Hi everyone,
First and foremost, I want to mention that I’ve been watching Leo’s videos for a few months now and am fascinated by his various topics and they have certainly helped me in becoming a more understanding and level-headed person.
This is also my first time posting on this forum, so hi!
ok, to the issue at hand. Just some background, I recently got engaged and soon after had “the talk” with my fiancé about our pasts and my mind went into a downward spiral of negative thoughts, causing anxiety, sleepless nights, and questioning my compatibility with her for a marriage/future. I have had several sexual partners, and she only had one, where she told me they didn’t go “all the way” so I shouldn’t be having these feelings at all. Perhaps my original perception of her, or my (extremely) rigid belief system caused me to feel bad even for this minor stuff.
Then I discovered Leo’s videos on YouTube. And wow, I feel much better about everything. His videos made me realize how much self-sabotage, judgement, and my ego were causing all the negativity and anxiety. Meditation has seemed to help as well. And I feel so much better waking up in the morning than I used to just a month ago and can go about my day much better than before. Before we had the talk, I truly fell in love with her, so I know that the past shouldn’t make a difference on how I feel about her. Consciously, I know this. Subconsciously, it was a different story. Using my awareness, I can literally pinpoint when the jealous or anxious feelings come up.
I know she’s worth it, worth marrying, worth being with. From time to time, these feelings still come up. Just looking for any guidance on how I can better myself further to erase these feelings once and for all (if possible).
Thanks for reading.
