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@Jack Riverthe time is the key to all the problems past and future u see they are all the aspects of the time,,,,in reality there is no time,,,just NOW, so how to get out of the delusion of the time.

While trapped in Egoic thinking knowingly IM trapped at that moments, what is that preventing from experiencing the ultimate truth??‍♂️

How to Love ego in the midst of suffering ! It becomes very very hard... To Love someone who is hurting you inside...and the same way playing tricks with you bor can we ignore it cuz we already in the Game... all it wants us to play and play and make is Loose and more of sufferings...

@Genghis Khan you didn’t felt afraid of knowing that Your life or the whole universe was just an illusion?

Contemplating the I ? and i?

sorry if the thread seems long: Today I was back to my Surgical Practise class and I was really in between stuck with my mind thinking previous things like I used to feel before holidays and how I used to feel low during my classes,,, I tried hard many thing to focus on the present but was ultimately withdrawn towards the negative thinking pattern, I was feeling pity for myself, then I thought If this continues again I will miss my Studies, then started worried my eyes condition like I use to wear contact lenses to see better and then Think I am nothing without my contact lenses, I cannot study at all and I will loose my studies,,,,, Then was drawn into previous circle of thinking that I think IM not living in my real life,,,,,! This messed me so much during the class but I tried my uttermost sometimes was better for 30 seconds then again withdrawn into the patterns ! I seriously don't want to live the way with my current situation.... I feel hurt ! Nothing works when I am facing the mind traps, I feel very Strange sensation during the episodes like this "Feeling of like IM not more my body anymore, Confused sort"..... IM doing meditation daily.

@Nahm ??? Respect you Nahm...Your words always take me away... IM trying my best !

After meditation session I feel great... i feel great that IM doing meditation, when I posted my problem here on forum after being exhaused....I feel relieved!

@Faceless I cannot always observe the moment, I mean every second.... I think then my day to day activities will be constricted and much of the time I will be spending on observing the thought moment... Maybe I may seem weird doing such things everywhere.

Lately I been aware of my thinking patterns and doubting myself and other people... but I have found that as soon as I say myself...Oh there Im doubting myself...the thought eventually stays for a quite long time and cause suffering... it will stay...I don’t know whats going on... It feels like it don’t want to go instead continue itself automatically!!! What is going on!

Time is an illusion... yes Leo needs to make a video for it

@Faceless ??? wow I can now feel the thing... So IM most of the time unaware thinking IM aware...the thought moment is still going inside without me knowing ! ....... Thought is in everything I see... everything... so what I need to do... ? Be aware of everything going inside me? Even writing this thing be aware of the thoughts arising and me typing on my phone...?

Check out Leo's. Videos about self inquiry on youtube

@Faceless so how do we know?

50 minutes straight

@Outer ??? wow

lol now explain... I heard about “I think therefore I am”

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@isabel sure ??? Thanks..... will work on that !!!

Yep yep exactly ?

yes you are right but accepting sometimes becomes scary and try to either get rid of them thinks them deeply and that is the time I feel a lot of suffering

What what??? i saw someone write .. meditation can lead to psychosis... I don’t agree... only of Already the subject had episodes of Psychosis....!

@Znib94 I never believed in such things like before (meditation, consciousness) I though these rubbish... But as soon as I faced stress conditions in life, I was disturbed by other people.... then i didnt know what happened to me like al of sudden I doubted myself doubted my life and was anxious... To ignore all these suffering I cane to be in a relationship and Thus all began... it seems that I tend to run out of fear by falling in love, which eventually caused more suffering... i cried when all happened... I can’t write here in words... and all these triggered me into spirutual work meditation, All building up techniques and now Im here been over 2 months meditating.

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Yep yep right! Im doing meditation for more than 2 months....! The fact is sometimes I’m fine for like 1 2 days but the moment I am caught up it takes more than 4 5 days to bring back my 1 2 days of enjoyment! I don’t know why the suffering days are much longer than the no Suffering days...! ?