@GabeN Good!
But now reframe how you think of it. Rather than seeing this as "being all alone", see it as "I am in total union with all beings!!!"
When you are making passionate love to a woman/man, are you alone? Yes! Because you two are one. But that just makes it better! That is the whole point! Not aloneness but Unity.
YOU. ARE. UNITY!
Aloneness as an absolute includes within it all forms of togetherness.
What you must realize is that the pinacle of togetherness is aloneness.

The key to confidence is massive personal experience. You must sink 1000s of hours into those things you wish to be confident about.

The deepest trip I've ever had in my life came from plugging 4-AcO-DMT. It was so nondual that you wouldn't believe. I stopped being able to tell that I was human.
But of course that's because I've done many trips to build myself up to this point.

4-AcO-DMT plugs extremely well. That shit is intense. Some of the craziest tripping I've ever done.

Gold
Minus the L

@lukej Sorry to hear that.
You should know that cancer recovery rates can be significantly improved through proper daily visualization technique. This has been validated by clinical research.
So I highly recommened you learn it and start doing it daily.
PM me if you want some further instruction.
Godspeed.

The body is a hallucination, just like everything else.
There is no fundamental difference between your body and your thoughts -- if you are conscious enough.
The body is actually being willed into existence by Universal Mind. God's Will made manifest creates every cell in your body.
The body is made out of Infinite Consciousness.
But none of this will make a lick of sense unless you're in a nondual state of consciousness. So go do some psychedelics or Kriya yoga or whatever.

It's not nihilistic survival, it's DIVINE survival! Be careful not to disparage survival too much. Survival is all part of the Grand Design and Beauty of reality.
Paradoxically, when you give up lowercase M meaning, you gain uppercase Meaning, which is Being.

I'm silent on this forum and I'm only observing discussions for something about 4 years and this is my first post. I write because I have to share with you all this trip-raport and my insights, because of how this awakening was significant to me.  Recently I got my biggest awekening yet on 50mg of 4-HO-MIPT, which is legal in most countries in Europe. I've got my awekening experiences before on changa (smokable version of DMT), psilocibine, 2CB, holotrophic breathing and even marijuanna ( I'm highly psychoactive person and I use it for meditation purpose, maybe I will write about it later). Even thou my previous awekenings where profound, there where mostly about my place in the world and me as the the ultimate infinite being. This time it was all about the main property of God which I found is not love - it's clownery. 
    
GOAL, SET & SETTING, SUBSTANCE PROPERTIES
    My main goal of taking 4-HO-MIPT, which I used to take before, but mostly for social reason (its really fun and joyful substance on low doses 10-20 mg), was to check spiritual potential of this drug, which seems to me like a good tool for inner work, beacuse it's cheap and easily accessible in my country. I also wanted to experiance ultimate love and "INFINITE LOVE"  was my most focused thought when i was taking the substance. I take it orally, alone in closed room with closed and covered windows without music. It kicks in very fast - I got peak after 30 min, which lasts about 2-3 hours. The body load is terrible, it's the main downside of this drug - not comparable with any other psychodelic I used to take. The trip takes about 6-8 hours, and feeling is the same as on the psylocibine, but you don't fell that much connection with the nature or some high spirits like I used to feel on mushrooms. Since my last shamanic breathing retreat, which last week I start experience the presence of so-called mechanic elves on almost every spiritual activity, for some reasons it feel like some being and whole reality itself starts observing me on my spiritual work. Even when im writing this I have exact same feeling of some presence near me - hellow guys (I will write my current thoughst about this entities later).
TRIP 
    After it kick's in I could barerly move and had to close my eyes, because the visual where so intencive. I cannot even concentrate on my goal of this trip - experiencing the ultimate love. I start noticing tension in my spine and shoulders - it's hard to categorize this feeling, which I had when I'm excited and have burst of power to do something or when I should do something but cause of my neurotic procrastination I don't do - then the feeling is the same like on highly stress situation and sometimes I have even suicidal thoughst because of feeling of hopelessness. The feeling where terrible and I really wanted end this trip no matter of costs. At some point I started not feeling differance between my feelings, thougst and what I saw with eyes closed and open. Only things I saw when I got the clarity of vision where those badass big faces with eyes everywhere like on Alex Grey paintings. I heard multiple voices everywhere, laughs and what terrified me the most - the sound I remember from taking DMT, something like jumbojet starting in your head. The visuals from psylocibine organic something like living flesh structure type, which I had at the beginning of trip, transform to DMT type, which is for me like aztec/mayan multidimension art looking like million geometric mechanic snakes entwining my room. Then I feelt like this feeling in my back snapped, which was so fucking ecstatic I start rolling on my bed and from other person perspective it could looked like I was in great pain but it was such a great pleasure for me. After that I propably had something like few minutes blackout after, which I remebered seeing structure like blooming mechanic flower, and hearing the unspeakable story of god creating it self. And... dude, kill me pls  
   
CLIMAX & INSIGHT
    I heard the main reason of God creating reality -  it was like one of those silly jokes, which takes soooo loooooong to tell and point of it is so fucking stupid, you want to kill person who tell you this, for wasting your time. But in this case it's telling yourself as God joke soo long for billions of years, you forget the "funny" part of it, which is everything is not what it is and suddenly you catch the joke you was telling yourself. It's something like kids having fun of you by telling you that dog eat your last cookie, but you don't understand it and after few days you get they where making fun you, just for sake of laughing at you for beliving them. It's like you telling yourself longest and most unfunny joke ever, which is at the same time soo funny becouse of it's silliness. I was laughing continuously till the end of trip (4-6 hours). I still have moments of random laughter attack. I forget the essance of this joke, which is unspekable, which makes it even more funny, because you just can't say it and even if you try it's so hard to understand this joke. God is silly jester, which is telling himself the same joke, infinitly for eternity. And facture of universe is love, which is like the story in this joke. And that's a total shift in my perspective of spirituality. Reality is joke, enlighten one are the ones who get the joke, you no more fear death cause you want it, beacuse you again got pranked by yourself, and you feel soo silly and stupid after this (I remeber I was laughting so hard and yelling at me "Oh you the Oldest Prick! Kill me, I don't want too hear it again you infinitly dum dum! I won't be fooled again!... oh wait I will xD". And God is jester pranking it self infinitly ! What about this filling of presence of other entities - now for me it's like the God it self divide himself in non material beings, to guide and watch himself getting pranked and having laught of himself. In more materialistic type of thinking it could be mental/language/thought virus, which help's your brain understand why in higher conscious state, you see all as full of life and clownery (but these are only my loose thoughst). And that's all for me is even more radical perspective, then thinking that all is love - holocauste and war was for joke, jesus died on cross soo you can understand the joke, all spiritual work is about understanding and getting the joke. And you are the joke - you infinitly silly prankster
That's it. I'm comming back to work on my foolery, to ultimately get the joke. I hope to get to know other crazy properties of God soon

TIPS:
- Semen preservation: What differentiates yoga from meditation and self inquiry is that it works with prana. The more prana in your body the better for yoga (and general well-being) (therefore you can also try eating more postive-pranic food). When you ejaculate you lose prana. That would be why some yogis stress celibacy. But from my research: sex, masturbation and (whole-body-) orgasms are all fine as long as you don't ejaculate
- Sushumna Sodhana (lesson 23): The breathless state is probably quite  important if you want to get deeper. How to achieve the breathless state :"When prana gets interiorized in the sushumna, then the breathless state automatically occurs" - lesson 15 yogic wisdom. To me it seems that the sushumna sodhana is by far the best practise to do this. So perhaps consider adding it. 
-deepen the parvastha state: I accidentally found that out: 1. draw prana up and bring it to medulla( or region between medulla and bindu). You can also slightly clench the muscles there and additionally focus on the 3rd eye. 2. feel where you touch the ground. Now imagine that your body is pressing downward (you can actually press downward slightly if you want) while the ground pressing upward. At the same time try to feel/sense/be the space around you. 3. after some minutes/seconds relax. This reliably deepens my parvastha state up to 100%. I don't know whether this works for everyone, but I just somehow found myself doing it and found out that it is quite powerful for me
-breathe slowly: breathe as slowly as possible (while still comfortable). In case this lengthens your routine too much then rather decrease the number of breaths than the duration of breaths
- Mula bandha contractions: Prior to any practice, I usually do a few minutes of perinium and anus contractions (one contraction lasting about 2 seconds), while guiding the prana with the mind through the sushumna. I find this to be most effective in getting the prana up.
- Mula bandha while pranayama (the pranayama of the short books): This noticably increases the amount of prana that reaches the 3rd eye with each breath. I do it only during the first breaths such that I can then fully concentrate on the 3rd eye and exercise one-pointedness
-microcosmic orbit meditation: Doing this prior to yoga already opens the channels a bit, making the yoga techniques more effective as the prana can already move more easily 
-heart chakra: After your routine, you can try out bringing the prana to your anterior heart chakra too itensify your feeling love and surrenderedness.
-too much energy: If there is too much prana in your head or elswhere after yoga (or at anytime) then bring it to your stomache - the storage for prana
- presence: Take it as a challenge to stay present and focused as long as possible during yoga (or anytime) and have as few thoughts as possible. And don't daydream!
- only Now: when you want to end your session prematurely then just remember that there is only this Now, so you actually only have to do it this moment and no longer
- With joy: Doing it with joy and love instead of mechanically makes a big difference for me
- itches: love them uncoditionally and stay focused
- masturbate: If you can't feel energy/prana then you could try masturbating (without ejaculating) prior to your session. That should awaken some of the prana. But I don't know whether this is wise to do long term. Possible downsides: you get addicted, you waste time, you risk ejaculating, you risk getting blue balls (if you are male) and thus risk wet dreams, masturbating could be too gross, meaning that it could diminish some subtle effects of kriya yoga but idk
- Prior to your normal meditation or self-inquiry session, do one or a few rounds of yoni mudra and/or kriya supreme fire 
-Om: Chanting om ( pronounced:aum) aloud (every om as long as possible) (I do it between 1and 9 times) prior to any practice seems to immediately get me into a tiny parvastha state
- Wim hof method: Same effect as chanting om but stronger. Do first wim hof, then chant om and then meditate (perhaps once weekly)

@GreenWoods I once asked Sadhguru's teachers if it is necessary to stop masturbation for his yoga technique. They said no.
Just an interesting factoid.
Of course I agree that not masturbating should be more powerful. But also, don't torture yourself too much.

Haha, this is just a basic physics question.
The Earth shrinks every time you send objects into outer space. If you send a trillion pounds of books to outer space, the mass of the Earth will decrease by a trillion pounds. Eventually the Earth would become so small that it could no longer hold a tree or a rocket. But you'd be dead long before that happened.
Plants leech matter from the Earth. They don't get it out of thin air.

Every time you say the word me, I, my -- those words refer to nothing.
In other words, the human you was never born. It is imaginary.
The trick is figuring out what that means and how that could be.
Life is not being experienced by a "you".
Yeah, it's a mindfuck. But you are not reading this sentence, rather this sentence is reading itself, minus you.
Take the whole world and strip out all trace of you. That is what awakening is about.

Formlessness is not separate from form or human experience.
You need to go further and realize that form and formlessness are one.
This. Now. Here. Is. It.
It is all possible states and non-states alike. But from certain states it is easier to "see".

Self/other is a duality.
You are imagining all beings, including yourself. Living beings have no reality whatsoever. This includes you.
When this is realized, you will be totally alone in the universe. No one can help you, no one can tell you whether you've gone insane. No one can comfort you. Other than yourself.
At this point the notion of reality entirely collapses. You are no long able to distinguish what is real or unreal because there is no difference. Your entire life collapses into oblivion and you find yourself dead yet still somehow conscious.

It's a powerful kundalini activator for some people. The energy it activates can get stuck in various ways and lead to all sorts of spiritual emergencies. Not to mention that any kind of technique which rapidly builds up mindfulness and elevates consciousness can cause people to freak out. The ego-mind tends to resist such efforts in many different kinds of sneaky ways. It can trigger sleepless, anxiety, anger, restlessness, tension, cravings, visions, hallucinations, paranormal phenomena, etc.
You should read up on the dangers of activating kundalini before you start yoga. I have some books on my book list about it. You don't want to be caught unawares.
Basically all the stuff I talked about in my The Dark Side Of Meditation video, but even worse.
To be clear, it's not guaranteed that bad stuff will happen. It's just a possibility.
It also depends on how deep you go with it. If it takes you all the way to enlightenment you can certainly expect all the freakiness that comes with awakening, including the Dark Night of The Soul. Awakening is not all rainbows and daffodils. Some egos have serious freak outs.

Because society has built up a bureaucratic infrastructure through 10,000 years of bloodshed, rape, genocide, theft, torture, and other horrors that you cannot even being to imagine.
Thanks to that infrastructure (which we call government) you enjoy the life you do while being totally oblivious as to how all this works or where it came from.

Yes, all this is normal and great stuff.
Spiritual purification I call it. The body stores a lot of emotional baggage, fear, tension, ego, etc. You're gonna have to release all that shit to reach the highest levels of enlightenment.
The good news is, your next trip should take you much deeper into existential insight. The point of releasing personal baggage is to make yourself pure enough to realize the deepest existential insights.
Next time try contemplating a question like: What is Love? What is God? Why does reality exist? What is intelligence? What is perception? What is consciousness? What is evil? and so forth.
Once you purge all the energetic blocks, that's when the trips become really interesting. You can sit calmly and just contemplate.

Through lots of trail and error I have found this to be true.
It does not make sense to recommend self-inquiry to people who are stuck in monkey mind. They can spin their wheels for years without getting anywhere.
Mindfulness training or Kriya Yoga is great for calming that monkey mind.

Just be aware, taking medications to halt the spiritual purification process is like pressing the gas and the breaks in your car at the same time.
Ideally you let the process unfold naturally without trying to escape from it.
Yes, it can be very difficult at times. The more growth you try to accomplish is the least time, the more shocking it is to the system. So there's a trade-off here. You can spend a decade waking up or a week. If you do it in a week, it will probably be hell.
The most important thing to understand is that in the waking up process, serious emotional and energetic upheaval is quite common and normal. It is not a "bad" thing. Ideally you push through it. But if you feel like it's reaching a life-threatening level, then obviously find some way to back off and come back to it later.
Also be ware of ego backlash. It's coming.

@Meditationdude When you sit, what is your intention? What are you trying to understand or get?
Sits are usually not nearly as effective without a clear intention. It's very important to become clear about what you want out of this work. And there are many things you could be working on / developing / realizing.
If you want to just sit and done nothing, without any objective or goal. Fine. But then make that your intention and be clear about it: "I will just sit here like a cat and be in the present moment."
Sometimes that's effective.
Other times it's more effective to have some existential question you're working on, like "What am I?" or "What is reality?" or "What is Love?" or "What is Truth?", etc.
But understand this: there is way more to this work than merely sitting like a cat. Nothing wrong with sitting like a cat. But if you really want to understand reality, life, and self -- that won't be enough. You need to probe various aspects of life to crack its secrets.
Or you could be working on building concentration skill.

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Invaluable information if you're going to be playing around with research chemicals. Trip reports, dosage ideas, etc.
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Sounds to me like the 5-MeO opened you up and now you're going through a classic "spiritual emergency" as Stan Grof calls it.
This is a normal part of the waking up process. Of course it can feel hairy when you're in the thick of it.
You might want to read up on Stan Grof's work on "spiritual emergencies".  Most people don't get them, but plenty do as they get deeper into this work.
I would try to frame this as a positive. Clearly you were very sensitive and that trip unlocked something in you. The process is just happening so fast that you feel overwhelmed. Try to roll with it and become curious about what is happening to you, rather than trying to stop it or trying to go back to your old life.
The resistance and worry is largely what causes the suffering.
Remember, this work involves undergoing significant change. Have faith in the process. This should help you calm down and roll with the punches.
The 5-MeO is long out of your system. This is simply you starting to wake up. The ego mind can resist the process in all sorts of creative and dysfunctional ways.

@nowimhere If you have not yet reached a breakthrough at 27mg, then obviously 30mg is physically safe. Of course I have no idea how you will handle it psychologically.
Seems like you're fairly tolerant to it, so even up to 40mg might be required. But go slow.
With 5-MeO-DMT there are actually several levels of breakthrough. The first breakthrough is just the beginning (child's play really).
I might get a breakthrough at 20mg but then a crazy new kind of breakthrough at 30mg.
Sounds like you're still far off from that.
Yes, freebase seems more potent per volume.