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Proceeding with psychadelics after a bad/dangerous trip
Proceeding with psychadelics after a bad/dangerous tripThey could, but it's a dicey affair. It all depends on exact circumstances and your personal preparedness.
I still think it's better than sitting on your couch all day watching YT videos.
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Consciousness in the 2020 debates
Consciousness in the 2020 debatesNotice how Marianne Williamson is ridiculed as a hippie New Ager by the mainstream press and pundits.
That's how people ahead of their time are treated by the mouth-breathing masses.
She is certainly not electable today. And why is that? Because the level of consciousness of the majority of voters is too low to appreciate the level she is speaking from. So it will take a few hundred years of social evolution before her ideas become accepted as obvious and mainstream. In the meantime, over 10 million people will have to die for that lesson to be learned.
And the biggest mindfuck of it all will be: once her ideas are accepted as totally obvious, no one in that future generation will believe that it could have been any other way. They will take it all for granted.
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i have this feeling that actualized.org should advance
i have this feeling that actualized.org should advanceIf it advances any faster it will burn up in the atmosphere.
You have to realize that this has been a very long-term project from the very beginning. Amazing stuff is coming. But you must stick around for years to see it all unfold.
Everything up to this point has been a warm up lap.
It will all make sense in retrospect.
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Why the hell do we talk about this?
Why the hell do we talk about this?I really don’t understand why or how we even talk about matters of consciousness, God, existence, etc. I get the importance of the matter but in the end, nobody gets it. Nobody understands. It threatens people. It seems to create more division get people’s panties in a twist. It creates debate.
Personally im really struggling to be authentic in my communication with others. How do I just ignore the stuff that I’m learning as a result of this work and simultaneously be honest and thus not have it effect people. I feel like this just creates more conflict and im tired of conflict.
This seems to be the tragic part of this work. You come out the forest with gold and it turns to ashes.
I can have some inspiring vision of raising the consciousness of mankind for example but what actually happens? Either a bunch of people just get deluded by the teachings, taking it totally for granted, nobody gets it, and you’re persecuted.
Keep in mind, I don’t want to paint myself as some innocent victim soul. I do acknowledge I don’t communicate this stuff the most skillfully. Communication skills aren’t my highest gift AT ALL.
I just feel like this begs the question though of why not just keep this to yourself? I’m starting to feel like the people who stay quiet are the real intelligent ones.
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My personal spiral dynamics rankings for enlightened beings
My personal spiral dynamics rankings for enlightened beingsYou're clearly an advanced practitioner. That is great. Which is why I am nudging you to go one step further. Do not stop until you have a direct consciousness of why Creation is happening.
See my next blog video where I will explain it. But as you know, no explanation can do these things justice. You must discover it for yourselves. All I can do is tell you that I've done it and that it is possible and highly worthwhile.
Keep questioning:
Why life?
Why life?
Why life?
What is the purpose?
What is the point?
Why is it like this?
Why creation?
Why is God doing this?
What is God up to?
Why life?
Why form?
Why humans?
Why animals?
Why evolution?
Why all of this?
What the fuck is it for?
Why life?!!!!
I must know! I will not stop until I know!
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Who's Interested In Conscious Politics?
Who's Interested In Conscious Politics?I don't find that to be true.
1) Research shows that conservatives are consistently more closedminded than liberals. Conservatives are generally not interested in exploring other POVs. Liberals are more open to that and more tolerant of other perspectives. Of course not always so. Many liberals also become dogmatic. And many liberals especially hate conservatives and therefore misunderstand them.
2) Spiral Dynamics research shows that conservatives are lower in their cognitive and moral development than liberals.
I agree that we need more mutual understanding of all perspectives. Which is why I spend a lot of time studying conservative perspectives. But conservatives almost never do that. When was the last time you saw a conservative reading a book on Marxism or Feminism? It's laughable. They would never do that.
It's not that conservatives merely disagree with socialism or post-modernism, for example. They fundamentally do not know what socialism or post-modernism is. Even highly educated conservatives like Jordan Peterson, who is a professor, do not have enough intellectual curiosity and objectivity to understand socialism or post-modernism. Liberalism correlates positively with higher education. Which is why conservatives like to ridicule and demonize universities and academia.
I agree that most leftists do not understand the right wing to their core. But the right wing understands leftism even worse. Just go watch Fox News to see the proof.
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Proceeding with psychadelics after a bad/dangerous trip
Proceeding with psychadelics after a bad/dangerous trip@SunnyNewDay 1g of mushrooms is the perfect starting dose. Nothing crazy should happen at such a dose.
Above 2g is where things start to get serious.
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3.7g Magic Mushroom Trip Report - Energy, Perception, Art | #13
3.7g Magic Mushroom Trip Report - Energy, Perception, Art | #13I’ve counted them all up: This was my 13th ride on the psychedelic ferry. And it was an insightful one to say the least.
If you want to skip straight to the trip, please feel free. However to those interested, I will provide some background.
The last 4 of my trips really go together. It all started in April when I decided to trip again after a half year off. This one trip changed my life. And it told me 2 things (besides many others) that are crucial:
Psychedlics are your path. Your path is the one of energy and purification. The subsequent trip was my first breakthrough to absolute infinity. And my last trip was a deeper insight into the mechanics of God and me becoming aware of the “One Eyeball seeing”.
If you’re interested you can read them here (I’ve labeled them for my own reference):
Creativity and Beauty | #10 Infinity | #11 The Pixel | #12
Now on to lucky number 13.
Man. Where to begin.
I will start off with the method of administration. I ground up the shrooms, put them in a tea bag and then followed @Nahm's Ginzing™ tea procedure. It worked like a charm and the peak was even longer than usual (felt like years but must have been a good solid hour of hanging around in the God Head).
My intentions where:
Who is aware of the “Pixel” (= God/the one eyeball seeing/that which within all dimensions and so on are contained)? What is the energy part of “Energy and Purification” (I figured out purification in #12). What is my role in this life time?
The Trip:
Like the last time I began a conversation with God after the come up. Again it asked me: “What do you want to learn?”. Again I stated my intentions. Again it showed me my impurities. Again I surrendered and admitted what I was suppressing (in this case feelings for a girl).
Then again the real trip began.
It started with my 3rd intention: “What is my role in this life time?” I also asked: “What is my medium or mode of creation?”.
God proceded to state: “Art”.
It was that simple. I tried to question it. I pondered it. But there was no fucking around. My life purpose is art.
My soul’s yearning is creation. I am half warrior, half artist. It even showed me that my body was made out of the two halves (left = artistic, right = warrior) with my heart being the one of a warrior. It also showed me how to use my left hand.
Following were visions of me living my purpose. I saw my designs and artworks on shirts and canvases. It also showed me sharing insights. It was beautiful.
And what was also remarkable: I always kinda knew that I was an artist. And a particular scene came to mind: In Germany if you finish your school you go for a last test where you have to pick 4 classes which count double and will be tested extensively.
I took art as my last one. And I got a B- for my sculpture. Years ago I could not belief why my teacher would do that as we were pretty close and the sculpture was good (imo lol). I then realized that this was his final teaching. I pretty much copied the sculpture I did in class months ago and with this grade he taught me to be original. He taught me I could do better than this. What a man.
It turns out there are two modes of creativity:
Copying something - Re-creation. Tapping into true imagination and God’s creativity - Creation. Don’t get me wrong, most art is copied and still great. However true creativity is something else entirely. That’s the art which moves mountains. Btw. I also revisited on of my first trips where encountered a Balrog in the realms of consciousness. Of course I don't know, but it seems that either the makers of the Lord of the Rings movies, or Tolkien himself has pounded some mushrooms.
After that, this part of the trip seemed finished and proceeded to go pee.
Once I returned I lied down and set my mind to the “Who is aware of the Pixel?” question.
However I was put off by some roof worker hammering on top of my flat.
Then something happended which still takes my breath away: There was a voice out of nowhere which said:
“You know you can stop the noise, right?”.
I was like: “What the fuck, how?”.
It answered: “Remember”.
The hammering stopped in that instance.
What. The. Fuck.
There is no “How”.
God just wills it.
I am remembering more and more how I built all of this. And how I engineered all of this so I forgot I did this. It is so ingenious. Holy fuck.
I looked at my hand. I wanted to change it. It changed into a claw of some sort. Almost like a pig foot. I wanted to make it green and alien. I realized that there was an invisible “lock” on that. I couldn’t do it. HOWEVER I also realized that this lock was imaginary. It was my limiting belief (forget the personal development mumbo jumbo). And if I surrendered this belief I could literally turn my hand into a tentacle. Holy fuck.
However now the real mindfuck commenced.
I asked: “Who is aware of God?” “How can God be aware of itself”?
The answer was: There is NOTHING to be aware of.
Perception is a lie.
Fuck.
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I really wanted to use less swear words to keep this report classy but man… what a mindfuck.
Later I also asked: What are all these thoughts in my head and what is the ego?
The answer: Thoughts come from the field of infinite potential (which is HERE and NOW). They are made out of the one “stuff” call it consciousness. And they are illusory. That means: They create separation. God uses thoughts so you perceive yourself as other so that God can look at itself. Then it made itself forget that it did that so that Trump doesn't turn all cats into chickens, or worse
And if theses thoughts recede you go back into oneness aka no separation. Holy fuck.
It really does nothing to read this in a book. You gotta experience it first hand. Mushrooms taught me that over and over: If you read, it’s heresay. If you gain insight from the hand to hand combat of existence, it’s wisdom. Books are still crucial but there is no comparison.
Then there was only one intention left: What is energy?
The answer: There is nothing which is not energy. There is only one “stuff”.
I really wanted to learn more, what the role of energy is for awakening, what the Kundalini is and so forth but I was to exhausted at this point.
I just stayed in the Godhead, setting my intent to heal existence and ask some more questions however the main part of the trip was over.
Only one more thing: If you think God is this serious, nihilistic “thing”... get that out of your head. God is playful and even humorous (yet also brutal in some sense that it uses evolution as its playground and paintbox). It played around in this trip. It joked at the beginning why I would not want to see some aliens (my intent was set on the above 3 things). And it also showed me how silly this notion is:
We are humans. Living on rock. This rock is inhabitable by accident. Somehow life poofs into existence which is of course proven by science. And this rock is the only one which has intelligent live on it.
Yeah, sure. Cool story bro.
There are no accidents. None.
Thank you.
P.S. I planned to trip monthly but this is getting pretty intense and exhausting. If one of you experienced psychonauts has some insight into picking your pace and so on, I would be grateful.
P.P.S. You might wonder, what these insights change in ones day to day life. Aren't they just some psychedelic "state"? Well no. What I can say with absolute certainty is that I've done 1-3 years of growing in the last 4 months. I am much more aware of the ego's trickery and I feel like I am becoming an embodiment of Love. I also feel much more joy on a daily basis. I respect every life form ten times more (e.g. if there is a pigeon or crow in my way, I step aside so I do not disturb it and I also watch my step avoiding to step on ants and so on).
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Finally Playing Devils Advocate
Finally Playing Devils Advocate@kieranperez The questions you're asking here are good ones. Keep asking them of yourself as you contemplate, meditate, and trip.
If your desire to understand consciousness is deep enough, eventually you should get the answers until everything becomes clear.
Remember that you are imagining the entire physical world with all of its rules and limitations. So if some physical scenario (like your camera example) works the way it works, it works that way precisely because you imagine it that way. But you're not aware yet of how you're doing it. Notice that your confusion rises because you imagine that it (the camera) should work some other way. You imagine that way and then super-impose it upon your yet deeper layer of imagination of the physical world. So the confusion arises because you're imaging things at various layers and getting tangled up in them.
You imagine there are other people and cameras who see things. Then you complain how come they don't see things as you see things. Because first and foremost you imagine they are separate from you. You gotta untangle the many layers of your own imaginings. Of course first and foremost you gotta realize that "you" and "imagination" are themselves entangled, confused, and imaginary notions.
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Finally Playing Devils Advocate
Finally Playing Devils AdvocateNOTE: I AM NOT SAYING LEO IS WRONG NOR FULL OF SHIT. I DO NOT KNOW. IF ITS NOT IN MY OWN EXPERIENCE I DO NOT KNOW. I HAVE NO STAKE OTHER THAN WANTING DIRECTLY EXPERIENCE WHAT IS ACTUALLY TRUE.
These questions aren’t directly geared towards @Leo Gura, however some are.
I also want to be clear that I do think miracles are totally possible. I think collective healing, levitating, the highest reported siddhis, etc. are definitely a thing. I treat them as separate from enlightenment as you can meet people who have some of these highest siddhis but I certainly wouldn’t call them more enlightened than anyone else. Liberation and enlightenment is a different ball game from altered states and “higher” experiences as far as I’m concerned. The latter is still all relative, however cosmic and “god-like” they seem.
The Video Camera Test:
This is more of a general question... why is it that when I take a Psychedelic and experience hallucinations that are as unreal and as much an illusion as anything else that exists (which is relative) that if I take out a video camera adhd record myself I don’t see what I saw? What does that say? After all, everything occurs in me subjectively, so why wouldn’t it be consistent?
Further, let’s say I was a schizophrenic and I had those imaginary people who “other ordinary people” would tell me isn’t real. However, idealism and relative dualism goes, that technically is real for me because I’m the source of everything that comes into my experiences. But if I take a video camera and film my imaginary friend, would I see him/her/it on the screen? If not, what does that reveal?
Leo “Tapping Into Collective Consciousness”:
Once again, I want to be clear - I’m not saying Leo is full of shit. I don’t know and I’m merely playing devils advocate since I ordinarily tend to agree with Leo 99% of the time.
Leo why is that if you tap into collective consciousness, I or most other people don’t notice anything?
If you perform something like this and it doesn’t yield any results at all, can you really still say that you actually did it? Assuming the case that it didn’t yield results (and hey, maybe it did), that’s like saying I closed my eyes and visualized talking to a girl doing pickup and fucked her “in the real world” (don’t get pedantic - you know what I mean) when really I was just sitting at home in my bed going through the notions in my mind’s eye and calling it the real thing.
Again, I don’t doubt the existence of such high end miracles. However, if we wanna know if someone can really heal someone, have that person perform the miracle and we’ll see the results. If we wanna see a yogi walk on water, we can go out and watch him walk on water (as we shit our pants). If we read someone’s mind successfully, we can report it. Not that far from science really.
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You cannot reach Heaven without touching the Earth first
You cannot reach Heaven without touching the Earth first@Guided Good work, but don't be drinking when doing pickup. Do it sober.
I did over 3000 approaches and never bought 1 alcoholic drink in my entire life.
Try to stay away from canned openers. Just push yourself to approach and improvise gibber-jabber. Try to plow through and maintain the girl's attention for as long as possible. Do not eject. You keep talking to her until she tells you to fuck off or leaves. Plowing is key. That will build your conversation skills. You will suck a first, but you will also quickly improve if you make the commit to never eject from a set.
Try to open to some sets and make them last for 30-60 minutes.
Don't make your conversations logical. They can literally be any random useless nonsensical stuff, like how much you hate Trump or how much you love pizza. Talk, talk, talk your mouth off. Allow yourself to let loose and be emotional and opinionated. You can also make up fantastical shit like: "I'm going to buy everyone in this bar a kangaroo. Help me pick out a name for my kangaroo."
Here's the key to night-game conversation: The words coming out of your mouth do not have to make any sense.
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I'm finally admitting that I suck at talking to women
I'm finally admitting that I suck at talking to womenYes, consciousness definitely helps ground you and be more detached and authentic. But it's also not a cure-all. Approaching is a very specific skillset which needs to be honed, just like golf or tennis. Consciousness helps with all skillsets but doesn't replace training the skillset.
I would not be immediately in state.
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I'm finally admitting that I suck at talking to women
I'm finally admitting that I suck at talking to womenLol, this isn't exactly a big secret. Basically all guys suck at talking with women unless they trained that skill.
You should approach even if you are not relaxed or "in state". Sure, you will blow up sets, but it doesn't matter because blowing up sets is what gets you to relax.
Never expect your first approach of the day to go smooth. The first few approaches are just warm ups. They almost always blow up. If you're approaching, you should be doing at least 10-20 approaches within a few hours. Once you blow the first 10, then you'll hit state and you will start acing the rest.
The key to learning game is to find a location where you can do 10-20 approaches within a few hours. Find an area with tons of girls so that you aren't worried about blowing sets up. Become an approach machine for a while and your skills will skyrocket.
I remember when I approached 750 girls in one month. That was a productive month! You'll be amazed at what opportunities materialize from 750 approaches. The most unlikeliest of things pan out with those numbers. If you approach 750 girls, one of them will just want to suck your dick for no reason at all, LOL. Most guys don't meet that many girls in their entire lifetime. You can do it in one month.
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Petition for Leo to smoke weed lol
Petition for Leo to smoke weed lolWeed definitely can raise consciousness. It's been used by yogis in India for this purpose for thousands of years.
Of course most people use it irresponsibly, just like they do with food, drink, sex, and pretty much everything else. Blame the user not the substance.
It takes great care to use substances for spiritual growth. It's not for kids and fools.
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Thanks to Leo' teachings, I might never gonna have sex again!
Thanks to Leo' teachings, I might never gonna have sex again!@Wasem You are acting out and misunderstanding my teachings because your basic needs have not been satisfied.
Go watch my video: Using Maslow's Hierarchy Of Needs To Self-Actualize
You have decades of development to do before you are ready to understand what God desires or what God is.
Forget about God, go handle your basic survival needs so you're not like a thirsty dog.
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Why do I get angry at some members posts?
Why do I get angry at some members posts?No, it's because your mind is actively denying that such people are yourself.
When you judge another human, you are separating them from yourself, which is fundamentally false.
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Gods intentions
Gods intentionsHe is an excellent teacher, but he is missing the most important and deepest aspect of awakening.
I used to think I was crazy to think so, now I know 100% that he does not understand existential Love.
Love and Truth are one. This realiziation is critical. It is the core of this work. Love is not merely a human emotion. Love is the entire reason for existence.
It's not just Ralston, I notice now that many Eastern spiritual schools do not properly understand or teach Love. Zen and Buddhism are guilty of this. Even Vedanta to some extent doesn't teach Love properly.
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Visuals for the first time with no psychedelics
Visuals for the first time with no psychedelicsIndeed
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Visuals for the first time with no psychedelics
Visuals for the first time with no psychedelicsIf you stare long enough at the carpet without blinking your eyes, you will see it start to melt and wave around.
You can also notice neon tips.
I mean sober. Usually sober people just overlook psychedelic effects in their visual field. It is filtered out as irrelevant to survival. But it's right there under the surface.
If I sit down and meditate for 10 minutes my carpet starts to wave.
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How Do You Distinguish Truth from Delusion when Tripping on Psychedelics?
How Do You Distinguish Truth from Delusion when Tripping on Psychedelics?This is false.
Insight goes beyond thought.
But also thought can carry truth, and must itself be a part of Truth, otherwise it could not exist.
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How Do You Distinguish Truth from Delusion when Tripping on Psychedelics?
How Do You Distinguish Truth from Delusion when Tripping on Psychedelics?Ultimately the only thing that's required to reach the truth is a genuine, unwavering desire to know the truth -- not your ideas of the truth or what is convenient and pleasant for you, but the actual truth, whatever it is, whatever the cost.
If you have that intention, then you will ultimately reach the truth. And anything shy of that will not take you to the deepest levels.
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Moving To Pure Not Knowing - The Reshaping of My Entire Perspective Epistemology
Moving To Pure Not Knowing - The Reshaping of My Entire Perspective EpistemologyInitial Note: I'm putting this in the Self-Actualization sub-forum because this isn't just related to enlightenment (of course it's not separate at all either).
This post piggyback's off of a few Actualized.org episodes that talk about what I'm going to talk about here and a few other sources I don't have time to go out and cite here - I also want to credit Peter Ralston who has been an amazing indirect (yet to go to one of his workshops) resource for me in emphasizing and moving towards deep Not-Knowing and really helping to direct experiential investigation into the nature of my assumptions, beliefs, perceptions, etc.:
How Authority Works Understanding Relativism Mankind Is The Bullshitting Animal What Is Actuality? All Criticism Is Untenable Understanding Default Positions Mechanics of Belief True vs False Skepticism Understanding How Paradigms Work Anyways... Onwards we go...
So I've been noticing a massive reorientation in my own experience as I've, indirectly, been having more and more assumptions start to melt away. This is not to say I realize what's actually true but am actually left with more and more openness and not knowing.
For example, the other week I was driving after a long 12-13 hour shift at this summer job I'm doing and suddenly I really got that I literally assume in my own experience that there is an "other". I'm pretty sure I had just finished listening to @Leo Gura in the car and I got that I actually assume there's a place called Las Vegas where there's a man named Leo that actually exists. Not as a theory or as "understanding" and that I can see how and make sense of all this. No. I realized I have been assuming that there are other people. That I have parents. That there are other places. I had to pull over because I was so mind-fucked. Again, I want to be honest and clear. I didn't have some realization in the nature of an "other" or existence or the Absolute nature of Existence. However, the assumption melted away. Then I realized as I was sitting there I "felt" in my own experience that I actually assume I exist. I closed my eyes felt my hand and really tried to feel it. I noticed as I closed my eyes that what arises were mental images of a hand being felt. I "penetrated deeper into my experience" and realized 'if I can go beyond these mental constructs... what am I actually left with?' It suddenly hit me just how much I conceptualize my entire reality through my own perceptions and that, despite it being a useful tool for functioning and trying to survive in the world (I'll get to that in a sec), I still assume it has any existence in it of itself Absolutely. Then I realized that I actually assume that I'm in a world... Safe to say this was quite a night.
Prior to this though I had an acid trip I a month and a half ago. In that very trip I had what I called "cosmic shadow work" done, not to sound so dramatic. I realized that all perspectives collapse into the One perspective, me. My own subjective experience. 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 99999th person perspective can only exist (as an illusion) so long as I cognize it - which is to say, I create it. I realized that day that anything that I perceive "out there" is being generated. To notice anything and have any sort of cognition on any occurrence has to be generated by me. I realized that anything I perceive when I listen to Leo, or I get outraged at "somebody else" for, I criticize non-dual keyboard warriors on the forum, any time I perceive any "other", all that I perceive in them is being created by me. I'm the source of it. In the relative domain, all there is at the end of the day is my own subjective experience.
I suddenly realized that everything I really want to know about life, myself, enlightenment, etc. at the end comes down to me. It became utterly clear how ridiculous it is to literally go up to an enlightened person and try and ask for answers to any of my questions. At the end of the day, no other can really help me. This is not to say that even though "other people" can't be of some guidance. However, at the end of the day, I am the one it comes down to as that's always been the case.
Despite this being very uncomfortably open ended, I find myself having a greater sense of trust in relation with my own direct experience. I find myself less lenient on the hearsay of others, including Leo. Questions are more open now as is my own experience, not that it's ever really been "closed". When I walk around and I'm feeling relaxed (quite rare) I feel this silence amidst any sort of noise. It's like the Truth is right here and I can really sense it - yet I can't sense it. Pardon the limits of language. That's the best way I can put it. I can feel Emptiness a lot in my day now and it's becoming like an ever more magnetic pull.
If you have any comments, tips, advice, or feel like leaving any productive (and I don't mean positive) feedback I would sure love it.
Note: I am NOT interested in non-dual keyboard warriors and whatever non-dual regurgitation may come as replies to this post. You know who you are. I am being honest in what I don't know and what I do know. Arrogant remarks of "this is just your ego" and "just love yourself" and "realize you're God" will be ignored.
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Authority and science
Authority and scienceScience's empirical observations are actually what make it useful and good. Where it goes wrong is in its interpretations of those experiences and especially in its big picture understanding of what it all means.
Science is much more than raw data collection. Raw data collection is fine. But science goes on to make models and theories, all of which are extremely limited. Data collection is also highly biased by one's survival agenda and metapnysical paradigm. You literally cannot see data which your paradigm tells you cannot exist.
Just because a thing is limited doesn't mean it is flat out wrong. It can still be useful. But at the same time it's also missing a lot of the big picture.
See my video: Understanding Recontextualization, where I address this point in detail.
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Question about How authority works
Question about How authority worksHuman "mistakes" are the result of the freedom God gave you. You are free to make mistakes so that you could learn and grow. Otherwise life wouldn't have any stakes.
If your life was perfect, it would be imperfect.
Imagine a video game where you push the button once and the game excutes itself flawlessly to victory. That would be the worst video game ever. You are missing the whole point of the game.
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Siddhis and Miracles
Siddhis and MiraclesThat's a self-defeating statement. The official paradigm is materialism, which denies the paranormal.
There are millions of cases of paranormal phenomena, but they are all denied by closed minds.
Science itself has statistically validated paranormal phenomena, but mainstream science and culture is in denial about it. Because according to official dogma, it cannot exist. Therefore it does not exist.
You might as well be in 14th century Europe saying: offically there is no evidence the Earth revolves around the sun.
It is the job of officials to enforce the status quo, not to reveal cutting edge truths. When you expect officials to provide you with cutting edge truths, that's where you go wrong.
Everything official is old news.