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@The Don Whats the purpose of this post?

@Flowerfaeiry When you are saying "We" you are saying the ego. Which is not you. You are not a human person. The Real You is consciousness/awareness being aware of a person. The person in your understanding the "You" (ego) dies, ends his life. But the real actual you, the highest self is not mortal. That thing has never been born it was always present from the beginning. Don't even try to figure this stuff out on your limited brain thinking. You need a mystical experience into who you really are, then you will understand how the real you is immortal. Go back to consciousness work. You have not reached high levels enough to understand what is being said. Yoga/meditation helps a lot.

I was following this guy for some time (3~ years) but later I understood that he was just pissing his trips randomly thinking that he knows something and doing videos about tripping on substances which IMO were very unclear, foggy and just stupid. But wow what a transformation he has gone through, I can definetely say he jumped from Green to Yellow in Spiral Dynamics model. Cool how it clearly shows a transition in ones consciousness. A huge leap. Enjoy.

@Psychonaut I dont know about acid+mdma, that sounds like a hard core combo which can either end as the most epic experience or the worst. Acid and mdma by themselves have a body-load thing. Taking both could mind fuck the body and you don't know how you will feel. I've havent read any reports on this candy flip combo, but there are surely some. My go to is mdma+weed. When mdma starts to kick I check the clock and trip on it for two hours then I smoke on top to enhance it and somewhat pro-long the high. When mdma peak wears off it can feel really sad, not to the point of depresion, but just quite sad, but IMO this sadness is dangerious cause it can spiral down to negative thoughts after, the best cure for this is weed, the drop feels really smooth and is easily managable. The 1st time I did mdma and the peak went down I felt really sad, but then I smoked and damn it felt like the best decision ever.

@Bazooka Jesus only awoke people can understand these words, in the beginning I too felt alienated by these words, but it needs some tough work to make ends meet. Eventually after several awakenings, which you will hopefully have, you will understand even what and why Jesus/Buddha etc. was speaking of. Dont beat yourself up and DON'T try to parrot other awake people, let the understanding and wisdom come from your own experience. It will come.

@jj40 #1. Good job learning that you are not in control of your thoughts. #2. Develop awareness over thoughts. Try to become aware of all your thoughts when you can. Make it a little habit for now. #3. You can actually take action by either doing what jumps in your direct awareness or not. A great example would be lets say you are just sitting at home and you start to feel that you want ice-cream, now become fully aware of that. Now you can either go eat ice-cream or you can think why you want it and not have it. Now you kinda have more control over your life. Awareness is key in this work. In the future, if you keep being aware, eventually you will realize that you are no longer an "auto-respond human robot" to all of the external things. You will no longer crave junk food, drugs, sex, etc. Good job though you have taken a huge step which are the hardest.

That's an ego defense mechanism. It wan't you to distract yourself. At this moment your body can't handle the force of kundalini which is active in you. You may be practicing more advanced techniques. If it gets way too strong to feel okay with just slow down and take it easy. In time your body will be strong enough to handle it. Kundalini has it's down sides which "Santata Gamana" talks about in his books. You will sometimes feel uncomfortable, that's a part of the process. Just don't over do it.

@wesyasz You won't know if you don't try it for yourself. Some people might not feel anything, for some it can work wonders. Find out in your direct experience. As Leo said if you pay 30$ on a bottle of vitamins and you don't get any benefits then you throw away 30$, but if you do get good benefits you have a product that can serve you for life. Buy some CBD and try it for a week being VERY AWARE of your overall well-being. I wan't to try CBD for myself but I think my country has some legal issues about that stuff.

Hes good up to point, his world-view is kinda poor of an enlightened guru, but if you understand a little bit of what he is talking about and why - he is great! His talks helped me to awaken some aspects, but the problem is that he holds back some high wisdom and I can see that he just not speaks everything

@Swagala its good that you see the light. There are receptors in that area which can sense light also this means your pineal gland is active. You are fully opening the 3rd eye. Dont be afraid of it. And that light is not an illusion, its real! Read about it and embrace it, go deeper, its just the starting point

@Bodhidharma its a part of the proccess, you will get depressed, you will get sad to the point of thinking that all this awakening/enlightenment stuff is just an illusion. You will lose hope, you will feel like shit over and over again. Thats why this work is done so rarely cause its not just butterflies and rainbows. If you just go through the pain in the end it will be well worth it. Also deep awakening leads to deep ego backlashes. Stay strong and just bite the bullet.

@King Merk wow what a frightening yet funny story. Dont give him more lsd for sure. His body just responds differently, once it kicks some people just kinda cant control their actions on it.

@Loving Radiance Oh yeah this is a totally great example!

@Loving Radiance I don't even know where I'am at the moment.. But yes I'am concentrating on the lower ones. I found a para-psychologist in my city and talked about chakras a lot, it seems like opening your third eye is ain't much of a problem, but the lower ones are the problem. They are a bit closed-up thus making the higher ones (third eye) more active, but imbalanced through the whole. I actually had a dream about chakras, I dreamed of a swinging from side to side sort of a tree, which had 7 centers. The really big ones were in the top area and the smaller ones in the bottom, and it swung around from side to side like crazy cause of the active upper centers and what do you know it snapped in the bottom. That dream woke me up to concentrate on my lower chakras, no one gives a fuck about the lower ones, so it's kind of a counter-intuitive thing going on here.

@Loving Radiance I have same experiences. It feels like you are ramping up the energy upward your head and if you are gonna go deeper you will either die or go insane. Frightful experience..

@lmfao Try to stay on it. Sometimes feeling like shit is just the part of the process. Eventually you will shed off that negativity in the end and just be Positive with a capital P. But if you can't handle it anymore take some rest.

Well I had my doubts after 1.5 years into the "spiritual journey". But in the end the understanding satisfies me. I know what life is, how is everything created etc. that crushes the ego because it likes reality to be different, not how it ACTUALLY is in Truth. Actually the soul searches for itself and yet it finds to be itself, lol

@lostmedstudent No problem, hope this helps you to understand why sometimes you are "seeing" things and sometimes you aren't. It's just the matter what you consciousness level is. It's the only key to know everything in life.

@lostmedstudent I can say from my own path that you will go a crazy road which will seem as non real etc., but in the end you will come back to reality, but you will merge both the unreal and the real into one.

@lostmedstudent I drew a graph representing an idea how it works, the line which curves is your level of consciousness. The peak experience you went through were when you were on ayahuasca the fat line in the middle is the level of consciousness that you get awakenings etc. Hope this helps.

Consciousness fell down to your base line (a little higher than it was) and you are not able to see what you seen in that peak Consciousness trip. The only key to these realizations is CONSCIOUSNESS. That's why Leo always talks about increasing your consciousness. Ahh the game realization is so deep, but it's one of the first realizations of many that you had to awake to. There is so much more.. I could only advise you to start doing Kriya Yoga, it will not only increase your levels of consciousness that you could be in a permanent non-dual state of awareness, but it also will heal your body through your energy centers (chakras).

@Mada_ The idea is great, but once it comes to the mega-thread IMO it's just shit. You ask questions there and no one answers, you put it up on the forum with a new thread about your problem boom you get responses. It's great for the initial hype when it's new, later it just dies out.

@barcos Notice that other people don't affect you anymore, they are just like butterflies flying everywhere. You don't notice them so much, but they are still there in the background

Take your money situation into your own hands. For now this spiritual path is just a distraction. You could argue that you don't give a shit about work or money, but I can guarantee that you have fears about changing your profession, learning new skills getting a better job etc. If you have enough money in your pocket you could easily just fly off to India once a year for a few weeks and continue your spiritual growth. Don't be a poor man that fears dedication on work, whats the point being enlightened when you have money problems, believe me you wont be able to let go fully when you have money problems in your mind (it's not like you are broke, but you understand me). Yes pursue the path to enlightenment, but once you complete it you go full-circle which ends up right where you begun. Spend your youth years figuring out how to improve your life financially. Go back to the basics like Maslow's triangle model, you can't jump ahead, you will suffer in the end and YOU KNOW IT.

Way too often. Read rollsafe.org , the safe way is going once every 3 months. And yes I do feel some negative effects after the MDMA trip that's why I don't fuck with it, every person that I talk to who has tried said the same - It's not that healthy for your body/mind.