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So I live in Portugal and went to India for 2 weeks in holiday with my college friend. We traveled north and south, and went to Sadhguru ashram! When waiting on the bus stop to Isha yoga center, a youngster approached us and we started chatting. In mid conversation, I said "I watch a guy on YouTube you probably don't know him". "Who?". "Leo Gura!". "Oh yeah I watched him too and his videos on how to pickup girls." ?? We took a selfie! It's crazy the people you meet along the way. I bet you can guess who is the Indian kid.

@whoareyou Yeah, I can see who is DEFINITELY not enlightened.

Interesting. I feel the totally opposite.

@whoareyou Meh. It's also true that the more you do work on yourself, the easier it is to spot falsehood. For example, there are a number of self-proclaimed gurus that I clearly know, I perceive, I see, that their energy is not right. I see their bullshit. And just from Youtube videos.

@Leo Gura But you can clearly see that Sadhguru has a much deeper enlightenment than Mooji.

Sadhguru is always bubbly But seriously now, how do you know then? My thumb of rule is always to look at their aura, and whether my intuition pulls me in our out.

I doubt his enlightenment because of the lack of embodiment. If bliss is not pouring out of his face, what good is this enlightenment thing anyways?

I've hugged Mooji and met him in Satsang multiple times 2 years ago. I think he's a wonderful dude. I don't believe he's enlightened. Yes, he seems to have some experience and wisdom. But if you want to get enlightened following his teachings, good luck. I don't believe he experiences Nirvana, Emptiness, Nothingness or Infinity. The core of the teaching is stay in your stillness prior to thought, but a LOT of spiritual talk is added on top. How you are the One, Inimaginable, Unfathomable. I spent lots of time reading this and thinking I was somehow advancing. More Sadhana showed me my delusions and how susceptible I was. I will read @Leo Gura books on cult-dynamics because it seems I'm young and very susceptible to getting brainwashed.

@Leo Gura I don't want to become a celibate monk. The point is I want intimacy in my life, but I'm somehow blocked to it. What tool should I employ here?

I've been listening to Leo and doing daily meditation for almost 3 years, and I gained a lot of benefit and consciousness from it. However, the last year has been very stale. I don't see any big improvements anymore, and I don't consider myself a happy person yet. I'm still unsatisfied with life and holding on to lots of garbage. I have been to a Vipassana Retreat but was asked to leave after a big emotional release in day-6. I've attended Inner Engineering by Sadhguru and now am doing daily Shambhavi Mahamudra initiated by him. One wall that has been most present in my life is the craving/aversion for intimacy. I was addicted to porn since I was 12, and have tried to quit in recent years but eventually got myself back into it. Now I'm on track again, but getting very depressed that nothing will eventually change. There's a lot of neediness still, so much that I almost bought a hooker for 150€/hour. And looking back, my life has just been a repetitive cycle of the same non-sense. I'm 19 and don't want to waste my life. There's a temptation to leave everything behind and go do strong spiritual work in Sadhguru's ashram. It seems I'm not able to do it by myself. I'm looking for honest advice. And no, this is has not been a 1-week ego-backlash. This feeling of repetitiveness and staleness has been here for a year. Thank you and I'm looking forward to hear your opinions.

@Charlotte I guess I've been judging myself from not attaining to my ideals.

@Jed Vassallo I've done 5-MeO once with a Shaman. Had an awakening experience. @Leo Gura I don't like to complain, but I must say that it has been extra-hard for me to get into intimate relationships. I tend to isolate myself from other people, and lose interest in friendships and socialization. At the same time, I crave for intimate and meaningful relationships. 3 years ago I started reading PUA and trying their techniques. I ended up with a few hookups but realized afterwards how artificial and false these relationships were. Now, when I start talking with some girl, the energy just wears off after some time and I lose interest and isolate myself. I've accepted this karma, and tried heavily to dissolve it with Sadhana. I am now trying Psychoanalysis. What am I not seeing? What am I missing?

@Shin You're right. I'm just bitching and moaning.

@Salvijus That sounds like a good idea. I will apply for it next year, after I finish my degree.

@Shin I recognize that I'm the seer, and I know that I'm not the thoughts nor these problems nor these body movements. But I want to consciously go further, but seems I've hit a brick wall. Maybe I'm attaching myself without even realizing, in that case I just need to let it go. I'm tired of reading books. The Power Of Now was the first book that I read 3 years ago and was a really good introduction.

Hah! You should have dettached yourself from the thought during meditation I use Insight Timer, it's the best I've found yet. I love it. Needs to be something really well designed and crafted for people to use. Best wishes.

Quick background of myself: Started following Actualized.org at 15/16, did the life purpose course and started meditating at 17. I'm now 19, taking Computer Science degree, trying to figure out this thing called life. When I was 17, I took a long pause from the frenetic toxic kind of life and started fixing myself, meditating, exercising, eating healthier, journaling and all those things. One thing I battled with constantly was my life purpose. As I was discovering myself, many things did not make sense anymore and the whole trajectory of my life was a big question mark. The only thing I was sure I was committed to was meditation. My spiritual experience with 5-Meo-DMT and slow disidentification from the body-mind made me very serious about meditation and it's very present today in my life. One thing I'm 100% clear is: I will pursue Reality, no matter the cost. After about 1.5 years of lots of reading, meditation, shamanic experiences and Mooji gatherings, I spontaneously stopped reading so much, talking so much, researching so much and mostly kept it to myself and did my meditation. Things are working nicely. Now a huge interest arose in keeping focus on something and devoting myself to it. It just feels very important for me, right now, to give myself totally to 1 thing. The clock is ticking, life is passing away is what I'm feeling nowadays. I keep a daily reminder on my calendar that "You're going to die", "Your life is limited". It beeps at 11:00am and 6:00pm. It gives me great motivation to stop doing stupid things and focus on the important things. But these daily reminders make me super conscious that I'm not focusing myself entirely on 1 thing. And that's what I want to do. Focus my energies on 1 thing. I don't know why, it just feels right. Right now, I know that I love programming, building and designing software. I also know that I love meditation and there will inevitably be one day that I'll be focusing on it 100%. The problem is my mind has hugeeeee resistance to starting and getting into projects. This resistance has been going on since I was 13 (started programming with 11). I remember that the issues I had when I was 13, 14 and 15 are the same issues I have today! Please help me, I'm sick of this. Here is how the story usually plays: OK, I want to program something, build something! OK, this will do. Oh but are you going to waste your time on this? But you know so little about this topic, you'll have to spend a whole 6 months to get really good at it. Too much resistance felt, cravings for porn and distraction arise. And another funny thing is, because my meditation has silenced my mind so much, whenever a thought appears, it's usually discarded and released. But I guess it's not silent enough to let the life purpose flow naturally. Which brings me to another point. Part of me wants to meditate more and more so as not to battle with this resistance and free the emotional barriers behind it (these battles don't seem to go anywhere anyways). I guess I'm very - or shall I say - my mind is very confused. I have tried the just do it approach, but at some point there's so many excuses and resistances, the motivation flows in the opposite direction. The thing, these excuses and resistances feel soooo valid and true. As a result, I can't seem to figure out a thing to focus myself on. To recap: Focused on meditation. Want life purpose to focus on too. Too much resistance to focus on one thing only. Fall back to meditation or distraction. Does anyone have any advice? Thank you.

I think I'm not fit yet, either emotionally or physically. And now, since I'm studying anyways, I might as well focus on the area of study.

Sadhguru man!

Purging is that part of the spiritual process where some of your baggage is being dealt with. In other terms, self purification is happening at an unpleasant rate or deep emotions are surfacing. After 2 years of meditation, following actualized.org, I realized there's tons and tons and tons of repressed material in the subconscious. When it comes to the surface, it's very unpleasant of course. This self purification is what's required to achieve higher levels of consciousness, but when dark stuff arises it can be hard to function in life. For example, I might be very unpleasant to my family or just not have the energy to be with them (sometimes when heart-stuff is arising, I feel like a stone). Purging stomach-stuff brings much anxiety which makes it impossible to do any productive work. And so on... I had my most intense purging after 1 year of meditation, followed by months of deep suffering and anxiety. Nowadays it's not as intense but it's still "a bummer." What do you do when purging happens? Have you had any deep deep purging? How's your work, family, friends and life affected? I wanna know the negative side and how you guys feel about it, because we've all heard about the "good" side of purification.

If you just get absorbed in the silence day after day, making the mind quieter and quieter, will it happen?

Get enlightened?

Namaste, I stumbled upon these two videos, they're amazing. What do you guys think about it?

Guys come on, these are not videos to teach you anything. They're just like cheesecake for someone who's on the path.

@cetus56 that is an excerpt from the first movie I listed.