purerogue

It is not like I do not like him, its just that his videos are to badmouth what people do , you know kind of person who talks crap about others, but does not shed any light of what he himself is about and what is his way, can't really resonate when he puts nothing on other side. To put it in other words, I do not see any value of his videos other than to see his opinion about other people, I am not sure how his opinion can help me in any way.

Was that a joke?Just do not want to be one who did not get it!

I get your point and it is ofc true, but I would have expected more from people who follow teachers who should have better understanding and are guiding others, where did they get thous cultural things in first place.

Like caste system, believed that crossing the seas would make them impure,baby tossing, marriage with animals because "CURSED",banishing girls for menstruating and other restrictions, that is to name just few.

I am not sure if you could say it hurts more, maybe because you do indeed care less which makes it mixed up,also can agree about fact that feelings do work in different way then they did before, which is very difficult to deal with as they can't be dealt with in a way you did before. About your main question, I can only say what I think will happen, you will be very sad , grief and then you will let it go.

I find them very defensive about their culture, but so is everyone I guess who is attached to culture, or nationality, my question was more about non-bias and understanding, when there is allot going one that you could not call unbiased, or even remotely close to someone who is spiritually inclined.

I cant tell cuz my experiences can be misleading! Gl!

That is even worse! Lets see how you will handle what is coming next though. Gl!

Ohh no, I see @winterknight has influenced you to much and you will become copy pasting "Cuz my experiences are misleading " too! Don't fall for that trap , stay strong!

Don't forget to make topics about what insights you will get to experience from now on , I am genuinely interested!

Give him some slack, he probably can't hold to it and is excited for getting over one barrier he had problem with for weeks , or months.

Do you realize how close you were all this time?! But as @winterknight said, it is not all, at least you know where to start from.

Ahaha that was good comeback!

ofc, you can attach to everything too and think that you are it. If you will connect with existence correctly, there will be no I , so maybe it is just matter of time till you are able to get deep enough.

Can you put your awareness on existence itself? Which part you did not understand and which belief makes you think otherwise?

Well you do, problem is that you forget, you can forget your dream in few seconds after waking up , just puff you remember what you were dreaming of and next moment you forget it, just because you do not remember does not mean that you were not conscious of it at that time.

You always know that you exist, you might have no memory of dream though.

Only thing you know is that you exist right, so why don't you work your mind around it.

Problem with ignorance is that it can be something right in front of your face, but you just do not notice it, if I would have to put it in any terms it would be something that stands in front of what is true, but then again , you can be ignorant just because you are stupid like me!

It will help if you are open enough to see how much of what you think is merely beliefs you picked up and how much of it is something you know. Anyway , it is normal process , none is prone to it, it is helpful to remind everyone about once in a while, but this threat could have been delivered better, you will make allot of people block your message because you triggered them.

I do think that mediation can be helpful if it is taken lightly, without having Enlightenment work involved, for pure purpose of taking pressure off, but if your goal goes further then that and you think that you can just do little of this and little of that and you will get somewhere you are asking for big problems and you will get it. Also don't want to make people confused , or scare , so I try to stay away from negative things about all of this, there is so much misinformation about lot of things, it is like cultural things to make stories around such stuff, also I might get crucified if I do it.

Can we at least agree that Nothing of this has ever even happened and that we are trying to build module of reality out of logic, that is nothing more then belief and concept that hold no truth? Or maybe no, I am interested in your thoughts, can you accept that everything that you think you think is a lie?

Are you talking about connecting to person in a way where you understand each other without words, or sending message to someone? I have had connection , but I have no clue why exactly it happened, or if it was real , but it felt real to me, we did not even talk just pure interaction and us giggling while we do it also confused look from person next to us. But it was before I even started to practice any of this, anyway nice memory.

Exploring perspectives is very good, you can go very deep and explore everything from so many angles, opens many new ways of understanding, really pushes your mind to its limits, can be very depressing though

There are way you can improve without sitting mediation, but it is art on its own, if you have time you can try to look on forum, or maybe someone will take his time to give you information on how it is done, to put it simple, sitting makes it easier to focus on mediating, less obstacles that get in your way, very controlled environment so to say, but that does not mean that you can't practice it on daily bases while you are walking, talking , or doing anything for that matter, which is actually very good way to improve not just because you can spend way more time on it, but also improves your base capacity for mediation, as you are being able to "concentrate" on these states in any circumstance. Not going to be easy to get started though, so not sure how easy it will be for you to manage it till you get comfortable with process.