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Well the fact is that if you identify as either right or left wing, you're guaranteed not to be high consciousness.

The Truth is impossible to become mainstream.

Society as a whole never will wake up, because at that point it would stop existing as society. 3-D existence as we know it would collapse.

Jumping from 2.5g to 5g is fucking retarded, but I know you're not going to listen to me. I just want you to be able to look back, and not feel like the victim because no one told you that high doses of mushrooms aren't rainbows and butterflies. Safe travels.

There are many different avenues in helping others, some remote and spiritual. To think these Yogi's never helped or taught anyone just isn't true...

Happy on your own terms without achieving an LP that provides value to mankind? First, that's impossible, second, they are missing the point. This is a rule of life, hardwired into every single person. Just one example, there's some fascinating research on flow states, which usually last 2 hours, but something magical happens with an act of altruism. This unique flow state called "helper's high" can last up to 3 days! You can even connect with your own direct experience... you gain a lot more happiness and fulfillment by helping others by working your purpose than if you just focused on yourself. I know this might sound strange, and you might have some doubts, but this is a rule. It's your true nature.

@Javfly33 Im currently working through Leo's Life Purpose course, and he explains in great detail from many different angles why retiring for solitude would be against his values, nor would it bring happiness. The greatest pleasure in life comes from making your art, following your muse, and helping others.

@Cepzeu Uh, not even close. There's absolutely no use trying to describe them.

@nikkikc Hey, give yourself a pat on the back for reaching out for help. Really, it's great, and I know how hard it can be to even make that step because of the self-doubting stories you can tell yourself. "Oh, is it really going to work? Am I a fool for doing this? Is it embarrassing?" Your need for answers won out over your anxiety, so that's important to recognize. I really resonated with your story, because I recently had (and still do to a lesser extent) a battle with anxiety. And I want to give you hope that this battle can be won over time by understanding the root of this anxiety. By observing and mapping out the pathways your mind takes. It's actually a fascinating topic! Fundamentally, this anxiety arises when you create a thought loop that gets stuck on a future possible scenario your mind perceives to be real. Really think about this! Fear and anxiety can only live when you are disconnected from the present. While fear is rooted in attachment to a false future, you can also use your past to justify and create a negative thought pattern, like your example of "I haven't been able to so far today, so why try now?" It's all the same fundamental problem of giving too much power to your concepts and projections of past and future. It's very important moving forward, to ground yourself in actuality, love, and self-acceptance, and to see these negative thought patterns as nothing more than illusions; this will help you to break free. The great Alan Watts explained this effect beautifully here: Watt's talks on YT have helped me so much over the last couple years. If you're ever feeling down, stuck in a rut, hopeless... Try taking a deep breath, and relax and listen to an Alan Watts talk. There are some awesome videos where his voice is overlaid on a chill electronic track, and it can soothe the soul and provide guidance. Like "Watts Wave" or "Alan Watts chillstep." I want you to know that you're on the right path, despite everything you may be feeling from society, etc... You always have a great community here help guide and support you. There's no reason to be afraid anymore, but trust that it will take some time to overcome years of mental programming. I think you've made a lot more progress so far than you even give yourself credit for!

I can see that it means a lot to you. I will acknowledge that it could be a valid path to God, but in the end all dualistic separations must collapse. Who are you praying to but yourself? I'm happy that it works for you, and please don't misunderstand me, Im not here to judge you or your practice... It's just not my path. I couldn't resonate with it, that's all. It's not authentic to me and my views. That's why there are many paths and practices.

@Truth Addict sorry, I was referring to prayer as it is practiced by Christians here in the west, which is much more loose, easy, obedient, dogmatic, etc. If what you're saying about your prayer practice is true, then it has absolutely no resemblance to prayer in the West. What I said about dualistic separation from God and scarcity mindset still stands though. I have never practiced prayer of any kind.

@Liger ask a dog.

That's simplistic, they aren't the same. Even if you do meditation "wrong" you're still doing something that has amazing life benefits outside of spirituality. Better focus, better understanding and control of emotions, better understanding of thoughts, etc. Same as "western yoga," Leo can say it's bullshit, which is true a spiritual perspective, but the fact is that it has many health and mind benefits even when done "unconsciously." Prayer is different. Not only are you not training your mind or body, but you are subtly enforcing a dualistic relationship to God. And when you ask for things in this manner, not only are you not accepting the world, but you are perpetuating a scarcity mindset and not taking 100% responsibility. EVEN SO, as Leo pointed out, it can still work to an extent. That's how powerful faith and visualization can be, even a distorted sliver of a practice can garner some results. There's a reason why fundamentalist religions have clinged to this type of prayer for centuries.

The duality between end and beginning is fascinating to explore. Ultimately, this of course collapses into Being or Journey. Welcome back.

What's wrong with feeling sad? Is that somehow unnatural? I think you should journal and contemplate about why you may be so attached to these negative feelings, to go deeper. I think what you'll find might surprise you.

Yes, one unified field of consciousness. If you answer the question "am I aware?" and find you are conscious, that means that everyone and everything else must be conscious. By definition, some other entity is self-aware if you perceive it to be. Consciousness MUST be fundamental and universal. Consciousness in a way contradicts itself, it is the delicious strange loop with no cause and no effect, the magical thing that makes reality irreducibly mystical. I know this is a lot to take in and will require a lot of contemplation. But you don't have to worry about being the only conscious thing in existence. Reality is Good, and you will awaken to that in due time

You are still thinking of reality dualisticly. There is you, there is your mom, and you two are separate... It turns out this is an illusion. Let's say your mom wasn't experiencing reality. Let's say she was? How would you verify this? The only verification is through your own subjective experience. She sees you and walks over to you. You hug your mum, she hugs back. She loves you, you love her. There would be no difference between this and a dream, which is why reality is called one mass hallucination. The only way you interact with and "verify" the world is through subjective experience. You have the experience of being loved and hugging your mum, that's all there ever was, and that's all you ever needed. To say anything further would be to get lost in concept and imagination. Is any of this making sense? It is your ego trying to make sense of this dualisticly, by assuming this "separate" being called your mother must have a separate capacity of consciousness, when in reality both of you are one. "Your" consciousness proves "her" consciousness. The fact of your consciousness imbues everything else with beauty and consciousness. Do you see it?

Perfect. Keep going.

The difference between green and yellow is massive. There's a reason yellow is called tier 2, it's a qualitative leap in consciousness, in your relationship to reality.

I don't have to imagine, my friend. I've lived through it. That is part of awakening. And it's a terrible pain for the part of you that must die, and it will remain painful until you stop giving that part of yourself power. However, your image of a mannequin is just that, an image, a concept in your head, a trick of your ego to try to return to "normal". Get your head out of your ass, watch Leo's "What is Actuality" video, slap yourself a few times, and LOOK at your mother. She is just as real, radiant, and loving as she's ever been. Nothing has changed! Consciously look for and appreciate beauty in the world, and you will find it overflowing. It will bring tears to your eyes. If you look for the darkness, however, that is all you'll ever see. Your mind has been unhooked from the Matrix so to speak, and you have full power over your reality using the Law of Attraction. Sounds crazy, I know, but believe me when I say you have the power to do or feel anything you want in your life, right now. This has never occurred to you that reality might works "backwards" now, so the Dark Night of the Sould is nothing more than continuing your old way of looking for outside sources to cheer you up. Your entire relationship to reality has now shifted. Try it and keep an open mind. It sounds like you've got nothing to lose and everything to gain.

What a loving thing to say.

You can't zoom far enough out of your ego to see that this was a good thing, and had precisely the desired effect. Leo isn't here to hold your hand, he's here to call things out like they are and shake people up. Speaking from my own personal experience, you cannot grow in fundamental, meaningful ways without becoming conscious of the Devil within yourself. Yes it's a tough pill to swallow, yes, no one wants to hear it. But it is the Truth. If it is too much to handle, you are more than welcome to leave. I'm not saying this to be rude or as a threat, I'm simply saying this path may be too much for you to stomach at this time. There's nothing wrong with not being ready yet. I can see right through your attitude, because I have identified and worked through much the same in my own psyche. Take a deep breath, step back from yourself, and take a little journey with me if you'd like. "This is supposed to be a mature forum, soo." You are 21 years old, fairly new to spirituality, complaining about a private conversation you had with the forum owner, thereby involving dozens of other people's time and energy, and... you're trying to make a point about maturity? Think about that for a minute. Notice how you numbered your points, skipped #2 and made #3 say refer back to #1. Really fucking mature, bro. Your language is overflowing with immaturity and superiority. A part of you must be aware of it, but you are not ready to face it yet. I mean, I wouldn't either, cause that's a lot to face. It took me a while to come down to earth, and take it from me, of course you don't realize how hot headed you were until you come down. I will never be angry at you, and I'm not judging you. I'm just saying I completely understand, and I wish someone else other than my parents gave enough of a shit to start calling me out. Every. Single. Person. Is. The. Devil. Watch Leo's video on what is Devilry, he explains it clearly. Let's get this straight. You have taken the victim mentality this whole time. It seeps through everything you've said, from your unsure-ness, to your outward focus of complaining about everyone else but yourself, even saying "my perspective makes more sense so I'm sticking with that," appealing to an imaginary person's possible emotions/reactions to justify your stance, appeal to morality as an absolute, etc. You are living in concept and imagination, and this is of course how this all got started. The very reason why Leo called you a "devil" connects back to this, your inability to differentiate between experience and imagination. Every single person who grew up in society has the problem in spades, by default. Including me and including Leo. So are you going to try to understand yourself? Know thyself? Or are you going to keep playing the victim? I just answered all your questions of why you are full of bullshit (and this only scratches the surface), so it's your choice whether to grow from this or not. Contrary to what you may be thinking right now, it actually takes true Love to say what I just said. I don't even want you to respond. Just find the truth for yourself, and if you want to continue, start with "what is the devil" and "self deception" pts 1-3. If this is too much to handle, the most mature thing would be to take a long break from the forum. But please don't masquerade as a victim cause Leo called you a Devil. You're not fooling anyone.

You don't seem very humble. Someone humble about this wouldn't make this post to stir up drama. Lol. Follow his advice and watch the 3-part self-deception series. It really helped me grow to become conscious of my own devilry tricks. Leo calling you a Devil is not a judgment or damnation, it is a call for you to understand and accept your egoic instincts. We are all Devils! There is no difference between myself and a murderer. Understanding = overcoming. Why? For our benefit? No, because you are selfish and want attention.

The fungus is the SUBSTRATE, the ego or perspective through which data transfers from physical space to higher dimensions in this illusion of subject/object duality. Reality is the puppet glove, but you are denying the inherent order and codependence of this system (the Hand). This shit isn't merely "dreamed up" on a whim, or merely "cosmetic." See, you're pointing to a beautiful woman's face and saying, look, it's only cosmetics! Yes, the surface makeup is... But the cosmetic is molded to the Face of God, and that is something created by Intelligence over an infinite series of causation leading to the Big Bang. Everything is infused with this Intelligence equally, it's just that rocks don't have the "cosmetic" tools to express themselves. All this to say we're probably on the same page, just a difference in communication