Ingit

Meditating for over last 1 year.... Trying to get conscious of my mind patterns... But Nah Lately I feel like I haven’t overcomed anything yet.... Midst of the low self esteem and doubt...I can see it happening with me but The attachment seems so strong that I feel helpless and Like I can’t do anything....and feels disappointed.. Tired of getting conscious of my speaking mind again and again. ?‍♂️

@Nahm ? Appreciate That.... I feel stronger.

@Nahm ??? YES THANK YOU... let me see it myself... I need to face myself and get to the root. I know I fed myself with something back when My Mind had been too fragile.. !

@Aaron p lol I searched up the word Holopromo(seems like a polemon stuff) Yes Maybe I am not ready yet.. But i am continuously moment by moment trying out to get aware of my talking brain. Sometimes I feel fearful of my thought voices saying one moment the one thing and the another the another.... For the direct experience (being in the moment) I try to notice as much as I can but unfortunately thoughts pound up and defines my moment and then I become sad again... That is how much power I have given away into.

@Aaron p I feelmyself with that word... and like I right now felt myself... Like a distorted view of all my body parts confines Ingit

@roar Now that you asked me who is being Ingit ! I literally paused for a minute watching inside me the same: what I feel was, Confused as I was questioning myself That who is being Ingit...but i dont get any clue... It seems so boring and dissociative feeling while asking and looking that inside me and I don’t want any dissociation.

Genuinely if I answer what I feel is: I am Ingit and that is what my identity is. On the surface I know that We are all same, But differently conditioned.

Loved the Video...... i feel so needy.... I want to keep in constant touch with my gf...... I have this bad habits from years and I can’t overcome it... Feels bad ?

Right !

@F E A R L E S S I just had a breakup with her .... I told her how I think that our relationship is not going to last for the future and she ended up saying Thag she dont want to hurt me as she also dont know about the future... so she said that Its a little to hurt now and a more to hurt later so she ended up saying this and I am very very sad.

Seriously Today I feel to share it here.... I feel very attached to someone...... I had a gf and after I broke up due to some reasons...I was literally shattered for half a months and Till now I feel very attached talking to someone.... like literally i am felling in Love with a Girl... She once told me on the call that she likes me and till then upto now I feel like getting close and close to her... I need to mention that she was my ex classmate she had to leave the university for some reason and travel back to India(home) and I feel like attached to her... I see her photos nd like feels so insecure that She should be mine and I will hate if she leaves me for someone or If she gets better....! I feel Anxious !!! I dont know why i feel all this... i meed to get over these...Seriously these things eat me up sometimes

Wow i understamd it tganks

Literally let hwr go... what if she fell for another guy ?!!

@OctagonOctopus I literally don’t know how to Love myself... It feels difficult

@Shin SURE thanks for the time ! ✌️

I get attached to beautiful girls too much Like the girl I am talking with these days....and i live in Fear of loosing her ?

@Shin thank u Great video

I am literally afraid to actually love someone deeply for the second time... Cuz I feel hurt and obsessed with the person I love.... I am always in anxiety... i feel disturbed when talking to someone

me and my friend always talk about technology and who has better device....he will always trigger me to believe in that i cant afford richer devices,,,, and i will defend the statement that how i can afford,,,,our convoys keep getting more and more stranglled and i feel bad about how he thinks that he is superior of all,,,,today i felt bad about how he laughs and just makes statement simply,,,judges me...... today I felt like I need to stop reacting but eventually I fall into these convoys,,,,, any suggestion on how to deal with it !

Yes you are right...

Hi everyone, Recently I hv a very good friend of mine, she has paranoid schizophrenia I don’t know why but probably she had some emotional breakdown during his personal life with a guy maybe I guess as she told me something yesterday about her story in short steps... she sent me videos about how she feels and I was completely into her like I could feel how bad she feels... I get triggered too yesterday night as My Mind swirled thoughts of how I have been cheated too by someone... and on the other hand thoughts like my friend has been heart broken by someone and how could someone do this to her cuz she is so beautiful and how she is suffering a lot...Eventually I wasn’t aboe to sleep at night early as my mind was occupied with thoughts about her and also my ex.... the same bad bad very bad feelings when I broke up with my gf... i need some suggestions about the same feelings coming again and being uneasy with them... thanks

Some of my friends usually Will slay bad words or verbal abuse at me when I am with them and other people around, Recently I called one of my friend to play game with me and at the same time one of my friend joined me(girl)... I dont know why but my friend started throwing words at me showing me down and speaking all rubbish like it seems fun for him to insult me in front of her, He was like prooving himself better than me in feont of her and me as an asshole... I noticed how I feel at that moment but i kept quiet but afterwards felt bad... How should I get through such situations ?

FOr the update: Last night the same friend was threatening me About how I dont play online games with him and ignore him when I play with girls as he think... he abused me last night and also threatened me that will fight when I meet him... so I told him to just f off and i dont want to talk and waste my energy and Blocked him....

just feel I can’t, giving up on identity feels like building up a huge amount of resistance that causes headaches and tension around my head areas....I wonder why it is not easy !!!! On the other part I try to force my identity go....and troubles me more and more... because I think if I not force it go it wont go.. ?

@Aeris if you ask me.... i feel good at the very moment after I hurt pople and after sometime I regret a lot.