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@who chit thanks mate one day I will be thankful to you all for providing me the light for my bestest part

@who chit OK today I will do that and see what that brings.....

@Nahm I love my life very much, I know how beautiful my life is without those self created thoughts and doubts, Lately practising meditation and reading the book of now and Leo's Video and this forums, I been on a point of knowing that whoa my mind whirl me a lot into his own crazy stuff, and sometimes I laugh at my mind that what I thinks. You know what I have a very deep desire to be a very good doctor, n what keeps me down is my thoughts and self doubt.

@Nahm I don't do any exercise only meditation at night time before going to bed, last night was my longest (30 minutes), I all day just eager that as soon as I feel well Imma going to study, opening my computer sitting with my book making notes on my tab, refreshing by playing Video Games on PC, Sometimes feels Giddy watching the bright screen, eat some Chips, noodles, sometimes gets irritated with my mom cuz she always tryin to find some bad things or habits about me, reading The power of Now by Tolle every day, using mobile a lot, thinking y life is good without my mind,,,,, Thats how my whole day goes.

@Nahm im involved in them.. I think I create them by myselves, Today I was at the bank and felt stressed as my counter number was way too far I felt tired and sleepy and soon I thought that why was I feeling such crap maybe IM not normal and was soon as that all started and I tried to be an observer but failed letting them spill over me. ?@who chit ??

@NoSelfSelf maybe awareness seeing awareness

I can feel glimpses of seperateness from my mind. I want to Study Now seriously with all my efforts, I don’t want to stick my bad habit of sticking with self created problems. my University is starting from 3 ...!

I want to discuss something with you all, Hope will be able to get some useful info. I'M returning back to my university as summer holidays are over, so Today I just finished booking an online meal reservation for me on-board, then I thought should i book for my friend too who is going along with me, then I came up with idea that why should I book for him ( I want to tell you all that you all might be thinking that my friend can book for himself on his own but the thing is he don't like to go in these kind of lengthy stuff), and then I wondered that on-board when I will get my selected meal my friend would look at me and say, That If you had booked yours then why didn't you ask me for the booking and he will think me that IM very selfish. What should I do??? On the other hand I think that he is kinda oversmart and if I did that Kind thing for him might be he wont remember that long and will be putting me down in other things whenever he gets a chance, because People don't remember what I do for them sometimes.....!!! I know guys it sounds a weird question or some of you might be thinking me Stupid,,,, Some times these type of questions conflict my inside!!! SHOULD I DO THAT FOR THEM OR SHOULD I NOT.......... and bother for my own stuff and leave the rest people on their own fate.

@tentacion I agree

@MrDmitriiV wow feels so great ! Good work... feel happy for you ! What is MAYA by the way??

People remember me only when they find me useful otherwise don’t, so i therefore gets upset.....about how bad they are !! Whooossshhh

@Feel Good thank you friend... @Martin123 yep yep I totally agree with you ?? Thanks

@Nahm ??? yes thanks... My Mom uses to say me these same things like “You dont know what others are thinking...so don’t make out your own assumptions” I should follow it seriously

What do you mean side effect....???You mean that will effect a person who is conscious?

IM On one side consciously aware that the negative thoughts that arises are normal and I don’t have to identify with them.... but unfortunately I identify with them.... even though I’m practising meditation!!!

@Anna1 that means IM enjoying whats going on and don’t understand anything... ???‍♂️

@Anna1 ????

?? Getting stuff out of my brain

@Feel Good I know something happened but I don’t know what... !!! i was looking for some answers and found myself with some huge stuff here in comments

@Faceless ???? What is going on!!!

HELLO EVERYBODY, I don’t know what is going on my post... but whatsoever is out of my understanding cuz you seem to be all Highly developed cuz I’m not able to understand what is going on with @Feel Good. @who chit... I read one of the comments saying That Self Development is nothing... Are you making me feel what???? I’m a beginner in such things and you seems to be I don’t know what ! ?

@who chit IM not on the path of Englightment because I’m a student but I just want to know about my mind and the root of the negative thinking and doubt with all my personal development knowledge

@who chit maybe I haven’t developed that skill yet and as you said I might be doing thought for thought observation... Meditating from previous one and a half month continously....

@Jack River FEAR...holds me... My thoughts fear me !!! I work hard on myself so much observing but end up being stressed maybe I dont have a proper grasp of the understanding of observation. i tend to fear during daily observation but not during meditation