Mostly existential issues such as the sense of going insane or losing one's mind.
That is especially problematic until you realize that there is no material reality and that everything is Infinite Imagination.
And a few times the trips just felt "off" for some unknown reason. Like they had a bad, negative body vibe to them. I'm not sure why. Maybe it was interference from certain medication I was taking or just something in my mind going sideways.
And sometimes if the dose is too strong, material reality melts so much that it can become scary in itself.
In total I've had maybe 6 "bad trips" out of 80+
One I attribute to early arrogance and too high a dose (with mushrooms), which led to sense of going insane One I attribute to interaction with a medication I was taking (with LSD) One I attribute to eating some food right before the trip (with 5-MeO-DMT) One I attribute to simply very deep existential insight which creates such deep mindfuckery it becomes uncomfortable (with 4-AcO-DMT, although I don't really consider this a bad trip) One I attribute to a panic attack reaction upon first time taking 5-MeO-DMT, fearing it might be terrible One I attribute to taking a new research chemical which had an awful body load Some other trips were uncomfortable or shocking, but I wouldn't call them bad.
And in the big picture, all of them were necessary and perfect for my growth. Especially my worst trips.
If you get a bad trip, that's God trying to teach you a lesson. You only have to figure out what the lesson is and obey it next time. Then the punishment stops. For example, you dose too high because you are cocky and aren't patient enough to ramp up doses, God punishes you. You learn your lesson and never do that again. Everything goes smoothly.
If I dosed less carefully I would have a lot more bad trips. Moderate dosing is crucial.

Your craving for sex isn't transcended simply by withholding from sex.
Denial of your sex drive only doubles your problem by adding on an additional layer of guilt and self-hatred.
The sex drive is not an addiction in the same way smoking is. The sex drive is still there even if you stop. It's more similar to hunger. It's also not unhealthy, like hunger, unless you take it overboard. The sperm your body generates is going to leave your body regardless, so you certainly aren't "saving it".

Good!
What's even more of a mindfuck is when you realize that anyone who has authority was given it to them by only one person: you!

Hehehe....
That's the whole trick. Money is survival. Business is survival. If it wasn't for that, LP would be easy and everyone would be doing it.
The whole trick to following your dreams is that you also have to be extremely pragmatic about it. You can't just dream shit up, you have to make it fly in the real world given all the limitations and restrictions of the real world. In other words, if you want you dreams to be actualized, you need to find a path for their survival on the material plane, otherwise they will remain merely ideas floating around in your mind. The hard part of life is creating a material thing which can sustain itself and yet still not be so evil as the destroy everything in its path.
To actualized your dreams is not much different than creating a baby, expect it's harder because now God doesn't do it automatically for you. Now you have to engineer it yourself and you must make sure it can survive. Now you are consciously playing God. What kind of God will you be? What kind of monstrosity will you create?

There are ways to work behind the scenes, but if you're going to contribute to the world in a meaningful way then naturally people will come to hear of you and your work.
Don't think of it as pursuing fame. That's silliness. Rather, you're just executing your vision for the world and whoever hears about it will hear it about, it shouldn't bother you. And probably you want your work to touch many people, otherwise what's the point?

Dalai Lama spent his whole life fighting for Tebatan nationalism.
Given the era he was born in, you'd expect him to have nationalistic tendencies. And of course he is a cultural icon of Tibet. He embraces his culture.
Enlightenment does not free the mind of its cultural programming and biases.
More broadly speaking, transcending culture does not mean all cultures disappear and you cannot tell the difference between Japan and Mexico or Brazil and Italy. You just stop creating an identity out of any one particular culture.
I can acknowledge American culture, for example, without attaching myself to "being an American". I am not an American because I am the whole Universe. So are you.

1 - When  Samadhi state is achieved, and your concentration is Total on a particular object, does it feels like "your" existence cease to exist as a body, like your whole body never existed? (and also, that the whole reality seems like a movie screen without any particular participant involved)
2 - Does the Awareness is experiencing my body exactly the same way that is experiencing a chair? And I know that there is this thing called democracy between objects and the body, so the body are on the same importance for awareness such as a chair I suppose.
3 - I remember in one of Leo's videos, he mentioning that Humans are puppets of the universe, what does that exactly mean? Does that mean that Humans are some kind of Awareness toys to play around in the material world, but both objects and humans are mere illusions?
 
Maybe none of this makes sense and I'm playing around with self deception, but I is important to me to share it, it will help me to evolve.
enjoy your friday*
 

@7thLetter You're not realizing the power of these subatances. Whatever your mind focuses on will become actualized, since that is the mechanism by which God creates the world.
If you do not use your mind properly, you will get nightmares come to life. If you don't want nightmares, think pure thoughts. If you cannot help but think impure thoughts that is because you have not done sufficient growth, development, and spiritual purification work.
Impure mind comes from bad karma.

@AwakenedSoul444 You are overthinking things. There is no solution to this issue other than to just approach anyway, despite the fear and excuses.
The anxiety goes away AFTER you make a few approaches. Not before.
Push yourself to approach even if you have 10 good excuses for why you shouldn't. That is the key. Just don't listen to your mind at this moment. If you start arguing with yourself about whether you should approach, you've already failed. You need to literally just start moving your legs towards the girl. The mind may protest but the legs can walk.
The crucial mistake is thinking you should have something good to say upon approach. Don't prepare anything to say. Just approach and be as genuine about it as possible. Do not try to prepare a good line or opener. Just approach with a smile and good eye contact. The words need to come to you authentically after the open. Trying to pre-script it is a big mistake.

@Hardkill Your mistake it trying to make friends through online cold-calling. Friends are not made that way. Go out into the real world and put your balls on the line.
You are basically spamming people to be your friend, which looks really weak, so of course they don't respond back.
You should not be using online for building connection/attraction. The proper use of text messages and the like is to facilitate real-life meetings which you've already had in the past and want more of in the future. They are not to be used as a substitute for face-to-face.

"Within me", "out there", and "another person" are thoughts.
You cannot use thought to grasp thought any more than you can use a knife to cut itself.
Sit in silence and observe thoughts arising.

Don't confuse oral doses vs plugged doses.
DPT is much weaker orally.

Notice how this issue involves a struggle to draw a boundary/duality between: alive vs not-alive, conscious vs not-conscious, autonomous vs not-autonomous, part of the mother vs not part of the mother, fully human vs biomass, human vs fly, right vs wrong, moral vs immoral, etc.
The mind wants to ground reality in such boundaries, but all such boundaries are untenable because reality is ONE. Which is why you struggle and struggle to draw those boundaries but will always fail. And why people disagree so much about where the boundaries lie.
There is no point at which a baby is conscious or alive or autonomous or human. There is no point at which a baby is separate from a pine tree. Getting that takes you meta. Learning this lesson is one of the most important things Actualized.org has to teach you. Stop falling into the trap of objectifying dualistic distinctions. If you manage to do that, your mind will be set radically free and peace can come to the world.
Or, continue fighting over imagined dualities.

Surrounding observers are part of your imagination.
If you put on sunglasses the world doesn't tint for everyone else.
Consciousness compartmentalizes itself, otherwise things would become a shitshow. How silly would it be if my putting on sunglasses tinted your world? That would spoil the illusion of objective reality. We could code a video game to work that way, but why?
You have to carefully think through the consequences of your imagined scenarios. Life has a very intelligent design. It is not some willy-nilly stuff that some idiot threw together. It is a design of utmost genius that allows for rich experiences like that of humans. This requires some serious design constraints.
The flaw in your thinking is not taking into account that your are currently putting enormous energy into imagining exactly your current reality. To enter a new reality you'd have to stop imaging this one.
If you fully imagined a new reality nothing would be left of the current one. That would basically be a totally new life. And then you would still ask, "But why can't I be in some 3rd reality?" You can! But then you lose the 2nd one. You can't be in two realities at once. You have to pick one, which means excluding all others.

You got your causality backwards.
That's what low consciousness egos do.
Narcissist != psychopath
Stage Red is not psychopathy. It just appears that way to higher stage people who lack the nuanced understanding of these complex issues.
It's all too easy to call dictators and strong-men psychopaths or "crazy" because the mind is looking for a way to dismiss them as so "other" as to be incomprehensible. But that's not the case. Stage Red explains Trump's actions quite well. Study Stage Red more.

When we inquire into the existential nature of a thing -- like in this case the notion of reproduction -- we do not limit ourselves by survival concerns. Rather, we go for what is true.
What is reproduction? That is the question. Do not corrupt this question with egoic fears.
If it is true that reproduction is an illusion, then that is what's true! Even if it means the whole human race will die out as a result of knowing it.
And of course it doesn't have to mean that at all. Good luck getting 7 billion people to stop fucking. Even the intelligent ones. Even the enlightened ones still manage to fuck like rabbits.

Nothing less will work.
So long as you are attached to needing to survive, you are enslaved to falsehood and all your actions will be corrupted by devilry.
This is what is really means to sell your soul to the devil. Your birth was the selling of your soul. Now you are in a struggle to get your soul back.
You sold your soul the day you said, "I am a human."
How does a devil scrub himself of himself?

To die!
Hehehe...
You are never going to think your way out of the illusion of death. You must experience what is on the other side of death.

A deeply religious man who spent his whole life studying the Bible hears a knock on his door.
He asks, "Who is it?"
"It's God. Open up. I have come to show you the way."
"Oh wow! This is amazing! But please come back next week, I'm really busy right now reading about you in this Bible."

Of course! How else could it be?
This is the fundamental nature of knowledge/science.
You're damned if you do but you're even more damned if you don't.
Hold ideas loosely, is the key.

Because the alternative is often worse.
Commitment just means you're not a selfish child who runs away at the first sign of trouble or something better on the horizon.
It's not different than commitment to a business plan or showing up on time to a meeting. It's hard to create anything worthwhile in life without a commitment. Try executing any major project without a serious commitment. See how far you get.
You couldn't even keep a hamster without a commitment.

1) The story it tells
2) How it shows up in your consciousness, its being
If you had a thought in a foreign language which you did not understand the sounds would register in your consciousness (that's the actuality or being of a thought) but it would have no meaning/content/story.
速い茶色のキツネが怠zyな犬を飛び越えた
That sentence has being for you but no meaning (unless you know Japanese).
Notice that being is what's primary while meaning is secondary. You can have being without meaning but you cannot have meaning without being.

No reading on retreat!
The point of a retreat is to break your attachment to symbolic reality.

Jerking off into napkin is killing a billion lives.
Having a period is killing a life.
Surviving an infection is killing millions of microscopic lives.
See the arbitrariness and self-bias of how your ego-mind draws its boundaries.
Pro-lifers are stuck because they refuse to admit the relativity of morality. And nothing you say will change their mind because they are not interested in seeking truth, they are interested in defending their beliefs.
What people don't want to admit is that all evil is imaginary and invented by the ego for the purpose of its survival. Evil is falsehood.

No, men are not being oppressed. The ego just perceives equalizing as oppression because a self-biased mind doesn't see a difference.
If you owned slaves 200 years ago your ego-mind would perceive abolition as unfair and oppressive. Because it is from the POV of a slave owner. The slave owner feels fully entitled to own slaves. To take way his slaves would appear to him as robbery or debasement of the natural order.
Equality is a radical thing. It means the ego has to surrender what it has taken for granted as its own.
It is a projection of a low consciousness mind that if it gives up domination it will be dominated by those who complained about being dominated by it. The key is to realize that those you dominated may not be interested in dominating you back, they just want a non-dominating dynamic on all sides.