Ingit

I feel you....! Be a winner of Life ! i am also going through a pretty much of a tough timw, But thw thing is all it is an illusion, all our sorrows are just our illusion, Infact we are all whole and at peace inside.... but we continue to work and see the world through our Conditioned mind, Our stored reflexes.... We need to see it ourselves... it takes Time I guess cuz Im on the samwe path exploring myself more and more. And never wver Give Up...life is at ots best... I promise... I know its hard to believe cuz Me too sometimes stuck but then I get up and can see YES it is and Yes again Back to my Egoic self,,, I am vibrating a lot between false self and true self... You can say 80% times in my sorrows cuz I get identified with them... But i am not giving up cuz I know what I am.

@Genghis Khan hello, Congratulations! Do Enlightenment everytime occurs after waking up or can happen anytime ! Actually I sometimes get glimpses for. A minute or so and within that one min I realize how I create my own sufferings, I am just sitting beside or under it, watching it all bit The truth disappears after some time and I am again back to my old self.....!

@zambize ?????????

Lately I been working on my every aspect.....my reactions and all.....! I feel very upset and doubtful when someone lies to me even though I feel them lying to me, Trust me onw pf my friend lied to me like he wants to show me something l, His attitude and all.... But I feel very sad about how he tries to fool me by lying and I feel sad inside thinking and making bad situations.... I had been trying to watch me getting disturbed feom the situation, I try to observe but end up getting punished by my sadness of my mind thinking how bad the people who lie to me are.... ! I am unablw to watch it going on inside me. I need some help about it.

@zambize thanks mate... appreciate thise words..... Maybe I resist things and blame myself and others for making me feel such... Maybe I suck at accepting the present

Yeah thats All EGO....look for who is lostening to all those conditioned voices.... Imagine how ypu were when you were Born, without any conditioning and how conditioning shaped your Identity

@Hellspeed thanks

I seem to be stuck where accepting reality for me seems unfair while looking at others and seeing that they have a good life.... I feel pity that bad things always find way put for me and IM always stuck back ass soon as IM free.... I think and think my eye problem is worst and I have to wear lenses and I have floaters in my eye while doctor told me to ignore the floaters,.... That is OK.... But Part of me is complaining a lot about my eye, As soon as i wake up, The first thought seems to complain about my health and makes me anxious and makes me feel that my life is not perfect where I should have been perfect, What is the reason to study with all those eye problems. I seem to get stuck and stuck more. ?

Wow Thanks all.... You take time for that... Thank You For making me understand clear and better.

Then who has control? Thanks a Lot for that Reply Nahm, I need ro understand it carefully because I know that has a deep meaning hidden, IM reading it... “Taking time for me

@Leo Gura Hi Leo... is it really Possible to be conscious of one’s own sleep and dreams, and Change my Characters in rhe dream ! A new dimension of consciousness....!

I cannot kill or destroy my body, i want to live peacefully! ☮️

@Mu_ thanks

So how could I ever call someone for help,,.. Let others murder me and if I call 911 That seems to. Be the continuity of the fear loop and IM strengthening the fear, Instead of calling 911 let them kill me.....! I need certain points and markers where IM lacking to see the reality instead of being in an illusion.

I seems to suffer a lot feom pain, who is suffering?

To be real i have never tried Psychedelics or any substance of absue, I consider these substance as bad for one’s health, I just keep away from people who indulges in such activity and think them as bad addictors. How come these substances are used in Spirituality and benifits.... Aren’t people trying to use them as a purpose of avoiding their reality??? ?

Ganja ! Cocaine !

I have seen most of the people with Motor disturbances from chronic substance abuse!!!! That is why I mentioned it !!!! Yep OK ?

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@Setty should I try?

@Joseph Maynor I would not question you more..... but a last one- Did you call tge trip you experience after taking pschedelic a reality, Since all we expeeiwnxw in the teip is mere a Hallucination?

@Joseph Maynor ok cool.... but why do you need them.... Which one is safe, I asked my Anesthesia Teacher about Ketamine and she told me its safe but asked me why would I need that... I have heard about Marijuana too

There is no link of Schizo to Sporituality if you think.... High dopamine surge and all the illusions....

and Happy snowfall ❄️ ⛄️

IM continously doing meditation from over 4 months 20 minutes daily but nowadays I have problems giving up the emotion during the meditation, even though I try to watch it but it makes me heavy and like nauseating feeling. Today I just was able to do for upto 13 minutes and then I gave up quitting the 20 minutes session.... I dont know but my thoughts and emotion seems to eat me inside during the session even though I watch them.... feels heavy in my ? brain !