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Thanks.. She calls me and there is then a forceful compulsion to call her back and then the 1 hour will be like.. why she called me... what she wants from me now.... why she need me now...now let her be as she is .... Thinking all of time when her friend begged me to talk to her... and I knew if I again did maybe There will be more suffering and Her attitude will not change... Once someone break your trust it’s difficult to trust that person again and feels like very very very bad... Everytime she did something that would hurt me... I was like nauseated and vomited... Her feelings were like my roots... She didn’t understood how much I loved... but leave it... That was the part maybe life wanted to teach me something out of it.

Same happened with me... but Now After becoming a bit aware Im improving... on the other hand she tries to call me again and again but i dont respond to her... I don’t like fake people... Sometimes I still get old memories withdrawn and I still shatter into peaces but I’m working on it and I feel proud.

@Torkys I have stopped doing the do nothing techniques instead doing “Abdomen focusing meditation plus lMantra meditation”

Sorry... I can’t put it out what you mean ! ?

@Outer no i mean after reading, there is a thought or idea about how to answer it !

There must been a thought... to answer you...

@Outer how is it possible to have no thought!

@DoubleYou it becomes compulsive to view that thought because that seems threatening!!! ?

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@Cepzeu Wow !

Yes.... ?? sometimes feels a bit conflict... I am aware about the conflict but that does nothing instead make me feel more worst....I dont know what’s happening

Feels very freat inner resistance in making my mind believe the truth

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@Misagh why my mind dont see the reality clearly and keeps on getting anxious about its own negative thinking habit?

@xbcc I do believe we have free will

What is it?

I am like why im feeling very low, why can I not be as energetic or powerful as I was before... Maybe I’m not OK,... There is something wrong with my body or maybe IM not in my real life... This happens....

I think im not aware during the negative thinking process otherwise I would have known what is going on but I feel like im aware but the same time I feel low... ???

@Charlotte ???

I am trying to understand these things. I found out that everything we do in our lives cannot be undone ever without a thought. every action manifests as a thought and then we do the specific action. Sometimes while inquiring thought I get into more questions, thought is not a thought we named it thought, what could it be then... even though What IM writing here is appearing in my mind field so how can a thought be not real. My kind believes on that thoughts are real and need to pay attention to. Thoughts seem to originate. Inside me but no specificity of their origin, I question thoughg itself that who is it and it says “im inside you and says that I tell you good things, why dont you believe me” ??

It takes time for me

I read somewhere that perception and awareness are different things ! What is it, anyone know the difference !

????? lol i got what you mean to say.

@SOUL You made it clear... ?? Can relate what you mean to say