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@Buba I went this exact same process as you are going through. I love cock, and I would like to suck some. I can only recommend to accept these feelings, if you repress it you will waste energy inside your own system by not accepting the Truth about your self and mentally creating something else which you are originally not. In my case I awoke to this Truth about myself also in a little shocking manor, but I was smart about it and I had to accept myself for who I'am. And it just makes your life so much more easy! You no longer judge others, you understand why they are the way they are, this lets you save energy internally. My wife even had to accept this stuff, but the best part about it that you can choose what you wanna be. I'm bi-sexual, but I'm like 70% into woman and 30% into men. Also buy a dildo and try to suck it, see that you can love it and let yourself accept that it actually feels good to suck on some cock. But your mind will still reject this cause you have listened to years and years about funny jokes about gay people, that being gay is Gay. Haha! Since I accepted this I actually live such a free life. Also only YOU know what you are, but the hardest thing will be to fully accept it. But believe me the freedom that it gives is just ridiculous not to accept it. You will be way more happy. And good luck, take time with it, gradually work your way up, not in one sitting, think about what this realization ACTUALLY means in reality.

@Antonios "12 zodiac signs" x "12 Chinese calendar years" = 144 "types of poeple in the world".

@Marinus Best of luck for you my brother. Remember that a yellow individual becomes self aware, meaning that yellow knows that it's yellow.

@Bridge to Infinity Breathe very slowly, 20 seconds in, 20 seconds out. The mind works with the breath. If you can slow down your breath that much the mind will have nothing to do, but to shut down and stay silent.

@seeking_brilliance but I feel like I need to slow down now for real. The love is not like in the things how much you do, but the quality of the moment.

In short: I smoked weed and somehow went to deep meditation state. I realized that reality is the most beautiful thing ever. The room I was in was just pure beautiness. Also went non-dual and got the insight that the very moment I was in was designed by myself for myself with love. And I just let myself experience this magnificent moment, almost went to tears. Then suddenly I felt a subtle pressure on my heart go away instantly. As if my heart chakra was blocked and it released some tension. Maybe some of you had a similar experience and can comment more of what actually happened?

@Erixoon50 "J.C. Stevens Kriya Secrets revieled" work from this one, later merge Santatas work with J.C.

@Scholar Most of the non-dual teachers are doing it in sober level. Leo brings psychedelics to his work, also he has spent so much time using it that he just penetrates deeper than anyone else. It's not like Leo is better than any other teacher, but he just went further and he can say that there are way way more stuff to explore in this work of consciousness.

@wavydude One can orgasm every night, but one cannot experience the mystical every night.

Embodying non-duality and integrating it to daily life. Awakening is nothing if one cannot embody it.

I'll just paste what I wrote. I have taken MDMA x3 times now. All the times were done with my wife in a room setting for our relationship, spiritual and self-help purposes. IMO it is a very very powerful tool in our work. Done safely it causes no harm, but you still must be healthy, if you have some serious heart problems I would recommend avoiding it. 120ug max, MDMA should only be in crystal form. Avoid pills like the plague. I would say that 4 trips is the max you should take in your life time, so be wise. Each time will be less and less powerful. Also take off 3 months after each drop. No dancing or any heavy physical activity which can increase your heart rate, you will avoid "heat stroke". Do it with your partner or a really good friend. Dont waste it in a party setting where there are dozens of people there distracting you. Dont waste it just by listening to music or watching something stupid. Do it for a short time, but be aware that you are wasting precious time. You do need to make sure WHY you are taking it. Done correctly you can wheap great spiritual benefits, mystical experiences are common. IMO self-love is almost the pinicle of what MDMA can offer. It can help you to accept yourself fully for who you are, even if you feel like shit on the inside. Also it may help you to open your heart and love for other people if you do feel hate for others. My tip would be to look yourself in the mirror and give love for yourself. Say that I love ME and repeat it till you can feel the love for yourself with all your body, you will feel like your body is vibrating with pure love and let it heal you. This sounds stupid, but you will understand if you do take MDMA and remember what I wrote. Also you will experience a drop when MDMA peaks off, to lower that feeling of a drop be sure to have some weed with you. But be sure you have some experience with weed!! Time 2.5hours after you feel the effects, usualy around 1 hour after consumption. Then smoke weed on top. It will boost the trip and the drop will be A LOT smoother. You might forget to smoke it on top, then just smoke it after yiu feel it peak off. Good luck and if you have any questions just quote me in the comments I will answer all your questions.

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@Peo I have taken MDMA x3 times now. All the times were done with my wife in a room setting for our relationship, spiritual and self-help purposes. IMO it is a very very powerful tool in our work. Done safely it causes no harm, but you still must be healthy, if you have some serious heart problems I would recommend avoiding it. 120ug max, MDMA should only be in crystal form. Avoid pills like the plague. I would say that 4 trips is the max you should take in your life time, so be wise. Each time will be less and less powerful. Also take off 3 months after each drop. No dancing or any heavy physical activity which can increase your heart rate, you will avoid "heat stroke". Do it with your partner or a really good friend. Dont waste it in a party setting where there are dozens of people there distracting you. Dont waste it just by listening to music or watching something stupid. Do it for a short time, but be aware that you are wasting precious time. You do need to make sure WHY you are taking it. Done correctly you can wheap great spiritual benefits, mystical experiences are common. IMO self-love is almost the pinicle of what MDMA can offer. It can help you to accept yourself fully for who you are, even if you feel like shit on the inside. Also it may help you to open your heart and love for other people if you do feel hate for others. My tip would be to look yourself in the mirror and give love for yourself. Say that I love ME and repeat it till you can feel the love for yourself with all your body, you will feel like your body is vibrating with pure love and let it heal you. This sounds stupid, but you will understand if you do take MDMA and remember what I wrote. Also you will experience a drop when MDMA peaks off, to lower that feeling of a drop be sure to have some weed with you. But be sure you have some experience with weed!! Time 2.5hours after you feel the effects, usualy around 1 hour after consumption. Then smoke weed on top. It will boost the trip and the drop will be A LOT smoother. You might forget to smoke it on top, then just smoke it after yiu feel it peak off. Good luck and if you have any questions just quote me in the comments I will answer all your questions.

@Recursoinominado I remember you. And I know you smoke. Great to hear that you are growing out of it. Let me tell you something very important: (I'll talk in vibrational terms) being an average Joe weed takes you to way higher vibration state than being just sober. Weed can help to learn so much, it can guide you to where you wanna be, it can awaken you, but later when you grow your inner vibrational capacity with meditation or yoga you outgrow weed up to a point that it even starts to slow you down. You notice that you feel shitty the next day when some time back it wasn't such an issue. And you can totally agree with me here that after some time you probably have noticed that you feel very bad after smoking weed. You even wanna quit. Its a great sign that weed has served its course for you, now you need to transend it and just choose a clean path. I'am going through such a phase now, Iam very mindful about this and contemplated what does this mean. But its a clear sign that one must drop weed in order to reach new hights. Just some insights I have from my own weed journey. Gotta drop cause it even limits me now.

@Schahin you need a mystical experience to understand how everything is being "imagined". So many people understand this ass backwards, but I have awaken to such Truths and it's almost impossible to describe it in words. When you come across that state you realize that everything material in this universe is being imagined into being by a such a powerful intelligence that it just blows your mind. Think of it like this, when you imagine a tree in your mind its just a thought, but when God imagines a tree it can spawn it i to existance just by pure imagination+willpower, God is so powerful. Thats why its called "Infinite intelligence". Then you realize that all reality is mind matter, just "imagination". And You are doing the imagining, cause you are it, you are God. Its quite hard to point to what is being explained here. But keep searching, keep meditating and you will eventually awaken to this sooner or later. By the way get ready for a mind-fuck.

@King Merk There are people who are looking for food... But this food you don't put in your mouth that goes into your stomach.. This food is words that you take into through your ears... And they can nurture your soul and renew your spirit.

@King Merk the more you walk the path the more you learn. The more you learn the better it is. With new insights new challenges comes up. Someone said that you have to be willing to die over and over again. The death here is ment by dark moments in your life. Also some time later you will feel great but again you will find yourself stuck in depresing moments but after a while you will understand that its normal, if you'll feel bad again you will understand that its a great sign that you are growing spiritualy

@King Merk when you are reaching for enlightenment this is totally normal. I have been in these states, which you described, myself. Just keep going and eventually you will go full circle, you will transend suffering. Stay strong my friend, this path is scary and it has its dark moments where you literally think that you are going crazy. I seen this on my wife also, but given some time you will understand more about everything you encounter and you will see the light. Have faith, believe that this is just a stage you will eventually transend. No one skipped the dark night of the soul, its esential in this, it has to be walked through.

@trenton there is a state of not knowing which brings an internal joy. Also you became aware of the problem of beliefs which means you are walking first steps in the realizing self-deception, after some time you will notice using your awareness that your own mind is lying to itself. You will understand that you are literally lying to yourself all the time.

It's quite enlightening to see the creation in action. It's God creating it with his infinite mind, infinite precision, infinite love. At the end when the Salamander moves on it's own God is probably saying "Ok my job here is done, now go out there and be somebody" LOL

@Raptorsin7 Thoughts just come in awareness. 5 minutes of meditation can confirm this for you. If you wanna break away from negative thoughts I would recommend doing Kriya Yoga, it silences the mind very well.

Chakras can't be closed. They are always open, but the thing is that some chakras are MORE open than others which makes an imbalance in the body. Most men ignore the heart chakra and just fully go to the 3rd eye, it gives insights, realizations, one can feel like it doesn't need to open other chakras, but once you open the heart and throat wow what a difference that makes.

Firstly - good job in making the decision to practice Kriya. By this he means that Kriya Yoga is very powerful. So powerful that you change your self so fast it leads to constant ego backlashes which can take you hell knows where. I've suffered from this constantly. Growing and just getting sucked back in old very hard habits, binge smoking weed, being lazy etc. Your consciousness will grow really quick compared to simple meditation. I would recommend you buying Leo's book list which he has some great books on Kriya Yoga. But I will spoil you with one really great book. "J.C. Stevens Kriya Secrets revealed" it's a practice book from beginners to masters.

I agree with Leo that if you mix cultures you get a more beautiful gene society. For example I live in Lithuania and it's in Eastern Europe. Looking at the history of this area, where Lithuania now is, in medieval ages this land was mixed with so many cultures from the south, the west and also east and north. Generation from generation led us to have very beautiful people living here. Our woman are considered the most beautiful in the whole Europe. Also this land was one of the biggest strategic points in war time a very important land to have to big countries like Russia or Germany.

@TDW1995 You will have 0 interest in your work, after you get several awakenings you will get back on track with your life, with your career even better than before. You need to go full circle