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What you need now is build up self confident side that that balance out one that is not and from there you can work further. Physical. activity might help you balance some things in your body , not sure if it will help you build up on strong personality you can relay on.

It is not that simple , you can experience emotions without thoughts, just as you can think thoughts without emotions ,emotions can create thoughts , thoughts can make emotions surface, emotions can be attached to thoughts.

Problem with reading books is that either you need perfect memory to recall every word, or you have to read some of them over and over again after periods of time, as your perspective changes, you can see more information in them!

It is actually interesting when you think about it, there are at least 2 sides that fight among them self, you can not say that personality does not want to end suffering, if it would not want it, you would not do it, there is this inner conflict of 2 or more sides that fight to win.

It is very hard to read faces, let alone from pictures, people get confused all the time by this, some people look sad all the time, but they are not sad, if you know person well you can do it quite well, you need way more then look of the face to be able to read person., I can put up fake smile any time and none will notice.

I see pain, but I am so bad at this! Also , pictures can reflect yourself, does it mean I fell pain?

So you are basically looking for their forgiveness, which you can get if you can make open conversation in a right way, it could even make relationships way stronger, now question is can you do it at right moment and in right way.

Insights do not have words, they are like feelings that contain information that you understand without any words, expression and are very clear, you do not have to believe, or not believe them , it is really up to you, just magnificence of them is worth it.

But I see both at But I see both at the same time!

Maccoy do not make self actualizing your life, you have to separate both, at least till you have confidence that it is something that you can bring into your life fully, make that line and put self actualizing as hobby, you do not have to think about Enlightenment, it is least of your concerns until you are well of and know what you are doing, you are trying to theorize about stuff that you do not know what actually is, when you have to think about what you know works and is actual to you from experience, if you do not make that distinction , you will bring allot of suffering and might actually drive yourself crazy, or believe some silly things that mind made up by itself.

Only thing you have to do is play their game, if you will be honest you will not answer their questions as they want, it is all just lying to make you look "better".

Is it so difficult to not think daily, just use awareness, you do not need to sit, shit, or do nothing special to practice it, only if you have serious problems with it.

Good video , want to say that it might be helpful to rise awareness when you are doing this and self inquire should be done in quiet mind, like you give this question on who am I to subconscious and let it repeat this question without actual voice asking in your head at the same time trying to locate, or just focus on certain area of body, brain.

What did you see about me ?:D

They have quite huge effect , think about it.

I am sorry , if you do not see how any emotion without exception can be damaging because it changes how you view things around you, then I can't help you , take your time. Best I can tell you is that every emotion changes your perspective, perspective you can get attached to, making you blind , not seeing things as they are and act on that emotions created perspective. I will end this conversation with simple example Love You can love someone and completely ignore persons wrongdoings and jump to persons defense no matter what he/she does, blinded by love.

That is thought I think is very interesting and I have thought about it too, after worst things come huge positive changes, if bad things would not happen , humans would not be able to learn and make positive changes, even though there are huge problems now, you can not really say that public has regressed, you could say it has regressed in certain areas , but then again , it is bad change that might give huge positive changes in future.

Why exactly are you looking for passion then , if you agree? My point is that passion if not seen as passion and not controlled can be damaging to you, same as being obsessed with something, having addiction , or simply having some beliefs that you are passionate about, it makes you blind , clingy, attached and make wrong decisions, you do not need passion, it is just emotion. If you know how to use passion it can be good tool, if you do not know, it can be huge disaster, or you can not use it all together, as it is just emotion.

Only thing Hell has access to is stubbornity!

Observer can be observed, that is all the point of it , to see that you are not one who is thinking , feeling and doing , it is actual state of mind where you are separate in literal sense.

If you want to get lost in process sure, go for it , but remember that passion does not free you from suffering and passion does not last forever.

He also said that Enlightenment is nothing special

You can say it like that, one is observer of observer. You can separate you from your mind, you will get detached from your personality in a way, you will see that personality acts on its own and thinks on its own , and it is not your doing, what conclusions you will take out of it is up to you.

Relax and do not get distracted by emotions, do not get distracted by people presence, just like you are listening to what they are saying, but you just do not get attached to anything he/she says, or in which form it is presented, you take information in and calmly respond.

All emotions are like disease that spread, some work better then others as there can be conflict, anyway positivity and negativity effect everyone around us, like vibration that hit others out of their vibration, but that is just one of effects, it also increase people consciousness, they can start having experiences.