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I think there's a mixture of red-green on every platform because you can tailor your "feed" to your liking. I'd say YouTube has the highest potential for high-consciousness content, but the "average" is just as low consciousness as the rest.

@Igor82 wow, thank you for opening up to me like that. I really do care about you, and I want you to succeed in your journey! ❤️ Perspective is everything. The situations themselves, you cannot change them IN THAT MOMENT. Not even 1%... However, the way you move forward is based on your perspective and limiting beliefs, so those are everything. Everything boils down to inner game. It would be wise not to underestimate how powerful this knowledge can be if actualized.

@Igor82 if that works for you, then great! Just suggesting things that might be helpful. While watching porn itself isn't a relapse, be extremely careful of doing that. It'll make you crave PMO like 10 times harder within the next few days. You're really just shooting yourself in the foot when you do that. Don't kid yourself it's the "P" in the "PMO," so it's like a mini relapse in itself, setting you up for failure.

@Tony 845 this is the trouble of trying to label someone else or yourself enlightened. There are many different levels of awakening, and how can you be certain that ego didn't come into the equation of anyone else's assessment? In my opinion, It's a meaningless label that causes more confusion than if it wasn't applied.

Day 14: Energy: 3 Awareness: 3 Sexual thoughts/urges: 4 Self-esteem: 4 Social confidence: 4 Day 15: Energy: 3 Awareness: 3 Sexual thoughts/urges: 3 Self-esteem: 4 Social confidence: 4

@Igor82 yeah I've learned through a lot of trial and error that drugs of any kind, even consciousness-raising psychedelics can trigger this. This might seem really weird, but yeah. Take a break from all of that shit until you complete your challenge. Or lower your challenge standards, I think 180 days could be too big of a goal for your ego mind to grasp, causing you to easily be able to convince yourself it isn't "really" achievable. You have to be able to listen to your body and adjust stuff accordingly. Also never beat yourself up about relapsing. You're not immediately starting from ground zero, you just had a 10 day streak! Being able to recover quickly and apply self-love and higher-perspectives can help keep your momentum in the right direction.

We know you love to hear yourself talk

If any of you are thinking, "But Leooooo, you bash Sam Harris and Jordan Peterson all the time in your talks! Does that make you a hypocrite?" then try to understand that he never goes out of his way to bash other teachers, it is only to prove a point related to his topic, and to help inoculate you from ideology. If you look at it honestly, Leo has never shut a post down merely for being critical of his work.

I read your question again. Being egoic/selfish is actually encouraged by society. It's a system designed to produce unconsciousness. In your second paragraph, the man who thinks horrible thoughts is perceived as good by society, but is actually unknowingly spreading horrible energies to other people. A person's state is contagious, so that man is doing great harm in his community. But unbeknownst to ANYONE in the community! Does that make him bad? Who are you to judge someone for something they weren't ultimately responsible for? What about the rapist, terrorist, or murderer? Do you think he just love raping people from the get go?Or do you think certain events, brainwashing, and a terrible childhood inevitably led them to the act? I am, and I'm moving more and more into that every day. It's not easy, and it sure seems really counter-intuitive. But this is true growth and understanding. I'm not making a claim that "I'm more enlightened than you" and I'm certainly not enlightened! This is simply taking on radical new perspectives with the same sincerity as my own, and finding there was Truth to be found, and no fundamental difference. You cannot be unconditionally loving while making a distinction between good and bad out there in the world... It's just not possible. We are all simultaneously God and the Devil, so to speak. What we do does not make us one or the other. We are all capable of great good and great evil. You might be wondering if that leaves us in a groundless position, and if we should do anything good! A relative sense of good and bad is a must, but you can never impose it or judge others on it. The sense of good and bad being out there to live up to was a religious idea, and holds no water. In fact, that line of thinking has led to much war and violence. General sense of good and bad is something that's created collectively over time as society moves up the spiral. If there's any answer to be given, it is to love, to connect, to raise consciousness (as that's where we're moving towards on the spiral, not because we have to, just because forces are leading us. You can't judge the forces as good, it's just a recognition and observation of where we're going). The highest form of love requires the complete dismantling of the notion of good and evil. That's all I'm pointing to. I'm really not trying to argue with you, just wanted to clear up my points.

Day 13: Energy: 3 Awareness: 3 Sexual thoughts/urges: 3 Self-esteem: 4 Social confidence: 4

Last night, I did a small-ish dose of DMT (20-30 mg) to get a feel for it again. I was not close to blasting off into hyperspace, but I did have some intense visuals. However, something really insane happened that blew me away! I was a little nervous going in, but I was ready to surrender to whatever came to me. After I took the second hit, I laid back on the couch and began to close my eyes. Right after I did so, I brought my arms up in front of me to bring them behind my head in a resting position. As I see my hands come up, I start to relax into amazing close-eyed visuals... WAIT, OMG, MY EYES ARE CLOSED!! How did I see my hands?? What the fuck?? I experiment with this more, and I couldn't believe what I was seeing at first. I was seeing energy fields (like an outline) of my waving hands WITH MY EYES CLOSED. It was extremely colorful and psychedelic. Not only that, but every second or two I'd get a little flash of vision that was identical to if I had opened my eyes... with no visuals. How fucking weird is that? I started second-guessing myself, wondering if maybe my eyes were fluttering open and I just wasn't feeling it. So I pressed my fingers on the bottoms of my eyelids to MAKE SURE they were closed, and sure enough, I was actually seeing the room as if they were open! Needless to say, I was pretty shocked after that experience and didn't know what to make of it. Today while I was researching, I found a documentary that showed this ability being taught to children with great success. Apparently this is something you can train yourself to do! If you have time, please watch it. Does it PROVE this ability exists? No. But please try to keep an open mind, and keep your false skepticism at bay... I know what I saw. This shit is real.

@pluto yes, I'm beginning to believe... Wow! That's incredible. I will go to an ayahuasca ceremony with a real shaman some day. I have experimented with ayahuasca a little bit myself, but I need to go way deeper.

@ULFBERHT the real mindfuck comes when you realize your everyday conscious experience is nothing BUT mindfuck. Reality is a strange loop: irreducibly mystical. You're just not aware of it yet. Your search for mindfuck itself will ultimately be a strange loop, because there's nowhere to go!!

Luck does not exist in this line of work, my friend. Individually everyone has to battle their inner demons, which to them subjectively is the hardest thing they'll ever have to do. Putting others on a pedestal and calling them lucky only harms yourself and fuels a victim mentality. This isn't to belittle your struggles in any way whatsoever, I feel you. Really try to see what I'm saying here from a higher perspective.

@Paan really great for you to admit all this stuff to yourself, and to take a higher- level perspective of how your habits are holding you back from the type of growth you want to achieve. As I was reading your story, something occurred to me (just because this is how my mind works, and how I know other minds to truly work under the surface). I'm not saying this is true for you, but hear me out and Guage for yourself. I was thinking, what's special about watches? Then I thought about The Power of Now by Ekhart Tollé and our addictions to psychological time, and how deeply ingrained that is in each of us. So read The Power of Now. And then consider if your identity tied to watches is actually speaking to a much deeper identity to the illusion of time itself...

As long as your dose is 2g or under, and your set and setting are good, then you're basically guaranteed a blissful and easily steerable/manageable trip! However, having an EXPERIENCED trip sitter could give you peace of mind, and is definitely recommended when going to higher doses for the first time. Let us know of your travels!

Denver, Colorado! If any of you live within a few hours drive (even neighboring states), I'd love to hear from you! It would be awesome to meet other fellow self-actualizers!

That's exactly what your question plays into, and precisely what I wanted to avoid. All such debates are pointless, due to the fact they're completely subjective and groundless. As a self-actualizer, you must work to understand, then love all viewpoints and notions of good and bad. Just the fact you're posting this thread means you haven't opened yourself up to enough viewpoints to see the beautiful, yet partial truths in each one. The validity of each perspective... No you don't. All self-deception has a common thread: you think you know something which you do not know. All that being said, if I had to give an answer, it would be close to Leo's 65 Core principles for living the good life. Life is a love simulator, so learning to love is key. Be present, raise consciousness. No ideology. Systems thinker, etc... Again, this is all subjective and from the narrow human perspective, and moreover, only applicable in the 21st century, most likely. Such an answer still has its dangers, and if not understood, you have the possibility of treating it as an ideology.

@thematrixyz it will only work if you fully believe it will work. This cannot be faked. Of course, this will seem like a catch-22 for you, because you want the "proof" before you start... Well, take a little leap of faith of a little time investment. The proof is in the work itself. What's the worst that could happen?

@Aakash saying the hero's journey is ultimately narcissistic is like saying Spiral Dynamics is ultimately judgmental. While it could be interpreted in that way, it itself is just a model based on much research about general trajectories of human development. The projection of narcissism or the projection of judgment or pigeon-holing others is completely of your own doing. Could a narcissist begin the hero's journey? Sure. Humility by helping others is often a lesson along the hero's journey, and certainly by the end, that person would be humble and ready to share what he's learned.

That's all the hero's journey ever was. Don't confuse the map for the territory, it's just a helpful model on how to view your journey of self-discovery. That's like saying Spiral Dynamics is overly judgmental...

@Leo Kaminski watch Leo's Self-Deception series parts 1-3. Basically, study your own ego, raise awareness and consciousness. Chop wood, carry water. Do the practices! Everything you need can be found within, and MUST be found within to truly be known, to prevent you from turning this into ideology. It doesn't matter how pure the teachings are, your mind WILL corrupt and abuse them if you are not actively mastering your inner game.

No, quantum computers will not run VR. They're good at simulating complex systems for research, but the actual running of VR is heavily graphics based. Normal computers are up to the task, it will just continue to get better. Why would you want VR to simulate a psychedelic trip? For just the visuals? You know that the benefit of psychs comes from the change in mind state? 5-meo barely has any visuals.

Day 12: Energy: 3 Awareness: 4 Sexual thoughts/urges: 4 Self-esteem: 3 Social confidence: 4 I only slept 5 hours last night, so I felt pretty shitty. I noticed that I've become more sensitive to sleep patterns since I've been sleeping better and more regularly...

The Void. Infinity. Since reading Leo's blog post on Aztec nonduality, I like Teotl.