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Oof, too relatable! ??? walks are fantastic, what are you talking about?

Distraction from what, you're sleeping!

Day 11: Energy: 4 Awareness: 4 Sexual thoughts/urges: 2 Self-esteem: 4 Social confidence: 4

More does not equal better. I'd say at most once a month to keep the magic and healthy mind state... I know firsthand that tripping every 2 weeks or less can result in a lot of bad trips and other crazy shit I won't go into here. No more than once a month with most psychedelics like mushrooms and LSD. I don't think 5-meo or regular DMT has this same harmful effects, because it's shorter and there's no tolerance.

That's a great realization, happy you got that far to admit it to yourself. That's powerful. I would go to the root of this issue within yourself. Track when your started feeling this way (this macho independent person). This is pretty common, and I have experienced something similar myself, as it can feel really lonely on this path and you develop this shell. Your ego has developed a negative reaction to asking for help, as it belittles your ego. Practice humility, not in a degrading way, but a healthy and optimistic way. Think of yourself as really early in your journey, and that you have much to learn. If you practice this, then you'll break away at this shell and you'll be much more eager to ask questions and engage with people. This could help all areas of your life, too, even your task of fully realizing no-self. This is the process of breaking down your ego and expanding your identity, and again, this forum is a perfect resource for finding out how to do that. Oh yeah, I highly recommend the LP course. I just started it recently so I haven't created my LP yet, but just the concepts, video and book recommendations, and other stuff so far has been great.

Yeah, I saw those in Leo's Nuutropics video, I'll try those as well. But from what I read and understand, you don't need supplements to do it. It's all practice, like it's almost entirely a trained skill. Ah, but isn't it through the egoic illusion that we pursue spirituality? I'm thinking you could use lucidity to use as an interactive classroom of raising your consciousness. There are things you can do in dreams that aren't possible here. For instance, actually interacting with strange loops. Raising creativity. It could be a way to interact with your inner psyche visually. I don't know, I see a lot of potential here. You should know that trying to pursue worldly pleasures in a dream is just as fruitless as pursuing them in real life. Remember, the opposite of that is also true (and more likely), that you could fall into the very egoic desires in your dreams and get addicted to them. Because your lucid dream will feel real, imagine getting free sex with the hottest women without working for it? I think it would sink you in rather than raise you up...

What is indecision and anxiety born of? You may be shocked to find the answer! What you're experiencing right now, yet not fully aware of or trusting of, is actually your intuition on the correct answer. Yes, you already know exactly what you should be doing. This intuition is so deep and powerful that you can't rationalize it, and what's happening is that you're in this constant loop of negative feedback (mental chatter, noise) of trying to appeal to rationality to make the right choice. You were programmed with this neural pathway, so please don't hate yourself. I think we've all been there! What you should find out is that you can rationalize both choices equally convincingly, and if you study this honestly, you'll further find that your rationality is emotionally driven. So the "correct choice" will shift entirely based on your current mood and egoic desires. So ask yourself, what is the best path for me for my future wellbeing and fulfilment? Think long term, think your vision statement. Drop all your inhibitions and fears, and listen to yourself. The correct path will present itself crystal clear in that moment, and when it does, write it down in detail and stick with it.

@The White Belt Now that you've done your trip, it is most definitely safe to trip solo, and even preferred in some cases as it can really take you to deep introspection and discovery. Everything you need to know can be found within. That being said, it's not a good idea to trip solo at a dose you haven't tried before. For instance, don't go, "Oh, I can handle this, I'll just do 200ug next time solo." Obviously, that is a recipe for disaster. But when you get more comfortable with the substance, it is generally safe to trip solo up to about 250ug. In my personal experience, anything above that, no matter how experienced you are, the trip can pull you in directions you DID NOT intend to go. Every trip I've had at 250ug and under was quite blissful and manageable. There's really no reason to go above that unless you REALLY want to fucking die (it's not what it's cracked up to be). There are other psychs like 5-meo-DMT and regular DMT that are much better for ego death. Ego death on LSD can be extremely warped and scary, the risk is a lot higher for traumatic events. Of course everyone is different, so the bottom line is that you should take dose increases slowly and always with a trip sitter, or at least someone close by that can assist you. Don't forget that the most powerful technique for breaking out of weird thought patterns and loops is to change your state, and move to a different room. You wouldn't believe how liberating moving to a different room can be!

Wonderful, thank you for sharing!

@PretentiousHuman Try to watch this with an open mind. It'll be really weird, trust me, but will help answer your question in the long term.

All love is self-love. Now, your ego could use this realization for great harm if you didn't fully understand it. Which, I don't think you have the foundation to appreciate this in a healthy way yet. This is fine and expected, but REALLY contemplate this! You can get there pretty quickly if you're openminded. Love is not an emotion. The emotions we feel are second-order phenomena, byproducts of a metaphysical process of connection with the self (the universe). Your emotions POINT to love, but they themselves are not what love is. Consider this: You can not love others unconditionally until you have fully accepted and loved yourself. Is this true in your direct experience? And if it is true, contemplate why this is so...

@EvilAngel Ha, extremely relevant profile pic

@Amun Yes, he is. That wasn't the angle I was coming from, I was spelling out and aiding his case.

@Arhattobe The inability to empathize and approach the problem from their level is actually a stage Green, tier 1 approach. What you said may be true, but it was not what the other person needed to hear right there. Without the proper context and guidance, that information has driven many people to suicide, and will continue to do so.

Wait, you came to get the public opinion on Leo's forum?? I would tell them that all we have is personal subjective experience, that the notion of "objective" is an illusion couched WITHIN the subjective, and that they're question begging by having the wrong assumptions provided by their implied metaphysics. And of course, I'm the crazy one! Does that answer your question?

@Cepzeu Inception! Remember that scene where all the old, sick people came together in the basement just to lucid dream with the help of that substance? I think we've barely tapped the vastness of human potential when it comes to utilizing the dreamscape for personal development. I believe we have dreams for a reason, not only to physically rest and heal, but to explore the deepest parts of ourselves, like a trip. There's this infinite void of possibility here just waiting to be discovered. You're definitely on to something! That's great that you're aware of this. Did you watch Leo's recent video on ego backlash? This is the same mechanism at play, and understanding it and setting proper expectations is key to moving farther in this field. What are some things that you'd like to try when you're able to consistently achieve lucidity? I have some ideas, but I'd love to hear yours first.

@KeenokF This forum is the best resource. I only have one real-life friend that is on this path, but there are thousands of super friendly self-actualizers here that will help you in any way they can. I recommend starting a journal in the "self-actualization journals" section, as that level of honesty and accountability will really help you act on the positive things you want to! Best of luck!

So you've known about this amazing resource for years, and you're just now getting to the point where you're asking for advice? Notice that you have this self-image (ego) of identifying as the guy that usually doesn't ask for help. Really try to see this, and how this has no doubt hindered your growth over the years. There are thousands of fellow self-actualizers here that only want to help and grow together! I'm very happy you reached out, and my point is that you should transcend this self-image and keep asking/learning! We're here for you bro. Your OCD and anxiety are fueled by lack of purpose and vision. It sounds like you are in a good enough financial position to buy Leo's Life Purpose Course... Please do, it'll change your life. I'm currently working through it.

@Hardkill I feel you, cause my parents also babied me too much in my schooling, and while I was grateful for their help especially in my writing classes, it did NOT do me any favors overall. I think it would be mature of you to have a discussion with your parents about this, to really sit down with them and lay it out from a broad, high-level perspective. Know that your parents really mean the best for you, but they probably don't have the strength (because you'll always be their baby) or insight to understand the harm that they're doing. Do not shame them in any way, just tell them that in order for you to grow as a person, that you need to do things yourself. There's nothing wrong with a little help here or there, but you and your parents need to come to an understanding that this type of crutch is really harming both parties. Believe it or not, they will actually deeply appreciate this kind of talk! Also, let me share something that will be a hard pill to swallow, but it's true. You are stuck in a rut BECAUSE of your negative self talk. Really try to appreciate this cycle, and you will be able to transcend it and grow immensely. This right here. You have wrongly labeled yourself, and that is contributing to your lazy work ethic because you'll unconsciously put yourself at the effective operating level of what you perceive a loser to be. A loser doesn't have a good work ethic. So how can you expect to have a good work ethic while thinking of yourself as a loser? Do you see how this works? You are trapping yourself, my friend. And I have good news for, you can un-trap yourself today. Literally right now. The key to overcoming this is through the present moment, which is a conscious practice that you'll have to develop at all times until it becomes habit. Accept your entire being exactly as you are now. All of your flaws and insecurities, everything that has happened to you has put you in this beautiful position to enact great change. Great things await you if you practice this, but it won't be easy and will take a lot of maturity and strength. I believe in you!

Be careful not to throw ages around like you think you know what you're talking about... Children are much closer to enlightenment that teenagers/young adults are. Nonduality is the thing that actually makes sense to a heart-centered, non-infoctrinated person, not the other way around. I have seen children and young teenagers talk with Rupert Spira, they can get this shit. It's readily accessible. Start them young, I say!

Stupid and wise are relative dualities, with the only real measure being one's level of humility: the level to which one knows he knows nothing. So it's a matter of perspective. The universal perspective, your little ego literally knows nothing. But it's also important to have confidence in one's own abilities. And you're right, it goes full circle to where you know that you know everything you NEED to be a rational, loving human being! Knowing that you know nothing while simultaneously being happy that you know everything you need, and if you don't currently, then you have the tools to gain greater understanding.

I really resonate with that, cause I'm slowly but surely getting there. I've been extremely unhappy with a resting bitch face for most of my life, so it's REALLY strange to smile and get happiness back! And that freaks me out, almost like I did something wrong. I also notice that perhaps the way I maintain eye contact (is it too intense, too inquisitive?) can really weird out some people, so that's new. That's where all this stuff is headed, is it not? All this is is a love simulator...

This is not a gospel to actively seek spreading. That in itself is very dangerous, as most people are honestly not ready to hear that we're living in a dream, everything they've ever been told is a lie, and that they are God. Unbelievable, I know.... And not only that, that's how this shit gets turned into a cult, an ideology, and a religion, because the masses are not developed enough to think for themselves in a radically openminded manner. Leo pointed this out very eloquently at the end of his latest video on Cult Psychology. I share the same sentiment as others here, and that is to lead by example. If you truly love this stuff, that is the only way to embody these teachings in a healthy way. THE ONLY WAY for low consciousness people to listen and take note. Love is a superpower that is wonderfully infectious and instantly recognized by all walks (or crawls) of life. Spread that, and the people will come.

Yes, I was unable to post anything for a couple days. It is working now!

@lostmedstudent there's a great lesson to be learned here, and it's a paradox: that we are the most indecisive when we know exactly what we want, and are strongly intuitive about a situation. Indecisiveness arises when we aren't in touch with, or actively deny this intuition, because the intuition simply won't allow us to let it go like it didn't matter. But trust me, it's there. In fact, you know what the right choice is so deeply that your rational mind can't explain it, and you're driving yourself crazy with all this mind interference to try and drown it out. Notice that you can convincingly reason for both choices, and that the reasoning process is not "scientific" but highly driven by emotions and egoic desires. Try to LET GO, and the right choice will become apparent soon, although it may take some time to get in touch with intuition and to deconstruct your walls. I hope this video sheds some light on the phenomena of interference that I'm talking about: