactly i started crying from. i only remember the significance of it.  my brain kinda had to forget that moment.
-So the insights were getting deeper and deeper, and i approached a sort of black hole. I don't know any other way of how to describe it. As an analogy, He was teaching me how to fight, like a kung fu master, and he had me pinned down, or holding me under water. My experience wasn't of fighting or anything, it was about life/love/death, but he was pushing my limits of what i can handle, but exactly, precisely to where i needed. My physical body was on it's belly, on the bed, contorting and my face was in a pool of saliva  so i was kinda drowning/suffocating in my own saliva. I could stop whenever i wanted, but the hypoxia worked synergistically with the trip, to create an incredible ecstasy. Basically He pushed me as close to death as possible, to the point where i almost fell over. It is my speculation that if i had taken much more than that, i could've (or better said would've) made the conscious choice to suffocate the physical body and pass over into that abyss. 
-At that point i heard Her say to Him "enough... you're killing him." and i was sucked back into human consciousness, and i opened my eyes. 8 hours had passed.
-If i remember correctly i started writing right away, saying things like:
"take all the notes you want, you will never understand. This information can be understood only through Being"
 "you can't be more of this or that because you already are infinite"
"don't take yourself so seriously, keep your role in society but don't be identified with it"
"remember to snap out of the illusion from time to time and you'll be fine"
"just get up and live your life, be creative"
My mind was shook, it felt like it had THE answer, but it couldn't find it. Maybe a bit like a raccoon that dips it's sweet, amazing cotton candy in water and then it disappears  
Basically the human conclusion i got was to keep working to become as conscious as possible.
 
I was in a state of blissful ecstasy, but i became ultra-aware how constantly changing everything is. This was very painful/scary for me at the time, very much anchored in ego. Because if everything including my state of being is constantly changing, then i couldn't find myself anymore. I kept becoming aware of the very different emotions and states of being that consciousness is capable of creating through "personality", and it was scary. Again, i didn't have the base of knowledge of how to interpret all these things correctly. It was like my ego was trying super hard to reconfigure itself, an it kept being deconstructed and reconstructed.
One way thoughts managed to reconfigure false identity was with the objection that "what is saw was TOO beautiful" and i kept reminding myself holy shit, the beauty, Jeeeeeeeesus fucking Christ the beauty   and i would start crying and weeping again and again for hours on end after that. I had to leave the house, to distract myself with something (i was sobering up, this was a about 6 P.M. so about 10 hours had passed, although i still was really high. And i went on a walk through a forest nearby, and i just kept weeping repeatedly, utterly in awe of the beauty and the profundity of what i just witnessed.
 
The next days were pretty blissful, but obviously, what came next was a period of intense integration, that only very recently i feel like it came to fruition (i hope my english makes sense)
 
So anyway, i know this report is already kinda long, so now i will give you my 2 cents on it:
-obviously it wasn't very smart what i did :)) and although i am very grateful for the experience and it was truly awesome, i will always recommend upping your dosage systematically and gradually.
-unconsciously, i was hoping that "this one trip" will solve all of my problems. We all watch Leo's and others' videos, so i don't have to tell you this, but no one thing is gonna fix your problems, because your problems aren't actually what you think. It's all Consciousness, so every single little detail of Reality is Absolutely mind-blowingly intelligent and perfect. Actually, the "problem" or what makes us perceive problems in things is our beliefs about what problems are, which comes from conditioning and separation (lol, the "separatists" from Star Wars XD) and all that.
 
Ok, i'm gonna leave it at that. I have a few more trip reports coming. Love you guys!  

You can get very technical about game.
But that's not good for newbies. When you're just starting out you want to focus on the bare basics like your dress, grooming, approaching consistently, building decent state, eye contact, smiling, body posture, physical escalation, never running out of things to say, and leading.
The most important things are:
Going out at least 2x-3x nights a week, consistently Approaching consistently Putting yourself into a good mood while you do so Smiling and laser eye contact Getting good at never running out of things to say. Becoming good at holding conversation Communicating with her man-to-woman, with clear sexual intent Immediate physical escalation Leading her That will get you 90% of your results. Getting decent at all the above will take you several years of full time work.

Street and day game is my fave. It works even better since there's almost zero competition.
One of the best things I got from my 2000 approaches is that these days if I see a cute girl at Wholefoods, I can fairly effortlessly just walk up to her and walk away with her number.
Once you get good enough, building state will not be so important. Especially during the day where you should be more low-key and normal.
Once you get good at pickup, social circle will be like shooting fish in a barrel. It's so easy. Normal dating becomes so easy.
Pickup in loud clubs is like Navy Seals training. If you can handle that you can handle anything.
Of course there's a lot more to it than one law. And state transference is not about clowning around, it's about being grounded, chill, confident, happy, etc. rather than terrified or anxious to be near a girl. Your fear will transfer to her so fast.
State transference is such a powerful principle. It even applies when you're talking to your girlfriend over the phone. Whatever mood you're in will quickly rub off onto her. It's important to understand this principle and use it to lead girls into positive states.
Pickup gets very advanced and nuanced as you get a few years into it. There are hundreds of nuances to learn, but you cannot learn them unless you do 1000s of approaches. I could talk about the nuances of pickup for 20 hours straight to a newbie.
I could talk for several hours just about the nuances of setting up the first date to make sure it's most successful. I spent dozens of hours just honing my first date process.
Every part of your game needs to be finely-honed like knife: your dress, your grooming, the approach, the opener, body language, sub-communication, state, small talk, kino escalation, flirting, leading, asking screening questions, logistics, bouncing, managing her friends, managing her excuses, getting phone numbers, texting, setting up dates, isolation, closing, dealing with last minute resistance, foreplay, sex, etc.
You do need a solid city for pickup. I highly recommend moving to big city. It's worth it.

There is SO MUCH dating material available online. Dig around and try various sources until you find what resonates with you. People require different teachers and styles, depending on their goals.
If you want the most direct and hard dating advice, RSD is the best. If you want to sleep with the most and hottest women possible, RSD is the way. But for some guys that may be too hardcore.

Don't. Just do pickup when you're doing pickup, and do meditation when you sit to meditate.
If you can get numbers and dates, clearly you're getting attraction, so what are you insecure about? As far as your insecurity goes, what you need to get through your thick skull is this: within about 15 minutes you will either reach hook-point with a girl or not. If you reach hook-point, you will clearly see that she's attracted. Once you see that, you know she is willing to fuck you if you just don't screw it up from here on out and handle the logistics well. So drop any insecurity from here. You KNOW she's willing to fuck you. And if a girl agrees to go on a date with you: YOU KNOW SHE'S WILLING TO FUCK YOU. A girl will never agree to go on a date with a guy she's not willing to fuck.
Your insecurity should be about those initial 15 minutes to reach hook-point. If you get there, you've won! She's willing to fuck you. Which means your looks are now irrelevant.
One of the best guys I knew in game was a short 5'2" Pakistani guy. He was amazing. He got more girls than me at 6'2".
Your PERSONALITY is what matters. Focus on improving that. Become charming and bold and you will attract many girls.