@XYZ ok, so what are you going to do about it to contribute to resolving such issues? Have you started working on your life purpose? The deeper you go on your life purpose, the more you'll realize that you could use your life purpose to have an impact. Life purpose can be powerful after non-duality/enlightenment since it'll be aligned with your life and you could share it along with your contributions.
But, I'm just saying. You could either start to do something about it or not. It doesn't matter if you incorporate non-duality/enlightenment or not. If you do incorporate (non-duality/enlightenment), I would recommend the person be careful and tactful of how it's done. Many will misunderstand and think it's just an escape. It's not. If you have experienced an awakening, one of the first things you'll probably notice is that life is not about suffering. It's about love. So, how will you contribute to that?

I will skip the intro today. This one was wild. So hold on to your hats. 
From the beginning this trip was different. After about 20 minutes my whole body started vibrating intensely. That took me by surprise. And shortly afterwards the first breakthrough hit: 
 
1. Mirrors
For the last days I was really intrigued by mirrors. What they are how they work… and it turns out they are a huge part of how reality is constructed. 
See, consciousness is the underlying ground of everything. It is raw, formless potential. However there is a grand illusion at play (which we call life). It is really like a hall of mirrors. Reflection within reflection and ever on.
And what I then became aware of was the undoing of this illusion. It was like all the mirrors where lifted up and I merged back into Oneness. I then proceeded to open my eyes only to find reality breaking down completely before me, as me. 
There was no sense of up or down. No orientation at all. I merged back into raw potential and became aware of how this room is just a mirage. A reflection reflecting itself. And underlying all of it is the ultimate magician God itself. It felt like the curtain was lifted and I saw him doing his magic trick... with me being the magician, the audience and the trick itself. 
This alone was a mindfuck yet only the beginning… 
 
 
2. Death and rebirth 
Note: Last wednesday I did an intense holotropic breathing session. Afterwards I got the clear sense of presence of some demonic force in my room. It proceeded to give me visions of my darkest fears in my dreams (half awake) and then it vanished. I think this trip was the sequel to that.  It was not pleasant at all. I died and was rebirthed over and over again. At the end there was the question “Do you want to be a living God?” but it was already answered...
 
3. Home
Ever since last trip I got the sense that something shifted in me. I did about 3 years of “seeking” enlightenment however I became aware of that I am already done. I’ve reached the point of no return months ago. There is no point in trying to yank the steering wheel around… the car has reached the top of the mountain and is now rolling downhill into nirvana. 
The trip then retold me the story of the enlightened shoe by Adyashanti. If you have never heard it you might enjoy it. In short: You cannot go anywhere to find enlightenment. Practice is necessary until it is not. Seeking is necessary until it is not. 
I will keep practicing, however I strongly feel the “bang your head against the wall” part of "seeking" is over.
And I also got the sense of that I am pretty lucky in this regard. I really got to give a shoutout to my past lifetimes or something. I did little in this one to “earn” it. I'm only 21 and did 3 years of meditation, Kriya Yoga and Psychedelics. 
I feel at home. However we will see how this will fair in daily life. Since last trip it has become much more effortless and joyous... we will see. 
It surely is a new beginning since there is no end. 

 
4. Not being human 
After about 1 hour of straight breakthroughs and peaking I opened my eyes and was awestruck what was going on... It was like I became aware of that multiple realities are here overlaid over one each other in this moment… and me tracing my finger was like glitching the matrix. This is hard to put into words, but I clearly did not feel human. It was some sort of new entity learning through my body.
And it still went on… 
 
5. God and the Soul 
I have to paint this as a picture but I got the image that God is like this field of energy and then there is like a wave reaching out of it. And on the tip of this wave is a dot of light and it is looking at God (as God). This is what “we” are. 
We are looking at God as God. And it is learning through us and teaching us at the same time. 
 
6. Evolution 
Some time ago I saw the video of a seed becoming a plant on Leos Blog. Why is it doing that? Why does it has to expand and grow? 
Well, all of this got answered. 
First of all God as RAW intelligence. If you think of the smartest human on earth… that’s not even a fracture of Gods intelligence. It designed this body. It does not make mistakes. 
Think about it: If you were in charge of running your organs it would be mayhem. And then think about building a new one… no no no. God has designed it perfectly for you so you can do more exploration… AND it is still learning.
This is Evolution. It’s going on right here right now. For example think about AI. This is not artificial. It is part of evolution. God is experiencing and learning in this instance THROUGH us. This is insanity. 
And why on earth does it do that? 
First of all because it’s infinitely intelligent and it just can… and second of all because of Love. Learning to love. God is just infinite goodness and it is orchestrating this illusion so we can think we are seperated and relearn how to love. 
 
7. Why are the things the way they are and not otherwise? 
Why has my notebook lines and isn’t just blank? Because I find it easier to write this way. Why is that important? Because I want to note as many insights as I can. Why that… 
It goes on and on. And it all traces back to God’s infinite intelligence. Things are the way the are because they could not be otherwise AND for God to experience itself more fully AND because this is needed for this love simulator in exactly this way. 
 
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At the beginning of this trip I thought I figured some stuff out already. And it told me “Yes you have”... it then showed me 3 or 4 tiny stones of a mosaik which were colored (meaning “understood”)... it then showed me a hundred more stones and I was like “Oh man, you serious bro?”... it then zoomed out and out and out until I could not see anything anymore. The mosaik was so huge, it was not grasp-able. That is what we are doing here. 
Here are some more insights: 
 
8. The innovators dilemma
Did you ever notice how great companies are built? Think about the big auto companies back in the days. 
Usually there are some people tinkering. Innovating. Figuring stuff out. And if they figure something out it gets copied ruthlessly. Then the businessmen come in. They turn the raw idea into money and processes. Then we end up with a corrupt polluting monstrosity which is getting so fat that it's dying down again. This is evolution at work. Each time around it gets smarter and smarter. 
 
9. The hand you are delt 
A big part of life is figuring out which cards you are delt and then playing them to the max. Me for example: I am not an academic even though I was good in school. I am not that techy. I am not that interested in dense studies. And I am also not the “hardest working dude in the room”. However I am artistic (and  probably pretty lucky regarding past lifes). And now its on to playing exactly this hand to its max. Not trying to turn weaknesses into strength but figuring out this Zone of Genius and going all in. 
 
Thank you for reading. 
Much Love. 


 

You need to have an awakening to what Love is.
It cannot be told to you in words.
I understand your skepticism, but all happenings truly are an expression of Love. It's too epic to believe. Even when you awaken to it you will be too amazed to accept it. It's too good to be true. Yet it is Truth itself.
Psychedelics help. Take some DPT and ask it to show what is Love. Brace yourself for a mindfucking of unspeakable proportions.
The only thing capable of understanding the full extent of God's Love is God itself. A human is too tiny to fathom it. Only God understands. Fortunately, you are it!
Your awakening is not complete until you understand why you created it all. It will melt your heart with pure Goodness. It is a Goodness without an opposite.

Yeah, the devil loves nothing more than to cloak itself in God.
That is the devil's cleverest survival strategy.

There are no Yellow cities. Green is the best you'll find, and even that is asking for too much from a city in the 21st century.
1) You can teach those things in most major US or European cities with no problem and plenty of eager customers.
2) Remember, part of your job is to help uplift people who are not yet at Yellow. It's too easy to work with Yellow and above people. The real work is helping people get to Yellow.
Remember, Jesus did not say: "Let me see which city I can move to to find the most advanced people." He worked with whoever was around. The whole point of being Yellow is that you're able to work with Tier 1 people.
An angle doesn't say: "Let me find the richest, more elite, and most advanced people to help. Fuck the rest of em."
As Yellow and above, part of your burden to bear is that you will be misunderstood a lot.

That's all very natural. Students emulate teachers until they are finally ready to leave the nest and embark on their own. It might take 5 or 10 years for that to happen. But it will happen if you go deep enough into the work. You will become your own authority figure, grounded deeply in yourself as God.
Don't expect that to happen in your 20's. Maybe around your mid-30's that will start to happen. It takes a long time for a man to find his grounding in life. It's a slow maturation process, like a finely aged wine.

There is no formula for awakening. You will only awaken if you awaken. No process can guarantee it.
Judging from my own experience, 1 hour per day is not nearly enough. But it's not a function of brute time, it's a function of effort and quality of concentration.
If you are serious about awakening, you should be doing week-long meditation retreats at least twice a year. And/or psychedelics and/or Kriya yoga.

The whole point of true happiness is not to base it on mood.
Imagine being happy even when you're in a bad mood. That's real happiness. And it's not easy to develop because our ideas of happiness are so mood based and survival based. Those ideas require deep deconstruction. You have to deeply grok that attachments to physical things and even emotional states always create suffering -- sometimes gross suffering, but sometimes very subtle suffering.
This was a core teaching of the Buddha. And it's a very important point which people overlook. Outwitting suffering is something only a master can do. Suffering is extremely sneaky! Because it's central to your survival. You must literally transcend the entire survival drive to access true happiness.
Awakening allows for superhuman levels of happiness.

@Ar_Senses Well, mystical experiences and samadhi states are a clear sign of results. I'm not saying that's the end, but the beginning.
If you don't what a mystical experience or a samadhi state is, take a psychedelic and they will quickly show you. Then try to get similar results via other methods.
If you have meditated for a few years but never had a mystical experience or samadhi, then you aren't doing it properly or you need to find a better method.
Take a psychedic to see how much you're meditation is missing.

The more I study and explore spirituality, the more convinced I am that spiritual talent plays a bigger and bigger role. I have met and talked with people who access crazy superhuman levels of consciously totally effortlessly without training. And these people can go deeper than those who practice for 40 years.
It's quite unfair and outrageous. This is like a dirty giant secret of spirituality and meditation which no one tells you about because they want to believe we are all equal.
Well, the truth is, we are nowhere close to equal.
My experiments with psychedelics back this up. There are levels of consciousness so radical that you will never access them if you lack the proper neurotransmitters.

I'm still telling you that brains are imaginary, as are neurotransmitters. The word "neurotransmitter" is being used here in a relative, imaginary sense.
It's not the neurotransmitters I trust, but the Truth which they help to unveil.
If you were stuck in jail cell inside a dream and I told you to use the key to unlock the door, the key is still imaginary. An imaginary door requires an imaginary key. It would be foolish to reply to me, "Haha, Leo! If this is all a dream like you said, why are you telling me to use this key? Why do you trust the key?"
When inside The Matrix, we speak in the relative truths of The Matrix world. One of those relative truths is brains and neurotransmitters. Once you've taken the neurotransmitters you'll realize neurotransmitters and brains are imaginary. But only AFTER you take them!

Of course technically I don't. I can't crawl inside their heads.
But one can still make educated deductions.
When an enlightened person is not able to properly answer questions about the nature of Love or Truth, that's a red flag. If Love or Truth are denied, something in their understanding is missing.
To me the highest teaching is very simple:
You are God. Infinite Consciousness is the only thing that exists. Everything is imaginary. Everything is designed for the sake of Absolute Love. Truth & Love are totally identical. Any teaching which does not state the above in clear & explicit terms, I am suspicious of. There are further nuances, but that's the core of spirituality/awakening.

A fractal of consciousness expanding in infinite dimensions.

@electroBeam Of course environment is very important. Genetics/physiology + environment + training/effort = all important
The most successful people do well in all 3 categories.

If you think the Buddha was a just your average guy off the street, you're really misdiagnosing how spirituality works.
It takes an exceptional person to do what the Buddha did. What that means exactly is a mystery, but something special and extraordinary is happening on the inside.
Past lives might be a better explanation. Whatever the explanation, it's not merely lack of effort or training.
I want you to start noticing that people's brains and minds work is very different ways. We are not all the same. Some people think very differently by their natural constitution. Some constitutions are more suitable to spiritual work than others. Just observe people carefully and you'll notice the differences in how they think and see the world. It's quite stark and obvious. People do not see the world in the same way. It would be better to say: people live in different realities with some overlap.

For fuck's sake no! That is God!
The solution you're looking for is LOVE! Practice being more loving towards yourself and others.
Replace guilt with love. Love is God! Not ego.
You are being egotistical when you judge yourself so harshly. Treat yourself with kindness.
Doubt is good at the beginning of this journey. But at some point you gotta drop doubt and replace it with absolute faith in Love.

Psychedelics are good for busting you out of a rut. They can show you a life beyond struggle. Which then becomes something worth growing towards.
I don't understand why 4 years of work hasn't improved your life. Why is the struggle so bad?
Remember, this whole journey of self growth is supposed to be enjoyable. Don't do it because someone said you have to do it. Do it because it's what you're interested in naturally. What else are you gonna do?
It might also be a good idea to take a break from personal development for a while. Come back to it later. Go enjoy life a bit. Follow what you're naturally passionate about, not some lofty ideal.

Everything is located in one place: literally nowhere.
Space and time are imaginary.
Right now you are nowhere. You've been in this nowhere for your whole life. You will be in this nowhere FOREVER! You cannot escape nowhere because there is nowhere else to go but nowhere, and you're already there. You've been nowhere FOREVER.
The trick is becoming conscious of this fact.

Yes, I know.
Which is why I wrote that warning. Doesn't sound like you're ready to handle an actual bad trip. They can get real hairy and require enormous maturity, otherwise you might do something stupid like try to get inside a car and drive yourself to the hospital and end up crashing the car.
Rule #1 for tripping: As soon as you swallow the substance, you commit 100% to riding it out. No doctors, no parents, no phone calls, no running around, no screaming. Just sit and surrender. Don't go anywhere, don't do anything.
If you're feeling negative during a trip, play some happy and energetic music and dance around to it. That will change your mood. It's safe and effective.
And when all else fails, pray to Jesus

I will soon be renaming this thread to: The DPT Mega-Thread
This will be our go-to thread about DPT related questions, tips, techniques, etc.
As usual, no sourcing questions.
Here are some good reference links:
https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/DPT https://erowid.org/chemicals/dpt/ https://www.bluelight.org/xf/threads/dpt-subthread-dpt-dosage-methods-of-administration.399044/ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dipropyltryptamine https://www.reddit.com/r/researchchemicals/comments/8y7k3j/dpt_dipropyltryptamine/

Just be ware that many of those negative trip reports can be very misleading. For me the experience is purely positive and pleasant.
Dosages on PsychonautWiki seem to be pretty accurate. Rectal doses are similar to smoked dosages! Making it very potent.
For me, rectal doses go like this:
Light: 20mg-30mg Medium: 30mg-40mg Heavy: 50mg+ But I'm pretty sensitive to all psychedelics, so you may need to dose higher.
Your starting dose should be no higher than 20mg to get a feel for the body load and vibrations.
With rectal administration the trip will start within 15 minutes, hit strong by 25 minutes, and last strongly until 2h30m. After effects tend to linger for quite a long time, at least a few more hours but you'll be out of the breakthrough zone by 2h30m.
Be very cautious with anything above 50mg. It will melt your reality.
DPT does not seem to come in any other form but HCl. The freebase version of DPT is oily and not suitable for storage from what I hear.
Oh, and DPT HCl refuses to dissolve in water at all. You can still make a suspension, but the actual DPT particles will not dissolve. This isn't a problem per se. It absorbs into the body just the same. But emptying the oral syringe is a bit trickier because sometimes the particles tend to stay in the back of the syringe requiring a bit more effort to deliver the full dose.
How To Plug Psychedelics video:
https://www.actualized.org/insights/how-to-plug-psychedelics

The nature of logic is that it will always end in paradox and self-contraction due to the problem of self-reference which I explained in my video:
Reality Is A Strange Loop The Metaphysical Implications Of Godel's Incompleteness Theorem - Part 1 Any complete logical framework MUST be self-contradictory. Any non-contradictory logical framework MUST be incomplete. This is what Godel proved. And it is true.

It's unlikely such people will give you the spiritual support you seek.
This is why, traditionally, shamans and yogis would go off on their own. They leave their friends and family to pursue the spiritual path seriously. Then they return back home with newfound wisdom and know how to handle the situation without needing anything from those people. And/or they make new friends who are on their level.
Being a shaman is not easy! Precisely because you have to go against the grain of society and you will not get emotional support from those closest to you. You must be independent-minded to be a shaman because others will think of you as a witch.
Become as self-sufficient as possible. That's a great way to grow. Later you can swing your pendulum back towards socializing and relationships.
But a shaman needs to be really comfortable being alone in the silence. The emotional support you seek will come from cultivating your connection with God.

That's what makes my tests tricky. I have so much experience at this point and such a deep theoretical foundation that my trips are not your typical trips. For me each trip goes deeper and deeper, regardless of which substance. Mushrooms are not what they used to be for me. But even so, I hit a new level on this substance. Is it 100% due to the substance? No, it's a combination of factors. But this substance still seems pretty awesome to me.
This substance will have great variability for different people because it really opens up your consciousness to go wherever your mind wants. For me this works great because my mind only cares about one thing: knowing God. But this is not most people.
The thing I love about this substance in particular are:
1) It's slow-acting like molasses, allowing me to introspect and contemplate like on no other psychedelic. I can get ultimate insights about anything and everything better than with 5-MeO-DMT, which is too fast and racey. To me, this degree of contemplate seems impossible for any ordinary human to accomplish. The ordinary human mind simply cannot do such things. It's like unlocking the mind of a highly advanced alien species that can think in 5 dimensions.
2) I love its healing properties. It feels like I can use it to intentionally rewire my mind and body. All I have to do it imagine it and it happens. It feels like if one had cancer this substance could expand consciousness enough to heal it using one's will. But of course that's not proven. Just my hunch. It probably wouldn't work in all cases and I may be exaggerating it. But also maybe not! More testing required. I could see how this thing could cure things like depression or other kinds of psychological hang-ups if used properly.

All of your knowledge is groundless, relative, and ultimately delusional.
You do not actually know what anything is.
Read what the ancient skeptics wrote. Read Outlines Of Pyrrhonism.