Cliffardo

Anyone know if ManojTheYogi is any good ? https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfOHunyFr543chaczM-Si7A

Has Ryan Kurczak on youtube been mentioned ? anyone know if hes any good, no experience in this

Have a look at the stopdrinking reddit if you haven't as this is what helped me, also a bit of Leo. I stopped drinking, drugs and smoking on the same day. Back in august so not far off a year! Can't explain magnitude of the freedom you get when cutting an addiction I wouldn't recommend taking LSD if your involved in a party scene as it can just become a recreational endeavour, I stopped psychedelics for this reason. It might be okay it the correct surroundings however I would not recommend treating a substance addiction with another , I know LSD is essentially not addictive or unhealthy but I do believe it will keep you with a psychological need for some form of mind altering substance. The physiological battle of needing something will always be the issue, I think the only true phsycogiical escape is cutting it directly. Going to sound cliche, but the only thing that worked for me was to want to quit, truly want with every fibre of your body and in the depths of your mind. Stay strong.

So today I decided to try my first serious self enquiry session, I have always questioned myself and reality and have experimented psychedelics so have some experience with this journey. I however have not taken any in over 8 months so this is a totally sober insight I had an interesting insight and experience which started with me questioning whether I was moving my hand voluntarily or whether I was observing the movement of my hand, sort of like I had an awareness it was happening but essentially it was just happening withthout my control. Obviously it would seem that my thoughts were controlling the hand, I was then lead to to think that was I voluntary thinking these thoughts, or were these thoughts again essentially happening without my control and I was just awareness observing them. I then had an experiance felt like thought and movement of the body were the were one with each other sort of in a dance and that my awareness was separate from these, just observing. Almost like everything that I do is just happening by itself and I am an observer. This even seems apparent with thoughtless motion, like the movements just happen and I'm just aware that there happening. I had a crazy sense of happiness that my awareness (which seems to be what the "I" is with my current experiance) was just watching the show of life in all its spectacle, with my mind and body as parts within the show. Not really sure what this experience was or if anyone has had something simalar? Think I need to delve deeper into what this awareness is, or maybe I'm just my awareness observing that my mind (that I kind of still identify with) is thinking that it needs to delve deeper into awareness. Hope this made sense!