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Depends on the person. I just sit in bed and see what the trip will offer me. Long lasting psychedelics often aren't done with you before you are with them. Proper preparation. Eat clean that week, look at what moon phase it is now. Meditate well for concentration to not get lost in thoughts during the trip. Work out, make your body happy. Don't masturbate for a week before the trip. Keep your energies high. You no longer question your insights. If you do then they are not complete. I had numerous times where the insight wasn't complete, later I got them, but it took some time where you re-question yourself over and over until there are no questions, just a insight. You might be wrong for some insights as they are not the "Highest Level" you might grasp some Truth, but that may not be complete.

Never thought that I would ever find the meaning behind reality, but yet Love is the only reason for EVERYTHING. Beautiful trip report. Gratz on discovering Love!

Holy cow. ? Just yesterday Started to contemplate "what is Love?" wow does it go deep.

@axiom And yes, resistance in itself is love taking the form of resistance omg

Wait, it's LOVE. Reality is LOVE.

@bambi You are doing the same mistake I was making, thinking logically, wanting a easy understandable 1, 2, 3 answer. God does not work in those ways.

Aye aye captain.

"We run away from truth, hiding ourselves in the illusion" Recently I've been doing Leo's "Guided Exercise For Realizing You Are God" and have got great results. As you strip away all your understanding of the present moment you come to a point where "IT" appears in front of you. IT as in infinite-intelligence, God, Self, etc. And then Fear comes. The ego gets so shocked of seeing Truth that it tries to ground itself back again. If it doesn't succeed, it immediately freaks out. My body starts to shake so much that I just want to get back to the illusion, and it does that so perfectly. After doing it for some time I realized that the mind constructs reality on the fly, so perfectly, to run away from Truth. It's so interesting to see it in action and then understanding for the first time the "Construct-aware" theme. As I did the exercise I also realized that the consciousness that is perceiving everything is God itself. I can no longer doubt that I'am God! It's actually so simple! So simple that it's actually hard. Anyone maybe know a way how can I surrender to the present moment to not get lost in the fear? Or does it take some time for the ego-mind to get used of seeing Truth?

@Matt23 I've experienced ego-death one time and that was enough to understand what the ego actually is. I had numerous awakenings and understandings that the ego doesn't exist, that's just an idea of a separate lower-self "you" as this human-animal-being. Without the ego this body would not care if it is alive or not, so the ego is a very well build and "programmed" thing to this reality, it's there for a reason. Your higher self doesn't care if this body is alive or not, but the ego does care. It's not the question that I don't understand the ego, it's how can I make these experiences smoother and go in deeper, how to not get lost in the fear, what to notice in those moments.

It's the ego. I just need a better understanding of what it is actually. This was the problem from the start, right from my 1st awakening. It's always like that, fear comes.

@Holygrail If you are starting a Kriya practice 20minutes is OK, but later when you get the hang of it learn new exercises. My sessions last up to 50minutes, and it's almost the most basic stuff in Kriya that I do.

I got the 3rd "pfizer" shot as a booster and had negative outcomes. Mainly my heart had some kind of problems. As the day passed after the shot I felt ill like you should be after a flu-shot, but the whole time I had a very unpleasant feeling in my heart. Not pain-like, but just a feeling like something was wrong, very alien. The feeling went away about 6 hours after, but I noticed that my heart is way way weaker now. By going up the stairs my heart pulse goes way up. When I wake up in the morning it beats very heavily. It actually feels like I have health problems now, and it's almost like a near death situation to the point where I now I'm trying to do some cardio workouts to strengthen my heart, but a little cardio puts my pulse up to about 170-180 BPM which is like a intense workout. A lot of my friends took the 3rd shot and reported no issues, but one friend reports the same issue, some bad feeling in the heart after the booster shot. Also I read a lot that it can effect your heart, but they say that it isn't linked to the booster shot, which to me is bullshit. Im in no way an anti-vaxer, im pro medicine, but do take my report seriously and think about if you really wanna take the booster shot. If I knew what it would do for me I wouldn't have taken it. I hope that it's just temporary and will go away if I keep doing cardio.

Oh dang it Leo. I love your work so much, you always surprised me with such outside the ordinary content as a creator, as a thinker/observer. Share it somewhere else like your patreon atleast.

@AuroraDream Cause we sound like anti-vaxers and "it's all in our mind". While there are serious issues for some part of the population who get the vaccine. I mean when you feel it for your own self, the bad consequences you get, you no longer want to get vaxed. Also it's interesting to think about what would happen to me if I did get the corona virus at it's 1st form, now that it's evolved to be milder, maybe I would get even worse health issues.

@Danioover9000 Has your heart recovered?

@Koeke I took it on January 24th. and my heart still feels weak almost working over-time. I can just feel it beat hard in my chest every time. I've read that mRNA vaccines can cause "Myocarditis". People reported even having strokes after a few weeks of the vaccine, some report even deaths.

Don't.

Anxious / Preoccupied

@Blackhawk tapping unconsciously. Happens to me from time to time, very mystical. Sometimes I just feel like my friend is coming home and I just unlock the door for some reason without even thinking about it. Feels like I just received a message in my phone that he is coming. And one time as he was going up the stairs I unlocked the door and he was like wtf how did you know that I'm coming, and my reply was "Idk I just felt your coming"

@CuriousityIsKey Nice, thanks for sharing.

@Focus Now I'm very aware of those kind of people and can smell them mile away. If you ever meet a person like that for the first time and see that he does some kind of negative stuff at work immediately say it to his face and repeat again if needed to the point where either he changes or you get into a fight. If you go by it blindly after some time you will suffer My CEO wanted to fire the guy and asked our manager if it needs to be fired and my manager had no balls to make a decision and just kept the guy still. In my frustration when I heard all about it I just fucking quit.

@Focus Oh wow this topic is totally relatable with me. I had a coworker like you described. He was such a pain in the ass to work with that it literally broke our team and I just quit my job all together because my boss had no balls to tell the man that he is just a horrible worker/person. Those kind of people are like a cancer to the company. Oh and also that person is a Stage Red/Orange (Spiral dynamics). Constant lies, manipulating others to not do so much work, very "alpha" male thinking, wants to be the "best". Oh boy I totally understand the frustration you have to go through while you have to work and be near him 8hours/day.

Yeah you kind of start to depend on someone for your help which can become a crutch, while talking to God is on your own. I think it's way more deep to talk to God than to a therapist, because you can be honest to God which would make you honest to yourself because you are literally talking to - yourself.

In my understanding addiction boils down to not having enough WILLPOWER. You have urges to do something, be it smoke or masturbate etc. but you don't have the willpower to stop the initial urge. When it pops into your awareness just be aware that you want "insert your addiction here". While maintaining awareness on it it will go away, just try to not react to it immediately, just observe the urge and it will slowly fade away. Practice meditation and put some effort into it. After a week or so you will grow some willpower and with enough effort you will drop it if you REALLY WANT TO.

@Forza21 Im gonna do my best to answer you from my experience. You are still in the ego mind thinking. Early stages of oneness can be hard on your psyche because all your life you saw yourself as separate, now you are breaking the illusion and loosing meaning that was built on the ego mind. Actually now that the illusion was broken through you will have to re-build your purpose towards what is meaningful and this may take some time. Recontextualization from separate self to oneness can be either hard or blissful. You will probably get a period where everything will be meaningless, you will slow down everything that you are doing, questioning everything. But later you will adapt it and be happy, just trust that it will come. Dark night of the soul can be hard. Just trust and keep on doing the work. Don't back down, I've been there, it happens to everyone eventually.