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@Bojan It's a model not a territory. I studied the model a lot for myself. And in the end you just gotta let go of it, cause reality is so wast that the model itself limits you. Don't think you just can slap a label on a country or a person and say that it's either blue, orange or green. It's just a mix of everything.

@cetus56 No one replies to questions in that thread.

Disclaimer - I have no idea if this is true or not. The initiation is mainly you going to a guru which has some kind of power to activate your kundalini energy (which is dormant for most people) to move up to your 3rd eye chakra and to move it back to your root chakra (also the energy activated is very weak, because full force of kundalini might kill you). Then you can do your yoga with activated kundalini. I heard that some people can't access kundalini until they get the guru to activate it for you. I have no idea how does it work, but im following a guru in youtube who talks about that stuff alot so it kinda makes sense why you would need a initiation. But some people are able to activate the kundalini by themselves somehow, via psychedelics/cannabis etc. or just naturally. You can't dig deep into reality without having strong kundalini going through your body. A lot of people do throw the idea of kundalini being real. But I had some interesting kundalini energy awakening moments in the body, so I do believe in it and would like to research this stuff further.

It felt like I became aware that there is such a thing as Karma, and it all vanished right away when I had an enlightenment/samadhi experience. Can anyone say anything about it?

@Aakash oh. I see now.

Haha

One see's it as God, another see's it as Christ, my mind recognized it as Teotl. It only depends on whats in the mind.

@zenjen A mans ego will never listen to a woman. It's how it works. It's natural for a man to reject your offerings of getting better. Only the wise will settle down and take your things for real. He seems like he want's to do things his way which most males do. My recommendation for you is hold off your emotions on him, don't just give him shit, it will make him angry as he is in a phase where any trigger will probably make him resist anything. Best option from you would be just to give him time and just observe what he is doing, is he just dicking around or is he getting his shit together slowly but surely. After some time wait for an opportunity when hes showing emotions, laughing, being happy etc, then speak to him about the stuff you want to help him with like "How are your things, is everything ok" and also just listen in a observable manner, just listen what he has to say. You have to show that you are actually listening. But also be strict about the subject, don't be weak, he needs to know/feel that you are a strong woman worthy of effort. Because when men sense that the shit they are in might break the relationship with a strong woman they are kinda afraid their SO might leave them. Good luck and hold strong and just take it slow, it's a long process.

If you look yourself in the eyes in a mirror for a very long time eventually you would find that you cannot locate "yourself" anywhere. Eyes are deceiving, your mind creates a "you" instantly when you look yourself in the eyes. Same goes to other people. If you would concentrate and look in your friends eyes for a super long meditation like way you would realize that you cannot locate him anywhere you look. The illusion fades like a fog.

Everything you can or will encounter in this world is normal.

It doesn't bother me also. You just understand where they are and you accept them fully with love. It can sometimes bother you, but I see it as a challenge for my highest self, if I get bothered then that means that there is still some "self" left.

The later you go in this path the worse the "connection" with others will be. Other beings are stuck in a petty ego-illusion filled life. They think they have problems, you do understand them, but you just cant be with other beings who are not in line with the truth. I can tell from my own exprience even being with my wife is kinda difficult, but only very rarely and sometimes, but the endless love brings you strenght and joy being with her. I just see myself in her and that brings me love, compassion and joy being with her. But sometimes you are just so enlightened not carring about anything that the other being might see your actions as a danger to survival. Get ready to enjoy feeling lonely and not being understood, 99% of people are not conscious of who they are and never will be.

There is ONLY self deception. Self deception on top of self deception. Its soooo sneaky thats once you grasp the deception it scares you. Everyday every minute the mind just plays with itself. You just are living in it and theres nothing you can do about it, well you can just be full no-mind in the moment, but whats that good for "you". Obtain a mystical experience on self-deception, then you will find out what a beast that one is.

Self inquiry is just being aware of the awareness itself, and its just pure infinite-nothingness. Then you question what is it. If you ask deep enough you will eventualy get the answer. Its hard to stay in the nothingness for a long time, but you learn it with time. You will obtain everything, its just a mattet of time.

Self, infinity, gratitude and love.

@ROOBIO Leo has a booklist, there you will find it. But if you havent bought it please do. There are some really good ones there even on meditation. The main book now I use on Kriya I is "J.C. Stevens Kriya Secrets Revealed". Its Yoga for begginers. A workbook with techniques, a good starting point which will grown into more powerful practices later. Just get the booklist and start doing yoga. You will thank yourself for making the decision to practice Kriya Yoga.

Yeah the self kinda still has the shadow elements stuck with it. By contemplating alot you will eventualy release them. Kriya practice is very strong. In my experience comparing meditation with yoga is that meditation alone is really weak for a practice. Do it, but don't make it your main practice. You will gain way more spiritual growth if you spend 30mins on yoga rather than doing meditation. Invest time in learning Kriya Yoga, you will notice REAL growth in a couple of weeks copared to meditation. The body needs to move the kundalini energy from the core up. I dont know how exactly does it work, but it works wonders. You will see, just give more attention and focus into Kriya yoga, believe me its my one huge tip. Tldr: You will get way more growth if you replace Meditation with Kriya yoga.

My advice would be that you should practice being still infinite while being with other beings who are deluded.

Kriya yoga will make your awareness permanently non-dual. The problem that you get sucked back in is that you still have your ego elements still active in your head. You cant be "God" in front of others because you maybe are scared what people will say about you. Leo once said be ready to feel okey with feeling "weird" around other people, cause you will be labeled as such.

From one perspective there is such a thing as Enlightenment, from the other there is no such thing. Enlightenment put short is going out of the illusions that your mind created. You are always there, you always were there, its just that you forgot who you actually are. Search for the roots of your being, and once you become aware of how God (you) created this being who is reading this *boom* - enlightement.

Wow what a relief to realize that is. There is no self, I'am god. I can agree with Leo when he said his #1 teaching "You are god". Hes not lying we are gods. Wheww.. Iam free!

This being is like a earths product, but by being the human and earth at once

If i could try to explain i feel like total oneness-self

@zeroISinfinity it just ceises to amaze the self. But wow the love is so powerful, love is everywhere, you are just being loved forever

Oooo ooooooooooo whooo I CREATED MYSELF. I CREATED THIS BEING WHO IS TYPING THIS OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGGFG SJSJSKSKDKDKDKD WOOOOOOO