Hello!
At the time when I had emotional problems, I felt anxious and depressed, I was looking for help. I found it on the actualized.org channel. I was very motivated to meditate every day, to pay attention to what I think about, create new habits and get rid of bad habits. I did quite well. I meditated for 30 days in a row of 20 minutes a day. When I left one day I did not get discouraged, I returned to the habit without a problem, because I knew why I was doing it. I could easily meditate for another 20-30 days.
However, it was the moment I was in college and I had plenty of time. Now I work full time, and after work I have no desire for anything. All I do is surf the internet, eat, go to work, sleep, and over and over again. I try to go back to the state in which I meditated every day, but I manage for a maximum of four days in a row, after which I resign and I stop meditating for another month. I try to start again, to give up again after a short time. I have a feeling that I forgot all about what I've learned.
Any advice?