It's unlikely such people will give you the spiritual support you seek.
This is why, traditionally, shamans and yogis would go off on their own. They leave their friends and family to pursue the spiritual path seriously. Then they return back home with newfound wisdom and know how to handle the situation without needing anything from those people. And/or they make new friends who are on their level.
Being a shaman is not easy! Precisely because you have to go against the grain of society and you will not get emotional support from those closest to you. You must be independent-minded to be a shaman because others will think of you as a witch.
Become as self-sufficient as possible. That's a great way to grow. Later you can swing your pendulum back towards socializing and relationships.
But a shaman needs to be really comfortable being alone in the silence. The emotional support you seek will come from cultivating your connection with God.

This substance seems better suited for that goal. It tends to penetrate deeper than 5-MeO-DMT. 5-MeO-DMT it just a bit too fast, it tends to come and go. This new substance seems to rewire the brain more. Or at least I'm able to use my will/intention to tell it to rewire me. This requires more testing to see what could come of it. Seems like a promising tool so far. I can see this being a tool to purify a lot of baggage, thus leading to better embodiment in everyday life.
I see a lot of potential in it if used properly with the right intentions by an experience student of nonduality/spirituality.
Of course I don't know how well it works for other people. I just know it works great for me.

I said eyes open!
Open your eyes when you read
Look, I'm just giving you my way. Your way may not be my way. Do whatever you want.
The fact that you consider the world of form "a dualistic distraction" is precisely why I'm telling you to keep your eyes open. So your visual field can be recontextualized into Nothing.

Freebase plugs just fine, just as easy as HCl.
It does not burn at all.
Freebase is actually slightly more potent per same volume.
I highly recommend plugging freebase.
If you need help dissolving it, just add a few drops of ordinary household vinegar before adding water.
Freebase actually dissolves easier than oxalate.
Freebase is thus the best form of 5-MeO since it both vapes and plugs great.
Although maybe oxalate stores better. Not sure but my guess is that oxalate will store forever. That stuff looks invincible!

It is does not overload the body and it expands consciousness so much that you are actually able to heal your body through pure imagination. At least my initial trials suggest it can be used this way. How you would use it I cannot say.
It feels very healthy to me. No nasty side effects. I find it very pleasant and therapeutic. It doesn't have any hang over or exhaustion for me.
Of course if done the right way.
Misuse can surely happen and most people would freak out on this substance. It will turn your whole reality inside out. So this one is only for the most hardcore and experienced psychnauts and spiritual seekers.
If your mind is impure, you will be taking a trip straight to hell with this one. If your mind is pure, it will be a 2 hour trip straight to Nirvana.

I discovered a new psychedelic which is as powerful if not more powerful than 5-MeO-DMT.
It is: DPT
Here is my DPT Trip Report video: https://www.actualized.org/insights/dpt-the-other-god-molecule
This will be our go-to thread about DPT related questions, tips, techniques, etc.
As usual, no sourcing questions.
Here are some good reference links:
https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/DPT https://erowid.org/chemicals/dpt/ https://www.bluelight.org/xf/threads/dpt-subthread-dpt-dosage-methods-of-administration.399044/ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dipropyltryptamine https://www.reddit.com/r/researchchemicals/comments/8y7k3j/dpt_dipropyltryptamine/ Summary:
DPT is for highly experienced users only. It's very powerful DPT can produce horrific trips for some people, so be careful The best way of taking DPT is rectally DPT lasts 2.5hrs at least For me, rectal doses go like this:
Light: 20mg-30mg Medium: 30mg-40mg Heavy: 50mg+ I am very sensitive to all psychedelics so your doses may need to higher.

@Peo Sit down and don't have sex for 6 months. And suffer through the hell of not getting what you want.
There is no shortcut here. You're gonna have to suffer until that ego finally gives up and dies. The ego will not just give up its most important desires without massive struggle.
To achieve this you're basically talking about giving up your entire life. It's harder than suicide. Which is why virtually no body does it.
The solution is the very thing you've been avoiding your whole life: death.

Probably not consistently. That kind of level of bliss is probably not chemically sustainable for the brain. Which is why MDMA isn't sustainable even if you keep taking large doses of it.
But you can definitely make yourself feel amazing with enormous amounts of yogic practices, spiritual purification work, and multiple enlightenments. Once all that stacks up, you'll be on top of the world. Although not like raw pleasure and constantly being "up". It's more like tranquility, deep gratitude, and appreciation of the beauty of reality.
This is a huge trap. The problem is that people are chasing experiences and states. But enlightenment/Truth is outside of all experiences. And so in fact by chasing bliss, you will stiffle yourself. That motivation is largely rooted in delusion (Maya).
Liberation (which is what you ultimately want), is not a blissful spiritual state, but freedom from all experiences and all states. All states and all experiences must ultimately come to an end, and therefore must ultimately cause you suffering. So WATCH OUT! Don't get seduced by Maya too much.
A high quality emotional life will naturally stem from Liberation and continued spiritual purification work.

@lennart You're never gonna be naturally as high as MDMA makes you. That's sorta like expecting to be on a constant heroin high. Not gonna happen.
But doing years of Kriya yoga might best the closest thing, if you open your heart chakra and deeply awaken.

Love without consciousness of the Absolute will not work. Your ego will co-opt it.
Dismantle the self and love will result.
By shooting for love, you'll likely end up with ego.
The problem with shooting for love is that its easy to bullshit yourself into thinking you're being loving while deep down the ego is pissed off because it is unable to sustain true love.
It's the same problem as trying to be good/moral while still unenlightened. Religious people try that all the time and it doesn't work. They end up being more evil.
This is very counter-intuitive stuff. So watch out.
If you really care about love, forget about love and sit down and do what the Buddha did. Then you will have love.

1) I take an alcohol extract. Never tried tea, but hear it works well.
2) Same dose as eating them: 2g to 4g. 2g will be medium-low, 4g will be medium-strong. 4g will blow your reality to pieces. Start with 1g.
3) It's just obvious from your body's reaction. If it makes you nauseous, that's your body telling you you ate something toxic.

Classic yogi diets are highly recommended for clarity of mind. Which means:
No animal protein No dairy No sugar No onion, no garlic, no potatoes, no tomatoes, no hot peppers No wheat No boxed or processed foods No caffeine, no alcohol, no stimulants As much raw, uncooked food as possible As much organic as possible It's NOT an easy diet to maintain long-term in our society. You will be hungry a lot and it will cost you about double or triple what the SAD diet costs.
If you're gonna eat animal protein, fish is best, then pasture-raised eggs, and lastly pasture-raised meat.
The upside is that your clarity of mind will skyrocket! A lot energy is wasted on digesting the wrong foods.

@Wind I got my first sober enlightenment experience through Vipasanna.
The whole point of Vipasanna is enlightenment. It's like you're asking, "Can a hammer be used to hit a nail?"
The major limitation is that you spend 20 years practicing mindfulness but you never apply it to the root of matter: What are you? What is awareness? What is reality? What is existence itself?
The key to enlightenment is that you must apply mindfulness to your IDENTITY as a physical being (or whatever the fuck you believe you are). If you're not questioning your physicality, you're not hitting the nail on the head, you're just sitting around waiting for a hammer to accidentally fall out of the sky and hit that nail square. You might be waiting for a while there.

@MM1988 Alcohol is an unhealthy, consciousness-lowering substance and doesn't have any personal development value. Psychedelics are the opposite.
Reason they're illegal is because people are ignorant about what psychedelics are and what benefits they can provide. And because they lead to questioning of epistemic foundations, upon which all of society is predicated.
The fundamental problem is that no one who was responsible for outlawing psychedelics has ever personally experienced them, or done objective research into the scientific and clinical evidence.

Except you don't even control your body. You have no idea how you walk, for example, not to mention everything else your body does every second.
Go for a walk, and notice that you have no idea how you're able to make your body move. Not a clue!
Also notice that you have no idea how your mind generates or strings together thoughts.

@Wes Thoughts It's a good idea, but if you only have a few month's worth of savings, that won't be enough.
If cash is tight, you need to look for a spiritual community that provides food and lodgings in exchange for some work. Plenty of them around, including Zen monasteries, yogic ashrams, Hare Krishna's etc. But beware, when joining a community, they will indoctrinate you. You'll be dealing with a lot of dogma.
Choose your ashram very carefully. Don't get sucked into a cult.

Be careful not to confuse Love with certain ways of acting or even being.
True Love is so radical it does not care which way a person is being.
Any conditions you set on how love must be is not true love.
Unless you are able to see Hitler as an expression of Love, then you're still not getting it.
Love is not something you can do. You must reach an appropriate state of consciousness, at which point everything appears to you as love.
So any of your plans to be loving is not going to work. You must become enlightened first.
You cannot act or fake your way into true love.
If you seriously pursue enlightenment, the end result will be true love. Otherwise not. Survival is going to co-opt love for its purposes.

All of your knowledge is groundless, relative, and ultimately delusional.
You do not actually know what anything is.
Read what the ancient skeptics wrote. Read Outlines Of Pyrrhonism.

The epistemology and metaphysics of science is a very complex topic. There is no silver bullet against science. The devil is all in the details. Many books could and have be written about it.
The core problem is that science does not question its own foundations.
How do you know science is capable of accessing Absolute Truth? After all, this has never been demonstrated by science. And how would you demonstrate it anyway? By using science? Do you see how that begs the question? If science is incomplete or flawed then you cannot use science to validated science. You need a meta science. And a meta meta science, and so on to infinity.
Science actually has no foundation because reality is infinite.
The ancient Greek skeptics showed 2000 years ago why no human knowledge is possible. But the scientists ignored them. And they are in denial about it to this day.
You cannot convince a scientist that science is a dream. Because scientists hold science as a dogma. Like religious people. You will never convince a Muslim that his idea of Allah is a dream. Because his mind is not open to such a possibility. He is not interested in searching for Truth because he thinks he's already found it. 

Existentially we are all equal. But this is pickup/dating. Within the dating game you gotta build up confidence.
If you feel like you're inferior and less cool than others, the girl will smell it off you like stink off a squashed skunk.
You have to feel entitled to the girl. You will only be able to attract and maintain girls who you feel entitled to. As soon as you start to feel, "Oh man, I'd be so lucky to have this girl", you've already lost her.
Your attitude must be: "This girl would be lucky to sleep with me because I'm such an awesome person." And then make that true. Turn yourself into an awesome person. This isn't just about BS-ing yourself or her. Your confidence must be grounded in the fact that you truly love yourself and recognize your own awesomeness.
It all boils down to building a high self-esteem.
How could you not be awesome? You are God after all! LOL. So start acting like it.
P.S. And God is always alone

Maybe, if you meditate well and then carry your meditation into everyday life rather than just doing it on the cushion.

That's the beauty of it: you are free to do whatever you want.
It's called liberation for a reason.
There are no shoulds in life. All shoulds are relative.
But don't forget, all actions have consequences. So you are not free from the consequences of your choices.

There is nothing but direct experience, so you have no other other but to trust it.
Name one thing which isn't in your direct experience? You cannot.
The problem is how you are misinterpreting your experience with egoic distortions.

@Inder This issue goes deeper than you yet understand.
Of course ego also cares a lot about physical survival. Your physical, social, and psychological survival are all intertwined.
Intuition and even the higher self are often also part of survival.
Try to locate what isn't survival in your experience. Most things will be survival.

A few good options here:
1) "My friends are around here somewhere." [point into a large crowd], or "I'm waiting for them to show up" or "They just left. They were tired."
2) Just own it and admit you're out alone. "I was bored at home and I felt like going out, so here I am." or "That's how I roll girl. I'm not part of some gaggle of sheep."
3) Just ignore and change the conversation into something else, "You seem like the kind of girl who voted for Trump. Admit it! You voted for Trump, didn't you?!" or "Why are you being so racist?"
They lose interest because you don't own your aloneness. If you think it's weird, she will think its weird. If you think its totally normal to be out at a club alone, she won't care either. But you have to keep the conversation moving. Don't just say you're alone and then let it hang. You gotta immediately follow up with some other conversation topic as if her question was nothing at all.
In general what you're lacking here is confidence. A confident man does not let some random girl judge him or frame control him. You gotta feel that you are way cooler than her no matter how many sheepish friends are around her. Her sheep friends are all fools and so is she for herding up with them. Be the badass lone wolf. And treat everyone in the club as your friends. You can make instant friends with some random guys in the club.
When you are in the club you gotta walk around like you are the owner of the place. Exude that kind of confidence and comfort.